Nauh nauh don’t do that don’t do that.

                                          they were walking over a fast river on a stone bridge  posts at intervals electrified lamps atop

Dowha

What you’re going to do.

Yaknow wha Im gonna do

I do you do.  Don’t.

                     You’ve had too much to drink.

I can swim

If you survive the fall.

Awballs

         he broke into a run an leaptup onto the broad stonerail beside a post leapt again an going over the edge grasped the post swungbodily over the river an onto the rail again

Motherfucker.

Like I was going to miss

                            I can swim

Get down.

Arya my mother

Getdown.

Killjoy

Get the fuck down.

Yah

     started tothen reversed leaptgripped the pole againinverted wrapped his legs sliddown the pole ducked his skull soft onto his shoulders

                             Help me down  Please

helping  Fuckyou.

Thank you

You’re welcome.

Yaknow wha

You’re insane?

Odds were in my favour

I’ve seen you throw yourself into fights when they weren’t.

Aah  but you had my back we had the element ofSURPRISE

                                                                 Never knew wha hitem

he shrugged   At best  Mad

They mean the same thing.

Mads short Succinct

                      Yaknow wha  If youll let me return to my train of thought

You’re freighted train?

Burdened

You said it, not me.

Ill agree

          Yaknow what Id like to do

No.  Not now.

               Tell me.

Id like to park my brain for a whilewalkaway leave it for a bit

                                                                  Sppose Id wander aimlessly without the ability to think

Visuals might be interestingconversation fascinating

Park your brain.

Yah

        While you were helping me down know wha I was thinkin since you were so sharpfucking surgical scalpel on the bridge  Know

    No.

I was thinking about Socrates  has to drink hemlockhe says to the bartender  Put a head on it man  I was thinking Plato refused to write tha in Phaedo guy teaches Aristotlebetcha he didnt share tha with him  I was thinking  at least I have confidence Plato wrote it because he could an the four gospels of the apostles Matthew Mark Luke John Moe Larry Curly ShempThree Stooges plus one nepo did not write their words  took a hunredfifty years before the first appeared  Church denied Thomas gospel  Gnostic

Zenos paradox half is half is half is half never to arrive Tortoise an the Hare

    Thawas wha I was thinking

Park it

Thad be nice

339 340hrs – friend liked 339 to 340 but told himlied to him 340hrs,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ’24

1508,  Saturday,  14  9. 24

I know you’ve said but I gotta tell you that I’d also love to see your personnel file, which, from what you’ve said, must be fat, voluminous.

As I was made to believe  Yes

And they didn’t fire you.

It was suggested a few times thathey management were considering it

                                                                           Twice I can remember rapping on a doorentering without waiting for a reply I had a bus to catch home  I need to know if Im coming into work tomorrow  Have a decision

May have sounded like chopchop

So why do you think you weren’t fired, that you finished out your job when the business finally closed its doors, was taken possession of?

I did my job My work was impeccable

                                            While an ass I was a significant asset

You weren’t management.

No I was invited to apply for management positions that it believed I was well suited for but I did not

Why not? Why wouldn’t you want to build your resume?

Career

What do you mean?

I didnt want a career

                       When I declined to pursue those occupations I reminded them thaif I was in management a glass house  I had to play by the rules   I coudnt throw rocks

I really liked to throw rocks

Wasn’t fired.

Never expected to be I mean they could have but they didnt

                                                                 I was invaluable  Irreplaceable

When you know tha  knowing tha is powerful

    I don’t know that.

Were you replaceable

I was replaceable.

Cog

While I hate to admi . .

. . Yacoud say dislike dislike with extreme prejudice

Works for me

I hate to admit it. I was.

                             wistful  I still can’t believe you got away with what you got away with.

Let me put it this way

                        Imagine a galvanised metal washtub a balia A huge watermelon in it  Ice  Water   Waters nearly to the lip

Im the watermelon

You’re the watermelon.

Yes  Tub balia the confines of the companys functions responsibilities the water an ice its workings

Now imagine Im removed

The water an ice tha remains doesnt fill a quarter of the tub

A good analogy

You were a big watermelon.

Huge

1400,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ’24

1227,  Saturday,  14  9. 24

he yelled to friend as he crossed the yard to where they had setup some chairs and a table between them to place their drinks on iPhone says

                             Why is your iPhone always saying

I think it’s the umm yaknow onboard aah algorithms.

Your social media ventures

Yes. Exactly.

               Which you know absolutely nothing about.

Correct

         Take the Wittgenstein Fifth

Fifth?

Whereof thereof

Ah, gotcha.

