he was listening to Vic Chesnutts singer suicide Little album  he happened to back into Chesnutt accidentally after bumping into Mark Linkous  also a singer songwriter suicide 

he couldnt say how he wandered into that narrow roomanymore than how he found himself across the hall in another small room from where he had just come where he pinballed between a slew of film writers/directors 

a moth he felt like an effervescent powdered moth fluttering at the brightlight of an unseen unrealised incandescent lightbulb

he stopped himself an huffed huffed loud enough for his voice to carry across the hall to the cinema room  Everyone please  Please excuse me Im usually not this clumsy  Its likely Im just off-kiltera little in-awe  Awed  

unsaid was awshucks

                                   awshucks  a part a niggling part a meditation a repetitionover an over to himself

wondering whywhich was common sense to him  why she hadnt communicated or acknowledged what he had said to her just prior

Im gonna pinch youwake you upwake you out of your reverie

Oh darn I dont think I mailed the electric bill yesterdayI meant to Ill have to look when I get home

she didnt ask Why would you pinch me or maybe say Im awake

Not wideawake  If you were wideawake you wouldnt have said anything about your electric bill until after you addressed me pinching you  I should expectshouldnt I a reiteration a remark to what I said to you  Pinch you  I wouldnt pinch youcant  Id have to be in the same room    I was being blatant   

Why would you be blatant

Im blatant quietly shaking his headbewildered because even being blatant doesnt  doesnt seem to scratch the surface of our communication

Ive told you before  Im distracted

Distracted is one thing  You seem oblivious  oblivious at least to what I am saying  You treat me with shorthand

Im distracted

Well  I like to imagine at least Im on the backburner  Youll be sure to let me know if you take me off the stove right

Youre ridiculous  Why would I take you off the stove

Because you didnt tell me when you put me on the backburner

a writer a suicide

NAH  Too fuckin melodramatic

he was in love with life

 

1102,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  12. 17

Vic Chesnutt  Speed Racer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGH85qC0ECE