a hotel

a motel

between the two he gravitated to motels

                                            for what he thought was obvious

the difference between a church and a cathedralYES  a motel is a cathedral

Vacant shopping center bays which then house churches arent cathedralsfeel   feel  me

I hear you.

I needya to feel me

                         Feel implies the whole gamutsight audio   smell  taste   touch

Fireworks going off allatonce 

Someone snuck in behind the pyrotechs tossed flares into setups  crates

        Feel

 

I don’t have feelings like that.

Yadead

    I’m just sayin . .

. . Youre dead

                          Listenup

this is when he irritated him the most

                                        telling him what to do

I aint blind Ought tatake a look in window glass take a good gander of your puss

                                                                                        Wearin your heart on your sleeve

Where you tried to wipe your puss free of disdain

HOTEL MOTEL

 

    What of ‘em?

Ho   H  O  tel   Mo   M O  tel

                                    Tel me wha I want to hear

Ho tel me an the mo Ill tel you the mo we can share

 

Would you quit the gibberish.

Not gibberish

                  Yaint listenin

 

Nevermind

             You arent capable to tel me wha I want to know

1749,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

The Who  Can You Feel the Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2h1MY70uag

You know  sayin one way rather than the other doesnt change the woman insidedoesnt  make you sound more   wha  more  less    ahmoral

I disagreewe’ll have to disagree again.

Again  Quit using it 

                     Our steadfastfast disagreements are redundant  ad nauseum

Because of you.

Because I demand clarity  granular definition

Whic . .

. . Which  you  consistentlyconstantly fail to provide despite knowin Im not acceptin halfass explanations or takin you at your word

Not a soul gets tha

Open your mouth Be thorough   Be concise

We engage in casual conversation.

Casual does not upend meaningful

 

 

    What?

Im waitin

For what?

For the description between the women from either establishment

Establishment?

    Youre not tha thick

The difference between a woman working in a whorehouse and a woman working in a brothel you seem to prefer brothels to whorehouses to alleyways or in the backseat of a car in the city

3PMishness,  Sunday,  11  5. 25

1241,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

    . . . only when he cares.

he overheardcaught that bit  talking about him

though he missed in what context

                                   angered him

they didnt address himcould have

                                    like Russia and the US negotiating peace with Ukraine and Ukraines not at the tableFUCK Russia

FUCK the United States

                         fuck the clowns in the room who couldnt bring themselves to say to his face

cowardise

           the world needs less

however

             no matter the subject

theyd be accurate

if unstirred

            uninspired

he couldnt muster false enthusiasm

wouldnt lie

was a hurtful curtteller of hard truths

                                          unapologetic

an old girlfriend once said to him

                                     You can’t blame them.

when they parted ways

                          she blamed him   

Absolument

What’s with the crack?

                        she was angry

but wouldnt admit she was trying to make a project of him

he told her when they first began dating

                                           Whaya see is whaya get

he may have assumed see included  hear

    . . . only when he cares.

2158 & after2200,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

1111,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

Iron Butterfly  In the Time of Our Lives  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwjsmmM450o

wasnt a dream yet  a preview   a trailer a tug-of-war between hypnagogia hypnopompia  he the rope

    let it be known hes made of hemp  twined oldfashioned  marine

the pair got sweaty yanking on him

wasnt a dream because he was in it his girlfriend was in it   he rarely recognised anyone

theirs was a long distance relationship hadnt seen her in years

they talked texted wrote 

                              nobody understood  How does it work?

None of your business

chuckled that was unsatisfying

                                   he didnt ask about their relationships

they were thirty years apart

he    whaever  in it she told himtheyd been reunited for months  I’m pregnant.

he wouldnt reply with that stupid question

                                               A baby

he embraced herkissed her  stepped back  took her by the shoulders

                                                                           Might suppose Im the cumback kid

she laughed deepdimples

                                then collecting herself she saidspelled  C  U  M

she knew him so well

after 2200,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

1018,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

sitting on a park bench eyeing little girls with bad intentNO  sipping coffee from a paper cup he looked over at his broheim beside him

                     You get any sleep?

    I don’t sleep. I dream.

                             curious dialog straight out of True Detectives MAX S1E1 was beginning again

probably the only shorthand acronym he could tolerate

the dialog was appropriate

                             hed be Rust Cohle  his partner Marty Hart asking

I dream

he couldnt stop dreamingwouldnt  woke exhausted

fed the cats

started a carafe of coffee

took a cold shower

exhaustion

            stepped backstepped away   he mused Well try again tonight

You said that last night the night before the night before that

I  said  try

    for himself he wondered what Season what Episode he was in

was he negotiating another

Am I being picked up

its a tough game

somebody younger trying to unseat him

                                           he beseeches themSTOP  Relent

tellinem frankly  Itll be the death of you

theyre big boys big girls

   he warnedem

2142,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

0937,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

nobody you know

   2104

What?                                                                                                                                  

TwentyoneOfour hours

                                    Its time

Forwha?

