Cece 

he dreamed of her  

she was always a step ahead of him 

just when he thinks hell behold herpray catch her in his arms she turns abruptly 

she eyes himis it misgiving is it temptation is it disdain  

she slips inside herselfbecomes a shadow salient then diffuse darkshimmering particles  then a whiff passing through a wall ahead of him  passing away 

Bill  he said leverage walls arent built with slats and plastered  

using his fists and feet he goes between their centered studs following her emerging on the other side behind her her dark whirling particles reformed on foot ahead of himSHOCKed by his pursuit 

he pulls up debris and dust shake off him like snow 

shes leadingshes leading him away leading him away from life  

realising it he doesnt balk he pulls back he pulls away

he did love her

he still loves her

he loved their life before the taxthe maelstrom of her depression and madness the thousand cruel cuts that whiled and whittled at her

at them

a handful of pills

wittingly

unwittingly

a handful of pills have led to these chasesthese frightful runs where he almost catches her to have her in his arms again

to ask her if she meant it or if it was an accident

he has his suspicion

she meant it

she liked when things went the way she planned them

1316,  Monday,  29  5. 18

1021,  Twosday,  29  5. 18