You got to go dark?

My best side  Profile

Really? rolling his eyes

Really  Its not a dark question

                                     Woudnt ask if it wasnt evident    A simple ask

    You’d ask someone that?

Id rather they admit it on their own

                                          Lotsa of unhappy people who are just biddin time playin out string not seekin happinesswhich  to me  is a crimelifes too short

So they should take your opinion? A monk.

Ascetic My choice

                      You don think Im happy with my lifecomin an goin as I please go to bed when I want wake when I want nobody lordintryin to lord over me answer to no one but myself

                                                                          Im peachy keen an then some

Id ask in a heartbeat

                          Because  if me  Id say    Lemmesay this about my marriage my spouse I tolerate themWoo

We get along to get along  Why woud I pursue happiness

You think it’s like that out there?

You tell me you have experience

                                     You tolerated a bad marriage for better than four years until you didnt

To your credit

Which is why people ought to date for a long while

If month after month the relationship is ticking down  apparent trend   Why marry early

Keep track  Each person 

I found someone.

Ya can loseem as easy

                            This just aint workin out

THEN  But I love you.

Love

       Harbor   Drydock For wha oncewere seagoing vessels

Tide lappin their hulls

Not blue whitetopped waves

No wind in their sails

    Settling

You’re not a romantic.

Oh

     But I am  I am

But I refuse to be landlocked cocklocked or women cuntlocked

                                                                             Ever sail

approaching 3PM,  Saturday,  29  12. 24

1502,  Sunday,  29  12. 24

Christopher Cross  Sailing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEO6gYCFbr0 

Big Head Todd and the Monsters  Bittersweet  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuUNfC3tTI8

a nifty excuse

an eHarmony email

unsolicited

              he hadnt askedwasnt interested made him chuckle  same as clown cars elicit   arrived

evidently though worded differently is what one of numerous had to believe websites think

                                                                                                      if they think  cant believeUnlikely

Live life to the fullest, find Love.

    love

           is living life to the fullest

a feeling 

          is living life to the fullest

a behavior

set of emotions

virtue

vice

a physiological drive

                        facilitator of relationships

a theme in creative arts

    a feeling that can be used in different contexts

feeling

            that can mean different things to different people

whaif one gets tiedup with another whose idea of love meshes with theirs only occasionally

So whaya thinking

                      a shehe heshe pulledup  parked their ass

Thinking

    Yah Wha guidance ya offering

Cant love yourselfplease yourself  travel the path less travelled    Frost

    Loves demands are extraordinary

Most havent the talent or intellect to manage it

                                                          Seems an awfully nifty excuse

  

0939,  Sunday,  29  12. 24

1258,  Sunday

America  Lonely People  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whYwRtpj3kU

    Yah    Said sixthousandsixhunred sixtynines    

Not tha yaever brought your face anywhere near pussy  Wha a miserableterrible loss

For you

I disagree.

Ya donhaf to say yes you don I know

                                                Sixthousandsixhunred sounds a lot    But it aint

Simple lovers math . .

. . Simple math.

Lovers

         Which yaint    Im not exactly sure whaya are

Simple math

You’re gonna bore me.

Likely

        Yet for everyone else who partakes Im running the math for those soulsfor me  Because it aint really much

Sixthousandsixhunred

Threehunredsixtyfive days sixtysix on Leap Year every four years is threesixtyfive twice seventhirty next two years are seventhirty one are fourteensixtyone

                                          Correct

Correct.

Fourteensixtyone four times  But sixteen years    Is fivethousandeighthunredfortyfour

    Correct

By my mat . .

. . Your damn near sterile math is correct

                                             Balance due is sevenhunredfiftysix  a tad over two more years  twentydays long of two yearsnot a month

Which is plausible

Which can be achieved by insatiable lovers

Eighteen years twenty days

Quit blowing smoke up my ass.

                                   That’d be every day, eighteen years twenty days.

    Not necessarily   Only if once a day

Ive made love threefour five times in one day  Havent kept track    Ive been with my girl since I was twentyone

Wish I kept track

You’re tellin’ me your repertoir . .

. . NOT

          Good lovers good partners havent repertoires   Fiftyfifty

Not even in a bed

    Were awfully rambunctious

 

Wish I kept a tally

                      Tally-ho  Got me a fox

Saturday evening sometime,  28  12. 24

1018,  Sunday,  29  12. 24

not his

         from the associated papers that accompanied the page hed assumed the quote was by Robert Penn Warren 

All the King’s Men

. . . and all times are one time, and all those dead in the past never lived before our definition gives them life, and out of the shadow their eyes implore us.

