transients

               thought they were so cleverthought they were throwing him a bone

no sooner it passed out of their mouths into his minds ear he realised he was ahead of the game an perhaps why they came an went an tried hard not to leave footprints fingerprints evidence

                                                                            if not they then who   DUH

HIM

he wasnt beyond reproach

he was reproachable

happens because he doesnt take shit for the briefest moment evenif to just get along

give an inch

take a mile

wasnt budging

a character flaw

innate 

no such thing as a tabula rasa

                                    empiricists were wrong

human mind before ideas imprint via reaction of senses to the external word of objects

as if objects didnt exist prior birth  existence

had a long memory

his wasnt Lockes scraped tablet clean slate

his was madlyscribbled all over

he understood palimpsest before he ever laid eyes on one

                                                                recycled

on parchment or canvas 

old erasedeffaced to provide flesh for the new next

if not innate hed blame his old ladyMaw  she was a piece of work

The God Spot.

Please

sidling off they glanced back

Please

         G-Spot

Drat.

Indeed

2027,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

1210,  TWOSday,  16  7. 24

https://www.health.com/condition/sexual-health/g-spot-how-to-find-it 

 

Sonofabitch

                went out of his mind

flashed him

             one of those flashes he wished he could run slomo

which was worthless

to wish

         he knew better

it was the second that weekend

what was the hustle

                       We’re just transients passing through, pay us no heed no mind.

Assholes Ya passed through mine

                                       A little courtesy Yawanna pass through pass through someone elses

We favored yours.

Favoured

             Yanuts provided no favours

Not to imply favors, favored.  Don’t be butt-hurt, you were convenient.

Convenient 

            Happens me mineanmind pays attention  Woud hate to have to setup toll gates

Careful.

Praytell

Donne.

You know Donne

Do.

     Therefore, send not to know/For whom the bell tolls,/It tolls for thee.

No bell  a toll gate

Pay us no mind

                 I mind  Not without me    

Present

Better stick around for more than a quick feel . .

. . Or a quickie?

Took the words out of my mouth

Can we leave you with something that perhaps you can hold onto, not let slipaway?

I woud appreciate tha

The God Spot.

Youre flashin me again arentya  Arentya

                                         HELLO

SONOFABITCH

1745,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

1115,  TWOSday,  16  7. 24

Harry Nilsson  Without You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dnUv3DUP4E

Id have my hide torn off

                            Movin right along

That’s cinematic.

No

     Thas graphic Vivid

Exquisite explicit detail

Cinematic

           Visual qualities  Aesthetics

A difference

You’re maddening.

Im listenin

   Why you’re maddening?you know why.

I know wha maddening is but I want to know wha maddening means to youwha a pear tastes like to you

Cinematic

Couldn’t we leave it at you know?

Of course we can

                    You have leverage

Leverage?

I like getting into your pants

Oh for God’s Sake.

Letem find somebody else not keen on sharing

You’re ridiculous.

he smiledwinked at her 

                          Maddeningly ridiculous

despite herself handsup  laughing through her fingers

                                                       YES.  Yes yes yes.

You can pickem

Would you stop?

Itll cost ya a kiss she had the softest lips hed ever kissed

One kiss?

Sure Well see where we go from there

                                         But wha I wanted to end with that pertains to prior

her humour dissipated

                          Yes.

I think I oughta go into comedy

Comedy. You.

Well actually dark comedy

There we go, that’s more like you.

Thought youd agree

Yes. And why?

Here ya go

             You can tell the truth without getting killed

Theoretically.

Gotta kill the buzz

Truth’s often not pretty.

Look at you

              Impressive

Thank you.

                Howbout that kiss?

Like Id forget

1740,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

1006,  2sday,  16  7. 24

City of Angels  pear  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHckzPJuPKw

. . . aaw . . what I said I didn’t mean.

                                        I mea . .

. . Yah

   I didn’t exactly say what it was I meant.

Anhows tha  Your speech

                               Smacks of a curveball

I don’t know.

   I do

What?

To be honest by sayin you worry wha someone might think of you think yawere being cruel or ugly  Truths often not pretty

I called it ridiculous a cinematic headshotHell  threefour in the torsoeven Dirty Harry at the range plugging away wanted a tight chest grouping

Cinematic?

