for a cannibal appleseed was being mighty fuckin generous sharing her bathroom

first she allowed a corner at the ceiling to bugs(who committed suicide in the shower) who within a month was replaced by spud
                and now in the third corner outside the shower diagonally across and as far away as possible from appleseed huddles x  wafting on woven spidersilk invisible to his eye

NOW dimwit

NOW lugnut
         he was feeling like Santa Claus on Christmas Eve

dimwit and lugnut precariously took up the same corner inside the shower on invisible skeins like x
they are wee spiders  very wee


he didnt see an eggsac to contribute them to appleseed  though through 2016 he wasnt one to seereally see much of anything

that appleseed was large helped  and sheby her presence aided him throughout whatever it was that ailed and besieged hima rheumatologist said rheumatoid arthritis RA(thats a sun god! a falcon-headed god glitzed with a sun disk atop his head wrapped inside a cobrahed have grooved on that!)a latter internist said she wasnt a rheumatologist but reading his labs she wasnt convinced he hit the threshold she understood RA to covet(muthafucker! he was cool with covetingwhich without would have meant there never would have been soap operas that metastisised into reality TV(he wouldnt waste his time implying that TV could ever be elevated to the quality of his youths four-channel sign-off-at-night television))

yes appleseed   aided by his cat indie  indies outdoor brother-by-another-mother bigfoot  they got him through the unidentifiable horseshit and pain
                              arachnids and cats  a grove of apricot saplings okore an oak sprout
ayo a white sage sihu an orange tree okchako–itti a blue spruce skinny no fuckin idea NFI what kind of tree she isshe started growing in an untenable spot and he transplanted her maryjane another transplanted shrub of some sortNFI shes squat got a big ass tormented by gophers refuses to roll over  all much like him 

these earthlings who others may dismiss helped him plait and wind his way back from a painful infirmity  an infirmity that forced him to chase his girlfriend and family away to battle it
he couldnt withstand their invasion and its
he had neither the time nor patience to acquiesce to their compassion



he had neither the time nor patience to acquiesce to their compassion


looking on his wordsthe sentence   they appeared rude

he wasnt apologising
             selfishly he had no room in his life then for anything other than his battle and his inarticulate cohorts who held him in their sublime elemental reign

he wasnt going to explain

their feelings werent his concern

he said he was being selfish


selfish has only room for one
  

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