13.7.20



he saw her from behindChrist he could have done without seeing her at all he hoped she was pregnant she waddled like a duck 

he had walked like that once but that couldnt be her reason she was wearing a sundress he shit in his pants
                                                                                                                    then it occurred to him he wasnt going to find out if that was her natural gait he wasnt going to catch her she was up a block and going around a corner obscured by an unclipped hedge 
                                                             GONE
shit out of luck
                and more than a bit surprised that he was irked he wouldnt know why was that important or rather why did her walk rankle him he hadnt like her sundress



unworthiness passed down through your lineage
                                                    the unworthiness in your cellular memory
We will talk again with the silent ones . . 
                                            a podcast he overheard

. . take conscious control of every moment of your life . .

. . the unconscious energy of your past random experiences . . 
                                                                         what a crock of shit

Do you really subscribebuy into this babe


I . . think . interior work is good . introspection.

Ill grant ya that but talk again with the silent ones

I think that is more a matter of centering one’s self, rather than talking, with the silent ones.

Lotsa thinkin coming out of your mouth which Im grateful to hear rather than  believing

No. I . I believe.

If you believe  you shouldnt say think

I say think to . . to . placate . you.

Me You dont have to placate mehave you ever known me to placate anyone

No . .
. . Damn right
               Your belief system is yours Have I ever stepped on yoursinsisted  insisted  I dont believe I have

You haven’t.

Thank you
            Then why try and placate me

Maybe placate was the wrong wor . . 
. . It was 
          Placate mollify pacify soothe appease Im not a child Im not your childmaybe this is your motherness coming out at me

Save it for your children


she shrugged


they left it at that
1422,  sunnySunday,  12  7. 20
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