Will

             Will can be a desperate course

   it can be a deliberate course

                                         it can be a desperately deliberate course

his family didnt have much when he was born  

he was blessed with superlative parents who held his reins looselywho heard him out when they differed  and they differed a great deal 

his mother accused him of being his fathers son and his father accused him of being hers 

eventually they admitted he was his own they were but two trees in an orchard that were cross-pollinated

they blamed the bees  

who he also had an affinity

with that decided and understood decided in his ninth year  his parents left him up to the rage inside him which he was able to benefit from because of his white skin  his fixed ethnoEastern European brute way

atop this steaming heap he recognised the gift of Will had also been provided him  an impossible ironclad Will that would not have a master other than he 

he sought no one to follow him in his course

he preferred no onepreferred to be his only casualty if that was where his willfulness lead

but he wasnt realistic

people were attracted to him

                               and maturing he realised that he couldnt dissuade others from aspiring to what was given him

he tried

he cautioned them they were not him

they were not as he called himself an open sewer that things avoided

Will

tolerate cheap pain which is nothing more than ones body reminding them they are alive they are in the moment  present 

         then painless days come  are treasured   and sometimes gentle  patient   amnesia

                                                                                                     before the brightred brilliant flower blossoms again

Will

        it is a gift from somewhere

he did not question it

he was grateful

thankful

2214,  Sunday,  7  6. 20

1041,  Monday,  8  6. 20