his mother reneged on her promise

she welched on it

he put her up to itin a tight spot when he criedwhen he made her promise

he was four or five

                     more likely four he didnt thinkdidnt remember he was in school yet

she shouldnt have promised

                               even if her promise quieted him as she held himconsoled him in her lap at the big oak kitchen table  wiped the tears from his eyes with the warm perfumed handkerchief his grandmother handed her that she kept at her bosom inside her dressing gown

she shouldnt have promised

four years old frightened startled from his sleep that his parents would die and leave him alone

he didnt think about it he never should have eliciteddemanded extracted her promise promising for her and his father

she died March 11

but he couldnt mourn her

he was mourning his daughter who died February 27

he was still mourning his daughter 

                                     knowing full well when he shut one door immediately the other would open

Now he wished he didnt make her promise

1223,  Moanday,  31  8. 20

Joe Henderson  Y Ya La Quiero  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8FvyANqV80g