AahJesus  he groaned

                         flashed immediately to his daughter asking her Is tha a thing

   What have I told you?

If I have to ask it is

See.  Not hard.

Easy for you to say baby

Jesus was an ad he saw at Outlook

                                       Cryochoice   a romance novel  wasnt

“America’s #1 Choice he wouldnt know if there was a second or third or if it was a sole entity but then of course #1  Choice for at-home sperm testing and freezing.”

                                       keep it away from the ice cube trays

These are the cutest little ice cubes . .

. . Gimme your drink back pleaseNow

it was too late to call his daughter and share

                                               Can you believe this is a thing

shed get a kick out of it or

                            she might not know it was a thing which would be a kick

him actually ahead of the curve

2107,  Thursday,  6  2. 25

was nearlyperfect with the fire last he placed wood in the fireplace it was measured

the blaze had only gone on another twentyminutes after she went to bed

                                                                              he was in town she put him up

her daughter went to bed an hour earlier

it had been a long busy day traipsing here and there old neighbourhood old friends cemeteries dead family  friends

   closed it out with pizza beer 

                                   before the fire her wine his whiskey

her daughter surprised him  enjoyed whiskey

Redbreast! she said breathlessly

Youre familiar

I’ve only read about it.

it was his treat

he poked the fire a couple more timesspread ash put up the screen crossed back to the couch where he was sacking it out

a paleblue moonlightheightened by fresh snow outside the window wafted across the floor embraced him on the couch

   he thoughthe knew  he was in his element again

an element he did not treat himself too often

otherwise

             wasnt a treat

the coals crackled occasionallyPOPped

Hey.  Hey are you awake?

lying on his backopened his eyes  Yes

I can’t sleep.

              she reminded him of his kids coming into the bedroom I can’t sleep. he told them to go back to bed hed be right there put on shorts laid beside them rubbed their butts listened to their breathing they rarely made ten minutes out like a light

               he was tempted

she shortcircuited him

                        said again she couldnt sleep stepped nearer the couch

her pajama bottoms fell as if weighted

                                          Give me your hand.

held it up she took it put it between her legs

                                                I’m wet.

My Mom told me you used to rub your children’s butts to put them to sleep. I was wondering what I could rubwhat you could rub . . to help us . sleep.

Sleep he thought was the farthest thing from either of their minds

                                                                        his imp imagined before he did

in the morning

                 Did you sleep well last night?

overnight,  Wednesday,  5  2. 25

1337,  Thursday,  6  2. 25

Look who finally comes walking in. she was the only one in the room

                                                                              coming into the kitchen through the back porch door beginning to shut it hearing her he casted an errant glance over his shoulder said Speak of the Devil

   You’re home again?

Have I missed any of my obligations

he hadnt

          which only emphasised his absencehis not being at her beck and callshe could do either with the best of them but a sibling would have to perform them when she rather he did

You look like the Wreck of the Hesperu . .

. . Been on the move roving

                             As Dad says Hard to hit a moving target

Where have you been?

Around

Where’s around?

he wasnt in the mood any more than she was he turned in a complete circle

                                                                                 Been around

Do you have to be so . so . . . SO?

I do

You’ve younger brothers and sisters who’l . .

. . Learn from my example meet your obligations an theres nothinreally Mom can complain about lest she complainin for complainings sake

                    Which you cantwont tolerate out of the mouths of your babes

Wha does it get ya

Am I right

she didnt care when he was right

                                    Why are you talking to me in this way?

Why are you complaining I not do something you hadnt asked me to do

What?

Something I didnt do you asked me to

  No.  But aside from your chores you’re not around.

You miss me  he smiled  let the subtlevenom subside

                                                          You miss me charmin youfraid Ill charm the pants off someone

Get knockedup Thall be the day

The day I get knockedup will be a day I actually want to be an it a longlong way off

You miss me

Id rather you say  Look wha the cat dragged in

                                                   We havent a cat I coud get you one I can get my hands on lots pussy  cats

Would you stop? STOP.

                          she shed her crustydemeanor  smiled   Look what the cat dragged in.

