it may haveprobably  grated on him a long long time 

                                                      but for whaever reason call it an epiphany  call it a latent miserable longlanguishing epiphany                                                                      

   service bugged him 

                         whenever he heard somone speak of service  it really bugged him 

the speakers didnt speak of their service 

rather

       others service as they saw it

probably  as he thought about it related to the fact tha there had been so few people adults teachersno coaches who inspired influenced him 

                           like compassion  to be an influence   hardwon  

was tha stubbornness 

                          stubbornness 

he was hard to convince

he insisted he had his own mind 

he was not pliable

not flexible 

             not plastic

HA stub  born 

                tough to snap or break a stub

   service

his epiphany like cold viscous dishwater 

                                         he finally equated service  to serve   to servant 

he could never he didnt use it often be a servant

he didnt play nice when part of a team

saw tha coming since he was a little boy

if forced onto a team he made damn sureimpressed it upon teamleaders his parcel contribution was best forged singular by himself

             completed  he gave it away

Just leave me the fuck alone 

if the team failed

he did not

his work was not the weak link ever he didnt use tha often

   it was really unfortunate he had to use an epiphany they arent handed out like Chicklets to equate service serve servant 

          Oh well oh wellOH  WELL

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