December 31Day 365

                       the next paver January 1Day 1

resolve?

          Nah he didnt have to wait until the end of the yearthe beginning of the next to make a resolutionhe could do that any day at any time

he woke fitfully after a violent dream a prostrate bleeding pistolwhipped man sprawled on his back on a wood kitchen floor one of the men who beat him knelt on his chestjammed a pistol in his mouthangled it to his jaw joint and pulled the trigger a howl from hell persisted above the report of gunshotabove the smell of cordite  likely he couldnt hear his own cry bone fragments destroying his inner ear the man turned the gun in his bloody mouth and fired a second bullet through the other jaw jointhooowl  then he stoodhelped himself up to his feet by pushing off the mans broken face
He ain’t talkin to anyone. Let’s go. they were in no particularly hurry the semiconscious hoowl a pink fog misting at their backs degraded to a sputteringhawking moaning groan

it was 0253hrs he texted himself

he didnt text the contours of the dream

it wasnt a dream one wasnt likely to forgethe wouldnt 

not if youve smelled cordite  smelled sulphur  rotten eggs   soft fresh roses

he texted Dec31  reset   penance?

he wasnt going to sleep soonhe could still hear the wounded manhis heartbeat his pulse by pulse wetting the floor 

the initial gorethe sprayed wings artful if one could look past the media  the crude tools  were eroding asymmetrically

at 0258 he texted  asphalt brickwork siding  wood frame house  Midwest  thug  Tony Franciosa

at 0312 texted  revelation  revision  retinue  routine  reorganise  regret odd he should think regret  0315  realisation  release  repertoire  wrong rong   0322  releaserecallrecord  remember    0336  revitalise  reenergise  require  revere  requite  rev  0337  resent   revile

at 0343hrs  reserve   retire

                            he thought as he wrote the last text he pretty much covered his bases  hed look at them later in the morning to see where the puzzlepieces might fit in his life his New Year

they might not fit at all

                         then they might

he liked mosaics

he really liked Life

texts beginning @ 0253hrs,  Monday,  New Year’s Eve,  31  12. 18

1234,  Monday,  31  12. 18

Beatles  Nowhere Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8scSwaKbE64

Pink Floyd  Welcome to the Machine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBvAxSx0nAM