Thas better

             he walked over to where she sat with a tea grabbed her by the shoulders kissed the back of her neckrubbed a threeday stubble at the side of her neck

giggling she ran her shoulders uphigh tried to crook her head stop him

                                                                           which was useless

sitting in the chair beside herelbows on the table a Nono

                                                                  Whasup baby  I miss you too

afternoon,  Monday,  3  2. 25

1450,  Thursday,  6  2. 25

Oh shit they blew it

                       they were asked to be part of a text chain among countless people that was the brainchild of a wellintended good friend of theirs

a friend they both wanted to bed

  :  :  Can you do this?  she asked

  :  :  I can he answered  You

  :  :  It will be problematic.

  :  :  Problematicsquared

she laughing  :  :  You’re good at writing. Are you on the prowl?

  :  :  It seems I am even when Im not

  :  :  What? You didn’t stalk me? he imagined her laughing gayly cherished her dimples

  :  :  We were mutual

  :  :  Insanely so.

 

in theirsilence they were at each other again that first time  eight hours   afterwards he made waffles

 

  :  :  Yes

 

 

they blew it

he eventually texted personally  :  :  Sorry Was getting laid  Forgive me

likewise she texted  :  :  I am terribly sorry, I started a movie and nodded off. Let’s meet. Make it a date. I’ll make it up to you.

I think you know what I mean.

she didnt write him back

                           wrote her  :  :  I think you know what it means when you feel no one’s there . . . you make me feel that you’re only one there.

Yes.

 

she wrote him

he wrote her

they admitted it

she copied and sent him what she wrote her

  :  :  Aw thats awfully romantic

  :  :  Isn’t it? I think we’re forgiven.

  :  :  You are

Favor

  :  :  What?

  :  :  Give her an extra lickin for me

 

 

  :  :  I laughed. Dropped the phone.

I’ll let her know you said but since you’re better at it I’ll let her know you owe her one.

  :  :  Or two or three  She can be a greedy bitchparticularly  when owed

  :  :  Amen, brother.  Amen.

overnight,  Thursday,  6  2. 25

1228,  Thursday

looked up   exasperated Not you again.

Look it you still here  Related to Prometheus

ignoring the remark  How did you end up back here?you don’t believe in reincarnation.

I didnt I don

But your back.

I am  Obviously

                  I believe the term rather than reincarnation  is   reincarceration

What did you do?

Lived Ever occur to you that all the souls you believe you’ve been reincarnating aren’t?

his agedface twisted  ugly informedsmirk

                                            OUCHhuh  Life sentences

As they say in the Twentyfirst Centurywhich I just left REBOOT

                                                                      Or as I like to say

Kicked to the curb

Im reincarcerated

   So step aside you know how this goes

Maybe I don’t.

If I remember you remember or Ill remind you

                                                Everything topshelf  Returned to a white family

Say   Whashall I call you

                             Last we met we were sure we werent friends an we woudnt meet again

You can say that again. saw him draw a breath to be a pain in the ass  Rhetorical.

Again Name   Because apparently well be seeing each other time an time an time again

                                                                                               Jeeves

Don’t be crass.

   Crass

           Take a quick peek in a mirror youll see crass in-person 

Call me what you will, I’ll have forgotten once you’re off.

Then  Jeeves

                Long memory I wont forget an Ill remind you just to irritate ya

You’re holding up the line.

Topshelf packed up

It is. handed him a wafer   You have to let it melt . .

. . In my mouth don chew I remember

                                         Thanks Jeeves  Catcha next lap

Which, whenever, will be too soon.

I love you too

overnight,  Thursday,  6  2. 25

1119,  Thursday

felon  & Darren Beattie  lets leave it at Beattie akin to beat off to speak for the pair

                                                                                        “Competent white men must be in charge.”

   in his white experience men is being generoustoo  generous

he also wasnt inclined to use the adjective

                                                   Mike Bell

Mike Bell might   be

                          a competent white man

he had enough sense to know when he was being lied to yet act as if he believed them

when he was older fastasleep in bed his wife said that his moonlit shinywhite face nestled in his long gray hair and beard looked like an egg

when Mike Bell was a young man still living at home with his parents  incompetent?

