4.2.25


texted  :  :  epiphany

back  :  :  What?

  :  :  Last time you had an epiphany?

  :  :  No idea.
What was it?

  :  :  I’ve mentioned my irritation, my angst.

  :  :  Yes. Abundantly.  The game plan. Above Trump’s pay grade.

  :  :  Felon’s pay grade. I do not say his name. I call him what he is. And, as you know, I will not listen to his mouth. I’ll suffer his innate transcripts . . if they are published.

  :  :  Yes correct. My bad. Don’t want to irritate you more than you are.

  :  :  No. Not wise.
Not that you’re wise.

  :  :  Thanks wise guy.

  :  :  Epiphany?

  :  :  I’m too upset as Elon is has downloaded the Treasury’s/our data… because the new Treas guy gave him the keys.

  :  :  Was it the new Treasury secretary or an acting one?
Much like “acting” felon.

  :  :  Norm Ornstein, historian, said that Trump’s actions are a “putsch in progress.”

  :  :  Huh. Like our friendly café putsches during cunt’s first term.

  :  :  Yes. E. J. Dionne agreed too.

  :  :  Wise men. Time for Democrazy, time for the return of underground newspapers, The Chicago Seed, Chicago Reader, hell, even high schools were publishing underground papers. It was very cool. And pirated airwaves, heard Zappa for the first time through one.

  :  :  Democrazy your epiphany?

  :  :  felon!
f-Elon.
Birds of a feather. 
.410, birdshot, knockem out of the sky.

  :  :  Is violence always your answer.

  :  :  You think we’re gonna be spared that?

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1528,  Tuesday,  4  2. 25

3.2.25


                                                                            Dueling banjos
Deliverance  A classic film
                            Classic adventure down the Cahulawassee River  Remote northern Georgia

Why do youwhy you know remember that those . details?

The film made an impression
                               The following weekend me an two buddies made a trip in Southern Illinois
Though  curiously
                      I cant remember the name of tha river

   I distinctly remember the unfortunate kid.

Unfortunate

looked at him aslantaskew  You don’t think so?

You play the banjo
                      If no  I coud think you unfortunatekid  he might think you unfortunate too
Follow

   I follow.  But we’re talking about two different things.

Tha he can play you cant

Are you purposefully overlooking the obvious?

The obvious neednt be the be-all end-all

steeling himself  He was misfortunat . .
. . Facially
            Film didnt lingerdidnt  develop   his character

Nooo.

No
     Though you know wha I woud have liked to seen

His character developed?

No Seriously  he didnt let his imp out of its box    

Seriously.
              I have no idea what you would have liked to seen.

The casting call   Audition
You’re a sick puppy.

Im curious  Also whets my sense of black humour

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2159,  Monday,  3  2. 25
I thought of you . .
. . I wish you woudnt

flummoxed him
                   What?
Dondo tha

   Think of you?

Yes  Stop


Why?

Because youll misrepresent me

I won’t.
You will
            You your buddies want to talk about me talk to me
You havent the wherewithal to speak for me
Zip  None

But I kno . .
. . Shit
         Do not do not do not  talk about me



Why?

Notational thinking
                      Which I exhibit every day you rarely

What is notational thinking?

You have your iPhone
                        Aww   But youd rather not work tha hard

Really going to try to bea . .
. . Beat you up with your own words
                                        Cut to the chase
Ted Chiang  Truth of Fact Truth of Feeling

You cherish truth

I do.

Yes you do
             Writing  notational  helps you decide whaya woud say before you said it
Before you woud say
                          Anyour mouth usually outrunsbeats your brain

I wouldn’t say that.

No I have  I woud say tha
                               Words arent just pieces of speaking but pieces of thinking
Agree


   I woul . .
. . Took you long enoughought to have been immediate  a kneejerk reaction

Write your words down Theyll help you grasp your thoughts help configureem constructem help you enjoy a variety of configurations arrangements  By writinem down in a way you cant if youre just talkin   An seeinem you can improveem makeem stronger  help you to better elaborate

You don

   Do not talk about me

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https://thesephist.com/posts/notation/

making the bed Len Barrys 1-2-3 went off in his head


fed the cats in an out made coffee sat at his desk  sipping it looked at a photo of his wife 

it was a snapshot her mother had given him

it was taken Halloween 

first time they met

she dressed as a black cat leotard short skirt fluffy tail rhinestone collar had put her hair put up like ears nose was smudged black eyeliner whiskers
                                        happilysmiling

looking at the photo  vivid thereafter memories 
                                                    he deeplysighed
I love you

You love me

exquisitelywistful
                      Did you kill yourself because you loved me

 

 

he felt somethingsome  thing   snap
                                       he walked into the livingroom  her back was to him
What did you do

she casually looked over her shoulder    I didn’t do anything.  Leave me alone.

You did something


she stepped to the television turned up the volume
retreated to the couch
                        sat
picked up a can of Diet Pepsi from the end table
                                                   intentlysipped it as she watched whatever program was on

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tm_-7JpcWI

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incredulous  WHO

You heard me.