I was hoping youd know

   Me?

                    Why me?

Cuz I havent a fuckin clue

                               AnIve no interest

his thumb went to his mouth  when was the last time

                                              None?

Zip

    he awfullymuch liked the sound of the word

Somebodyah set the table?

Not necessaryaint a performance an audition  A staging

When the whiff of authenticity doesnt exist

Walk  Away

 

Somebody set the table?

Nobody you know

It’s a bitch when you think it’ll happen and it doesn’t and you relax an . . .   

Wednesday,  28  5. 25

    couldnt let it go

                    irascible

We regret to inform you . . .                  

                                     regret?

regret?

REGRET?

             Wha qualifies hell not say it again ?

    all these question marks  the page looks like a tall flower bed

                                                                             flourishing

he questions abundantly . . .

                                why all the questions  ?why?  might wonder why ask why?

he asked why? so all the answers are explained and therefore REGRET does notwill notcannot raise its thorny head

                Christsnoggin donned

Neingret

Otherwise

    Its all on you

0947,  Tuesday,  20  5. 25

1850,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

Queen  These Are the Days of Our Lives  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQhINsylUaw

    has no regrets

Hmp

she came out of her bedroom after a shower in a plush Scotplaid robe her hair bundledup in pale green towel

    Aaah, this is better. Still a few minutes before I have to log-in.

I made your cacao concoction care chuckled  Alliteration

                                                             Woudya care for a cup

You have too much fun.

I woudnt have had it in my mouth ifya hadnt shared yesterday I coud drink it regularly over coffee

More nutritious, but pricey.

Very pricey

Priceyer than coffee, than your Big Bang.

Big Bang  Awfullygood

You say. I rarely imbibe.

Youve actually written tha to me

                                    In a letter

Not a text or email?

Letter Funny the things we put inem

                                        Im glad weve continued writing Only you an my Dad So much nicer to find in the mailbox than lousy throwaway advertisement  Bills

                                                                         Communion

It is nice.

           Curiously, speaking of communion, many people I recruit share kinds of communion.

Strikes me youre referring to outside church

Yes.  I would liken it to a hive, human hive, hive culture.

    How so

They’ll take turns working for the benefit of the hive. Work a year. Take a year off while someone else works, picks up the tab.

Tha must make you nuts as a recruiter tryin to determine their work ethic

There’s definitely an ethic, just not a kind you or I are familiarhave grown up under, forty fortyplus hours a week fiftytwo weeks a year year after year after year.

Must say, it sounds appealin . .

. . Aspect sounds appealing  Makes me wonder the inner workings

Doesn’t it?

It does.

    she sighed Could make one long for a sugar Daddy.

A sugar Momma

 

Nah. If sex were the trade-off that’d be fine.

                                                   I suspect there’s fine print.

Suspect    Restrictions

Yah.

        And you and I recoil at restrictions.

Hmp We certainly do Stanley   

0932,  Tuesday,  20  5. 25

1217,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

https://brooklynrail.org/2009/12/express/inside-the-hive-mind/

Laurel and Hardy  Blotto  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tc4Oe8Rn56c

    cut-up from Gunter Grass  The Flounder

the initials of her friend Fritz on each of her fat cheeks

compare (with) their(her) stone axes, spears and arrowheads

once we found one that didn’t exist

bent nail and rope with a noose at the end

eleven dimples and three breasts

not even under Communism.

this assertion had provoked a tumult at the tribunal.

the flounder in the rushes

lingered on

gray on gray in sweaters and expands pleated skirt

how the flounder was protected against aggression

hate forms sentences.

that demoralized the Teutonic knights

the French mor

the bean tree

sensibly as Ladewig spoke and hard as he tried to win the patrician’s approval

It will be a girl!

her friends Frankie and Siggie, whose jingle – stiff and straight, stiff and straight . . .

the moist orthodox lines

babbled

to help the oppressed

You see – I have a better memory. Believe me.

