Dont make me think  think come up with reasons  not now  Dont shove it down my gullet  I was wrong I told you immediately I apologised  Im not happy with my decision  my action 

I put a marker between the pages our pages  so I could come right back to where we werewhere  we are  

Admittedly where we are is not a comfortable place to be

I told you I was unhappynot with you  with our situation   

Ive been patient

My patience placed the bookmarker

I needed the affection  The touch  The trembling between kisses my breath catching in my throat  Gutteral animal sounds  Their gurgle  The explosion   

I needed to slake my thirstfeed my starving belly  I needed to be happyneeded  fulfillment   Even if only a stopgapyou know me  You know me to know the difference between want and need 

I submitted to my need  Not to wanting

Ive hurt you

I apologise  desperately 

If you could see my face youd see my desperation  I see it in the bathroom mirror

Accusing me

Pitying me

Unfortunately we dont see each other

Arcane Seeing is believing  

Im beginning to believe  when we talk  Im making you up Im talking to myself

Im talking to myself

Am I talking to myself now

1500,  Thursday,  4  7. 19

1313,  Twosday,  9  7. 19