                                             Whell fuck him  Him   Not Warren

a breathtaking quote

hearttug

           he WARREN  slyshinyeyed him

he tried to ignore his look

                            had been goofying off with words

    e l a t e d

    r e v e r e d

    o     a

    d     s

  d e n o t e d

    d     d

elated revered denoted eroded erased

                                           he was missing words  was puzzled

let the puzzlement continue

would give him something to do later

                                          slyshinyeyed him reminded him    Doncha dare      Dare wha

What I see shapingup wanting to slip up through the bars of Vietnamese tiger cages

The French built them

Sly shiny eye

                Slope eyed

Yellow  Asian

You daring

    Believe we did   Implored us

Where from there

Wha do you imagine

Youre the one with imagination

                                 We hang on  Wild ride  Whiteknuckle it

Implore us

Implode us

Explore us

Explode us

Floor us

    Thoughts rise up out of us an sink back into us

You

     Not us

We are us

           Cant sidestep tha fact  Its evident

You buy tha

    A long time ago Since the first

Did you know thered be many

When theres one there will be others

                                         Is axiomatic

Has always served me well despite wha others thought  think

Tuesday,  12  7. 05

1303,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

https://www.lonelyplanet.com/vietnam/con-son/attractions/tiger-cages/a/poi-sig/1391605/1340214

. . . fresh off drugs

what would appropriately follow

everyone is welcome to their own idea

                                            his

raw eggs

           a bigJUMBO organic brownshell egg that his daughters turned him onto years ago

AwChrist yatwo  youve bought into organic products

his eldest You don’t know what you’re talking about.

It says organic on the carto . .

. . Have you ever tried one? the youngest asked

    No

Then you can’t possibly know what you’re talking about can you?

FUCK hated when they pulled that shit on him

Well? asked the eldest

had to suck it up

                 No  I have not

Then. they became a fuckin choral duo  Try it.

I do youll gag

still choiring Worth it no problem.

    Awright  Stepup to the sink shoudya spew he wanted to set expectationstheir eyes were already beginning to water

took a large knife from the wood Chicago cutlery block cracked the JUMBO egg inserted his thumb nailstilting his head backsplit the shelldumped the raw egg in his mouth overtlyenthusiastically thicklyswished it in his mouth

                                                                                                               eldest retched

youngests eyes teared more

    no vomit couldnt say he wasnt disappointed

swallowedsmacked his lips

Whell?

    You are correct The large white regular store eggs cant hold a candle to thisFuck

youngest We spotted you two dozen.

eldest cleared her throat  We believe they’re worth what they cost . . . particularly after seeing the pleasure on your face.

How come you guys are so smart he was fishing

together Maw.

2017,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

1146,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

Nuplazid

           if he wanted to be crass which wasnt beneath him hed say Gesundheit means health in German

a drug

        one of many drugs that drag Americans around as he was sure around the world world markets   world sufferers

Really

           Stop hallucinations

he took drugs to have hallucinationsSO

                                           if naturally hallucinating ALL ABOARD! cries the conductor them  themselves  take that fuckin train El bus wherever its going because the trip is homemade homebrewed homebling humbling

           cross any entities theyre of their own devise

he always dug walkin passed himself who was going in the opposite directionansometimes at a crossroad yielding the Right-of-Way all four of him going in opposites directions

                                                              Been there  Not much to see

Maybe you didnt look hard enough asshole

Asshole

                he could take that from himself

2334,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

1049,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

The retail price of Nuplazid is $5120 (for 30 tablets/month’s supply) https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/drugs-nuplazid-cost 

walking up behind him as he finished pouring coffee he overheard him thank the coffeemaker Shank you

Are you talking to the coffee machine?

I was

You thanked it?

I did

        Whydya say it like tha

I was enunciating. The word is spelled T H A N K not S H A N K.

handed him a mugmotioned with his head to the fridge if he wanted milk

                                                                              Whas your point

My point opened the fridge poured milk from the halffull gallon container closed it is that your pronunciations are often lazy, and who talks to inanimate objects?

The machine made your coffee I am grateful when something is provided me

                                                                                  End of the day Ive earned points

For what?

For whaever may come

This is stupid.

Interesting you kicked off stupid

                                       Coffees not too stronger

No. It’s good.

It was a gifthavent had it before Light roast  I prefer medium

Who gave it to you?

Bruther Babby

Bobby.

Wha I sad

Said.  What I said.

Yah

Yes.

