took a gander at pages he assembledseparated into actionable items to see if he had interest in writing anything else more  for the day

headline  MURDER   Audience participation

                                                  NOPE didnt think so

NEXT

headline  PARANOIA

                          Whas the fuckin date on these    Saturday November Fourth Twothousandsix

Santa Cruz

                Whadafuck was goin with him in Santa Cruz

underlying both  FEAR

                            November Fourth Twothousandsix

 

   nothing was coming to mind

                                     his memory is usually keen he was still two years off when he began dating

after his wifes death

tickled him

             when he did it was thirty years since he last dated    HURTLE?

pleasantly he found out

girls educations paid off

crushing it at work despite being a finger in the execs an the boards eye

                                                                             Go ahead Call me a liar

 

nothing   

                   mind

    The World’s Best-Dressed Men Wear Socks

he didnt

                   creeping paranoia 

    hed figure it outsomething

1947,  Monday,  2  12. 24

. . . Chauvet Cave

                    Id go beyond  Id acknowledge the cave as an edifice of memory

Edifice of memory?

Yah

Wouldn’t you say . . . that's somewhat vaulted, extreme?

Nah

    You’re not going to let this go are you?

No

        Not even if your brain implodedyour head sucked into your pineal glandyour lips quivering like a feather a feeding anemone with your breath  quivering at it crown

 Jesus Joe.

Paints quite a picturehuh

    Yes.  And here I thought you liked me.

I do

      Can you imagine if I didnt

Id have your skull paint the surrounding walls with shardsslivers of bone gneiss brainmatter

                                                                                                  Think Rococo  A Pollock abstract expressionism   Hurled with adamant exuberance

Think

         Lost  time

Lost time?

Tryin to waste mine    Yes

How . . do you mean?

Wha I said  Lost time

                         Kindalike pennies dropped  Believed cheaptoo cheap to kneeldown bend at the waist to pickup  Although if collectedaccumulated  weighty   theyre valuable

                                                                   Then  an onlythen truly recognised

    Are you listening to yourself?

Yes  Fascinated   Watchin your lips

                                        Perched  parked  atop of your beautiful pineal

   

Friday,  5  1. 24

1534,  Monday,  2  12. 24

Clumsy

             Really

You disagree?

Compared to wha

What do you mean compared to what?

Theyre cave paintings   Chauvet Comon

                                                 Tell me youre sharper thantha

You’re criticizing my taste in art?

Know me to pull punches

                           Aint a comedy show  Cant take a joke stay out

    So you are criticizing me.

Yaleft me no choice

How do you figure?

Knockin perhaps Mans earliest attempts at artwhich they hadnt a word for  Protolanguage  Probably gestured more than said

             Leaning on knuckles  So whadaya think  Art huh

Estimated thirtysixthousand years ago

Thirtysixthousand BCE

BCE?

Before the Current Era

It’s BC.

Before Christ

              No way in Hell

Ought to describe this era our eraNOW  as B Nine fuckinEleven  Albeit an exact apt description of the shit weve mired ourselves in

              Bushwhacker said an I quote  America was targeted for attack because we’re the brightest beacon for freedom and opportunity in the world.

And no one will keep that light from shining.

Weve been dimming the dimmer switch since

Capitulated

Handed over the car keys 

    You don’t mean that.

I do

How is it you can take our disagreement, our differing perspectives, opinions, of art, and make it about politics, or for that matter world politics?

I wade wide I range wide Stuck a pin in it like a lepidopterist

                                                                   Yadon know Im not gonna say Look it up for yourself

Friday,  5  1. 06

1401,  Monday,  2  12. 24

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/journey-oldest-cave-paintings-world-180957685/

https://www.bu.edu/articles/2021/how-9-11-changed-the-world/

https://georgewbush-whitehouse.archives.gov/news/releases/2001/09/20010911-16.html#:~:text=These%20acts%20of%20mass%20murder,touch%20the%20foundation%20of%20America.

his bliss overflowedreal live kneeslapper  unfortunately he couldnt remember a time when someone else naturally slapped their knee 

                      did whenever he was moved

Comon, man, it wasn’t that funn . .

