they admired her through the plateglass window between the cheap gaudy liquor banners the pricepoints their square bold printed numbers

yet even where she was obscured her exposed bits and pieces her red wrap dress tight as cellophane were worthwhile

they were men after all 

and men are visual animals voyeurs peering through keyholes not needing much to incent and excite them

he supposed thats what he didnt like about XXX porn its rawness everything laid out in the open like butchers meat check your imagination at the door aint nothing left to it

just then she leaned forward to brush something from her shapely calf her breasts swelled and threatened to spill from their containment  but only threatened  maddeningly

standing upright again she subtly in-the-open deftly rearranged them for her comfort

he stood looking over his shoulder admiring her

her boyfriend facing the counter as they rang up his tequila facing outside caught his breath Damn that woman takes my breath away

You and me both an I dont care squat that youre standing across from me while Im taking her in

No  Wear a dress like that built like that go out I cant blind everyone who stops to get an eyeful  Respectfully  No leering

My upside everyone else looks I get to touch

A definitive upside

Yes 

   However concluding our conversation while theres no one in the store you need to attend to and stepping away from our discussion of iteration  Your not having a death wish or instinct as youve said citing Freud and I concur is unique not that you may realise it but that you do not separate your dreams from your nightmares 

The years I prepared to become a therapist the years I spent as a therapist doing dream work with patients then clients not once did any of them hundreds if not a thousand plus ever say as you said to me

What did I say to you

That you did not differentiate a nightmare from a dreamTheyre all dreams to you

Yes  I said that

Yes you did

Everyone else I have ever talked with talks of dreams and nightmares  And nightmares

What you have done unaware that you have done it is accepted your death 

Have you dreamed you have died

Of courseSure I cant tell you how many times Ive died in my dreams

During my consultations everyone everyone at the precipice of their death an imminent death   everyone woke themselves from their nightmare in a cold sweat or terror

That awakening is them not accepting the reality that they will die

Thats unfortunate 

             Nobody gets out of here alive

But you accept that

Frankly you accepted death when you accepted that you only dream

Thats innarestin

You dont believe me

Its believe or thinkHUH

Im a born skeptic Ill have to do some legwork to see if your premise is legit

But in the meantime I have customers So mind it or not you say you dont Ill eyeball your girl one last time

he turned his back entirely on him and moved to one side so he could see her unobstructed
he gave her a soft wolf whistle
then turned back around 
                  As I said thank you for the exhilarating time

1241,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  9. 16

 Jim Morrison/Doors  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQA3wx4a-ow