Remember Marine Lance Corporal José Antonio Gutiérrez

we ought to remember as former president rails against illegal aliens inside United States that Marine Lance Corporal José Antonio Gutiérrez  believed to be the second military fatality in Iraq  earned his green card AFTER HE DIED

   Yah

             illegal aliens

while thousands of noncitizens currently serve in our military as soldiers and as support personnel

should we to wonder if theyre to be deported along with alleged criminals  first

Thomas “A” Holman ought to get his head out of his lilywhite racist ass

as he blithelyblissfully tugs his cock in anticipation

                                                       AWWWshucks premature ejaculation  iftha

1528,  Monday,  18  11. 24

https://projects.latimes.com/wardead/name/jose-gutierrez/

Eminem  White America  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQEpRTy_1bY

McGrath  3:40 minute-mark into the video  “noncitizens”  https://www.rawstory.com/mass-deportations-2669937117/

https://socialistworker.org/2007-1/634/634_09_Gutierrez.php

It woud be better 

                    if

we were taller

                 if

we coud look

                long  longingly

into the horizon

                  if

we coud look

               down

see all things afoot

their interactions intricacies

                                 their separateness

From high above

we coud see more at once

and seeing more

understand more

defeat 

         shortsightedness

                    

See

       youngsters in colourful play in a green park

see

     an old man sit quietly in a lawn chair beside his wifes grave

see

     lovers embrace in warm coils

   see

          beyond ourselves

 

Thursday,  23  7. 09

1419,  Monday,  18  11. 24

Kevin. she pointed to their glasses  Again, please.

On it, Aisling.

On me.

You don have to do tha

I don’t. Say thank you Joe.

Thank you

You’re welcome.

Kevin brought their drinks changed out the money on the bar

                                                                 she pushed the difference to him

Thank you, Kevin.

You’re welcome.

she took a sip of his again

                             Oofdah.  Again. What’s in that?

Scotch Kevins sly he steps it up for me without askin   An Drambuie

Drambuie, that’s it. I like how it feels coming out of my mouth.

                                                                    Drambuie.

Tasty straight side to black coffee

Yeah. No.

               So earlier you mentioned an experiment you’re participating in.

held his glass up Na Zdrowie

Polack. Here’s mud in your eye.

tapped glasses sipped

    The experiment.

Selfexperiment March Twentysecond  Start year four

What is it?

My more feral experiment

                             Coudnt play it where theres ice and snow

Feral?

More feral Yes

How so?

Since March Twentytwo Twentyone house open no air no heat

                                                                    Changedup my diet

Cut back eating flesh

A vegetarian?

Still omnivorous Still have flesh couplethree times a month

                                                                Replaced it with legumes

Eat more soup than a man ever seen

Not my line  Doors originally

                                Chicken

    Flesh?

Provocative  Provocation

                             Animals die so we can eat arent treated wellnot treated with respect  reverence

We ingest fear their horror   

Awfully strong.

Think not  True

                 Lined up murdered one by one  slaughter terrifying  think holocaust  shoudnt have been corporatised industrialised meat factories small producers small ranches small farms myriad scattered stockyards live within their means smallgauge rails to local markets no subsidises no US Farm Bill fattening corps   really screwed the pooch bitched America

A mouthful, Joe.

Rant  Real

    Feral, more feral.   How’s that work?

Ive not seen an internist either Woud have to kill fifty people or more On a waiting list

Feral

        Seein if modernity has stolen our souls  Not tha I have one

I refuse to suffer conveniences refuse gulping profit drugs refuse to submit to advertisements Ask your doctor today

I think doctors don need patients beggin this or tha

                                                         If theyre worth their salt

Anif they arent why are they practising

    Another mouthful.

Got a big mouth

Kevin mentioned you freak him out a bit.

Hows tha

Says you told him you eat once a day.

Ohyah Been at tha more than twenty years

                                               Don starve not like I heard out of the mouths of many

Hungers a good stress

    So you wouldn’t take me out to dinner?

Id make you dinner

Beans?

If you like Or I coud treat ya

                                   Occasionally

House.

Yes

Sounds to me youd be at home in a cave.

                                             A caveman.

No no

        My books woud mold cant have tha  An my art

I do maintain certain delicacies of modernity

1024,  Monday,  18  11. 24

Doors  Back Door Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTwNzhLvRGs

https://maryvancenc.com/why-you-should-let-yourself-get-hungry/#:~:text=Bottom%20line%3A%20getting%20hungry%20between,loss%20and%20to%20overall%20health.

https://www.health.harvard.edu/staying-healthy/why-stress-causes-people-to-overeat

. . . as their best friend telephone rambling continued

                                                             Listen man, you’re killing my wife.

Howstha

Got you on speaker phone.

Shame on you youre killin her

You know when I’m on the phone I’m on speaker.

As do I but theres no one here to overhear us an as you know stoned  Im off the rails

Rails? As if ever as she can hear.