Got another name for it

                         Moviegoers are spoonfed it  Im thinking  Reeves character   Wick  ever see more headshots in your lifemind you at least they were in close combat not a football field anahalf away

You don’t feel bad?

I feel bad for the innocentfeel terrible bad for them  They have my deepest sincerest sympathy

But for what you said you don’t feel bad.

I was broughtup not to feel bad for being honest

                                                        Anif I lied

Id have my hide torn off

1642,  Saturday,  13  7. 24

1558,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

0905,  2sday,  16  7. 24

before the archdiocese locked up churches for the night

priests prowled pews intent on discoveringdisrupting their winter passion

                                                                               Baby  It was cold outside

they waited them out

hid

     scampered like mice

hid behind the organ

exploited all the nooks an crannies

                                      once

ballsy as she was

hid inside a confessional

on Fathers side

watching

           he almost lost his shitclasped both hands over his mouth to muffstrangle the HAHAHAha ah

Arya crazy

           reconnoitering after the priests swept the premises   left

theyd eaten exercised and slightlychilled between church and walking to the rectory on the opposite side of the grounds they wanted their snifters of brandies tumblers of spirit

they just wanted their tumble

they ensconced near the votives really dug the candlelight flickering on the niche ceiling up the walls

ballsy actually lit candles for the deceased  for prayers

                                                            he waited laid on his back on the hard wood pew

try as he may he couldnt avoid thinking of the tawdry joke  Three for a quarter. Go out an blow another.

hed chuckle softly

   shed slip in hip to his head hed open his eyes

                                                          There you are Go well

she usually had tears in her eyes

                                        Yes. Thank you.

Youre welcome

   then shed push away take her hip from his head get on her elbows above him kiss him upsidedown they enjoyed those kisses

              there was much teasingmuch aching keeping their bodies separate their breaths coming faster

then the maddeningstruggle eversoquietly loosening coats clothing clasp zipper cotton underwear  midthigh

ballsy said it wasnt sex

                      Amen

what did he know

he was fifteen

early March, 2024

1231,  Moanday,  15  7. 24

Dean Martin  Baby, It’s Cold Outside.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnYSTnTMGQo

he counted the bonegray skeletal shattered rings

                                                      the receding checkerboard stump

husk  scabbing away

                           he counted inward best he could using the point of his jackknife counted loudly  tickedoff year after year  paused  JABbed the knife in

                                           that ring

the year he was born

counted inward  his parents birthyears   his grandparents birthyears

                                                                             now his family was not in America

at its heart pith  center

                       at its conception    203 rings                

he remembered eight years earlier when it was cut down its stump savaged random crisscrossed inchdeep cuts  chemical tossed on it to render it quicker

                                            defaced it

made it an eyesore

distasteful

when he walked past ears seared by the cutting blades twelve feet of trunk remained

later that afternoon

returning home

                  he stopped

to mourn

he remembered now

                    on a knee knife in his pocket   submitted     he knelt on both as he remembered hearing  the

     tree

 moan   weep

1355,  Saturday,  10  6. 23

0924,  Moanday,  15  7. 24

Mason Proffit  Buffalo  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NX2SSRDIEO8

I HATE THIS.

Wait  Ya looked around on the floorchecked the box

YES.

       It’s not here.

Try an rela . .

. . Don’t tell me relax, we’ve worked this puzzle better than a week, twothousand pieces.

he tried humour Onethousandninehunredninetynine

she iced him with her eyes

Well find it babe

It’s not finishedwe didn’t finish it complete it.

We did  wha   we coud

                           Get off your mad pony Well find it

I’ve been lookin . .

. . Youve only just told me

                           Next time when were closing out a puzzlethe last few pieces you can get your celebratory winemy beer

Youve stewed all of five minutes babe

                                          Give it another ten fifteen minutes before . . .

Before?

   Losin your mind

Isn’t that missing piece glaring?

No

What do you mean no?

When I was a boy there were a lot of men in the neighbourhood who lost hands eyes legs feet My Maw woud tell me not to stare it was impolite

Quit starin at it

                  Well look together after we have our drinks

she growled They’re supposed to be celebratory.

Mine is

   I know

You know what?

