whenever Free Fallin blindsides
himsneaks up on him over a P A or a wandering radio it nearly turns him inside
outfucks him up for the pain he has to catch his breath with both claws so it
cant rise out of his chest crawl into his throat and choke him make him croak and sob
it had for nearly 20 years
when Free Fallin caught him he had to consciously sidestep it pull it by its tail and yank it back
down inside him stuff it with a blunt ramrod let it loose in the dark
labyrinth living inside him he snatched away the ball of yarn it tried to
secret to use to find its way out again savagely he crossed his fingers hoping that the hoary Minotaur would find it and unmercifully render it limb
from limb so its flung parts could not find one another again and reassemble his
heartache
and heartbreak
two times now
when you are young and believe
you have found your great loveyour one love and then you are
forced to survive her bitter deathbecause you do not die you do not believe it is possibleit is fantasy
that you might find a second great love
a second impermeable love who flies on what
you mistook as waxed Daedalus wings because she could not possibly withstand the bright
hot sun of your first loves memory only
to realise that her wings are true and real
and not intricate fabrications you gasp you weep who should have a second chance
at love
certainly not you
but you did
you want to write their names
in the sky
your second great love dies
gonna free fall out into nothing
gonna
leave this world for awhile
they were good girls
they freely shared their lives
with you and now you have only their
fierce memories to hold(you want to hold them) and share(you want to share only
with them)
they are true and real
as true and real
as your heart becomes heavy as it aches and breaks and always always catches
you unprepared
you
free fall(no one can catch you)
1910, Saturday,
4 2. 17
0603, Sunday,
5 2. 17
1443 days remain or
fewer
Johnny Cash I Wont Back Down https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N8i5NLyXZdc
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