20.11.23


Richard Slotkins Regeneration Through Violence
                                                     a heady title not a book he could have through his library
unfortunately books he wanted to read were becoming increasingly rare an more so with the advent of ebooks audiobooks others  rather than physical texts
                                                  he was a physical text
not a sleeve to be emptieddeposited  refilled

said of the book “. . . persuasive and eloquent arguments made for including and remembering, rather than for merely giving focus to or encoding crucial historical experience . . .”
                                                                 American mythology  which many take as gospel truth  it aint            

Slotkin utilised an epigraph from D. H. Lawrence his Studies of Classic American Literature tha is an ebook through his library SURPRISE

“But you have there the myth of the essential white America. All the other stuff, the love, the democracy, the floundering into lust, is a sort of by-play. The essential American soul is hard, isolate, stoic, and a killer. not to be celebrated if one is an American  It has never melted.”
                                    American mythology

the reason of this preamble is to understand how he got to Joseph Conrads quote which chilled him “death illuminated by unresponsive eyes”

from John Scalzis Old Man’s War:

“And there’s just one of me again.

The other me. I can tell because I’m no longer staring at the new me anymore, I’m looking at the old me.

And it stares at me likes it knows something truly strange has just happened.

And then the stare seems to say ‘ I’m no longer needed.

And then it closes its eyes.”
                               in the Old Mans case transference rather than death however the lonely uninhabited body shell has died  expired  is meat
                                          whahave you

“unresponsive eyes” got him

tossed him to the grim lions inside himself for the unresponsive eyes hes beheld

he might not be – though unlikely – not be as twisted if the eyes were those of strangers rather than people he loved


sometimes
              he just had to say it outloud
set it down
be unburdened

   it will still be there to carry after he composed himself  rested

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