he disliked being compelled

pushed outside his autonomy

by an anonymity contained within him

that Is without respect or deference to the thing it thrives inside of

the thing that without

the trapped parasite 

 

might cease to exist

he wasnt sure it would die

it could realise suspended animation

  

a fertilized encapsulated egg waiting on preferable conditions

laying dormant   patient   beyond any febrile sense of time or urgency

 

simply persisting

he wasnt too sure
                             he was any different

1350,  Sunday,  20 9. 15

“I wonder if revelation comes not like light to the eye but as an imposed ordering of that part of the self so deeply interior that it is anonymous”  pg149  Doctorows  City of God