. . It was fuckin hilarious

    It wasn’t.

You think because it was offcolour steps on obscene

                                                         Had you seen herknown  known she was practisedexercised as

I did  Youd have fucked her too

I wouldn’t have.

    If you were seventeen you woud have

Wouldn’t have.

Woud

I wouldn’t have. 

Woud woud wood wood wood

                                Thirteen nearlyfourteen  built like a brick shithouseSEE even got tha right despite slappin my kneethoroughly tickled We rockedemptied the kids pool sloughedsplashedFUCK   Was deliciousdelirious

Out in the open in your backyar . .

. . Under a full moonBuck Moon   July

                                         Arya kiddin me

Antha  not only a minor as me but her last name  Miner ARE YOU FUCKIN KIDDIN ME A KNEESLAPPER if ever was

    Christ Wha a prude

                           When she came through the bushes separating our yards undressing as she came  Id stripped played three soccer games in a row why go in the house to take a bathhad the pool  firedup a joint   Shared it with her when she climbed infeet in the others crotch

Arya fuckin kiddin me

                         I should have said Mary  You really need to get dressed and go home

Nobody going to jail

Consensual sex  Cuntsensual

Maybe piss the parents off

                             But then  We got our rocks off

Whareally were they going to be able to do

Thasaid

          Never found out

Hell

     She snuck into a party I was havinwe busted out Seven Minutes in Heaven in the closet for better than a hafhour

I thank my lucky stars Im me

    Prude

             slapped both knees

1028,  Sunday,  1  12. 24

1234,  Monday,  2  12. 24

https://www.space.com/39238-full-moon-names.html

https://www.wikihow.com/Play-7-Minutes-in-Heaven

Monday

mutteredpleasantly Eeny meeny miny moe

                                             washow he chose what piece to writehis routine  everybody should have a routine evenif theyd consider it a ruetine

You just said.  Are you repeating yourself?

    he paused a moment  for her to stretch her wingsexpand her mindTHINK think outside the box kiddo pleease  she really appealed to him physicallyhow she presented  GAWDsmackingly fuck gob only GAWD cut it

Im not

You saidcorrect me if I’m wrong, everybody should have a routine even if they’d consider it a routine.

he really wanted to cut her some slackgive her some leewaywhich which he rarely did  they had excuse reason just met earlier that evening  unlikely shed know anyone to be a precursor precursor in her experience to him

                                                                                                          Woudya look at him a heshe shehe mutterednot pleasantly Hes cuttin her some slackanybody remember the last time this prick cut anyone slack     Prick thas pretty strong   heshe shehe looked at the other who spoke grunted it was a shehe heshe theres a difference    DO YOU remember the last time    evertruthful No I cant    Yamade my point snarkily Concur    I concur    Fine then    Fine

    No  he smiled

                       It sounded like I said tha

I have a decidedly different take view on words   Theyre malleable

Malleable?

Yah As a kid I could never win a Spelling Bee after Fourth It was then I started bendinem  On paper they were exoticenticing

                   Often erotic  When I found one really hot coudnt keep my hands off myself

she burst out laughingdidnt cover her mouth which he found terrible exciting

Hes really cuttin her some slack    Woudya let it go were learnin somethin newbout him anif not new tha he can beif he chooses  malleable himself Which is breathtakin    noddingnodding Thas a good point good point fuckin historic  May never witness this again    Exactly

her eyes got wetwiped their corners with her fingers

                                                         he offered a handkerchief  Its cleanfrom my left pocket only use my right to blow my nose redundancy  a good thing to have backup planscontingencies

she took itwiped her eyes

Want me to hold it for you

That’d be sweet, I’ve no pocket.

I coudbe your pocket  Im not sweet

You’re not?

Nah

      Saltysweet at best     So

Yes.  So?

Malleable

Yes.  Malleable.

In tha sentence

                     Whas malleable

This is kindalike a game.

It is Playful

she mutteredeffervescently slowly  Everybody should have a routine even if theyd consider it a routine.

Routine.

Ruetine.  R U E T I N E.   Yes?