Wha got you

A geology site reached out to me. Did you know that the Sierra Nevadas are batholithic, they’re intruded igneous rock.

Intruded

           Versus  extruded

Yes. Stayed inside the earth. It rose but stopped, remained below the surface, for example, granite, then exposed when the earth weathered away, versu . .

. . Its opposite Extruded Came out of the earth

                                                      Deduction

Site share anything else youd like to make known

Similar to granite, granodiorite, differing only by containing more calcium and sodium feldspar.

    Gran odior ite

Yes.

Know whatha triggers in my head

Do I want to know?

I think you ought to guess before you know

Guess before I know.

                       Which means I have no choice.

Exactly

         Exactly the choices you give me when your phone badgers you

It doesn . .

. . It does

             Youre slavish to itsnaps its fingersJUMP    How high

No.

You an it are inseparable

                             Wheres mine

In your car.

At home

         When AT&T shut me downsqueezed me out of affording my landline the cell replaced it

Its my house phone

Luddite.

Lewddite

             Granodiorite

Makes me think gran granular granddiarrhea a slurry of shit earth weathers rockhard turd

    I am corrected. Lewddite confirmed.

Appreciate tha but so you can think better of me  Fact   The Rosetta Stone is a stele made of granodiorite

1400,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ’24

1121,  Saturday,  14  9. 24

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You’re ramblin’.

I am

       I am a ramblin man yaoughta try it some time

No, I don’t think so.

   Too lineardid well in geometry  Think youre reasonable

Contrary. Unreasonable. Oftimes irascible.

Look at us fingerpainting pictures

                                     You like representable figurative art photography

I adore abstract  Utterly subjective

No argument there.

Never is Not an argument a discussion conversation Not zero-sum non zero-sum  win-win

You believe that?

I do

Then why do you get heated?

Youre structured boxed-in

                             Just tryin to breakdown a few walls expose ya to whas outside

If youd care to look

If I cared to look don’t you think I would on my own accord.

Accord  Agreement   Conformity

No

     If something does not comport to your wha  ideals ideas youd rather not look

So no

Snow

Snow?

Playin

        Birds youre keeping watching upstairs are cockatiels not cockatoos 

I know.

Toucan

No.

Toulouse-Lautrec

I’m not playing.

Then Ill play with myself

                           Cockatiel cockatoo toucan toucock twococks any cockll do cock-a-doodle-do cocklibido showcock Chautauqua shtuck-dreck Yiddish German have words for everything  piece of shit

Piece of shit

Excuse me.

Shtuck-dreck

    Are you . .

. . If the shoe fits

                   Just tossin it out there

You take umbrage

May be some truth to it

Me

    Sticksanstones man Being Polish growingup took more shit tha you can imagine Maw said when Id been provoked came home beatup Stop. They’re ignorant. Let it go. Water off a duck’s back. Laugh.  They won’t know what to make of your laughter.

Was good advice

    Your turn You ramble

crossed his arms over his chest

witnessing him cross his arms he wished hed split in three Mizaru covered his eyes Kikazaru covered his ears Iwazaru covered his mouth Wise monkeys

he wasnt so sure

2309,  2sday,  10  9. 24

1127,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ‘24

Allman Brothers  Ramblin’ Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCmU1G8s-eo

was tempted to talk into her ass  Can you hear me now

                                                           made him laugh

he remembered as a kid that when his hearingparticularly after swimming got stovedup hed stick a finger in his ear and shake it briskly

Hear me now

he hated being ignored

                                             ignored

thats not rightincorrect

he took a breather

couldnt keepup

                not that he or they thought he could  a mans got to recogniserealise no his limitations

they werent ignoring himBUSY

he just happened to be an accessory while    Wha   Redeeming  NoRecovering recovering

they sapped him

    sidelined he was happily sappedsatiated

stood at the foot of the bed

                              admired one ass   then the other

what asses

SWITCH

    jealous

but nothing he could do about it

                                        not true   wished he was fifteen againWOOD I

seemed to him his teen years he was hard a lot of the time

                                                             Hell

boners snuckup on him juust as the passing bell rang  he was on one end of the campus  Industrial Arts  Architecture  had to walk the entire lengthA BLOCK to the Science wing  which was the reason why he carried all his books for afternoons rather than emptyhanded freeaneasy  stop at his locker

Ladies

           they were busy  up to their eyeballs in trimmed pussy deep French kisses mouths at nipples face an ears buried between breasts

cleared his throat

                           LADIES  nearly rejuvenated                                            

LADIES

Hell with it he grabbed the ass wiggling in front of him with both hands used his thumbs like when breaking apart a peach and jammed her with a stiff tongue  AHLAA analingus anilingus shrug no matter for Hello

                                                                                                        gaveup on either hearing him

 

Sunday,  25  8. 24

1004,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep ‘24

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they were sitting at the bar

had their drinks refreshed

Hallie said she had to use the restroom

                                          Maybe you can find us a small table, a comfortable couch.  I’ll find you.

he stood firsthelped her off the stool

                                       Always the gentleman.

