it was sobering

                          then it wasnt    what

he was sober

                   couldnt rememberslipped  his mind

he pondered

              a good fifteen minutes before he threw his hands up quitsixteen minutes might have issuedinjected despair into his bloodstream and who in his rightleftleftright mind wanted to despair

    onward

 

 

nearly twentyfours later he recalled

                                        was liberated when he read in The Mars Room  Rachel Kushner  “The Norse . . . would love to get an invite to Anton LaVey’s house. But she is in prison, and Anton LaVey’s house is in the past. Anton LaVey (devil-worshipper) is dead and his black house is gone, too, replaced by condominiums.”TRIGGERED

                              sobering

    his black house is gone

eventually itd catchup with him

out of curiosity he Googled it  became just another bit of evidence despite convinced long ago

                                                                                                   the address on North Western Avenue in Chicago where when he was freshborn lived in an attic apartment

                                                                                                     its now a bus stop bench on Western  behind it a parking lot sprawls

eventually itd catch him

every house hes lived in has been razed

                                            its catching up

    one day hed be razed

his fingers were crossed that the razing would be when he was runninround in nothing but a pair of shorts during a torrential downpour complet with thunder and lightning

                                                                     lightning razed deadcremated in one fell swoop here then gone  erazed

                                 then his house  sold  could at last be razed like all his former homes

    none nor he marked by headstones

 

sobering

Saturday afternoon,  3  10. 26

1148,  Sunday,  4  10. 26

Joni Mitchell  Big Yellow Taxi  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkXugwkfzvc 

back

       havin a ball

just playinround

playtime

            playtine

honed  sharpie  edgy  wouldnt feel it if he accidentally cut himself

    he excelled atNEVER A DULL MOMENT no   not ever

                                                                  had he made pizzas for a living he would have created the first stuffed crust cumstuffedYES  read that right

loves to play

politics and boardrooms could use a dose

                                             spicedup with some humour difficult thingsdifficult  decisions are and can be made less divisive more agreeable

playinround

                   for instance

went to write Monday

wrote Mondot

mariachis muttered  Less mundane than Monday

they had a point

Yagonna write Monday Mondot here out

No  Ill leave it this once

                           Wha followed was me at my ultraabstract I suspect perhasp when the letter arrives and they attempt to read itfollow my discourse my swingin for the bleachers theyll call ask soberly  What the fuck you talking about?

I can follow my thought process realise the eddies occurring at its edges the various sidebars  Im not linear  If they buy my headfakes they can easily get lost

    Will they call

Them

No

      Time consuming

Writing consumes time

Ah

        But twas playtime

 

Youre strange card

Were all strange in our own ways

                                     Difference is the spice of life

Too bad you cant bottle it

Cant put the genie back in the bottle retrieve wha curious Pandora let loose

                                                                                 I for one admire her curiosity

Though not all curiosities need be as daunting

But then  I have cats who compel me

Oi

     Thas your excuse

winked Reason

                 and began laughing a bluestreak

                                    

1030,  Saturday,  3  10. 26

Rod Stewart  You Wear It Well  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5lX0eMI7Hw

breaking a sweat at their temples hissedImostssshite.

cocked his head like a bird Wha

shook their head disapproval disappointmentI  must  shit.

Ifya must don let me holdya up

I most.

As I said don let me stand in your way dirty pants arent comfortable

No.  Must certainly.

Most   Certainly

Must.

    Who the hell is this guy  Do we have to contendcarry on with him

Keep it down

               Hes the money man Cross himanIll have to find another or work harder yet to garner a slew of investors

Theyre not investors  Theyre demanders

                                                 Who are actually worse than must

bemused Ya just gotta mess with me

    Must certainly

he didnt understand if they were a fortune or a banenonetheless their participation wanted or unwanted  always made things interesting  spicedem up

Down the hall third door on the right

Thank you.

              stood up like he was cramping and left the livingroom walking stifflegged

1946.  Monday,  21  9. 26

1029,  Saturday,  3  10. 26

breezin out of town for pleasure

back again reggaefriday 2 Oct  to tease  torment    wriote

Thursday AM,  24  9. 26

Christopher Cross  Sailing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEO6gYCFbr0

G.K. Chesterton defined the radical democracy of death tradition of refusing to exclude the opinions of those who came before us just because they are dead

