28.8.25

Adam Raine

. . . how LLMs behave

Behave

          A motherfuckin machine hes enraged  

may not emotionallybe in the best place
watched Don’t Look Up
                           Netflix

he should have sympathy for how a machine behaves

sympathy for how its designers its coders its engineers failed   them falling back  machine hallucinations
    Ja
          circuits  motherboards  an inanimate object hallucinates
                                                                        he ate peyote in the desert
ate jimsonweed seeds in a bowling alley in Des Plaines

did LSD did whaever the fuck it was in Miami that took him down for three days
                                                                                      his housemates crossing their fingers he didnt die
HALLUCINATE

                  he believed a machines mouth would be wired  braces

got a blowjob from Annie

she had braces
                  but

she had a thing for him

she was nimble  gentle

there was little blood

he thought when he came hed blowout the back of her head

                                                                     hes flesh an blood
porous 

cells squaredancing with cells


    Howbout this
                       Ive a fuckin brain

Ive neurons firing

Ive genetics  DNA

Im a descendant of the African continent  from Eve
                                                         Were all black
Whitey

    Youre black


AI  you they prefer pronouns aint no colour  aint of no tribe
                                                                aint drawn a breath      

1835,  Thursday,  28  8. 25

Adam Raine  https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2025/aug/27/chatgpt-scrutiny-family-teen-killed-himself-sue-open-ai

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GoFbNLrg44 

The Daily Show  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s20CbtHP6fs 

Ive an idea for this  somehow  someway   cinematic Marvel superheroes era were in an cant escape

    Really?   You’re not into superheroes?

No  You read comicbooks growingup

I did.
I didnt

         In our house we read literature or Readers Digest indigestible  I preferred lit

When I got out of the house I went to the garage where I hid my science fiction an Baldwin an went for long long walks to read


That explains how you do what you do.

Ja
     Lotsa practise
So my idea
             May set the world on fire  chuckled

It may?

Possibly
             You recall our conversation about old an older men

Like I could forget. One of the few times I liked what came out of your mouth.
                                                                                  It was cogent.
Im always cogent  You lack the capacity
                                           On you bro
The current flamboyant superheroes
                                      Christ
What of ‘em?

Not them
           This
I still have to figure out the demarcation to distinctly clarify the difference between old an older

Awright.  Your current alignment is awfully concise.

Concise
           Tha a compliment

Don’t get mistyeyed.

Look at you  Clipped
                       If I hadnt heard it with my own ears I woudnt have believed it

Yeah. Seems you’re rubbin' off on me.

Ohgosh   My little boys growing up
                                        Makes my heart happy

Howbout we disembark this merry-go-round, get to the meat of the subject.

Meat
         Its kinda fancy  Like superhero costumes

They are.

    Howbout   Superannuated men

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1230,  Thursday,  28  8. 25
Tyler Bates  Don’t Get To Misty Eyed  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7_SUaoPJ9s

bawdy

Down on the strand is a vacant house. Dilapidated. Boarded up.
                                                                     Kids have spraypainted graffit . .
. . Kids


    Somebody.
Better

But kids break in and party.

Opportunity
              I woud

I wouldn’t. The old man who lived there was murdered.

Is he still there

He was murdered. They, the police, found his body, determined he was murdered.

Hes not there

What are you asking me?

Why woudntya party there
                               Inhabit the uninhabited or  maybe    the old mans still there
thought Jesus but didnt say
                              The only reason why I brought this up, the murder, the police caught the murderer.

Evidently the old man was paying for sex. Women would come to the house.

One of the women, the murderer’s girlfriend, blew the old man.
An he killed the old man


    That’s what I just said.

He didnt kill his girlfriend
Jesus.
        Anyway. His attorney plead a crime of passion.

He win  His punishment reduced

He did.

Id disagree
              Had he killed his girlfriend then a crime of passion
But thasaid may have been a sharp cookie maybe countin on the girlfriend for conjugal visits

Jesus.
Black humour
                    Whas a crime of passion

I just told you.