                                                                                          his parents paid his cellphone bill

one month he made a discovery and his calling charges were nearly Twentytwo thousand dollars

                                                                                                      but have to be not only competent but committed to run up a bill like that making sex phone calls listeninglistening to recordings

not even live fleshanblood women

he hid the bill from his Mom

   as was his job as a senior customercare representative he called Mike  he made it his job competently to ferret out erroneous charges

                     $22,000 is a piece of change

Mike hungup on him

then the following month he had urged his superiors to cut Mikes service they would not more white men  that month the bill was nearly $29,000

                      Phew-oh

Mike and his mother came in to talk with someone he advised the receptionists if anyone came in to discuss Account number soanso to please find him  he was most familiar

                                                   entering a small side room they demanded the $51,000 be reversed

he asked them to sit at a circular Formica table on which was a conference telephone

addressing Mikes Mom This numberas you can see on the bill is one of several in kind calls Mike repeatedly he withheld promiscuously made

turning on the speaker dialing the number he excused himself Ill give you a moment

                                                                                          he closed the door as he left for their privacy

he returned five minutes later  had walked down to the corner drugstore

he rapped on the door

                        entering he noticed Mikes eyes were glassy  red

tossing a new box of Kleenex to Mike he said to his mother

                                                              Aint like hell be blowing his nose with it

she leaptupdemanded to see someone in authority A Manager. who was one of the white men he approached and told to suspend Mikes service

being a white man comes easy

                                  theyre born that way

no work involved

overnight,  Wednesday,  5  2. 25

1059,  Wdnesday

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American Gaza so say felon  https://www.rev.com/transcripts/donald-trump-middle-east-peace-speech-transcript-with-israel-pm-netanyahu

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 REMEMBER January6

 

Law-abiding just doesnt cut it

storm Treasury

remove f-Elon and his Bobs

 

lesson learned

texted  :  :  epiphany

back  :  :  What?

  :  :  Last time you had an epiphany?

  :  :  No idea.

What was it?

  :  :  I’ve mentioned my irritation, my angst.

  :  :  Yes. Abundantly.  The game plan. Above Trump’s pay grade.

  :  :  Felon’s pay grade. I do not say his name. I call him what he is. And, as you know, I will not listen to his mouth. I’ll suffer his innate transcripts . . if they are published.

  :  :  Yes correct. My bad. Don’t want to irritate you more than you are.

  :  :  No. Not wise.

Not that you’re wise.

  :  :  Thanks wise guy.

  :  :  Epiphany?

  :  :  I’m too upset as Elon is has downloaded the Treasury’s/our data… because the new Treas guy gave him the keys.

  :  :  Was it the new Treasury secretary or an acting one?

Much like “acting” felon.

  :  :  Norm Ornstein, historian, said that Trump’s actions are a “putsch in progress.”

  :  :  Huh. Like our friendly café putsches during cunt’s first term.

  :  :  Yes. E. J. Dionne agreed too.

  :  :  Wise men. Time for Democrazy, time for the return of underground newspapers, The Chicago Seed, Chicago Reader, hell, even high schools were publishing underground papers. It was very cool. And pirated airwaves, heard Zappa for the first time through one.

  :  :  Democrazy your epiphany?

  :  :  felon!

f-Elon.

Birds of a feather. 

.410, birdshot, knockem out of the sky.

  :  :  Is violence always your answer.

  :  :  You think we’re gonna be spared that?

2014,  Monday,  3  2. 25

1528,  Tuesday,  4  2. 25

Zappa  Trouble Every Day  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=girnJH7tvpM

Remember  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wz9jL3YNX-0

                                                                            Dueling banjos

Deliverance  A classic film

                            Classic adventure down the Cahulawassee River  Remote northern Georgia

Why do youwhy you know remember that those . details?

The film made an impression

                               The following weekend me an two buddies made a trip in Southern Illinois

Though  curiously

                      I cant remember the name of tha river

   I distinctly remember the unfortunate kid.

Unfortunate

looked at him aslantaskew  You don’t think so?