Shell learn hold onto your panties baby no idea where were goin

                                                                       Yawanna lead

Hey now. You called me. Ball’s in your court.

Exactly  Exactly

                    Curious you mention court

    How’s that?

Im listenin been listenin to your long response time   The pregnant pauses

                                                                                   Why yanot say

Say what?

    Yare stoned

I am.

Brisk  There ya go

                           Court time

Court time?

Balls in my court

    Oh. Yeah.

                 What of it? 

Were transcendent

Transcendent?

Above an beyond the normal the mere physical human experience

                                                                        In a word   Exceptional

We oughta embrace the notion

Edify our shoot from the hip whimsyness

I ain’t shooting. You’re whimsy. We’re high. What’s to embrace?

The answer ya provided

 

Answer? What the hell.

                            What was the question?

Court

Court?

The balls in

               I don’t know what the hell your talkin’ about.

Wha Ive been sayin

What you’ve been saying ain’t makin’ sense to me.

Ya hit the nail on the head

Would you just say? You’re killin’ me.

Baby  Am I killin you too

I’m not listening.

she was off somewhere in the room

Court   Transcendent  Exceptional

 

And?

Christ

    What?

Royalty

What?

Your Highness

What?

Your  Highness

Repeating it tells me nothing.

Hey now  Says everything

                                Think on it  Wifey can help shes heard plenty

Later

he didnt feel bad hangin up onim can lead a horse to water but cant makeem drink

1707,  Saturday,  16  11. 24

0934,  Monday,  18  11. 24

Santana (ft. Everlast)  Put Your Lights On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJ3Yb2L2838

he was flyin

called his best friend

                      nice thing about best friends  could intrude on them they could intrude him and whatever they were doing at the time theyd stopput it on hold

they were old friends

they met in Cub Scouts

                           he reminded him

I remember. What’s up?

First Im stoned  Get tha out of the way so you have an idea where Im comin from

You recognise that even if you aren’t stoned you’re stream-of-consciousness is like you are.

I do

Okay. Good.

              If I can contend with you while you’re straight this is a walk in the park.

This park maybe a curvy quincunx

A what?

Quincunx is a geometric pattern  an arrangement of five points four corners a point in the center

How is that curvy?

My points vacillate trade places  flex  hide from one another but remain  a quincunx 

You like saying it.

I do

          Wha occurred to me  I had intended to text you  But I had too much to say

Hence. You called.

Yes

      Had I texted you it occurred to me tha woud virtually be like drunk texting    Woudnt it

It would.

But not precisely

No.

    Curvy.

Yes

      Youre catching on

Cub Scouts old friends

Yes. You said.

    It occurred to me tha we are unlike other friends weve had in our lives

For instance?

Im glad you asked

                     Youre quite the dancerwere quite the dancer in college disco days I did not

Thank you. I was.

You were because you had black friends who taught you how to move

Yes I did.  I’m surprised you remember.

You were boastful

    I was boastful?

You were you touted the various clubs you danced at

                                                         In your letters I still have them   If you need verification

You still have them.

    I do Not hoarding  History

                                 Now if Id catalog them by dates Id be a historian  A herstorian

Follow

I do.

Where are your black friends now

My friends. I have no idea.

Why

Why?  We’ve lost I’ve lost they’ve lost we’ve lost track of each other.

Because

Because?

Yes

Do you know why?you sound like you know why.

I do

      They wereweve all had them  Episodic friends

Episodic?

Certainly Chapters in a book chapters in our lives we moved they moved life goes on  It was easier not to keep up keep track keep in touch

                      Then memories Then myths   Yacant be called out

I suppos . .

. . You know  You know

Don ya think it woud have been easier to admit it right up front

                                                                  Tellya wha Im just lookin for an episodic friend  Yacool

Because we are not

                       An most of our friends have been an thereby werent really friends but rather acquaintances but who wants to spend all those syllables introducing your acquaintance rather than  my friend

Friend

         One syllable

You see why I didnt hightext you

Yes.

       Curvy quincunxed.

Yah  Thanks for picking up man I love ya

Thank for calling. I love you too.

1707,  Saturday,  16  11. 24

2031,  Sunday,  17  11. 24

What are you doing?looks like it hurts.

    Im considering death

                               Gimme a definitionNo no   Make up one

Mine will correspond with the dictionary's.

Try an make one up

I don't think so. I have my phone I'll share.

    Your phone

                  Wha will your master say

My master?

Yes  Correct

Why master?

As youre its slavehave to it keep it close you insist  It coud be important

                                                                            Important calls important texts

Theyre not

Not until it is.

Please 

         Tell me the last time you received a crucial call or text  Thasaid  if somethings crucial likely itll be a call

he disregarded him played with his phone

                                              Wikipedi . .

. . Wiked   disappointed shakes his head

                                                  Go on

End of lif . .

. . Excuse me

                 Go ahead

End of lif . .

. . Established tha

    The irreversible cessation of all biological functions that sustain a living organism.

