5.1.21

 
Farther
           he knew that his father and family listened to him haphazardlylazily ears lax scarce attention he tried very hard to diminish his feelings that there was nothing worse than trying to say somethingtrelate something as heads nodded but his words unheard
                                  so he played games to amuse himself understanding that they werent listening

                                                                                                                      Farther
they did hearhowever each other
                                    which was an affirmationacknowledgement of a frequency he didnt share with them or could seem to speak 

admittedly it wasnt improbable
                                 if one doesnt know Morse Code the dots and dashes meant shit to them

theres a difference between ears queued to monosyllables less work was demanded  and the monosyllabic Dah dah dahdah like dots and dashes served their Cretan attention and necessity

he speared them with multisyllables 

he wasnt going to diminish his vocabulary because he shouldnt  

simply put they didnt speak the same language 

their neurons didnt fire alike
                               why he was thick to thatcouldnt seem to relate continued to be beyond him

it was afterall  the same  fuckin   language 


their faces pinched eyes squinted 
                                   No?
No. 


he said Farther

they heard Father 


it wasnt fun

it upset him

 

it was upsetting to have to accept things he wasnt able to change 
                                                                     but he wasnt stupid

0110,  Sunday,  3  1. 21
1616,  Sunday,  3  1. 21

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