Nah  Yah              

                 Ya tak your way Ill tak mine

A myna or ifya rather mynah bird N A H coud fallow me

                                                                Sharper than crows an theyre sharp

he crossed out of the kitchen into the livingroom out onto the front porch held the door for him held his cats at bay

they sat in the sun at a decorativelyperforated white metal café table

Why are you being so lazy with your speech?

Its Saturday Spend every week on the phone talkin perfectly clear  Enunciating  Pronouncing  Part of the gig

                                                                                                                     Relaxin

Anya can fallow me

Yah

Yes.

Yah  Right

woke composing 7AMish,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

0958, Saturday

Howd that happen

                     his heart asked

She  she insinuated herself

    She  was a cat

hallies a woman appleseed was a spider  Insinuated

                                                             Take me at my word

Im not bigyouve rendered me so  Not one to seek friends

                                                              An introvert

Your guard down

You were an excellent boxer

Unlike you

I was a kid then

                   Don think I let my guard down  Ive learned over the years

My doors not swung open

Im dismissive from the get-go

    Youll excuse me  Your recent  allowances     suggest otherwise

Recent suggests   many

Im not suggesting many

                         I havent room for many   We  havent room for many

We do not

    Anyet

An yet

You let them enter

I did

           In my defencenot tha I need to defend myself  from you

Holes  have  happened

    Yes

Perhaps I was pluggin holes

You tell me

   I had room

I was willing to risk

An it cost you

It did

            No blame

No  None

               None

Its to you to negotiate

    It is harder now

It will only be harder

                         Like fictional Immortals who suffer everyones deaths they allowed  themselves  to love

Not that were immortal

No

 

Let me say this

    Yes

I will miss us

                  You made me a rarified organ  I am grateful

I am grateful to you

after 2000hrs,  Thursday,  26  12. 24

1551,  reggaefriday,  27  12. 24

Well look at you. I rarely see you out.

Out chuckled to himself 

                        nodding to his neighbour Its good to see you Good holidays thus far

They have been, thank you.  Yours?

Good to hear  Yes

                       Be cool

Okay.  You too.

Thank you

 

 

    Out was In at his house

windows openhadnt run heat or air since ’20  only a few states could support his decision  fortunately this was one

when he was asked why he didnt broadcast  somehow it got around he replied

                                                                                  Wha did we do before

Before?  Progress since.

                             That’s not the point.

Its my point

              People take their comfort for granted a lot for granted  I consider them luxuries

Yacold  put on a sweater layer up

One shouldn’t have to dress in their own home.

I agree no   not if they don wish to

If a point Im living the way I want

You have a point, you’re making a point.

Youre suspicious

I think it’s suspicious, it's unorthodox.    Unusual.

    UnAmerican

What do you mean by that?

Runnin with your Uning

You trying to be clever?

Ones cleverness anothers common sense

                                                 Im not tellinya wha to do

But comparativel . .

. . Theres nothing to compare

                               Im not comparing myself to you you to me   Im doin my own thing

You’re insinuating conspicuous consumption.

Call it whaya will

                    I havent a name for it

Ifya need a name a label

                             Mines  cold comfort

I think it's nuts.

Just diggin whaonce was our roots

                                     Feral

I like feral  Its   uncomplicated

                                  smiled

after 0800,  reggaefriday,  27  12. 24

1217,  reggaefriday

they shared a raucous Im upyoure down Im downyoure up impetus  a splendid night of lovemaking

                                                                                                       what was so very compelling was that it was precipitated by a job offer she accepted earlier that evening a job she had passionatelypursued for years

she scrambled out of bed usually had to dislodge her to make it

                                                                I’m so excited! Showering, love.

Awright kiddo  Ill warm a towel in the dryer make French Press

Thank you.

               over the hot splashing shower water

    Christ  she was animated

he walked her out to the car hugged kissed her goodbye

as she back out  I’ll text I arrived.

Thank you

she pulled forward descending the hill they waved until they couldnt see each other

he went back inside did the dishes poured himself a cup of coffee began reading the newspaper

                                                                                                          a thought occurred

he set the paper down

concentrated on the thought

                                 laughed

hed share it with her at dinner

 

the thought

              I love you

a statement hes said only to his first girlfriend  his wife who unfortunately had died  and her

                                                                                                     he told her she would be the last woman he ever says it to

chuckled

            I love you a delicious hidden parenthetical

I love (being inside) you (being in your hands between your tits in your mouth your pussy your ass)

                                                                                                 I love (to fuck) you

I love (being fucked by) you

 

    he loved her with every fibre of his being

early AM,  reggaefriday,  27  12. 24