Attababy

    Awshucks ainttha sweet  heshe shehe said

0937,  “Monday Monday”,  2  12. 24

Mamas & the Papas  Monday, Monday  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWGh92O9kxU

when you watch for deer you see deer

                                                    phantom deer

coming down out of the hills highCareful

                                            Drivin while under the influence . . .

Fackyou  Not driving drunk

Under the influence   Stoned

Two entirely different things an I knowIve done both

Donsound so proud  You forget our lives are on the lineothers too  in other vehicles

Don sneer donsneer

                       Cant see itbreathin down the back of my neck but I can hear it in your voiceyou look around

    Look around

Rural   Watchin for deer drivin back roads

Like tha . .

. . Matters

          Look at me Completin your wordsthoughts   Matters    Yah

Comon bigmouth   Call it a dozen times

Anintha time  how many carshow many vehicles woudya say coming at us from the opposite direction

I coudnt say

Coudnt   Why

    Headlights

Yah some tha turned before we were evenonem    Yah

 

Yes

Ohyesnotyah

                

                       Whoya ridin wid

indignant  Yah

Better better

              Id have to guesscuz I didnt count Not half the times ridin home    Under the influenceDeer

Deer

Yahdeer  phantom deer    More deer phantom deer than vehicles

                                                                       Gimme tha

Ill give you tha

Antherest of the monkeys  behind ya

                                         Gimmetha

It is a consensus

We concur

 

We  Do

    Then sit backshaddup  Watch for deer enjoy the ride

 

Fackin solicitous mariachi   

1919,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

0943,  Sunday,  1  12. 24

Sergio Mendes e Brazil ‘66  Look Around  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n-4utYZ7hE

King of the Hill

    No    

          Really

where he lived

out of reach

try an reach him

hell see you comin

enjoys the highground

was ideal

           no one can see anything but the drive to the sky from the road  hes at the back of the lot 

the pinnacle

    thats what he calls the house  Pinnacle

                                              boasts  Ive reached the Pinnacle

not publicallydoesnt socialise

                               doesnt – despite being an odd thingsome say an awful thing to say – need people 

No

     Best thing I can say

Its excellent I get along with myself

                                     spoken like a true introvertferal introvert

if hed offer advicewhich he wouldnt hed tell all introverts to find a hill live on it or  or   OR  dig a moat around your housekeep the drawbridge up

his family lives back east

they called for Thanksgiving

                               You got plans?

I do

 

    What are your plans? suppose they have to ask

Im dining at home

Who with?anyone you’ve mentioned? suppose they have to ask

No one

    You’re going to be alone?

they stillall these years later dont understand that given his imagination

                                                                                 he is never alone

    . . . excellent thing I get along with myself

Hey agitatedshruggin his shouldersjabbin his elbows Yawanna step backgimme some room

 

2233,  Thursday – Thanksgiving,  28  11. 24

1903,  Saturday,  30  11. 24

he began to say interesting but bit his tongueHard  ambivalent

                                                                 FUCKthahurt talkin to himself 

least he listened

usually when he went offranted whoever was across from him faces went pasty  went blank

    Wha

I . . I . . . I can’t keep up with you.

Whas to keepup withlet it wash over youall ya gotta do is listen not think of a reply a retorttry to be cleverthas the reason why you insist you cant keepup

                                          sighed   Just fuckinlisten

I listen to youhear your argument

I clarify your argumentask questions   Yah

You do.

I don check out  Complain

                               Do I

    No.

Bluesky

           Gonna take a huge portion of Twitters market

Twitter?

It’s called X.

