when the levee breaks

he needed to wrioteto get out from under his own stomping feethis aggressive beating heart seek a dull sympathydull hard compassion  which only being alone could provide 

he didnt need to cry in anyones soupon their shoulder because then all hed do is cry

his catharsis didnt need an audience it didnt need hands diminished by himhis deadweight thrown on top them  evenif they said it was alright

grief  sympathy  are like malignant cancer

involving involving   involved

                                  and unable to solve a damn thingYes  providing a solution isnt necessary 

however  be better to seek a solution than simply suffer a brutes beating

he didnt sleep well

he went to bed late no incentive to sleep alone 

his daughters telephone call woke him early

she needed supportshed needed support

he offered her that years ago thats what fathers doshould do 

they were fathers until they died anif someone didnt want that obligation they shouldnt have children

it wasnt that she wasnt strongnot that she was unaware

                                                             rather if she didnt release the violent water her emotions induced her levee could be overwhelmed  possibly sweeping her away

strong swimmers drown

Imagine love  Im holding your hands

they talked

they examined

they didnt form a solution

but they did securereinforce her levee

  

when they had hungup he poured himself a cup of black coffee

ate a cold date

sipped Irish 

                 the alchemy helped

then he overlayed his ritualtopped it off with Tools Schism ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yMMz2VwbhVI ) he needed creep “to bring the pieces back together” creep helped offsetalways the permutations which occurred to him and stricken him and twisted him at the molecular level of his DNA

sounds grandiose

                               inflated

it wasnt

let someone say it was

they may never find their voice again

                                          hed have torn it out of their throats

and wasnt inclined to return it

Finders Keepers

childish?

           sometimes belligerent childishness works

ugly

reactionary

immature

                So? they were welcome to try and take it back from him

people arent courageous

not even when they are forced to suffer disadvantages  imagine that

                                                                                imagine that

hed tear someones cock off

or die trying

courageous   no  that isnt the right word

whats the right wordthe right word when one respondsad hoc  to being violated

                                                                                     maybe it was the granularthe instilled “Play nice with other” “Turn the other cheek”

he was of another tribe

if violence depredation seemed imminent 

he struck first

                        if they tried to get up off their backs all hell would break loose

his advantage

he needed to wriote

wrioting was a reprievehe understood that

                                                  atleast something tangible was made from his angst

1212,  Saturday,  24  8. 19

Led Zeppelin  When the Levee Breaks  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFDYuO53BUk

Rolling Stones  Paint It Black  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=170sceOWWXc