finally not without some impatiencehe was out of practise he finally could turn the remaining card after the gymnasticsshuffling he was instructed to perform with the deck to empty his mind thats never gonna happenwasnt a dump truck with enough capacity to tackle the twistyturning that roiled his mind to still the water in a bowl being jostled  reflective calm

the deck was a kind of Medicine Card deck animal spirits  all one-in-the-same to him to divine

he had to admit it was less messyless brutal than reading animals guts or throwing bones

                                                                                                actual bones  not dice

he was good with dicespooky with them but not dem bones

his daughter was gifted the animal spirit cards and she recommended them to him  she would  she always tried to inspire a spirituality in him that she insisted was holding him back from being the splendid person he could be could attain complete   be fulfilled

she had that connexionthat essence down pat

she was exquisite

people she interacted with truly treated her with awe and reverence

                                                                       he treated her like his daughterhis little girl all-grown-up

                                                                                             Aw babe you know your old man As I told your mother Youre gonna hafta bear the intuition loadhavin the gutfeelings Im not prone  A mans got to know his limitations Yareally wanna beat me up with spirit animal cards

she insisted

              Dad, you always sell yourself short.

I wouldnt if I was taller

he didnt dent or crack her veneer

Dad. Seriously.

It aint sellin myself short baby I know me and me is all about action movement I aint one to sit in one place long enough to receive counsel let alone seek it Hard to hit a moving target The only feelings of intuition or gut I have is a common phenomenon called peristalsis that for gas that for a bowel movement Thats the extent of my magical understandings coursing through the ether

                             Rather nada no deal  no dice

he drove from LA to Sedona

he found one of the five advertised vortexes

he shuffled her animal spirit cards like she instructed him

he concentrated so hard it made his head hurt

he spread what must have been his soul all over the cards

                                                             passed the cards between his handsfingered them drew three that seemed to tingle felt up the three the first whatever he felt was gone he discarded it the second felt scabby the third something but not as scabby as the second  he discarded it too

he turned the lone card  Bat

                               handsome artistically rendered apparently it had just leapt into midair from lushgreen jungle foliage  appetising

its element is Air

the recitation from the decks accompanying book

                                                    The bat is a master of subtle senses, of underlying forces that cause some things to prosper and others to fade. The bat card shows up to signify the ending of a chapter – he wasnt fond of chapter books – the closing of a door.

No more lingering in the past.

When in balance: Accepts, adapts, adjusts.

When out of balance: Refuses to let go, reminisces.

To bring into balance: Watch the sunrise.

Really he asked  Accepts  Adapts  Adjusts

                                                         Really

the only reason he had the cards was because his daughter died

Pushy  fucking  card

1248,  Twosday,  17  3. 20

1113,  Twosday,  8  9. 20

Santana  Black Magic Woman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_SOAdAxFfo