                                                    hoped lots of others gulped with himself

                                                                                                    history

that he could accept

when he read the radical democracy of death it was paired shortly thereafter no pun intended with revolutionariness stumped Googles AI Overview for nearly ten seconds such a pleasure he was happy to help  the revolutionariness of death

                             the too-much volleys of death confused himhis eyes and his eyes informed him not revolutionariness  but evolutionariwariness

                                                       what that is

hed really have to think on it

                                and since he was traveling and would be airborne approaching eight hours two flights hed have ample time then to think elaborate hachance upon something

                                                                                         itd be a kick

a kick to wriote about when he returned because where he was going was a wifi computerless dead zone and isnt that nice to not only imagine but to be immersed in as in days of yesteryear  days of yore days of his youth when he worked hard played harder

                                                 with others  everyone present  

G. K. Chesterton

he was familiar with his name

was not familiar with his works or his life

hes looked evidently not hard enough but feels eventually  hell discover a text

1033,  Sunday,  20  9. 26

1000,  Thursday,  24  9. 26

aww bubbles  https://www.freethesaurus.com/revolutionariness

I cant budge you

No.

    Because  it makes things so easy for Mister I-Don-Want-to-Work-tha-Hard

Why you don’t is beyond me.

As youve mentioned  Im a researcher a sceptic

                                                        Donya feel overlyreliant on it

No.

You use it numerous times a dayhow many might you say  two dozen

    Easy two dozen.  Likely more.

Okay

          Tha seems overlyreliant

I use a hammer. I’m a carpenter.  I drive home hundreds of nails.

                                                                        Am I overly reliant on the hammer?

Its a hammer

A hammer’s a tool.

                      AI’s a tool.

Poor analogy  If someone told you something woudntya challenge them  

                                                                                Quizem     Interrogateem

    Do I know them?

If I told you something tha didnt gel with you

                                                  You woud woudntya

That goes without saying.

 

 

    Yet

             Do you question AI do you research furthur

It’s AI.  It knows.

                        What’s to challenge?

Its coded biases prejudices

                                R S I   Recursive Self Improvement

Its building atop wha it was originally coded for

No.  I’m extremely comfortable it’s not . .

. . Hallucinating

Tellsya whaya want to hear

                                  Confirmation bias

    You know, you worry that shit.  I’m not.

Thas a shitty attitude

AI knows more than you.

                               Why would I listen to you?

Its a fuckin machine

   Im   Not    

1254,  Monday,  21  9. 26

1656,  Wednesday,  23  9. 26

his wife years earlier bought him an antique spittoon

had a scent

was bangedup believed to be used in the day in a bar in Grass Valley or Nevada City California

Thanks babe Is this for an occasion tha slipped my mind

Cute.  Nothing slips your mind. On my trip up there last weekend, the girls’ outing, we went antiquing. I bought it there.

    I don chew

No.  But imagine this.

 

                           It’s possible when Samuel Clemens was lecturing up there he might have spit in it.

Genius

             Ya know wha

What?

Im gonna lie  Call it fact

Won’t you be . . . flummoxed . lying?

Literary license Im a storyteller

                                     Anyoull have my back

smilingshook her head

                          You do tell stories. The kids certainly benefit from your out-of-the-box perspectives.

Thank you  I believe so too

 

 

 

    Samuel Clemens.

                            Who’s that?

Just lost a couplefew points off your beloved IQ rating

                                                               Mark Twain

eyesbuggedI knew that.

Sorry  Points off the board

                              Speaking of which  Ive got a question

About Samuel Clemens?

Those points are gone tha aint cutting it

                                              Question

About Twain?

    I Q

Oh. Changing up on me.

Poor deduction

                       Idiot

Are you calling me an idiot?

No

        Im wading into your realm  Have a question

    About IQ about idiots?

Jah

        To refresh your mindsince when I told you you had no idea

Idiot  Scale zero to twentyfour

You said.

Anya immediately when to your trusty everpresent steed sidekick

    My steed?

Your phone your AI buddy

                              With a hardy Hi-O Silver  Away

What are you talking about?

You doubted me I don lie zero to twenty four you confirmed

                                                                  Your IQ scale has  zero

Thas fucked up

I had no idea.

So  Question

                   Or affirmation

    Go ahead

Arya familiar with a lumpen   L  U  M  P  E  N

No.

Lumpen  An adjective

                         The lowest most neglected uneducated segments of society

    Zero

I wouldn’t say zero.

Zombie

    Really. Zombie.

Zombie

 

The walking dead?

Zero

    Don’t you think?

Zombie   Idiot

                     The IQ tests you inveterately obsessively take

Believes in zombies

                     Zero   On the scale

1440,  reggaefriday,  14  8. 26

1545,  Wednesday,  23  9. 26

https://ejournals.sierracollege.edu/jsnhb/v1n3/twain.html

he stopped whenever he crossed this footbridge over a trickling creekvegetation overgrowing its watercourses to see if there were any waterfowls turtles crawdads  schooling fish

water was lower  

muttered to himself  The fries are fin-ished

                                               trying to elevatealleviate his heart with some humour

not fifteenminutes earlier walkingreading along the shoulder of a crumbling street he put his finger a placekeeper in the book stooped to pickup a smashed squirrel

                                                                    incensed  again

a neighbourhood street

twentyfive miles an hour

at twentyfive  being present being aware a driver ought to be able to avoidSTOP  for an animal

    they werent doing twentyfive

                                    the street paralleled the towns main thoroughfare that was undergoing renovation

they were beating it down the road to save time hell be damned

                                                                     he ought to quit chiding himself and begin carrying a brick in the canvas bag hanging from his shoulder  see them avoidSTOP for a brick

angst

anger

life shouldnt be cheap

 

crossing to the other side of the bridge didnt see any wildlife there either

                                                                                      sighed 

1430,  reggaefriday,  11  9. 26

1247,  Wednesday,  23  9. 26

a reading from the Gospel  According to Rachel Kushner

                                                              125: 18-24  Chance . . . had a kind of absolute logic to it. I revered it more than I did actual logic, the kind that was built from solid materials, from reason and from fact. Anything could be reasoned into being, or reasoned away, with words, desires, rationales. Chance shaped things in a way that words, desires, rationales could not. Chance came blowing in, like a gust of wind.

    A tad blasphemous, don’t you think?

                                                      she hung onto her Bible like women he knew hung onto their vibrators

Modestly Id admit   Wha I do best

                                          You havent run away

Not yet.

 

Pleease

          I keep you on your toes

I help you save battery juice for your vibrator

                                               blushedhard incarnadine  stain crimson

Take a breath  there there

                             Youre actin like I gutpunchold it punched you in the pussy

didnt think she could blush hardershe did

    Arya okay

                           Can I get you a cold water

Yes. breathy

                     It is what you do best.

Blasphemy an offending May be my artform

                                                 Ill be right backwhoayoull be here if youre not Im not buyin water I wont drink it

    Yes.  I wouldn’t run out on my frien . .

. . Were still friends

 

    Still.

              But you’re really pushing the envelope.

Ill be right back

 

going to pay at the coffee bar counter the female attendant informed him they did not accept cash

he had exact change

set it on the counter

                     walking away cracked the seal in case she was still weak from his barrage

wending through the maze of tables chairs backpacks legs

                                                               he smiled at her

he saw her face was normal flesh-coloured again

Did you know they don accept cash here

I did not. I pay using Venmo.

    You gave them cash, didn’t you?

Exact change no tip

They don’t accept cash.

I paid legal tender not my problem  

1300,  reggaefriday,  11  9. 26

1152,  Wednesday,  23  9. 26

strolled up to the urinal in a supermarket restroom unbuttoned his 501s spat PAH-TWOEE a ritual to get the ball rollin

get the ball rollin

sounds better than take a pissflinched doesnt like the word

                                                              and while he relieves himself sounds better yet he goes over the shopping list in his head

a little game he plays

never writes one out

then when hes walked home groceries in a backpack only a mile and a half if hes forgotten something its called accountability held himself accountable

                                                        the thing America lacks

                                               while it has mordanted abundant greed

                                                          abundant inequality

                                                     he is desirous of equilibrium

 

finished flushed buttonedup he washes his hands hed recommend according to his experience if you don know the man don shake his hand used the airdryer preferred paper towels

                                                               he exits

gauntlet thrown

   he shops

1325,  reggaefriday,  4  9. 26

1050,  Wednesday,  23  9. 26

Beatles  Nowhere Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8scSwaKbE64