blackbug

on the bathroom windowsill he saw while taking a leak

finished

Live and let live

                   Hope ya find wha youre lookin for

thats his creed

his brother laughed  bother   his bother-in-law is killing ground squirrels with a scoped pellet rifle

You eatinem

Eating them? Hellno, of course not.

Why

         If theyre eatin fallen birdseedfattened up

Ive eatin squirrel I killed in Ohio tha fed off the cornfields behind my uncles house

                                                                                            Awfully tasty 

    You’ve eaten squirrel?

Cant be too far off ground squirrel ace

I don’t think so.

Eaten rabbit

I hav . .

. . Ive eaten Everglade rabbit

                                      You should honour the animal youve murdered     But

Wha goes round comes round

   Its not gonna end pretty

End pretty?

What do you mean?

    I mean I wont be surprised

Likely youll be surprisednot me

What are you talking about?

Youre a smart guy

                          Ill leave it to your imagination

Yamight wanna kick tha in the ass as its woeful

                                                                 Just a thought

Maybe have a barbecue rather than a cremation

1230,  Thursday,  18  6. 26

1409,  Thursday

The Buoys  Timothy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vRxLszM_VoU 

I-balls working him overnow maybe his ears too

                                                           Awrightgang  Ya hear mepayin attention

Got your back, bro.

    Im not your bro

they got down on their kneespeered at one another through the cockles coils clearing  what otherwise would be considered an impossible channel  feat

                                                  but they were ears

What should we call you?

I give two shits  Just not bro

                                  I don find it appealing

Massah.

 

Sure

Racist motherfucker.

Incorrect

              You said  I didntAgain

Repeat

    In her sleep she killed herself.

Thaswha I heard

That’s what we conveyed.

Do we understand

How do you mean?

In her sleep she killed herself

                                    She dreamed she killed herself

                                    She killed herself in her sleep

                                                                        Overdosed

Or she had help

If one has help, is that killing one’s self?

Arthur Koestler His wife Cynthia Jefferies  Their suicide pact provided by a physician physicians who provided them barbiturates tha closed the deal

                                                      While they slept

Killed themselves in their sleep

Why ask us?

Because in a manner of speaking  yasaid

                                                In stereo

 

    Howbout this?

                        We’re only the messengers.

Messengers

               Jah  There is tha

2225,  Monday,  15  6. 26

1203,  Thursday,  18  6. 26

https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/1997/01/06/the-dangers-of-devotion

Koestler’s interest in parapsychology  https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/parapsychology

Have you ever seen her room?

                                 was talking with his sister on the telephone  she asked

they were talking about their nieces room

I have not

It’d blow you away. She collects PEZ dispensers.

I didnt think thered be tha many to collect

Are you kiddin’ me? I haven’t stopped to count but there’s a freestanding bookcase under her window that’s chocked-full.

Original packaging

Some, but most having been set free.

A little hoarder

The makings of a hoarder.

Best tha than otherwise

Yeah. Queer thing.

 

Whastha

She doesn’t like the candy.

Wha does she do with it

She gives it to me.

    So youre the beneficiary of her collecting PEZ dispensers

Yes.

                 What did you mean . . . otherwise?

A hoarder versus a whoreorder

Again.

Spelled W   H   O   R   E   O   R   D   E   R

                                                          Whoredering little boys heart

 

Cuz every neighbourhood needs one or more sluts

Jesus, Joe.

Wha

      Thas not derogatory

I was a slut

 

 

  Hullo

1841,  Monday,  15  6. 26

1100,  Thursday,  18  6. 26

I-balls fuckin with him again

                                   Ya have to

You’ve provided permission.

It's within your realm to rescind our abilities.

    they were correct  he could   but why would he

                                                         they were equals as adventurous as he as irreverent as blasphemous as  Fuck I coud give a shit

they were probably among the topshelf items smallenough that he jammed in his pockets because of the larger items he hoardedcarried shirtpockets jacketpockets pantspocketsfuck cinched his leather belt  dropped them inside his shirt

                       hardshelled things

couldnt crush

durable goods

  like him

Redheads

Redheads.

Redheads didnt fit within the context of wha I was reading

Which isn’t necessary, is it? 

    No  I suppose not

                           He tended his vineyards and redheads

Don’t you think?

Wouldn’t you?

On a remote estate

In France.

Orchards

That wasn’t what we saw.

Redheads  Orchards

                            Something you saw prior

Jah.

Jah

 

    Christina Hendricks.