Your sister had people come in an clean houseyah

Yes. She wanted it spickanspan before we came to stay to care for the animals while they’re gone.

Yah

      Coud explain the missing piece

she glared That . . could explain the missing piece.  droll

We began it before they left Your sister hadnt wanted to startShit  another possibility

What the hell are you talking about?

Either the housekeepers or your sister  For entirely different reasons

What are you talking about?

Either ransom or petty selfserving interest

                                               You said your sister rebuffed a negotiation a price hike for cleaningdespite despite  she admitted shes been takin advantage of them for some time

Chickens come home to roost

Secondly Your sister wanted to help build the puzzle to completion

Ransom

She has the piece Shell complete it not you us

                                                    he took a long pull on his beerwatching her over it

impatient she sipped her cold clear white wine

Or

   Or?

he motioned with his beer

                            Ortha may be it there on edge against the baseboard

he thought shed snap her neckher suddenlook over her shoulder behind where she posted up an don a soul dare try an sit there

Fuuuuck.

           she set her wine down dropped to her knees crawled over to it

looked like religious penance mortification

                                              which he appreciated

he loved watching how her ass moved

   truth be knownSHSSSH

                              he leaned it when he learned they were building a twothousand piece puzzle

1738,  Reggaefriday,  12  7. 24

1325,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

Stones  You Should Have Seen Her Ass  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9O3pACq13fs

he shook his head wagged his fingers at his granddaughter Woudya comere  how the hell marveled how small children didnt feel their noses run

as she came to him he went to his back pocketto his handkerchief

                                                                        seeing the black cloth greenmarijuana leaves 

she veered

Too late kiddoGotcha

she struggled in his arm

                          he held her in its crookpinning hers arms  she rattled her head  timed it  in one deft practised cobrastrike he had her nose between his thumb forefingersqueezed  Blow  she blew an as she did he fingered her nose expelling snot

concluded with a final squeeze swiped sideways

                                                     Lemmesee

her brightblue eyes watered 

Excellent

kissed her once

then again

            Ifya had a snotty nose I woudnt kiss you

   Yare really missing out kid

Huh Grampa

Grammas lace hanky

Gramma has a hanky?

Not your Gramma your greatgreatGramma my Gramma She had the best handkerchiefs talcumscented sweet soft so very soft She kept it in her bosom tucked to one sideleft under the lapel of her housedress

When my nose would run shed tell me Go blow my nose. I didnt wear handkerchiefs then

Idsay No

Comere.

Ya didnt cross Gramma I went to her

She had me sit in her big lap she smelled like delicious cake

                                                                 Look at me.

Id look up at her She had blue eyes like I do like you do youre welcome

In broken English shed say I had a snoot full a snotty nose. Shed say Let me help.

Shed take her pretty lace hanky from her bosom gently cradle my nose tell me to blow Like I fingered your nose she would finger mine Shed make a funny noise like Louie Armstrongs trumpet Id laughits hard to blow your nose while laughing Shed say sternly teased  Quit now, blow your nose. Thas how she woud blow my nose Then shed set me down Buziak. You know kiss We kissed Now go. Next time you blow your own nose. Of course I never did I loved having your greatgreatGrandma blow my nose wash my hands  brush my hair

                                                                                        he sighed

Know whaelse

What?

In her bosom

Yes.

She also had money

Money?

Yah

        Anya know whaelse

What?

Gramma had very big breasts

she looked at her chest

Well have to see

                   But  I think if you were alive then

She may have had a little pony in her bosom for you to ride too

eyesbugged NO.

Yah    

1709,  Reggaefriday,  12  7. 24

1151,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

Stones  Coming Down Again  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2WW1XGitEs

without hestitationIm not going in there

she squatted thumbs in the straps of her overalls

                                                      Yasaid you wanted to experience farming.

I did I do but not tha Thadoesnt have to be part of my experience

                                                                       In my defence I have a history

A history?  she stood

                       You grew up in a Chicago suburb.

I did

You’re killing me. What possible history, I can’t imagin . .

. . I didnt either

                 Week after Easter on my paper route I find two chicks in a mesh crate in the middle of the park I delivered papers out of my red Radio Flyer wagon Tossed the chicks on top finished my routes tookem home keptem in the garage was thinking when they got older wed have eggs                         

Turned out they were roosters

   Ornery   roosters

                          I aint goin in

You made that up.