Call it whaya will Im not on social media

                                            Causes cancer  stress   Too many people at ones ear

A compoundingconfoundingcacaphony

    Enjoy

I research Study    Refuse to be pushed around

Werent meant to consume a fuckinthing like tha

1139,  Saturday,  30  11. 24

1416,  Saturday

Bluesky  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Psag-E8Xr1s  &  https://news.grabien.com/story/msnbc-interviews-coo-of-x-s-rival-bluesky-most-of-these-platforms-are  &  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVTbXqFjCEs

https://bsky.social/about/blog/03-12-2024-stackable-moderation

The Hill  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iP4FpUaGMs0&t=11s  checkout Tara McGowans eyebrows 9:30 minute-mark

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QcnralErR4

sometimes shitstream of consciousness is ohsofuckinfuckin necessary

                                                                           people bring that out of him

his tolerance null

Thomas ‘A’Holman borderline nut Czar Tsar dressing in tactical garb asif militarycouldnt complete a physical training course if he tried NICe so quit makeupdonning gay apparel Fa-la-la la-la-la la-la-la fellate prez-elect who hasnt crossed the Finish Line yet

starcrossed phony superheros

                                they aint that or everwillbe

                                                        reminds him of lilylivered

339preferred,  reggaefriday,  29  11. 24

0534,  Saturday,  30  11. 24

1243, Saturday

NIC is various military Night Infiltration Courses

8:27 minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dk_fORlej3s

Dylan  Across the Borderline  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsPYU8NIBL8

“We find it useful to be ambiguous.”

                                       found the quote on a piece of paper folded in a book  he noted  September 2006  the utterance from a spokesman no doubt with Syrias Foreign Ministry regarding the Lebanese village of Shebaa

ambiguity  equivocation

                           ruses

seeming but not admitting

                             lying

used in relationships or as he thinks of them  relate-tionships

                                                                  he has very few because he cannot tolerate dishonesty

look how fuckingenerous hes being  dishonesty

    ambiguity

                is a seed thats spoiling  an egg of promise gone rotten  a dribble of sperm drying in the dirt

    in poker cards in the hole

    in people fingerscrossed behind their back a wink a smirk a veiled lie while looking someone in the eyes

    a childs toy hammer that rattles to a forgedsteel ballpeen hammer

    one amuses versus one direct in their function

maybe what the Foreign Ministry meant or Americas State department means

                                                                                           “We find it useful to lie.”

to whomever

    lying tears apart relate-tionships

noon-ish-ness,  Thursday,  9  11. 24

1102,  Saturday,  30  11. 24

https://www.aljazeera.com/features/2013/7/2/the-strange-case-of-lebanons-shebaa  https://www.logicstudent.com/logic/Module09_03_00.html

heres a humdinger  amphiboly fallacy – new to him – “a relatively rare logical fallacy in which a statement’s ambiguous grammatical structure leads to misinterpretations and misleading conclusions.”

                                                                                                like partisans who title and write state propositions

https://www.nyjournalofbooks.com/book-review/resilience-myth-new-thinking

“If Art does not enlarge men’s sympathies, it does noting morally.” 

                                                                        George Eliot

quoted by Joyce Carol Oates, Men Without Qualities, published in The New York Review of Books,  November 5, 2006

    enlarging sympathies 

now thats something Pharmaceuticals ought to turnloose their Research & Development on

rather than fourhour hard ons IF ONES HEART CAN TAKE IT

                                                            or legalise drugs  squeezeout streetcorner pushers – he gets it everyone needs a job – who of the two is more honest but doesnt have the right on their side  legislate GET OUT OF JAIL FREE cards  zeroZip litigation in case where their drugs fuckup some white addict

if were to be a nation of addicts

Better Living Through Chemistry https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJtKkBYlHFw

                                                                                                                  then

shouldnt we at least have a chance to OD on Enlarged Sympathies

4-ish-ness,  Sunday,  22  10. 24 in Vegas

Sunday,  5  11. 06

0946,  Saturday,  30  11. 24

the toilet had a sense of humourmind of its own

to flush he turned the water on

it began its turning as flushed a toilet would usually dobut

                                                                  that was no guarantee

he had to keep an eye on it  and

                                   probably one out of ten times it refusedhe had to turn the water off then

continuing to turn  clockwise

slowing

SURPRISE

suddenlyswallowed

                        or

he had to concedeturn the water off  reach for the plunger to complete what knucklehead adamantlystubbornly refused to complete

             refused

to do its singularsolitary job

                                however

not without a shared sense of humour betweenem

    motherfucker kept him on his toes

1018,  reggaefriday,  29  11. 24

1511,  reggaefriday