You play the banjo

                      If no  I coud think you unfortunatekid  he might think you unfortunate too

Follow

   I follow.  But we’re talking about two different things.

Tha he can play you cant

Are you purposefully overlooking the obvious?

The obvious neednt be the be-all end-all

steeling himself  He was misfortunat . .

. . Facially

            Film didnt lingerdidnt  develop   his character

Nooo.

No

     Though you know wha I woud have liked to seen

His character developed?

No Seriously  he didnt let his imp out of its box    

Seriously.

              I have no idea what you would have liked to seen.

The casting call   Audition

You’re a sick puppy.

Im curious  Also whets my sense of black humour

1600ish,  Saturday,  2 FEBRUARY  ’25

2159,  Monday,  3  2. 25

I thought of you . .

. . I wish you woudnt

flummoxed him

                   What?

Dondo tha

   Think of you?

Yes  Stop

Why?

Because youll misrepresent me

I won’t.

You will

            You your buddies want to talk about me talk to me

You havent the wherewithal to speak for me

Zip  None

But I kno . .

. . Shit

         Do not do not do not  talk about me

Why?

Notational thinking

                      Which I exhibit every day you rarely

What is notational thinking?

You have your iPhone

                        Aww   But youd rather not work tha hard

Really going to try to bea . .

. . Beat you up with your own words

                                        Cut to the chase

Ted Chiang  Truth of Fact Truth of Feeling

You cherish truth

I do.

Yes you do

             Writing  notational  helps you decide whaya woud say before you said it

Before you woud say

                          Anyour mouth usually outrunsbeats your brain

I wouldn’t say that.

No I have  I woud say tha

                               Words arent just pieces of speaking but pieces of thinking

Agree

   I woul . .

. . Took you long enoughought to have been immediate  a kneejerk reaction

Write your words down Theyll help you grasp your thoughts help configureem constructem help you enjoy a variety of configurations arrangements  By writinem down in a way you cant if youre just talkin   An seeinem you can improveem makeem stronger  help you to better elaborate

You don

   Do not talk about me

1446,  Monday,  3  2. 25 

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making the bed Len Barrys 1-2-3 went off in his head

fed the cats in an out made coffee sat at his desk  sipping it looked at a photo of his wife 

it was a snapshot her mother had given him

it was taken Halloween 

first time they met

she dressed as a black cat leotard short skirt fluffy tail rhinestone collar had put her hair put up like ears nose was smudged black eyeliner whiskers

                                        happilysmiling

looking at the photo  vivid thereafter memories 

                                                    he deeplysighed

I love you

You love me

exquisitelywistful

                      Did you kill yourself because you loved me

 

 

he felt somethingsome  thing   snap

                                       he walked into the livingroom  her back was to him

What did you do

she casually looked over her shoulder    I didn’t do anything.  Leave me alone.

You did something

she stepped to the television turned up the volume

retreated to the couch

                        sat

picked up a can of Diet Pepsi from the end table

                                                   intentlysipped it as she watched whatever program was on

1002,  Monday,  3  2. 25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tm_-7JpcWI

incredulous  WHO

You heard me.

I need to hear again

Jungle.

Mrs Jungle

Miss Jungl . .

. . Wait  Miss

              Ohfuck     Gimme more

she could see by his expression he was becoming untethered  she was awfully tempted to run with the ball

                                                                                                                unfortunately

he knew she went to Catholic school till late high school

                                                               she fulfilled his big eyes

hed know she wasnt telling the truth and would call her out

   Rather than me give you . . what have you got?

You don wanna know

OH . I definitely want to know.

When I say youll know

                             AnIll do it in a word

Miss Jungle . in one word?

Yah

Now I’m curious.

   I’m curiouswould you say.

he smiled  bemused  cruelly forcing her patience which he knew her sum total was zip

WOULD YOU . . . PLEASE . SAY.

theres something bout a beggin woman tha made him turgid

                                                                 stiff in an unbendin joint 

   Abraxas

OHSHIT.

Yah

      in her best white dress welltrained Roman Catholic liturgic responserepose

                                                                       Fuckyah.

1744,  reggaefriday, 31  1. 25

1612,  Sunday,  2  2. 25

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