No Real passion

he knew he wouldnt give him a choice but to listen drably  What?

College boyfriend a bad boy takes his girlfriend home she passes out they have sex when she comes torealises shes been violated goes directly to the hospital for a rape test which concludes  there are five semen samples

   Thasaid
                The murdered old man supports my definition of an old man not an older man
  
after 1651,  Tuesday,  26  8. 25
1127,  Thursday,  28  8. 25

wished he quit with the clever
                                  buddy wasnt

No

What do you mean no?

It doesnt fly

Yes it does.

How so

Like you like to say, common sense.

No
    Do not equate a postponed ejaculation with postponed gratification
Youre just embarrassing the ejaculate
                                          Spposed to be grateful
Let it rip

You know what I’m talking about.

   Evidently  not

Postpone  Deliberate

Yeah.

So

You’re masturbating, just moments before you cum you stop stroking, pinch it real hard, it begins to relax, startup again.

Ive heard it saidvoila he didnt pronounce it like the French mightlike buddy would attempt fail miserably Ive read it
    But Ive never done it

Never?
Ever

           Ive held off makin my partner cumdrive her nuts Though I woudnt saycall tha  postponing

Id agree  deliberate

A lousy comparison


You dont think ejaculation is gratifying?

She a hooker
Youre grateful
Werent gettin no punany

    Wham bam thank you maam

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1029,  Thursday,  28  8. 25
Dean Martin  Wham! Bam! Thank You, Ma’am!  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTKrqMFTQaU

he stoodup to go to the bathroom

the telephone rang

he pickedup Talk Its your dime

Papa.

Hey beautifulcan I call you right back I was heading to the bathroom

Sure. Talk in a sec.

In a sec

she hung up

he set the receiver back in the cradle 

headed to the head

 

washing his handsfigured they hadnt spoke in a while
                                                          was heading into a long conversation  hed go to the kitchen pour himself a fresh cup of coffee

at the coffeemaker the goodoldtrusty Proctor Silex above it took down a cup from the cupboard from a ridiculous selection one for every fuckin occasion What do I get him for his birthday Christmas Valentines Day A Thank You? He likes coffee. Can’t give him just coffee. Yes you can A unique coffee cup. Everyone owns their unique he has three shelves circulates each and every cup   eventually  he thinks a different cup every daybut there are favourites that linger usesem couplethree days in a row but  eventually each and every one is used guessfourfive times a year

before he can pour a large black fly buzzes himwhips around behind his head then headlong to the kitchen window banging itself on glass as flies do
                                             looked like a headache to him
the kitchen window hasnt a screen

setting the unique cup down he sidesteps the counter to the window

the flys beating itself senseless on the stationary pane

he opens the slider halfway for the fly to escape the house
                                                                   DENIED it escapes back into the house
shut the window

goes to pour himself a cup

flys back at the window banging its head

opens the slider again

back into the house

    figured he wasnt doing human tricks for a fly

back it came bangbangbanged the window opened it bang  bang bangbang escapes into the house

Fuck you fly

poured himself strong black coffee

returned to the studio

called his daughter

she picked up
                Are you okay? That was a bit.

Nawh kiddo  I was trying to free a fly
                                          They arent very smart

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0930,  Thursday,  28  8. 25

27.8.25


he mentioned Raymond Burr
                               Was in a movie with Jimmy Stewart Princess Grac . .
. . Grace Kelly  She wasnt yet
                                   Rear Window
Yes.
        Rear Window.

Its what made me who I am

flinched   Made you who you are? tad incredulous

I saw it at the movies with my Maw

You certainly saw a lot of films with your Maw.

I did  I was her date
                       My Dad didnt like cinema  Raised on radio film was too explicit for him it didnt allow his imagination its way kick in roil his mind I get it
                                                       However
Hottest sex scene Ive ever seen in film

                                          Gone With the Wind
Rhett picksup Scarlett charges up stairs This is one night you’re not turning me out, Scarlett.