I need to hear again

Jungle.

Mrs Jungle

Miss Jungl . .
. . Wait  Miss
              Ohfuck     Gimme more
she could see by his expression he was becoming untethered  she was awfully tempted to run with the ball
                                                                                                                unfortunately
he knew she went to Catholic school till late high school
                                                               she fulfilled his big eyes
hed know she wasnt telling the truth and would call her out

   Rather than me give you . . what have you got?

You don wanna know
OH . I definitely want to know.

When I say youll know
                             AnIll do it in a word

Miss Jungle . in one word?

Yah

Now I’m curious.



   I’m curiouswould you say.


he smiled  bemused  cruelly forcing her patience which he knew her sum total was zip


WOULD YOU . . . PLEASE . SAY.

theres something bout a beggin woman tha made him turgid
                                                                 stiff in an unbendin joint 

   Abraxas
OHSHIT.
Yah
      in her best white dress welltrained Roman Catholic liturgic responserepose
                                                                       Fuckyah.

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1612,  Sunday,  2  2. 25
Jesus.  How long did you talk?

There was an interim  We talked overall seven hou . .
. . On the telephone. That’s nuts.

No

Ohyes.

Ill grant   comparatively to you
                                   Although Id not or woud I have anyone dare compare you to me  Too tall a high bar
High bar?

Regarding talkin on the phoneyah
How do you figure?
Jesus
Really
         I know you know my life story Yacant possibly compare mine to yours
My daughter and I  he laughedhis laugh deepened  deepened lengthened
                                                                                fairly a fit

finally able to contain himself
                                   Phew-oh  Fuckin hilarious 
Comparing me to you?
Don be butt hurt
                    Yacant compare
I disagre . .
. . Before you make an ass out of yourself  which youre utterlyamazingly proficient at  Hear me out

Those combined seven hours were due diligence with my daughterwhere does she live in-state

No.

No
    We havent lived in the same stateSTATE mind you not city  not locally not in twenty yearswhere does your family live  save for one child

You know why ask?

Driving home my point  Yaseem too thick to grasp itwent to open his mouth QUIET
                                                                                      Except for one year youve lived around your immediately familysave  one sibling
Yes or no
         Don want you to work too hard

begrudgingly Yes.

Yaunderstand this is not an argument

Yes.

Thank you
             My family parents siblings live twothousand miles away ansince I left home at eighteen Ive not lived in the same state as they
True

Yes.

My wife had the corporate job she was away from home usually half the month year in year out years yours

No.

Therefore
            To bridge those distances maintain relationships
Tell me

   On the phone.

Decades of practise
                         While you ride not twenty minutes an can talk face to face arrive late morning go home at night
   Seven hours


Yeah.

No grief  Awright
                    Anya coudnt because you woudnt

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1318,  Sunday,  2  2. 25

Youre fightin me on whether certain people can see others auras

Auras? Yeah.
                You’re out of your fuckin’ mind.

Infrared  Agree

Electromagnetic radiation, E M R, invisible to the human eye.
                                                                  You’d need a spectrogram.
No

   Ahh . . yes.

No

How can you possibly say no?

I canbecause I thinkbelieve well agre . .
. . I adamantly disagree.

   Wait
                Ya calm  You can listen

I can listen to you, but I’m tellin’ ya you’re barking up the wrong tree.

I believe youll agree with me that certain animals can see infraredcan see auras  heat auras

They’re animals.

Asif were any better than they an I say tha because youre adamant bout apex humans  which is very assholeish  very very asswhollyish

Why mutter the same word twice?

I didnt

Assholeish. DONE.

I saidhad you listened carefully assholeish  an asswhollyish wholly W H O L L Y  Youre a complete an dedicated asshole
        Lemme put it another wayappeal to your crude male sensibilitiesyoull make a great White Christian Nationalist if  ifya can lie convincingly about believing in God the Holy Trinity the Bible all the necessary bullshit hurtles to pass wha will be a determinative carbon test
Determine if proofs in the pudding

Lemme put it this way
                         I believe tha certain people have been gifted infrared sightcan read auras like some fellow earthlings can  not everyone can  massage aurasTHASAID if I had the abilityyou had the ability I coud say to you There goes an aura Id love to stroke
Up the ante
               There goes contours Id love to stroke

   caught his expression Temptin huh

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https://www.allaboutvision.com/eye-care/pets-animals/how-animals-see/

into the telephone receiver he causally mentioned  . . . yaknow  Flights of fancy

she chuckledcaught herself  wasnt sure if she was correct what she was chucklinbout
                                                                                             Flights of fancy?
Donya think

I’m not the FAA you . you . . . can you be more specific?

he roaredlaughin tickled the hell out of him
                                                  I think Ill let you tell me
I should tell you?
Ohyaknow  Ya can tell me

silent chuckle turned audible giggle
                                         gathering herselfstill listening to his laughter   Sleep over.
Crushed it babycrushed it
                           Who says tha

Grade school teenage girls. We’re having a sleep over, ask your folks.