I did not

she stepped towards him Look me in the eye.

                                                 Arya tellin me the truth?

I didnt make it up

I believe you.

You know me better thantha

You like to pull people’s legs.

I do

     AnI love pullin yours being betweenem  Not a story

So you have experience with chickens.

Im not going in

Why?

stepping closer to her he tapped his finger forward of his right temple behind the corner of his eye

                                                                                                       See tha

she leaned forward thought for certain he was gonna grab her headkiss her looked

                                                                                     starshaped scar

Yasee

I do.

A cock can put out someones eye

                                     smiled slyly  grabbed her head kissing her deeply so she couldnt catch a breath to laugh

not a week earlier he had almost taken hers

                                                 adlibbed Skull fuck

1732,  Reggaefriday,  12  7. 24

1022,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

Three Dog Night  Out in the Country  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3gGn6t8Bog

no shock no upset

                       it wasnt he was inured

Kennedy

King

Bobby

he wasnt

           figured he had it coming

the casual way he chatted up violence  bloodbath

formers not an American leader

   maybe

            he was somebody who happened to be standing on Fifth Avenue, okay?

he felt horrible for the people who diedwere wounded behind him    

0919,  Sunday,  14  7. 24  

https://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2016/01/23/464129029/donald-trump-i-could-shoot-somebody-and-i-wouldnt-lose-any-voters

“Some people need killing.”

                               Republican Mark Robinson running as a candidate to become North Carolinas governor

https://www.google.com/search?q=N.+Carolina+governor+candidate+says+some+peopleneedkilling&rlz=1C1ILPI_enUS778US778&oq=N.+Carolina+governor+candidate+says+some+peopleneedkilling&gs_lcrp=EgZjaHJvbWUyBggAEEUYOdIBCjIwNjA3ajBqMTWoAgiwAgE&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8#fpstate=ive&vld=cid:7c981609,vid:JZxLBl-w1wk,st:0

    hmmm

nearly a Magruder instance

1419,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

https://newrepublic.com/article/183443/mark-robinson-north-carolina-gov-candidate-hateful-rant-killing

. . . our thoughts and prayers . . .

                                             isnt tha the line

 

1805,  Saturday,  13  7. 24

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sut9pcNvTUs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fy-gt9DHiwk

. . . hadnt a clue whawas next

                                      was always a fine place

fine to be curious to be anxious to discover if hed actually write or take dictation

one of these days hed meet who or whos

                                                 which would be a kick in the head

banjaxed  liked the look of the Irish meant totally ruined wrecked tired or drunk

                                                                                        correction

totally ruined

wrecked

tired

drunk

or

   All of the Above

multiple choice

                 he preferredunlike most his teachers  writing essays

he could be persuasive

if they could read his handwriting

took the US History test  Junior High Social Studies  fail it  not promoted  it was a BIG FUCKIN thing

                                                                                                            fortunately

he broke his left arm twice in succession broke his leg preceding  Eighth Grade had been physically tough

as he was saying

fortunately

              he was lefthanded

forced to write with his right

his teacher asked him to see her after class after test papers were returned

                                                                                she loved essays

I can’t read your writing, but I’ve determined given your involvement, your participation during class, every day, that you understand the material required and I’m promoting you.

took every fibre of his being not to scream MOTHERFUCKER

                                                                          ducked a bullet there

who do you praise for thawhich god hed pull a train if he had to if one understood his drift

there was also this beaut

                            he came around a cornerwalked straight into her  she tried to runaway  he was fastergot her by the hairshould have worn it up

                                        her head was awash with reptiles of resentment still had heryanked her by the hair rage confusion

was creepy even by his standards

whatever it meant

had no idea

              but he liked the imagery

when the reptiles recognised he was restraining her their prey   they began to turncome after him

he let go 

         she shot off like a neverbeforestretched rubberband off a ruler

elementary classroom shit

hurt like hell if it caughtya right

    Whell fuck it  something woud surface

1238 & 1315,  day-between-2-Ts,  19  6. 24

111preferred to 1311,  Saturday,  13  7. 24

Dean Martin  Ain’t That A Kick In The Head  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgozofokf_c