Fine

       Now share a definition something you can call your own

That’d be my definition.

Cant define it

I have.

          irritated  Yours?

   Mine

             Minus time-space   Plus soul-time

You shrug

Death’s death.

Yours is uncreative 

                      Stretch your legs or someone somebody will always tell you whas wha

Don roll your eyes  

                     Knut Hamsun Truthtelling does not involve seeing both sides or objectivity. It is unselfish inwardness.                                                                                               

after January 19, 1992

1558,  Sunday,  17  11. 24

    Miller

grateful

perhaps if not for Nin no Miller

                                  queer

he didnt find her until a freshman in college in the library exhausted by Biology needing respite a changeup saw a palindrome author on a bindingspine

                                       The Four-Chambered Heart  beside it House of Incest        biology

opening it

             to his surprise a woman

he had not read a woman writer until then

    prejudiced

not really

           read science fiction adventure Hemingway Dos Passos Durrell  Steinbeck  Conrad  Twain  Algren  Joyce classics  Iliad Odyssey  Dante

not skirts

    was uninformed

an unforced error

in judgment

Miller

       “Even if it last for only a few moments, the privilege of looking at the world as a spectacle of unending life and not as a repository of persons, creatures and objects to be impressed into our service, is something never to be forgotten.”

had to be after Saturday,  19  1. 92

1216,  Sunday,  17  11. 24

Bottle of Venetienne please

                                You may call it Venetian

the man stared vacantly at him

Do you understand

                       Recommended by Rabelais Rimbaud Villon Baudelaire   Perhaps Whitman

A sailors remedy

    blinked   For what?

Clap

If we wish not to be gauche

Syphilis

Gauche.   blinked

Unsophisticated Awkward   Lacking ease or grace

I know what it means.

Youre expression does not communicate  tha

                                                      Have you a bottle

A phial.

A vial  For something vile

expressionless

    Have you a phial

I have.

          Nothing’s worse than worry. Do you understand?   finally an expression

Fay ce que vouldras

Inscription on the gate of Rabelais’ Abbey of Theleme.

In his satirical Gargantua and Pantagruel

Yes.

Means

Do what you want.

Yes

        I did  Now I need help with as you say  My worry

that had beenwould be his most trying interlewd with a pharmacist

    fortunately he did not present

fortunately

                because he was allergic to penicillin

had to be after Saturday,  19  1. 92

1124,  Sunday,  17  11. 24

https://jmvh.org/article/syphilis-its-early-history-and-treatment-until-penicillin-and-the-debate-on-its-origins/

they asked if they should record him

My utterances he shrugged

                                Why notperhaps  Coud be garbage

But then one mans trash is anothers treasure

they shrugged

                 listened as he began

    each chose their particular passage  noting the tones nuances rhymes rhythm  deepbreath pauses

                                                                                                                 hard

sometimesstartling emphases

they knit their brows stroked their temples worried their lips

                                                                listened  listened   listened

leaning in asif he whispered

he saw

         Am I hard to hear need I speak louder

they shook their heads no

    he chuckled Am I worth a price of admission

they didnt respond

                     unvowed   his words like drops of rain on dry thirsty dirt

gentle washes for tired eyes

massages for exhausted bodies

appealing murmurs to their ears like a songbirds

                                                     like lies they were desperate to believe

his voice came from behind masks they wanted to see

    his words cradled them as breaths or breeze turn colouredthreads of incense  quivered gentle candle flames

listening

          became childlike again  without hurt anger doubt

pinkskinned once more

wideeyed once more

                         gentle

they took him like mothers milk

                                   closed their eyes  suckled

listening they dreamed dreamed dreamed

                                               fantastic fearless dreams

    they should have brought scribes to record him

they didnt have time

0138,  Saturday,  19  1. 92

0947,  Sunday,  17  11. 24

    WARNING not Skull an Crossboneish: had nibbled a cheery cherry

made him contemplative

                            not contemptuous of anything hed read

Your Inner Fish

                  “a fish with wrist” was wild

The Lost World of the Dinosaurs

                                   anticipating the Sixth Great Extinction

“There’s no such thing as climate change. That’s sissy talk.”  https://science.nasa.gov/climate-change/effects/

No climate change Xcuse me ladies I apologise  Thas cunt talk

couldnt say when he scribbled it

                                   opposite side of the paper didnt correspond datewise

on it was Id rather attend an Arent You Dead Yet than a Life Celebration

likely somewhere between Twentyfirst Century ‘Fourteen and ‘Eighteen

                                                                                    Twentyfirsts off on a shaky start

                                                                                      America ought to be ashamed   

    had scribbled

                     The world is an . . . illusion

                                    a . . . collusion

                                      . . . collision

                                      . . . coliseum

                                    a . . . Theatre of the Absurd immediately beneath that

                              I cannot host the infamy of the world in me

of course he could

                    had to toss a little soap opera schmaltzness in

1552,  Saturday,  16  11. 24