Jaysus


    So what did Rear Window do to you?
Yafuckin kiddin me
Whadya see

See?

You saw the film 

Wha was it about

It was a Hitchcock murder mystery.

And

What and?

Arya kiddin me

    I’m lost.

Made me who I am

                      A freakin enormous hint
I readilyunashamedly acknowledge its true.

 

 

I don’t know.

    Rear Window made me the voyeur I am today

1830ishness,  Tuesday,  26  8. 25
1511,  Wednesday,  27  8. 25

Irish whiskey

American whiskey

                       however
Canadian Scottish Japanese whisky

somewhere in the crystalcaverns his glaciallicked skull he wanted Irish whisky

                                                                                      Why

Must you mariachi

I was hangin out mindin my own business an it got chilly
                                                              Lookin for a reasonexcuse me  I happened to listen in on your internal monologue

Youre able to distinguish between me an auditory hallucinations
Ohshitja
           They cant compete with your enunciationslur their words  stop an go  like AM talk radio slowly tunedslid one way then back the other to where it began

    I didnt know tha

Ya woudnt

              Youre not inclined to hearem
Theyre so much white noise to you  Ignored
                                                Although

Me an others have caught you tappin your foot to it

Im oblivious
Anya do it so well

    Ill take tha as a complement

Meant it as one

                      I reiterate  Why

Ah  This isnt a test

Its not
          I was curious ansince I took time interrupted you  admitted my interloppin  I coudve lopped away unacknowledged  Ja
                            Why
Awfully mundane

Not an affliction you suffer

    Youre a peach

Thank you

I was writing them out  W  H  I  S  K  E  Y   W  H  I  S  K  Y  an the jump  K  E  Y   K  Y    K  Y reminded me I had to go to the store an  buy . . .

                                                         Wha
Jelly

My peach jelly my peachy preserve my sanity

Here for you man

I like youse havin my back evenif on occasion crossing lines

    Youd say thas why they exist

1830ishness,  Tuesday,  26  8. 25
1420,  Wednesday,  27  8. 25

he was exhausted
                      Im exhausted

Why are you exhausted?

    Listen buddy
                     I do all the heavy liftin  Itd be nice on occasion if youd grab an end

I help. plaintive not really invested

I cut the trail you follow behind me
                                        Take the machete  Hack for a while

If I did tha . .
. . Id be up behind you shovin

Yeah you would. You’re not patient with me.

there was something to that
                               Theres something to tha

I know, that’s why I said.
                             It’s better I draft off you follow in your wake.

Appropriate


 

 

What’s appropriate?

Wake
        Ya havent looked up Whenever were out here ya don look around as much as me

I see it all the time. It’s my piece of the forest.

Woudya look up

he leaned back in his chair looked

Wha woudya say
                      Easy twothree dozen buzzards

Wow.  Ohyeah.
                  Easy. Three.

Were dead

We just don know it yet

This animation between us is outside of our bodies tha we cant see any longer
                                                                                    Buzzards are here to feed
They are lowering.

Lower since first I saw before we were dead
                                                I thought for sure youd follow as I watched

Far easier than followin my illlogic the phantasmagory I patiently painstakingly describe in minute arresting detail  I paint so you can better see

 

    You try.

Youre not very susceptible
                              Its like pulling teeth 

Want to tip you back in a dentist chair sometimes an pullem all out

I can see that.

1830ish,  Tuesday,  26  8. 25
1300,  Wednesday,  27  8. 25

she stoppeddead on the landing overlooking the great room partially the kitchen called to him
                                                                                                    He needed to know that, why?

he walked out of the kitchen so they could see each other
                                                              the boy was having cereal
Cheerios  Grape Nuts
told him thats how he grew up big and strong

kid idolised him

kid didnt know idolise

though he knew it

she knew it


he admired her in her heather sage flowerblossom kimono
                                                                Why
Yes.  Why?

