So he told me if Id quit dissociating  psychically Id heal quicker I could even realise a more full social life

Quit dissociating
I gotta push back on that babe 

You told himhe knows youre a creative Seems ludicrous to tell an artist not to dissociate

The creative act is dissociative to wrest with the nothingness and come away with something new with something perhaps not ever seen before a reality once nonexistent  then a new reality youre able to share with others that they can realise because you saw

Its a freakin gift and it doesnt come  You have to remove yourself from the tribe society any interference to capture it

Creativity doesnt like company

Ive told him as much he knows that  I would say he knows that

Very confusing

I imagine

Youre going back at him on this

Ohyes  Hellyes  Reading a book we dissociate  Watching a film playing a game

Good girl  Not that you need me . .

. . I need you to be my springboard the wall I throw things at to see if they stick

I need you because since we met youve always gotten me have always encouraged me

I do look good in a cheerleaders skirt dont I

she laughed

Im big on your pompoms

they laughed 

deep down they knew there had been a cross-up her therapist was better than that

Im not as quick as you to push back babe she said  I suppose I need to digest things a bit longer

No  Youre confrontational

Im confrontational with you

Immediately so

But you know thats a safe confrontationyou understand that  Im unafraid to challenge you because I know you love me

Yes  But nevertheless you are confrontational

Yes yes

But Im not as confrontational as you I cant say I know of anyone as confrontational as you

Yaknow  I dont see it as confrontational as much as I recognise it as part of my nature
Im not here to please anyone over myself

I  suppose selfish

But I gotta be true to me

And I have to be true to me

Im just a bit slower on the uptake  But I can always count on you to accelerate it

she laughed again  self-depreciating

he loved her laughter its sound how she didnt cover her mouth wasnt self-conscious how her face joyously crinkled up her eyes shining above and with her laughter

Sweetheart  I love how you dissociate

Never change a thing

Oh  You say the nicest things to a girl

Am I picking up points

Youre always picking up points

Bingo!

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