he fingered the telephonehe wasnt going to call

he didnt want to contend with the disappointment of her letting his call go to voicemail

which inevitably it would

                           he wasnt going to send her an emale a text message either

the ball was in her court                            

he gave her the ball a long time ago and when she complained of his silence he reminded herhad to remind her -- I don’t remember, you know I have trouble remembering things – he reminded her of the quiet ball he gave her to be selfish because she needed it if she was to mend and heal

to call to communicate would be an affront

so he didnt call didnt emale didnt text

not Good morning

not Im at work have a fine evening

not Im home

              not I love you

if she didnt know

                    telling her wasnt going to make a difference

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