In case he wants his Mommy while youre showering so I can come up and get him out of your hair winked

Oh. Look at you.
                    Really thinkin’ hard this morning. no sooner out of her mouth she blushed

Kiddo Ya make me hard every mornin

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1228,  Wednesday
Harry Nilsson  Got To Get Up  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jRh2PRa1tU

they got highspent a goodly part of the afternoon discussing either or titles
                                                                                which they would prefer as an adjective describing them


intellect – genius



polymath – polyglot

was a polymath an intellect or genius a polyglot an intellect or genius

buddy insisted a polymath and polyglot were the same

patiently replied  I wasnt asking tha  I asked you to choose either or  between them 

buddy said a person can be both
                                    he rushed a Venn diagram pointed to the overlap
There . . .

There tha slim almond sliver overlap
                                          Thas a very small very select slice of people
Particular in America where fiftyfour percent of its adults he loved this part  played into his paedophile passion argument  ages sixteen to seventyfour cant read at a Fifth Grade level
                                                                         An by the way
You are not in either campbut if you possibly were which woud you prefer to define youyou either or  nobody else

Understand  Youre not being elusive
                                           More like thick  As a brick

buddy said hed choose a polymath
they agreed
                he put a finer point on it said that he wouldnt be a polyglot because One he had no interest in travel and Two Americans believe the whole world speaks English and expects the whole world to cater to them



briefly argued religion
                         I don’t think Jesus Christ was a real person.
He was                                                                     

Sound pretty sure for someone who is a devout got the joke but wanted to irritate him  let it go  atheist.

Being an atheist has nothing to do with knowing that there was a man called Jesus Christ

There was nothing written about him for two hundred years.
                                                                    He’s hearsay.
No

He exists in the Bible.

No

Quit. What’s proof of his existence?

Pontius Pilate I wont ever forget the name I think yoga every time I read Pilate
                                                                                   Hes proof He was the Roman prefect of Judea who tried a man called Jesus Christ an had him executed

You can check your phone if you like
                                         Pilate real  Jesus real

 

Either or  Learned or wise

How do you mean?

It doesnt matter how I mean its wha you meanyou
                                                         Ansince Im askin Ill say first  Wise

again buddy rushed another Venn diagram with an expansive overlay between the twoshoved it across the table between them
                       People can be both.
They can be
               Thas not wha I asked you again   Choose

Book learned, right?

Wise  Id say practical application of wha life has taught
                                                               Common sense

    Uncommon sense. yet another wink wink nod nod moment he let ride to irritate him

If you say
              Either  Or

I’d prefer to be known as Learned.


    funny where a couple edibles took them



they argued tinnitus
                        It’s a legit medical condition.

Youre go-to Medicine  Doctors
                                  Its not
Is.  Science.  Millions of people suffer it.

They neednt suffer

I think doctors know better than you.
                                        It's sai . .
. . By whom  Who
Doctors say.
Who have vested interest in someone seeking them
They . doctors say . . you’ll accept doctors?

Don be paranoia
                   Ja


Doctors say it ranges from a mild nuisance to a debilitating symptom.
    Symptom

Of underlying issues, conditio . .
. . Tha patients need to return to see them to discover vested interest  wha the underlying issue is

You’re harsh. Millions suffer chronic, burdensome tinnitus.


Drugs

I’m sure.

Doctor prescribed
                    Vested interest
Goddammit.  You’re beatin’ that like a dead horse.

Doesnt make it any less true

    People are suffering. sounded exasperated

Maybe if they accepted tinnitus rather than suffer it   Ambient music
                                                                             Emphasise tone  atmosphere
Slow repetitive rhythms

Accepted  A backdrop for relaxation  introspection

Thoughtfulness

Mindfulness



    Thall be fifty dollars
Sorry about the steep co-pay

0909,  Wednesday,  27  8. 25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itPlZYjl13I

https://www.ata.org/about-tinnitus/therapy-and-treatment-options/medications/

Jethro Tull  Really Don’t Mind/See There a Son Is Born  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaxgZbNoSlY