. . . I’m sorry, please stop.

Stop 

Yes.  Please.

 

 

she put her hand to her mouthcleared her throat

he remained stopped

 

    This was conversation you had with your daughter over the telephone.

Ja

Why were you talking about that?

An idea I had for square coffinsspace saving Why shoud everyone be buried laying on their backs whaif they werent back sleepers

                               Id guess most people arent so why enter eternity on their backs

    You sleep on your back.

Ja but my shoulders are shit from surgeries

                                               On occasion I do sidesleep but knowin when I turn in an hour  maybe a touch more   pain will wake me an Im back on my back again

I think people woud prefer burial in the fetal position

 

Square coffins

                Thas how our discussion of rigor mortis set in  Decomposition

As I thought Enzymes begin breaking down muscle protein in threefour hours  the body becomes elastic pliable again

Fetal position

Square

 

You don’t think that’s a bizarre conversation for one to have with their daughter?

No Im not being buried

                          Im thinkin either an industrial Waring blender  made into a smoothie or  or   as my daughter mentioned  tossed in a bagfetal a mycelial burial  let mushrooms have their way with me or   or a First People open air scaffold burial unburied

    I think it’s bizarre.

Please

         You know me to be bizarreJa 

took a deep breath

                        You’re right.   I don’t know what I was thinking.

That’s you.

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she pushed back from the table

the tablecloth crinkled under her hands

she lifted them the cloth straightened itself

Can I take tha he asked her

I can.

Im getting up for coffee Ill take it

standinghe took her dinner plate his crossed over to the sink set them down beside it

from the cupboard he took two mugs set them beside the Proctor Silex coffeemaker

                                                                                       Thanks for making coffee babe

Babe.   It is curious that you grant inanimate objects names, express your gratitude to them for them.

Not so much I look at it this way

                                       If Im reincarcerated I hav . .

. . What?

Wha wha

Reincarcerated.

Ja

    My word for smiled large at her obviously   reincarnated

she smiled loved her dimples

                             Ah, I see.

    If I am it woudnt be impossible I woudnt come back as something inanimate  I believe we have it in our headsvery human of us well come back as human beings

If I were to come back no matter wha   Id like to be appreciated

I appreciate babe

Ive had her more than ten years Shes always been there for me

he crossed to the fridge opened ithad poured cream into a creamer

                                                                       Ive had supposed friends who didnt make ten

set it on the table

returned to babe poured two mugs

crossed back to the table set one before her  one to his chair  sat

she remained pushed back bounced the cream 

he held his mug up to her Na Zdrowie

Sure. she laughed dimples blewup

                                Why not?Na Zdrowie.

they clicked eclectic ceramic mugs

    Ohmy. I really like this coffee.   Big Bang?

Ja  A treat tonight

                    Doesnt hit my price point I don have it

Hit it.

It didthough I had to buy three to get the price

 

So . . .

    So

Do you think luck, being lucky, has influenced, played a part in your life?

Id have to think

I don think much of luckmore think German unglück  unluck

                                                                  Which I take to mean  freed of luck

Maybe I have thought enough

Nah

         Ive not been lucky

If I were

Id be a gambler

Im not

You

Unglück.  I didn’t see that comingbut I did think you’d say you weren’t lucky.

                                                                                   You’ve said you grew up a product of hardknocks.

Ja  absentlynodding

Hardknocks.

                   she mused  musing looked good on her  her countenance  like watching summer clouds simmer fold against a bright blue sky  a tropic sky

                                Hardknocks aren’t lucky.

Thasaid  Ive been fortunate

                                 No regrets

    Anyou

she held the mug in both hands at her breasts warmth  leaned forward from the hips set it down leaned across the tableher breasts at the tablecloth

                                                I’m lucky I met you.

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1104,  Saturday,  16  8. 25

Pianza  A Shadow’s Lament  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4eZxLOpPXIU

Danse Macabre  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQhocGOheSc

So haveya given it any thought

I don’t like thinkin’ about it.

Not thinkin about it aint gonna stop it

                                            If it did everybody woudnt

Wouldn’t that be kick in the seat of the pants?

Not really

           A lottery woud have to be run to eliminate the excess

Ya bitch theres too many people right nowmore than eight billion

Don think about it

Don die

JaysusChrist

 

Ridiculous.

                       No.  I haven’t given it any thought.

You?

Ja

      Just now

Ifya did think   Cremation

    shaking his head Not givin’ this up?

Nah   Were conversing

You’re making me think of it.

Well I want you to die     

 

You want me to die.

