Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me now daddy?
a miserable salve to be applied and massaged it invites misery degradation
shame
how or why could one generation turn this . . thinking . . . over onto
the next . . informing preparing their daughters(or sons) to make daddy happy
(fuck
daddy)
that they must endure pain and disgrace
for the reward of love(which he may or may not provide)
Do you love me?
as if
love is the Endgame and everything endured is tolerable
you can hear it their criesDo you love me? plaintive quietly insistent
though inside Do you love me? is the plea Tell me you love me
Strip out Do you love me Insert Tell me you love me
Tell me you love me
Do you? Tell me. theyre played against Im not supposed to Unless he wants to
Im not supposed to Unless he wants to
neer ends the degradation
what any woman wants should matter Unless
her Mama taught her well
taught her to be
subservient sit up straight pull her hair back keep her eyes down her chin
up swallow deep
Im a good girl Daddy I promise I wont
weep
I dont mind that it hurts every
time
Please
Keep me
the children on the street under fits of rain amount to nothing more than
soft distant reflections ethereal on the cool black windowpanes of a monstrous Old
World building that stares back at them noncommittal
looking into its large flat faces under an elaborate ironworked
awning the children are aware that behind them above them are pale streetlamps that
also mingle in the panes their
reflections hang at the corners of the glass and chill the children giving them an impression of eyes hungry insects
eyes alien without
lids watching them
terrified
they should have
run Run!
felt
the air hard and hot in their lungs their feet mad against the broken and
uneven pavement sweat lacquering their armpits and weaving down the backs of
their necks under their long hair their
long hair how daddy loves to brush out their long hair and
braid it into pigtails and ponytails to yank their heads around or hold in
his mouth between his teeth as he snarls
the dark building goes up an up into the sobbing sky the children cant see where it ends and where the sky begins
moltensmoke ebbing into a
black sky
the myriad insect eyes keep watch on the children unblinking
unfazed
the Old World building grunts and groans scratches itself then gets up off its knees cobblestones and crushed earth fall from its worn filthy pantlegs
its done resisting
its done letting its blood rise
the children lean back looking up into its disguised face catch their breaths
they dont dare move their feet
they dont dare shuffle their shoes
theres punishment if they do
they stand
captive
then out of the sky he reaches down gravel showers from his bared forearms it sounds like rain striking the pavement and bounces off and gloms onto their wet clothing
the gravel colours their upturned faces like freckles
his nails are blunt split and broken his hands are filthy he doesnt brush
them off or think to wash his hands before he reaches out touches them
fondles them
who will stop him
he pushes them down on their backs or onto their knees he knows
they
adore him
they want daddys love
0011, Saturday,
16 7. 16
1710, Monday,
18 7. 16
Mama Taught Me Well
Kill J Album: Quasi EP
Do you love me now daddy?
Do you love me now daddy?
Keep my back straight
Pull my hair back
My mama taught me well
Do you love me now daddy?
Will you kiss me now daddy?
I keep my eyes down
Chin up
My mama taught me well
My mama taught me well
Do you love me now daddy?
Keep my back straight
Pull my hair back
My mama taught me well
Do you love me now daddy?
Will you kiss me now daddy?
I keep my eyes down
Chin up
My mama taught me well
My mama taught me well
I'm
not supposed to
Unless he wants to
She taught me well
That frown makes you look old
No one loves full grown
Baby I don't mind that it hurts every time
Do you love me?
Baby I don't mind that it hurts every time
Do you love me?
Do you love me?
Do you love me?
Will you kiss me now daddy?
Will you touch me now daddy?
I'm a good girl
Swallow deep
I promise I won't weep
Unless he wants to
She taught me well
That frown makes you look old
No one loves full grown
Baby I don't mind that it hurts every time
Do you love me?
Baby I don't mind that it hurts every time
Do you love me?
Do you love me?
Do you love me?
Will you kiss me now daddy?
Will you touch me now daddy?
I'm a good girl
Swallow deep
I promise I won't weep
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