Painkillers one-off show in Paris 2008why did it take him this long to get there

                                                                not   NOT a rhetorical question

it was his habit was to exhaust anything he found which titillated or stoked him

howd he miss it

behind him(but not forgotten) was a chain of girlfriends like delicious emptied coloured liquor bottles gently laid on grassy lawns capped by tied-off chubby condoms

it began as a lark a random thing as a teenager

he slept with a girl whose parents -- her father insanely so – felt it was their parental noblesse-oblige(he said that – her parents hadnt a clue) to deny their daughter her blooming blossoming abundant sexuality fresh-baked warm and buttered cinnamon roll from any boy who appeared at their door wearing a milk-moustache and licked at it with his tongue like a serpent

                   though Mommie seemed to squirm in her pants  and that slight pressing of her thighs together

that clandestine shift that wholly seismic shift resonated in him slopping semen wall-to-wall barely contained informing him then and there that Mommies   Mommies(Eureka!)  were the integral skeleton-keys to undo the invisible chastity belts(if Daddy had his way baby would be strapped)(so Medieval) undo the fear and loathing they fomented in their young daughter about their governance over her mind(mind-fuck) her body and her virginity

when he stumbled out of his virginity so did his girlfriend

it was blissful and innocent

itches scratched they slowly and deliberately discovered more and more about their sexuality

he discovered he had more in common with knowing girls than unknowing girls but because the field wasnt far-flung the produce locally-grown he was sensitive(he surprised himself) with the unknowing girls

he didnt force himself on them 

unlike the laughing louts around him who had no idea girls could cum

and were more about their rutting and cumming   and going

than they were about the girls who

as they said  serviced them

they should have just jerked off and serviced themselves

Gawd knows he did

and if Gawd knew

then what the hell was with this churchy abstinence-celibacy miser and misiz

certainly Gaye must have penetrated their ears on the radio or from someone others record player  Lets Get It On*

he couldnt have been the only white boy in his white suburban town(he was born in the city) who owned the record and lazily turned it under flickering honey candlelight or seductive black light and laughing(laughing and tickling were always great ways into sex) taking turns writing and drawing on each others bodies their arms and legs slowly their bellys then breasts his chest nipples encircled and daubed and loins dribbled(lapped) seduced by Visine

Daddy having to pick up off His lawn liquor bottles capped by chubby condoms was the price he extracted         

 

           

a one-off Painkiller 

Thank you Flavia Abreu whoever you are

and for reminding him of many one-offs and many time-and-time agains

1051,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  8. 16

Painkiller: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UffBRnHilCc

*Marvin Gaye: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QZn9xiuOE

again, Painkiller (different configuration): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l_md1b4pwI