incentivised ?

                               hed say enthused

enthusiastic

wasnt profiting

he was innately pro-fittedinnately bound by habitreminded him of a line from a series he was watching  Industry

           It’s only an addiction if you can’t afford it.  brilliant

                                                 

he could afford his habit

                           was 

in another manner of saying

                                habitchualised

third of three sweet bitches it was his great fortune to know

 

Brother. You need to get out, socialize.

                                        his Irish twin

Brother  Youre not one to talkbe very grateful your wifes not dead

 

 

awkward silence

 

What’s that supposed to mean?

Wha I said

I’m not following you.

You never havethink

                                Who do you socialise with  I see three people on occasion

    No

Correct me ifIm wrong

You see your wifes friends your daughters friends your grandchilds pre-school classmates parents

What’s your point?

Corwreckly his brother wouldnt question himthought  correctly  a form of socialising

                                                                                   But tell me

Tell me the last time you went out with a buddy for a beer coffee bite to eat hung with them or you entertained

Last time

 

 

awkward silence

 

Don tell me I need to get out

Im enthusiastically enjoying myself doing what I wanna do when I want

                                                                                   Unencumbered

    Cucumbers in my chopped salad

Coudnt resist

1132,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

. . . chopped salad of her unconscious

                                           paints a pretty picturewasnt hers  would have loved otherwise

from Bat eater and other names for Cora Zengcolon a novel by Kylie Lee Baker

an unexpected friend turned her onto it

on an American flight leaving Phoenix

she was on the aisle

unexpected  middle seat  tableback down scribbling feverishlylooked feverish  

                                                                                      You have to provoke me

she lookedup immediately

                             Excuse me?

Youre lefthanded

her look Duh

Me too

lefties relate immediately

                           they should have been otherwise

her grandmother when her Mom left her in Grammas care would bind her hand shut

Mama tore Gramma a new asshole when she returned unexpected and found her bound

Gramma

Old Country

A lefthanded child is an evil child.

she had a few boyfriends who might agree with her

                                                       exploring her sexuality she found them wanting

Hit the road Jack

 

unexpected and she hit if off

the flight brokedown when backed up

towed forward  deplaned   walked to another gate in another concourse

Phoenix is spreadout even wider than she could spread her legs

boarded an aircraft

no airconditioning

good thing unexpected was beside her

they sweat forty minutes though were cooler than other passengers for the conversations they breezed through

flight was cancelled  Mechanical

they were informed to go to another gatejah  in a another concourse

arriving at that gate agents informed them there wasnt a crew to fly the aircraft and departure would be the following morning

it was that following morning

                            unexpected took up Americans comped Uber ride and motel

she lefthanded Luddite  spent the night at the terminal

                                                              couldnt fall asleep   bugged

by the chopped salad of her unconscious

wish she recognised it as that and would have said so before Kylie Lee Baker published it

    shed have beaten Kylie

150preferred,  Wednesday,  3  6. 26

1048,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

The Mamas & The Papas  California Dreamin’  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wbld9mv9APw

raw clay

Tolkien

Suck on tha

Aren’t you being more than a little rude?

No

       Wish he were walkinround kickin

Id crossed the pond to West Midlands rural hamlet Sarehole where he grewup to Oxford 20 Northmoor Road 3 Manor Road 99 Holywell Street 76 Sandfield Road Headington  he coudnt hide from me if he tried

                                                                                                             So

Turns out death can be a fine hidin place

 

Raw clay doesnt impress you

shrugged Words.

    Poetic  Raw clay imagery

Imagery?

                No.  Nothin . .

. . Your fuckin brain deadyour brain could be raw clay

                                                          Were it Id scoop out a handful throw it at a wall see ifitll stick scoop out another avoid your optic nervesId want you to see an toss it on a potters wheel fashion a goblet fire it unglazed so when its filled maybe that wetness will relate to you better than   words

  

1430,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

1002,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

Emerson, Lake & Palmer  Brain Salad Surgery  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTLsNRpxcuk

    they think youre alone

but they dont take into account your pets your ashes your ghosts the sixAM peacock alarm sevenAM neighbours fighting as theyre going to separate cars to go to work eightAM travel alarm that on occasion as this morning sets itself

                           she did say ghosts

It’s unhealthy.