You wanna live forever

                          Or at least until you win lose  at the lottery

Have to be escorted out

Sanitaryhuh

Euphemistic

               Not die

Escorted

 

    If I say can we change the subject?

Howbout I say I usually do  an then if youd like  well change the subject

                                                                              Ifya think about youre not having to think about it I am

I’ll be thinkin’ about it while you’re talkin' about it.

Then quickly

Quickly.

Feed the planet

If Im cremated smoke into the atmosfear  F  E  A  R  versus  S  P  H  E  R  E  we keep poisoning the air we wont have to think about dying we will  Aint keen on suffocation

                                                                             But I digress

So nix cremation

Still got a body to lose

Youre deadset against cannibalism  Although I think Id make a tasty dish

Nix barbecue

My idea

Feed Gaia

Undress me

Bathe me

Put me in an appropriatelysized industrial Waring blender  doesnt have to be glass ifya don wanna watch

I think Ive got enough juice blood in me to make a reasonable smoothie

Feed Gaia

 

Jesus Christ.

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https://www.worldometers.info/world-population/#google_vignette

Beyond the Ghost - The Slow Agony of Solitude  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUv2KgMkI-k

Ohwow

            Republican freaks keep creeping out like bugs from rotting baseboards

Missouris US representative Eric Burlison

Floridas Anna Paulina Luna Tick tock I’m a little cuckoo clock

                                                                          they were electedwon  elections  

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/interdimensional-beings-congressional-republicans-head-weird-paths-rcna225068?cid=eml_maddow_20250815&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

https://www.esquire.com/news-politics/politics/a65666938/eric-burlison-missouri-representative-ancient-giants-nephilim/

    Burlisons Nephilim a mysterious group mentioned in the Bible  Genesis 6:4 & Numbers 13:33  believed giant offspring sons of God and human women

                                                    he believes the Smithsonian is hiding skeletal evidence 

    Floridas peachykeen Luna said Congress has seen evidence of interdimensional being

https://thehill.com/homenews/house/5451464-luna-lawmakers-evidence-interdimensional-beings/

Well well  well

                  Thall teach him

he wrote earlier in the day about angelwing bells

 

Im just pleased angels remain

                                   If I were an I had my druthers Id be gone of this world an find me another

1426,  reggaefriday,  15  8. 25

cuckoo  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YXxD4ctE0f4

What’s that?

they were talking on the phone she was walking her dog

Whas wha

    That sound.

Sound

Sssh      Can you hear that?

 

No Nothing  Just you

You have a doorbell?

Me No

    It sounds like a doorbell.

Mebbe  an angel just got their wings

                                       Anya got to hear

Mebbe angelwing bells have been upgraded to meet the times a security camera doorbell ding

JesusPapa

Opens a whole new can of worms donit

    If ya say . . .

 

Im just pleased angels remain

                                   If I were an I had my druthers Id be gone of this world an find me another

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1028,  reggaefriday,  15  8. 25

Beatles  Don’t Let Me Down  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byQOeW4R5q8

he heard him out . . .

                         Awright okay  I coud live with tha

But wingmans gotta go

Never had one woudnt be one definitelywont be yours

You’re such a prick.

    Probably why I never needed one

You’re so fuckin’ hilarious.

Probably why I never needed one

I coud tolerate being called a red team membernot take offence

You understan . .

. . Yes  Though woud rather be called a murder boarder rigorously critique ideas proposals projects identify weaknesses flaws potential problems

                                            Ja

Id be your murder boarder

Thasaid   Woud consume a lot of my time

Good thing we don hangout a lot

Red team member, an exper . .

. . Im not

Let  me  finish.

    Emulates the tactics and techniques of a malicious attacker to test an organization’s, a person’s, security position.

Yasaid  Had it all loaded up in your phone

I did.

Knew you were going that road

I did.

To provoke me

Did I?

No

     Call me murder boarder

Melville

           Youll have to excuse me for stepping on your toes

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1007,  reggaefriday,  15  8. 25

the mockery & hilarity of convicted sexual abuser & 34-count felon continues

after announcing a Special November 4 redistricting election IF Texas elects to do so California governor Gavin Newsom’s press office posted on social media:

“DONALD IS FINISHED—HE IS NO LONGER “HOT.” FIRST THE HANDS (SO TINY) AND NOW ME—GAVIN C. NEWSOM—HAVE TAKEN AWAY HIS “STEP.” MANY ARE SAYING HE CAN’T EVEN DO THE “BIG STAIRS” ON AIR FORCE ONE ANYMORE—USES THE LITTLE BABY STAIRS NOW. SAD! TOMORROW HE’S GOT HIS “MEETING” WITH PUTIN IN “RUSSIA.” NOBODY CARES. ALL THE TELEVISION CAMERAS ARE ON ME, AMERICA’S FAVORITE GOVERNOR. EVEN LOW-RATINGS LAURA INGRAM (EDITS THE TAPES!) CAN’T STOP TALKING ABOUT MY BEAUTIFUL MAPS. YOU’RE WELCOME FOR LIBERATION DAY, AMERICA! DONNIE J MISSED “THE DEADLINE” (WHOOPS!) AND NOW I RUN THE SHOW. THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION TO THIS MATTER! —GCN”

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https://heathercoxrichardson.substack.com/p/august-14-2025

love letters

    he hoped people were still at it

handwritten pen to paper envelopes stamps   maybe even a lipstick kiss on the back

fucked with his girl several times 

  

his Dad kept all the letters his Mom wrote him while he was in the military

her kiss on the back of each

and the man didnt keep letters

when he was in college and fellas got turnedround in their relationship  things souringcouldnt put their finger on it  gaga over their gal

    Five spot  I can help

                           Money back guarantee

Five bucks?

Ja

      You answer my questions

Ill write a humdinger  You rewrite it in your own hand

                                                          Money back guarantee

Ya get a blow job I expect a bonus

You seriou . .

. . As a heart attack

never returned money

                         didnt receive many bonuses  but often smiles big enough to suggest they did

 

    love letters

people might assume they know what theyll read

from his girl

                he  wouldnt  dare

might begin

               My love –

end

       . . . I love you so very much.

in between

              all bets were off

Baby. There are some things money can’t buy, and you, ferally uninhibited, is one.

                                                                                        Thank you.

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1308,  Thursday,  14  8. 25

they werent his

but they were raised by a mind he helped inform for good or for bad

he didnt solicit

she asked

he said

for good or for bad

wasnt his call

“Harmony is secured through sameness.”

                                               why want  harmony

discordant played better in his head

and hers

               they werent looking for friends

when they happened

they werent looking

turned out a good fit

“Pure mind obeys without question.”

pure

        seemed to him that mind

was dead

 

he telephoned her

                    Hey kiddo Read your texts

 

she was listeningcould hear her breathing

In a tough spot

    I am.

              Thank you. I know I can always reach out to you.

 

Did you want to talk about it

No.

     I just needed to get it off my chest.

I knew you’d listen, you’d hear me.

Any old time at al . .

. . All ya got to do is call.

 

                              I won’t ever forget.

Thas my grrl

 

I love you forever.

I love you 

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1030,  Thursday,  14  8. 25

James Taylor  You’ve Got A Friend  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_r6yp8xGa0

Beatles  All I’ve Got To Do  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anMW41uvb_s

hed been to some pretty outrageous parties

                                              a particularly memorable one

in a crowded livingroom two fleshy women engaged in a lively sixtynine on a hardwood coffee table

he hung around to see who came first

                                                  made no bets

   he wasnt invited

crashed it

most of those parties he crashed

    this was another in that category

entering crossing an expansive foyer what he thought were incense simmeringthin whispers of smoke emitted from slender metalworked wall sconces swirleddivined by passing bodies turned out to be smouldering Thai sticks

                           itd been some time since he partook

he took deeply

wandering deeper inside amid attractive people he excused his way to where an complete bar was set up

a help-yourself

he helped

then meandering sipping from a tall whisky and soda three icecubes looking for some funsome game she crossed his path

unattended

maybe a meanderer like him

she was spectacular

making a beeline towards her she saw him coming didnt divert he wondered how the hell it was possible to pack all those curves onto such a short frame

maybe  five feet tall

she beat him to the punch

                             You’re new.

amicably Youre a sight for sore eyes

You have no idea what sore is.

he was lost for words

she smiled  turned away from him  began up a hall that lead into a wing of the house

as she walkedChrist she undid untied unbuttoned garmentsdropped them on the exquisitelypatterned runner laid over the wood parquet herringbone floor

                                                                   Think he was overstimulated

Well he thought as he followed Feels like a dare          

supposed he had to discover what sore was what it entailed

as he followed gulped his drink  set the glass on a console table   and either a bit of it splashed onto his chin or was spittle

                     aroused word entered his mind

casually she kicked off her heels

naked to her skirt  luxurious black hair across her shoulders sweeping her back she went left through an open doorway Said the spider to the fly he thought                                                                                                                 he said Inya go

must have heard him  

she laughed gayly

OneAM,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25

0922,  Thursday,  14  8. 25