After I die you know wha Im gonna do

incredulity slipping into his voice

                              After you die.

Jah

         After I die

Ya know wha Im gonna do

 

After you’re dead . . . what are you gonna do?

Have you given it any thought

as a matter of fact in his voice

                             No.  I can’t say I have.

Give it a moment

What a moment?

A thought of after youre dead

I think I’ll be dead.

Of course well be dead

                              But wha do you want to do

    I’m dead.

chuckled

         Think outside the box

 

    Obviously . . . you have given this some thought.

No

      Just occurred to me

I was thinking of womenthinking when theyre little growingup  they alwaysalways had to be fearful of men

Kinda like young black boys an men going out in the white world

                                                                      Though they have physical agency to defend themselves

    Tha occurred to me

So wha Id like to do is stand with the bouncer whos at the gateway to enter life an as entities approach us indistinct  immaterialhazy  then closer their bodies become defined boys girls  maybe moved too closely together sexuality rubbing off  possibly an explanation for transsexuality  absorbing sexuality from one ahead behind them

                           I digress

But as they near us to leap to life to every female form Ill handem a loaded top-of-the-line automatic handgun so they wont have to be afraid of men  maybe inspire men to fear for a change

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6fLDkC__qng

I think thad be worthwhile after Im dead

 

    Ya really ought to give it some thought

Being deaddead sounds like a drag

                                        

                                         I wanna make the best of time                                                        

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You watching him walk?

Brilliant

    What the hell are you talking about?

You think not

I haven’t a fuckin’ clue what you’re thinking.

Hes shuffling

He’s driving me nuts, I keep getting ahead of him and have to stop and wait. I understand he’s not been well but you’d think he’d improve, get help, physical therapy, before coming out an . .

. . Slowinya  down

                        He coud be more courtesy less ill but   if this is it its it isnt it

    I don’t want to think that.

Ya don have to think

                          Watchim

    Jaysus.   Jaysus.

 

Brilliant

You said. What do you mean?

His shuffle toe to instep to instep  to instep  to instep  to instep    while we stride

                                                                                            Seems a strategy

A strategy?

He shuffles we stride

                           Were making our way eventually to death

Mebbe to his way of thinkin  shufflin

 

    Well get their first

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Im sorry

              Is this a tactic   A tactic

  Is it?

Strategy

  Is it?

 

How well do you know me

I think I have a better idea about you than most peop . .

. . Exceptionally     exceptionallyfew people

                                                 Ninetyninepointnineninenineninenine nein   get stupid on their facescratch their heads

No fuckin clue

                  But

Ya know me better than tha

    So      Again

 

Is it a tactic, a strategy?

Fuck   Christ

Hand to mouth baby hand to mouth day by day my only plan draw breath minute to minute  hour to hour  day to day

              As my daughter says  Good times  Good times

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Modest Mouse  The Good Times are Killing Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auFp3-8yORQ

I have to hand it to her.

Woman to woman

Yes.

I like her a lot

There’s a lot to likeher body.

Tha goes without sayin  But you know me

                                                Beautys only skin deep anif its sheen is thin  a membrane  an there aint no brain beneath

Adios

Why I like her a lot

                       

                        You

No husband.

No partner.

No children.

No stones.

No concessions.

She knows who she is what she wants.

 

The rare beast

Of either sex.

    Jah  Ill agree

Know who she reminds me of?

You

You.

       No concessions.

Youre a tough cookie

Thank you.

               Though I concede.

To your family

                   A whole other can of worms

Yeah.

         You havent a can of worms.

Im remote been remote twothousand miles remote

Years remote.

Jah

A decision made as a kid pulled it off as a teenag . .

. . Which  You were denied

                                 You werent even allowed to be a teenager

To your credit  You realised tha you were the only responsible one

                                                                           Had I bee . .

. . Been me.

                 Youd have jettisoned them.

Tyranny of family.

                       As you say.

Only person I’ve ever heard that from.

Im selfish

Which . . . in light of knowing you . . isn’t a bad thing.

    Thank you

                     No  I never thought it was

Honest

You are grimly honest.

No concessions is also

She is.

            I adore her friendship.

    As I adore ours.

Ya thinkin a ménage à trois

No.

      You two would kill me.

An suck the marrow from your bones

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The Troggs  Wild Thing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gSWInYFVksg 

Really

You have to say it like that?

Youd go along with itI mean  you   if it was offered to you  youd accept it

I’m untried, unproven. A hundredthousand dollars to an incoming college freshman would be amazing.

 

Try not to be amazed

                         Obviously youd have to show extreme promise tha a corporation woud offer you one hunred  thousands  dollars

That goes without saying.

Ananything you create they own

                                     You have no rights to your product because you accepted the money

That’s the offer.

Thas the really

That you had to say like that.

Correct

                  Id say a no brainer

Yes.

No

You’d say no.

Well  if Im so promising tha a corporation woud invest in me  on the cheap   If I said jah I woudnt be tha sharp

    Or you could take the money and run.

Methinks thered be articles instruments in the contract you signed before they handed you the money

Taxes

        They covering the taxes on income

Once upon a time I received a thousand dollar bonus an my employer also covered the taxesgranted  only a thousand

Following year we had a falling out despite me performing better than prior   Zero bonus

Following year I was adios two week notice hadnt a successor left him holding a big steaming bag of shit

          My bonus for him

Of course no

 

 

Thinkin of course correcting to no

No.

    Aww  Youre not as sharp as I thought you might be     

Had been holdinout hope

 

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the dental hygienist

                        You.   I remember you.

Jah  Every six months

                         Our third tête-à-tête  I hope Id be familiar

    Coffee.  You hold it in your mouth and may not swallow it for . . . some time.

Aw  how sweet

                      You remember

You write. You rea . .

. . What are you reading

A Christian tract, a pamphlet, my sister insisted I read it.

Many pages

Just over a hundred.

How long you been reading it

    Too long.

Not buying into the premise as your sister did

No.

       No I’m not.

Have you pickedup something else as an in between

No.

       I read one thing at a time.

Might wanna do yourself a favour

                                         Im reading juggling twelve books

Twelve.

Like changing television channels

You watch TV

We do.

Watch several channels several showsepisodes

Yes.

Readings like tha

                        You can do it

 

What do you write?

mosaic went off in his head

                                he said Fantasy  The fantastic  Speculative

Imaginative

he didnt say mosaic

                          like he had to protect it   its concept

not that mosaic explained anything other than it was

                                                           no

    he thought it would screamed exactly what it was

 

but looking into her doebrown wide eyes

                                              she wouldnt have had an idea

he didnt want to explain

    any more than he wanted to have to explain a joke

                                                                 anticlimactic

like a shudderingfailed ejaculation

a failing hard on

                   apologising

    who the fuck wants to apologise for a dysfunction that    well  didnt raise its woolly head

he was arousedtruly  aroused

 

in the shadowed corner of her bedroomthe flickering candles didnt light

                                                                                his teenself

laughing at him

                  squeals   Old man

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Cat Stevens  Wild World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiG7a0q-KYI

The notion the potion

                             No brainer              Atcha

    Atcha?    What?

Talk to me

Like I’m supposed to know what the hell you’re talking about?

I give up any more its a cake walk   Ever cake walk

                                                            At carnivals   Fundraisers

Sumptuous cakes donated

Tickets minimally priced

Cheap to go roundanround on a chance of winning a cake

                                                             Last time I attended one was at my kids elementary school funding the library  acquiring new books

I sought a German Chocolate cake Coconut-pecan custard frosting

The woman who donated it was known for it her specialty  Her German Chocolate cake

    I found her on campusoffered her fortybucks to buy it outright

Fetchingly she smiled

                         I’ve already donated it. You’ll have to take a chance at the cake walk.

I offered fiftybucks to the parents managing the cake walk

                                                                Thank you, but no . . .

I know I know I know

A fifth grader my daughters knew touched me out

                                                      I offered him thirty

He told me after dinner I was welcome to come by his house enjoy a slice for dessert

                                                                                           My Mom's cool.

Arya willing to share with my girls my wife too

The more the merrier.

    I think he was tryin to shame me

It’s a big cake. Very rich.

                            Yeah, sure.

 

The notion  The potion

Your story shed no light on the subject . .

. . Love

           Love Potion Number Nine https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fb0KjR4bik8 Searchers

The notion

               We loveall of us  love   fuckinlove  the idea of being in love

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Hows Prince going

Ah, a couplethree pages at a time.

                                      Bitch about reading at night in bed, want to sleep.

I don have tha problem

                           Usually read an hour houranahaf

How?

Compelling reading

One book?

No no

         Usually take fivesix eight to bed

Like changing TV channels

                             No commercials  interruptions

You liking Machiavelli

I’m still in the introduction.

Introduction

Why do you say it like that?

I know why Im reading a book

You don’t like introductions?

Not in books

                   Not people

People?

               How not people?

Please

         You know me to be sociable

    I know you can be.

I was  I coud be

                      Im not interested

They cant possible compete with wha Im reading

Compete?

             That’s insane.

Whas insane is to think tha wha Im reading coud be rivaled by some convened  adolt   whine bar gathering

Here

          Hold forth on surveillance capitalism birth of media politics socialist Upton Sinclairs Thirtyfour California gubernatorial campaign Rachel Kushners The Flamethrowers Well of Loneliness Radclyffe Halls lesbian howl at the moon banned on publication in Twentyeight

All ears

    It’s not a competition. A social gathering.

Enjoy

        Not wastin my time    

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Indigo Girls  Howl at the Moon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_cVnUsnYkrk

. . . jah  I  B  I  D

I B I D.  What?  An acronym?

                                      You?

No  I shoud have said I B I Dperiod

                                      An abbreviation Although drop the period E  M added have the Latin ibidem  in the same place

    What prompted that?

Felons  same answer  the Fifth  at his deposition

                                                        Cocksucker shoud have answered like Dr Fauci did  With respect

                On the advice of counsel, I respectfully decline to answer based upon my rights under the Fifth Amendment to the Constitution.

    I B I D  Quick   Musical

Understand Fauci declared it over one hundred times

On the other hand felon nearly fourhunredfifty times before New York Attorney General Letitia James attorneys regarding the Trump organisations business practises

Id have made him reply as Dr Fauci did

                                            Wha  Same answer    Wha same answer

I woud have pushed tha four hour deposition out hours

You’d have harassed him?

Have him respect the Constitution

                                      Fuckinright

In the meantime the Republicans whined an insulted Fauci

                                                                There might have been a few sitting on the Senate Committee on Homeland Security and Governmental Affairs who benefitted from the CoVid-19 vaccination

Republicans  Blowhards   Whiners

                                           But

Thas me

Id have coolly extracted from felon

                                     On the advice of counsel, I respectfully decline to answer based upon my rights under the Fifth Amendment to the Constitution.

    Sounds like you bear him some animosity.

Since The Central Park Five

                               No relation to The Jackson Five despite the ten being undesirable minorities

Jesus, man.  

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https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/trump-deposed-ny-ag-civil-probe-business-practices-rcna42355

Jackson 5  A B C  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISqzbbZVIiU

regarding data centers

      the solution

which upsets makes indignant data collectors is the right to be forgotten is the right to the future tense

Google and other search engine operators make money off data stored in their clouds

Shosanna Zuboffs excellent book The Age of Surveillance Capitalism: The Fight for a Human Future at the New Frontier of Power page 59   May 2014 The Court of Justice of the European Union reasserted the right to be forgotten.

“The operator of a search engine is liable to affect significantly the fundamental rights to privacy and to the protection of personnel data. In light of potential seriousness of the interference (with those interests), it cannot be justified by merely the economic interest which the operator of such an engine has in that processing.

“The Luxembourg Court felt the free flow of information matters, but not as much, ultimately, as the safeguarding of dignity, privacy, and data protection in the European rights regime.

“In reasserting the right to be forgotten . . . (the) decisive authority over the digital future rests with the people, their laws, and their democratic institutions. It affirms that individuals and democratic societies can fight for their right to the future tense and can win, even in the face of a great private power.”

Adam Beckers More Everything Forever: AI Overlords, Space Empires, and Silicon Valley’s Crusade to Control the Fate of Humanity asserts as much

                                                  page 87  “When there’s no room for human agency, there’s no room for moral responsibility either.”

when a user deletes their History that ought to be the end of it

                                                                  Not so vigorously insists Google and other search engine providers according to their reams of pages thousands and thousands of words that detail their Privacy Policy and Terms of Service who has all the time necessary to read them  of course  which companies know

theyd insist chuckle  Caveat emptor

                                                Buyer Beware

they monetise our Histories  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aW7HweAf3o

 

 

regarding data centers

best retard them

cloud providers can prioritise and minimise

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