Maw  You were married at nineteen had me when you werent yet twenty

                                                                              How can you say Im unhealthy

It’s implied her

                   her mother could be explicit although saved that for others wouldnt be with her

she could say I am my mothers daughter  but held her tongue

 

was it unhealthy her mother had eight children

were her ghosts  unhealthy

                               they have a fantastic relationship

she believed in her heart of hearts better than most

                                                          their ghosts terrified them

they didnt relatedidnt seek intimacy

 

No Maw

             Its healthy

0827,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

Alicia Keyes  Fallin’  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Urdlvw0SSEc

backhands work two ways

hes dismayed by too many people who believe themselves clever and jumps them when they insult him and theyby their expression are mortified

                                           Thought youd slip tha by me

You have no idea how many times people try to insult me but havent the balls to say so directly

                                                                                                      Cunts

Youre a cunt

               Honestly

I have no problem tellin you to your face

 

still  backhands come

who knew there could be so many idiots

his turn

          Im reading a book by Helen Lewis  The Genius MythcolonThe Dangerous Allure of Rebels Monsters an Rule Breakers

Do tell.

I am

I had to write this down so I coud share with youspecifically  you broheim   

    Im quoting

                  Something about the subject of intelligence  she cites IQ tests  has a warping effect on its most furious proponents broheim was though its probably the other way around  the subject seems to attract people who are neurotically fixated with dominance  broheim was

Lewis insists genius be applied to works

                                              Not individuals

    Whadaya think

Seems plausible.

Broheim  ya think

1344,  Monday,  8  6. 26

1531,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

taunting him in a text  :  :  It gives me a sense of purpose ended with some fuckin emoji 

this from a man who believes or says he believes nothing has a purpose except for a thing manufactured

                                                                                                      You know.

Has a designer.

Going Biblical on me

Biblical?

Designer  God

Maybe.

his return text  :  :  you have no purpose according to broheim  him

  :  :  I’ll try to help you understand this concept tomorrow… vet teleology

  :  :  nah  been beat like a dead horse

  :  :  Yet barely scratched the surface

  :  :  ruined the veneer

I’ll wait for next year’s model to come out

 

he decided hed revive the dead horse

vetted teleology

hed hang broheim

 

 

Listenup

What?

Were puttin teleology to bed once an for all

You vetted it.

I did

        You shoud have

Hit me with your best shot.

Ya listening  Im quoting

                            The philosophical study of nature action objects Explains why things are the way they are the way they are based on what they are meant to achieve

Woud you agree something is achieved by purpose

                                                          Donbe a prick

    asif he was thinking momentarily to be a prick  I would.

Teleology contrasts cause an effect

                                       It explains things solely by how they originated It looks at their intended outcome or function

Youd agree function is what something does

Yes.

Its function its purpose why it exists

    Yes.

 

Then you woud agree things have a purpose

                                               Because

Not a week ago you were insisting nothing has a purposeexcept  manufractured things

Being recreant

Recreant? You mean miscreant?

No  Abandoning purpose

                              Faithless

2057,  Monday,  8  6. 26

1237,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

Pat Benatar  Hit Me With Your Best Shot  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aU5aDqLUvug

GRIM  Chelsea Grin  Recreant  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ca6B2uMCoc

Did my birthday letter come yet

Not yet. I’ve kept an eye out.

Wha the hell

              Been  tha was ThursdayFriday  Friday    Shit This Friday two weeks

Whadadfuck

The pony die

The pony die?

Pony Express Beginning of our postal service albeit a private endeavor

Ah.  History.

You knew it

I did. You reminded me.

                            Dead pony, awfully cursory.

I tend to be when I know what Im talkin about

                                                    I apologise

Not necessary Papa. I know that about you.

                                               If someone doesn’t get it you don’t get exercised.

You’re more patient than me.

Ive more practise

                      As long as I can remember my words thoughts go over peoples heads

Then I explain myself

They can corroborate

I woudnt say if I didnt know anif they disagree they disagree

                                                                       Aint tryin to convince anyone

You are good that way.

Thanks kiddo

                     Grampa send you a card

He did. Hilarious.

Really

Yeah. Let me get up and take it down from the refrigerator, I don’t want to get it wrong.

 

Here we go.

              On the card’s front, Men dot dot dot Can’t live with them . . open it up . . Can’t play mind games without them.

together they burst out laughing

 

Then at the bottom he wrote happy birthday, love and buzies.

Funny funny guy

1244,  Wednesday,  10  6. 26

1142,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

Lennon  Mind Games  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QLeObvcUii4

Suck it Donny

  classic projection

                         indubitably true

carry on felon tralala

                         he describes Graham Platner “... worse than any human being that’s ever run for office” “He’s a low-level thug. … he’s just an outright pig.”  https://www.ms.now/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/why-trump-wrong-messenger-case-against-maine-platner

 

Which Side Are You On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0HvM3o23L0

Platner Victory speech  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ovj0H_Rws3Y

                                                                                         Suck it Donny

1440,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

Wha ya got

               Heaven or reincarnationor as I like saying  reincarceration

You know heaven’s off the table.

I do

    I really haven’t given reincarnation much thought.

the conversation commenced by him asking buddy if he was familiar with bardo

                                                                                     Yakiddin’ me. Brigitte.

What red-blooded man in the world, women for that matter, doesn’t know Brigitte Bardot?

Bardo  Not Bardot

                        B  A  R  D  O

Tibetan Gap

                The state of existence intermediate between two lives on earth  kind of like a holding pen till your ship out comes in like me waiting in line to come in through the door that a meaty bouncer guards  Im lookinround  Everyone else is looking forward  Saw behind us shelves of goods  I picked from the top shelf arms too full had to forego the really big cock for the priorities I held

    Alas  Never to be a porn star

Jaysus.

Alas  I digress

                    Bardo  Or rather bardos

No. I have not heard of it.

Read it recently in Saunders Lincoln in the Bardo  Excellent

Tibetan.

          Why do you know it?

Cursorily I went through the Tibetan Book of the Dead  Bardo Thodol   Fascinating

                                                                                         There are six

The bardo of Life  of Dream  of Meditation  of Death  of Dharmatā  Isness   The bardo of Becoming

    Cursorily?

Jah  Titles

               I cant elaborateem

That’s something.

Care to known what I think

I’ve come this far. What?

A Catholics heaven

 

    Yeah?

Is actually reincarnation

                           They aint parkin their dead asses in heaven for the rest of eternity

Theyll be incentivised

chuckled

             Incentivised?  Yeah?

Jah

       Catholics think heaven holds only catholics

Its actually a huge threeD sphere holding the dead celebrants of all the worlds religions

                                                                                             Bummer huh

    Man.

            If there were a Heaven, you’d go to Hell.   

1527,  Tuesday,  9  6. 26

1048,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

https://www.chronicleproject.com/transcending-madness-the-experience-of-the-six-bardos-by-chogyam-trungpa/

https://www.bodhicittasangha.org/six-bardos-karma-lingpa/#:~:text=The%20Six%20Root%20Verses%20of,the%20Six%20Bardos&text=Bardo%20of%20Life&text=Bardo%20of%20Dream&text=Bardo%20of%20Meditation&text=Bardo%20of%20Death&text=Bardo%20of%20Dharmat%C4%81&text=Bardo%20of%20Becoming

leaning forward he took a long drag on a handrolled cigarette shag tobacco and papers cheaper than manufactured ones

he leaned away

                 buddy was notorious for disregardingexhaling into peoples faces

 

the smoky breath came the gulf was sufficient it disarticulated

                                                                       buddy didnt notice

So, man, why is it women, at least women I’ve dated, like scary movies?

Yawatch withem

I did.

        Didn’t much care for them, but the girls were gaga, shrieked like nobody’s business, clutched their hands, knees came uprocked back in the couchMyGod! that was terrifying.

    They terrorized themselves.

What’s that all about?

You ever ask

No.  Watching the flicks portend sex afterwards.

                                                      I nixed anything that might curtail that.

I’m not stupid.

 

I can imagine frightening films might hone their instincts in a less threatening environment.

    Less threatening. 

                            leaning back into the chair he took another long deep pullcheeks sucked in What are you talking about?

Out an about with men

Men?

You recall the barmaid closing  not two weeks ago  she said she wished management would walk her to her carhad to keep her head on the swivel keys in handremember  the keyring  spiked knuckles too many freaks were approaching her

                                  A goodlookin woman  A bright light to fluttering Deathshead moths

She didn’t say that.

No

      I have   Her point

She was frightened

    So what’s your point?

In an innocuous unthreatening place  they can safely hone like a steeling a knife their ifya will  survival skills

We walk around like louts not fearing other men

                                                    Im not keen on scary film

Probably the reason why

Bring it on   

1527,  Tuesday,  9  6. 26

1047,  Wednesday,  10  6. 26

the confessions of a paper boy turn journalist  “Mostly, I liked the silence and solitude.”

                                                                                               published in

The New Yorker

he could relate

                       although

men commiserate of his age who meeting  talking with  once in a bluer moon blue moons are frequent  every twoanahaf years  said they had a paper route

                                                       although

he dominated his route ten years

                                    filled that slot

had also consolidatedconsumed a second  taking it over 

the then paperboy handed it to him

                                       which the Office saw no reason to snuff

paper boy

way he saw it

had to get up in the morning for school anyways

                                                         he too liked the citys morning silence  solitude

1257,  Tuesday,  9  6. 26

who knew  Bill Haley and His Comets  The Paper Boy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gb0xj9mwFZk