fueled on black coffee  whiskee   imaginee Why not nobody was lookin over his shouldernobody could tell him what to dothey tried they had not been successful  they did not make good arguments to support their demands 

an unsupported demand is shit 

smelled of when his parents used Because.

Why 

Because.

Because isnt an answer Youll have to do better than thatdig a little deeper  because Because dont cut it

he was their eldest

the eldest of eight

he held their feet to the fire by the time he was nine

he blew up their parental honeymoon

they had to contend with their middle management now

                                                            and middle management was no pushover

maybe if their Number-Two son was head of middle management

but he wasnt

he was a disinterested second in the food chain 

he was disinterested because their Number-One son crushed him

                                                                     even when he was fresh out of Marine boot camp a trained killer his brother crushed himturned him upside down in the front yard before the neighbourhood and pounded his skull in the grass until he was unconscious it was the third time his brother knocked him out  his brother dearly appreciated his determinationhis balls if it were war his brother would have killed him  solution   solved

instead Number-Two was always to be in his brothers shadow 

                                                                  that long early morning shadow  every day

Ahwell he thought his brother Number-Two could try again any time he wanted

                                                                                    any time he wanted

though if his brother was smart he would have shot him in the head from behind

when he sued his employerwon his lifetime workmans comp he thought his exemployer or workmans comp would have shot him in the back of the head cowardly but effective  but they didnt

                                                                              they werent smart

he was smart

if he was his exemployer workmans comp he wouldnt have quibbledwouldnt have been squeamish  he would have shot him in the face 

                lotsa luck ducking or diverting a bullet in midair

where did that come from 

he had no idea

it was the way he thoughthe worked

the authorities still hadnt found the head and hands of the psychiatrist who prescribedkilled his wife

the psychiatrist had an ugly record

reprimands hadnt changed him

the psychiatrist was a cold case  unlikely to be reopened

                                                              they knew when to say Buhbye

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