healing
 

                       heal thyself

actually the quote is from Luke some chaptersome verse  Latin  Medice, cura te ipsum

she wasnt a physician

she was curiouslyinclined and knew her body

she knew her bodyshe thought as well as he knew his
                                                            Yadont Ive abused my body I know my abused body more than you know your unabused body 

Yours is a temple baby

Mines a hovel

I knew that from the getgo

So please dont follow my lead

he blew hot air



years ago when she worried she would die youngher mother committed suicideher maternal grandmother died young of a novel disease he reminded her that he was inside of her too

                                                                  Yagot me inside you I dontfor a moment believe youre going to die young

she smiled warmly Maybe, I’m telling you . . to prepare you.

Please stop Nothing can prepare anyone for death 

Youre an athlete You know the power of thinking positive Please Muster positivity  Put this death-imagining down

she tried her best to heal herselfletting her body dictate the terms 

it was a bad fit

she neglected the medical professionals despite seeking them

he had done the same

he did because he felt the physician didnt listen to himhad a preconceived notiona preconceived diagnosis 

he decided that the symptomssymptom of whatever was haranguing him was ultimately pain  the matter then  bearing it

so he decided to quash the specialists diagnosis and let his body heal

he accepted the pain the sleeplessness  accepted the time hed have to commit  and endure

her professionals were genetic specialists

he thought they could have impressed her

she swung their way later  perhaps later than she should have

maybe she would have endured longer

maybe

her healingher miracle manifested itself in her brute tolerance her determination and was alternatively aided by high-tech medical machinery  chicanery   snake oil

If you believe If you believe If you believe
                                            Theres no place like home

she broke his heart

not that she meant to

but there was no way she couldnt

the last thing she wrote him with her eye-gaze devise You are the best Dad

2303,  Monday,  16  12. 19

1438,  Twosday,  28  4. 20