it had been an outdoor terra cotta paver patio 

the last home owners coopted it and incorporated into the house

they did it poorly

                   or they hired someone who did it poorly

few electrical boxesoutlets sketchy overhead canned lights set on dimmers that maybe worked or didnt

lousy insulationlousy glazer illfitting broad doubledoor way which bled energy when hot air was run during winter or airconditioning during hot summers

                                       if a parasite could be a room itd be this spacethis sunroom

however it wormed its way into their livestheir hearts

his daughter and soninlaw seldom utilised it like a scab they didnt want to pick so not to scar

it was an empty room save for the far end that abutted a common wall with their office it was a wall of shelves and held their accumulated library photograph albums and Blu-rays before they opted for Cloud or iCloud

he wasnt a fan of electronics and its thievery

the sunroom was ten feet deepeighteen wide

he told them itd be great for a ninefoot tournament pocket billiard tablehe was ticklingtempting their memories of pool halls and bars they played in before they married

                                                     he thoughthe wasnt sure if he heard it in his daughters voice his soninlaws or their voices commingled When I was a child yadayadayada I put away childish things Fuuck you Yaplay computer gamesya create avatars Dont talk to me about putting away childish things

                                                                                           he hustled pool he made a lot of money he had scars on his head from his scalp split by cues in the hands of bad losers

                                                                                             which was better than a knife in the guts

Nevertheless he said the room has character Eventually it will present its purpose

when his daughter became ill – fuckin genetic monster ALS – her bedroomshe and her husbands bedroom wasnt conducive for her care

she needed a hospital bed

they had Hospice place the bed in the sunroom

it amused themthey laughed finally the room had a purpose

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her husband her sister and he tended her

she struggled for three months

she taught them

she died

the sunrooms empty again

not truly

it holds a void that cant be filled

not ever

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Phoebe Bridgers  You Missed My Heart  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pK1cwjGw74s