We don want my mother showingup out of thin air accusing me of not

always humoured her she giggled

                                     No we do not.  sighed  I hope the restroom isn’t too crowded.   

Why arent Ladies Rooms larger Oughta be  We have urinals troughs women don stand shoeleather to shoeleather

that brought a bellowa deep laugh  she didnt cover her mouth  he loved that about her

                                                                                              No. Not shoe to shoe. I’ll find you, babe.  she started walking  turned   Have to watch me walk away?

Bet your sweet ass baby  I love watchinya come watchinya go

                                                                   Prefer cummin

You’re mad. I love you.

                         she doubledback and kissed him  I’ll find you.

he watched her walkaway  she quit tossing looks over her shoulder

                                                                         watched until he couldnt see her any more 

collecting their drinks he wandered into the lounge

no tables chairs

                  he stepped around an cushionedseat islandAh a greens planter under a chickenwired skylight the space had once been a factory on the wall was long couch behind an equally long low table a festive runner topped with star- moon- sailboat-perforated ceramic bowls like balls candles burning within

he set their drinks on coasters sat  rested his arm atop the armrest

                                                                         he couldnt see beyond the island

the seating intimate  Nice he congratulated himself  thought Look at me  an Easter egg  a required scavenger hunt item  Girls got her work cut out for her

    a woman stepped around the island

                                           his heart leapt into his throat  Damn shes good

it wasnt her

the woman approached casually  said There you are.

if a wall wasnt behind him he would have looked to see who she was talking to

We lost you for a moment.

he didnt reply Was we the pronoun she went by  mouse in her purse

excusing herselfgave him ass she brisklystepped past his knees  perfume wafted

                                                                                        then sat beside him

her hip to his

didnt look loaded

put her hand on his thigh

                              Really?

   Really  Wha

Don’t recognise me?I thought you would. Described me more times than I can say . . a long drink of water.

Alexandria

You do remember.

Threw me a curve dyed your hair different cut Youre wearin flats

                                                                        Its been years

Gabby left. I went with her.

I remember

We break your heart?

Ifya didnt break my back yawoudnt break my heart

Not just a little?

A stitch in a seam  You back

I’m back. Gabby found a guy fell in love.

Guy  Guys

No. A guy.

            He refused to share.

   Well youre intimidating

                                Wouldnt have seen tha coming

Im here with my girlfriend

I saw. She’s beautiful . . bountiful.

                                        What? Am I crowding you?  Is she the jealous type?

Youre crowding me

Always the straight shooter.

Wanna slide over a bit please

Am I making you uncomfortable?

No

    Ah.  I recall.

                   You’re particular who touches you. You’d take us for a massage, bring a book, wait in the lobby.

Good recall

                Now give me some room

I’ve given you more than room.

Youve obliged me Ive obliged you

                                     Slide it over

she laughed

              Or?

There you are.

Babe unflustered he stood  reached down picked up their drinks

                                                                       Alexandria  Hallie

Alexandria stood  Hello, Hallie.  extended her hand

they shook each impressed with the others grip 

Joe said you were taller.

Shes wearing flats

Men are so easily intimidated.

Aren’t they.

I know Joe from . .

. . I know, he’s said.  Man’s an open book doesn’t pull punches.

Refreshing.  So you kno . .

. . You’re a good fuck . . and generous.

    Generous.

Joe said . . generous.

she smiled turned to him  Thank you, Joe

                                                 I’ll leave you two be.

No, please, have a drink Alexandria.

                                        Joe?

he said  Joe

               Why not

Why not.

Youre crazy

I may be.

             I am curious though.