Yah  Little girls young girls
                                A sleep over
Id say I was crashin . .
. . Crashing. YES. Accurate.

   Why?

PerhapsI don know
                        Perhaps to suggest something salacious
Though on its face  lugubrious
                                  Or    If I may
Oh you maycan’t wait.

   Lubegubrious   In separate bedrooms
                               HAnearly broke his eardrum
Yeow  Tha hurt
I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m so sorry . . . didn’t see that comin . .
. . Cummin
            Hayes cumming.

Masters of their domains

Their teenytiny domains.

I don know coudnt say
                         Havent been to the bathroom with either
JESUS!domains not physical attributes

   OH

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1141,  Sunday,  2  2. 25

Say. as if out of the blue fingering his iPhone   Lemme take a picture of you.
                                                                                           he already had
NO  hard

Come on. It’ll be for your daughter.  It allows me to interact with her.

You can text her any time

But you’re here and you don’t take selfies.
rolled his eyes
                 Selfies  Why woud Ifuck  why woud anyone

   Are you asking me?you know you can see yourself now, reverse the image, see what your photographing, unlike before.

Havent answered why

To recor . .
. . Record
                Posterity

We all have old photograp . .
. . Yes we do
               In our hands in cardbox boxes  albums
Havent sent them packin to the cloud where    when the wheels come off the ride antheres no electricity to support the clouds anthey come crashing down
                                        Aint  got   shit

Jesus man. Terrible way to think.

But thinking
              Anthinkin always benefits one  Remembering  Knowing
They always benefit one

Tha phone so conveniently in your hands  is a silo housing whaya assume it will hold an maintain for you to drop in on at random
              Hangin your hat on technology
Dependent on technology

Ill acknowledge tha to a far farlesser degree  I am too

   No photograph

he had taken several random clandestine shots they werent flattering  his gears were grinding  he felt like a blackmailer

it felt good


Anlemme say one more thing
                               Those we mutually know  Im gonna text an ask them to let me know if you text them any pictures of me today  Sitting in this plastic blue chair  redwoods behind me  scenic underwater porpoise coffee cup in my hands

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1.2.25


Remember scratch

   Scratch.       Scratch?  Could you provide more context?

Sure
      Ive not used it in years It was terribly fun it appeared  Back to back dreams     Money  Cash
Ohsure of course.
Kindafun huh
 
Ohmy.  Scratch.  she laughed
                                   Almost feels like scratch coming off my tongue.
True
      I remember my Maw dressin people down You can go scratch your ass.
I loved it

How was it you said?

Cindi asked me to buy her some fries patted my pockets  No scratch babe  She laughedknew I disliked carrying money
Went into her purse handed me some bills 
                                             Next I was telling my Dad about a porkchop recipe Cindi shared with me He was all about itsaid hed like to try it I looked about he had everything but porkchops Told him He said go pick some up Happy to Dad  again to my pocketspatted No scratch Dad   Son  man has always called me son  you really ought to carry some cash. I told him when homeless try to shake me down as Hare Krishna did on the el or a bus I can be honest
Sorry I don carry cash

Their incredulityconfidence I was lying   was wonderful    Breathtaking
                                                                                Skated on by without missing a step
Terribly humoured


Any idea why it occurred to you?
 
Yes I believe so
                    Remember  drop a dime
OhmyGod. You a freakin time traveler?
Seems
         A payphone cost a dime to make a local call
Wasnt the same when it jumped to a quarter drop a quarter
                                                                Absolutely colourless  Fuckin inert
That’s something else.  Thanks for reminding me.

Read it in a book earlier in the week
                                        Use it on someone  Take in their expression
I used it on a twentysomething cashier at the grocers                             

He was fuckin inert Like I hadnt spoken English

   He did manage Whatever.

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1333,  Saturday,  1  FEBRUARY ‘25

31.1.25


Rolling off her lying beside her she says to you  Not bad rookie
                                                                      Whadaya do
What do I do?
BLAHshit out of luck not another at bat
                                              Excommunicated

Excommunicated?

No more holey for you Phew-oh shes probably thinkin her red hair didnt make you think Irish  no patience of a saint there brother

What are you talkin’ about?

You were thrilled being called rookie
                                        Im elaborating becuz you havent an elaboratinbone in your body I wonder how you stand upright

What are you talking about? beginning to glare

Save tha for someone you think yacan intimidate
                                                    GO elaborate finesse   Im all ears
Damnnear fuckin beggin GO

glare went flat
               flatcoloured rotting green vegetables  fronds    lettuce

Thas wha I thought
                      She rolls out of bedgrabs her clothing panties bra  dresses outside in the parking lot next to her car

Shell douche when she gets home
                                     Last thing she wants is you siring someone unenthusiastic
Wants something unlike her family

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