1111,  Tuesday,  20  5. 25

1255,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

cant remembernow what he was readingbut he pulled it back away from his face

                                                                                                 Hey doll

Got a dictionary around

from the bedroom

                    On the shelf over the liquor cabinet.

the cabinet was plied on it a twelve bottle wine rack plied  hard liquor bottles sitting on end her three favourite liqueurs on an handsome ornate silver tray with an assortment of stópkis to sip from

 

Find it?

taking it from the shelf

                          Yes  Thank you

You’re welcome.

                    I’m going to take a shower before I log-in for work.

she was working remote

he was visiting

she offered to share her bed to save him a hotel room    No he corrected her  Motel

he returned to the upholstered chair side table black coffee clipboard leaning against the leg of the table

setting the dictionary in his lap he fingered through it to find parathesis

                                                                            he knew parenthesis

For cryinoutloud he said to her dog  Theyre the same

leaning over the dictionary nesting on his lap hed keep it there knew hed read another word that would catch him off guard Wha the hell does tha mean  had closed it grabbed his clipboard took a red BIC pen from behind his ear  wrote

        parathesis   beneath it  parenthesis

then sigh

then ( sigh )

( pulling teeth here )

                       remembered

Gunter Grass

The Flounder

               where he originally read of Awa the Earth Goddess her three breasts

he was a boy when he first discovered it a used paperback turned sideways on top of hardbound Grass books he couldnt afford a hardboundwords were what mattered then

Awa set him on a quest

                          obviously women had only two breasts

so his managed his conundrum by finding women with breasts large enough that three common breasts would be equaled by her two

                               O R  generously  wha a guy

a woman who like he enjoyed Irish whisky  Redbreast neat

    it was a kick fulfilling his conundrum

“. . . Goddess of triune font.” 

    

0920,  Tuesday,  20  5. 25

1057,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

Jesus man  lookin hangdog dobber down  Whasup

Job I applied for. Received a text from them, we regret to inform you . .

. . Horseshit  whos we

                        Ought to be I  Ought to be the one responsible anif we then all their names provided sadists we  wee wee wee all the way home  squealin like pigs

There is that.

Yah

And then there’s the fact it’s a good thing I happen to be a masochist of the first order.

First order  Whastha

I fall on my sword without having been asked.

tweaked himturned his head like a startled bird

                                                  managed  Marcus Antonius

    Who?

Mark Antony

vacant expression could scribble all over that whiteboard

Cleopatra

               Really

A awfullyhot Elizabeth Taylor  Nineteensixtythree

No idea.

OhKahRist  definitely a masochist of the first order

                                                       Catholick to boot  Be aware ending in L  I  C  K

chuckled

Good We have humour

still chuckling

              A lapsed licker.

Yatook tha in stride

Toldya.  I’m a masochist through and through.

    Same old story

We thinkin’ alike?

Mother

Yeah.

        We regret to inform you. My Maw. Wouldn’t have been no we. Wouldn’t have used regret.

Might have signed it in her evening red lickstick when she went out with your Dad

She’d have signed it, sealed it with a kiss.

                                              Yes. Her red lipstick.

0846,  Tuesday,  20  5. 25

0950,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

Cleopatra  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zR-uJUsCYyc

he texted his daughter  :  :  Would you recommend an edible as an analgesic for my iffy back?

she was at work

hed linger

            yet

while lingering he playedas he does with words that intriguedincited him

                                                                                  yesterday  opaque

saw opium in it opiumopaque

                                Been there

Done that

did it as often as he could

then his supplier got popped

                              pulled up to his placesimultaneously with SWAT

neverever ever ever let a fuckin soul tell ya life aintbout timing

                                                                 yanked the seatback lever it collapsed

no one would know he was in the car unless they came right up to it and looked down

    cracked a window

                        took a nap

when he woke

                a marvelous mustard ketsupstreaked dusk descending

    opium  a hard black buhbye

                                        it had been a good run

 

today

        juggling analgesic

    analgesic

analgesic

analGee Sic

             Fetch boy   Go

anof course analGolly Ill sic Ill fetch   Ill do whaever the fuck ya like

                                                                         freshscrubbed  bathed

not a No Go Zone

                   theres nothing on a lovers body thats taboo

if taboo

         an awfully shit lover a kind of person who expects more than theyll give

spit in their eye

move along

as cops say  Nothing to see here. Move it along.

                                                    they dont want you to see what theyre up to

very coppish

    everyoneanyone deserves better ground ought to be level

one shouldnt submitseek to level it but hold that as a bar a required minimum standard

                                                                                             Ja  At a minimum

its not being picky

No  Not at all

242preferred,  Tuesday,  27  5. 25

1526,  Tuesday,  27  5. 25

Stones  (I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSSxnv1_J2g