                    

Sunday AM,  25  8. 24

159preferred,  Thursday,  12  9. 24

crosstalk

heard of it

but what is it called when talk is crossed with incongruent images

                                                               driftysoft breathy womans voice  Are you going to fuck me?

over to best understand the adept cinematic execution of Wes Andersonesque quirky settings  a room zoom out revealed as a rectangular box a room removed from a doll house people seated around a large dinner table Are you going to fuck me? through the bay of windows at the back of the room the box a distance blueband appears growing largeranlarger

its top fringed whitefroth Are you? one of the seated male guests in uniform casually notices the approaching blueband  the room grows smaller like a childs toy wood building block yet remains a dining room  guests inhabiting it Are you going to fuck me? My. the uniform remarks insouciantly  That looks like a tidal wave, a tsunami.

everyone turned in their chair to look

                                          insouciantly remarked  It does.

the wave viewed panning back grows larger and larger Are you? the diners return to their china plates of sliced meats gravy boats serving trays hot vegetable portions crispsalads in bowls silver leadcrystal water and wine glasses the room is lighted honeycoloured by table candelabras fit with beeswax candles rainbows shimmer on an elegant linen tablecloth You are going to fuck me.

the wave swallows the box it tips toggles flipsend over end rolls  yet within the diners the table the entire array remains asif the gymnastics the tangotangle is not occurring nothing falls nothing spills casual drips of seawater violate unseenseams random pinholes spatters the linen their clothing clinging some becomes delicate mirrorballs shimmering in their unmussed hair You are.

   the blue whiterippled tidal wave plays out

                                               the room box settles on undisturbed unspoiled white sand  windows are wet beaded

guests continue their unfetteredfeast under her breathy marvelous voice

                                                                             You are going to fuck me.

6AM,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

1152,  Thursday,  12  9. 24

ought to learn something new everyday

                                          he did

eyes peeled

on the lookout

never saw it coming

                       that wouldnt apply to him

   paranoid ?

to wit a Jewish buddy firmly remarked dropping his usual implication that because he asked he was a twit  To wit, twit . . .  It’s a matter of not being paranoid enough.

sonnenrad

word attracted him

                    Wha 

an Aryan/Nazi anti-Semite symbol two concentric circles connected by jagged sunrays  a black sun

reminded him

he dug out a Jean-Paul Sartre quote

                                       “Never believe that anti-Semites are completely unaware of the absurdity of their replies 10Sep Presidential debate. They know that their remarks are frivolous, open to challenge. But they are amusing themselves, for it is their adversary who is obliged to use words responsibly, since he believes in words. The anti-Semites have the right to play. They even like to play with discourse for, by giving ridiculous reasons, they discredit the seriousness former is an unserious man of their interlocutors. They delight in acting in bad faith, since they seek not to persuade by sound argument but to intimidate and disconcert. If you press them too closely, they will abruptly fall silent, loftily indicating by some phrase that the time for argument is past.”

learn something new every day

0930,  Thursday,  12  9. 24

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Soundgarden  Black Hole Sun  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6Kz6aXsBSs

32 Maple Street

                       how sweet

Prairie

Cherry

Chester

Buena Vista

              he didnt know thendoesnt know now Spanish  Mexican as his father would say  he didnt know it meant Good View

Ohoh  ohmy yes

                 he walked down a paved alleyway behind behind his house the alley was dumped coal ash walked behind a long modern sepiacoloured brick apartment complex  three storeys  on his way to the Y for Friday Swim Night

Free swim

indoors

          swimming inside was so cool

he usually swam in the Lake rivers ponds outdoor public pools  also hopped fences skinnydipped in private pools until homeowners rousted him

                            certainly surprised them

if he were ever caught he would have fingered Cheevers short story The Swimmer fingered the film by the same title starring Burt Lancaster

he was impressionable

literature

film

how sweet

coming home after swimming walking the same alleyway   dark  winter  cross street Buena Vista  behind one of the modern apartments he heard a rap on glass to his left

none of the apartments were lighted

                                               then another 

he backpedaled to the far side of the alley

                                                                               rap

raprap  he couldnt place it

                                was Gawdawful curious

   then

            a weak flashlight lit an apartment ceiling on the second floor

it traced around  brushed the overhead lighting fixture its crystal baubles threw sudden rainbows on the textured ceiling

slowly traced back from the picture window to the far wall

                                                                        went out 

                                             then

not three feet from the window

the flashlight appeared  stared out

                                      did a oneeighty  rapidlywashed across a naked woman

and again

                          again                                                                                                                    again 

and

again

went on  always rapidbrushes  but he did puzzles  he reconstituted her nice body across his mind  high thighs crotch belly breasts underlit chin

                             though never

never her face

twenties

                 then OFF

he stood in the cold in the alley another halfhour at least before he could bring himself to accept the show was over

how sweet

that winter

             leaving the Ys Friday Free Swim he suffered her repeat performances

 

she did not reveal her face

1725,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

1031,  day-between-2-Ts,  11  9. 24 USA twisted now for 23 years

Y – Young Men’s Christian Association

Cheever  https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/1964/07/18/the-swimmer

The Swimmer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5EgXRCGSabY