                               Is there anything more we need say?  

1300,  Wednesday,  17  6. 26

2238,  Wednesday

Crow  Evil Woman Don’t Played Your Games With Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eta5m4xz1sg

To be or not to be

                               Who

I don’t know, although I am familia . .

. . Playwright

That’d be . . Shakespeare . . . right?

Correct

            Prince Hamlet contemplating life death existence

 

    To know or not to know

                               If or is replaced by and  thad be Orwell

To know or not to know Thas me

                                      Also Goethe To know and not do, Is not to know is.

Lotsa knowingness an not knowing goinround

                                                    Then

Whas to be done with the sense of unseeing

Unseeing?

The practise of it

                       Unseeing  Ignorance

China Miéville  The City and the City

                                          Is it more foolish and childish to assume there is a conspiracy, or that there is not?

Read it if you havent

Birke Dorothea Otto et al., 2019

                                     Ignorance involves deciding what can be talked about and what cannot be talked about, what should be remembered or forgotten, known or ignored, seen or unseen.  

Knowledge is power, but so is the control of ignorance.

                                                                                          

    What’s your point?

Boring you

Your pointwhat’s your point?

Knowing unknowing seeing unseeing knowledge dutifully ignorance

                                                                         Wha  When thas put to you

Whas your ethic

Are you circumspect

    I suspect youre not because of your willingnesslaziness to accept wha youre provided or told without vetting it  Who said it    Wha they said

                                             Terribly important

         

Is this interrogation because you don’t trust anyone?

Tha

       Also your lack of curiosity

Shall I guess

 

 

You don wanna work tha hard

    One day thall bite you in the ass

1601,  Saturday,  6  6. 26

1552,  Wednesday,  17  6. 26

Joe Cocker  You Can Leave Your Hat On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1q-CXcoB3Oo

Orwell  https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/6881337-to-know-and-not-to-know-to-be-conscious-of

Unseeing/Ignorance  https://ephemerajournal.org/content/organised-ignorance-practices-and-politics-organisation-ignorance

Otto  https://research-api.cbs.dk/ws/files/60779199/birke_otto_et_al_hidden_in_full_view_acceptedversion.pdf

Macklemore  Hinds Hall  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmg6vbt04TY

hed see if he was feelin clever this evening  wondered how he could miss with a date like 16  6. 26

                                                                                                          Lotsa 6s

Numerology  1+6+6+2+6  21  2+1  3 he was fond of threes

Tendency to thrive in an upbeatengaging atmosphere

Energy youthful an positive

Prized skill communicativehighly original embraces unique thinking creative expression its artistic curious nature allows it to convey abstract ideas  find solutions others may miss

Child at heart

                 Number 3 never misses a chance to have fun the darker the better

    he cherrypicked

                       then

randomly selecting a piece of paper he jotted on earlier

from the jot he parsed

                           buddyboy insists people ought to do threefour things  more   every day

I do

What do you do?

One eat  Two shit  Three wipe my ass

Jaysus.

Ansince Im in the neighbourhood

                                     Four  Contemplate perinium  Skin between thighs east an west

North an south vagina an anus

                                      Or   Flipped

South an north anus an vagina

Jaysus.

For men scrotum an anus anus an scrotum

if buddyboy had something to say it hungup in his throat his eyes tears was silent   not a whispernot a breath       

    Parrotineum

                       Can you imagine a beak between the two

Woud certain focus one woudnt it

a breath wheezed

                     Jaysus.

Come now  Woudya expect anything less

Expect.

           Expect.

    I never have any idea what to expect

Anits beauty

Beauty?

Neither do I

2131,  Tuesday

https://www.numerology.com/articles/about-numerology/single-digit-number-3-meaning/

Macklemore  Can’t Hold Us  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VG3JsmOmDqw

Gumption

    My phone defines it as the ability to decide what is the best thing to do in a particular situation, and to do it with energy and determination.

Huh

        I had a different definition in mind

Let me read a bit more.

                                         Something here about common sense, horse senseoh, you’ll dig this, the term’s source isn’t known, however early examples of it are found in Scottish, related terms rumblegumption and rumgumption can be found there too.

she smiled You’re tempted, huh?

Fishhooks

Yes. 

         Two, the rest on line, and the repeating of U and M has to be tantalizing.

Indubitably

Tantalized?

I have to admit I am

                        The U  M  B    U   M   P    U  M  G    U  M  P doubled   Attractive

Which of the two do you prefer, rumble to rum or otherwise?

I like that the B  L counters the G  Pbut Im a fan of dark rum an rumgumption reminds me of a knifeblade

Which?

    Wha do you mean which

There’s a variety of blades.

Are there

You’ve seen my collection.

I have

              Seems an unusual collection for a woman

You have your books.

But only a few tomes to bludgeon someone  yours lethal

Years of collecting, check this out, the blade types: needle point, spear, kukri, trailing, clip, drop, tanto, talon, hawkbill, dao, nessmuck, straightback, dagger, sheepsfoot, and wharncliffe.

Beats the pants off my butcherblock holding a chefs knife variety of paring knives of various lengths  the utility knife boning carving slicing butcher knives

                                                     I also have a cleaver

I have no need of a cleaver.

                                      Youah mentioned, you had a different definition.

Check it out  You circlin us back

                                   Usually me

Far too usually you.

                        It occurred to me so I thought I’d jump on it before you did.           You were going to jump.

Jah

        As I hadnt declared my definition

Whacha got?

Gumption

              A fancy definition for varieties of gum stuck to the bottoms of desktop an chairs

Ever

 

    I have to admit I have. You?

I chewed gum outdoors playing hardball

You strike me as someone who kept the wrapper in their pocket and when you were done chewing you wrapped it in the paper.

Jah  One of my very few moments of fastidiousness

                                                        Another word thas cracked the fishhook list

Curious you remember

Curious you’ve said.

                         Fishhook is better than awwpretty coming out of a man’s mouth.

They are

If you say.  

1559,  Monday,  15  6. 26

1034,  Tuesday,  16  6. 26

Cat Stevens  Hard Headed Woman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IsEeHFVyq08

Awright awright  from your own mouth

                                                  Cobalt blue  Chestnut brown

Elaborate

   Nothing to elaborate. Those are the colors of the male Western Bluebird.

Youve said

                   Now elaborate

What?

Outside the box

What?

Male bluebird

                       Lets talk female

Our conversation usually include paintgraft women

    The female Bluebird is drab

                                     If you were a bird  I can say       Peacock

No.

No you wont

                 I woud

A real dandy

Powdered wig

Dapper clothing

    Wha a bitch youd have been

Seventeentheighteenth Century   Baroque    Rococo

                                                            A piece of work

And you wouldn’t have been?

Fuck no

              Id have been a peasant     Thasaid

                                                         We may yet get a shot at it

Outside the box Blue   Brown

    I don’t know what you want me to say.

You say  Has nothing to do with me

I’ve no idea.

Awright

              Chestnut brown eyes or skin

              Cobalt blue eyes or skin

                                        Id opt skin either colour

A sleek oiled cobaltblueskinned woman

                                                Fuck  

    he was perplexed

Saturday afternoon,  13  6. 26

1504,  Monday,  15  6. 26

I think people ought to do several things a day to stay on top their game.  Builds character.

As opposed to wha

Uum . .

. . A career rote day-in day-out

                                     Gotta eat

No.

       I was thinking along the lines of once someone has . .

. . Been fortunate enough to retire before theyre dead

                                                              Have the means

Sure. Why not?

Like now

            If someones retired they shouldnt be sittin on their asses  take a cooking class text church lady offer themself as a project  Turn me

You have to make it personal?

Do running errands count

Running errands?

Youre constantly running them

Please. 

A project

            Thad be dishonest  Personal

Cant turn a gay straight cant turn an atheist

    You tell me

It wouldn’t be about religion.

You said project earlier

                            Whawoud tha be about

    Can’t believe I have to explain to you.

I think I know

                 I just happen to believe thas not true

Companionship.

                  Female companionship. Being with women makes better men of us.

As I thought

               Regarding your amendment

I thoroughly disagree

You think around women you’re not a better man?dress better, shave more often, use deodorant, cologne.

pointing to his closecropped beard  No

 

No.

No

     Im no different around women than when Im around men

Although men evaporate from sight                                                            

Nothing they have interests me

    So you as you often say  play to the room

                                                     I find tha dishonest

Yaoughta be who you are

I disagree.

Yes you do  Ive seen you in action whard broheim go

                                                Oh  Tralala

Dishonest

I’m not. I have other sides, face . .

. . Facets

             Please

Save tha shit for the woman youre tryin to hoodwink or who will hoodwink you

1852,  Sunday,  14  6. 26

1302,  Monday,  15  6. 26

Who  The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y1c3xllo8c