another v.

             versus

miraculous

             thats what he called it  but he witnessed miraculous hes witnessed ghosts  hes seen more than buddy will ever see

on the other hand

                    buddy

No.  Improbable.

miraculous v. improbable

Awright buddy

                 Define improbable

You know what it means.

I want to know wha it means to you

   Really?

Really

he cleared his throat Improbable like he was back in elementary school  Improbable . .

. .If youd like to spell first ya can

Wanna back off?

Improbable.

             Not miraculou . .

. . Horseshit  Stick to your definition

That’s how I’d define it.

Ya got your everpresent damn iPhone  Look it up

You look it up.

My phones at home

                     I aint slave to it it doesnt tell me wha to do   Definition please

he took it from his pocket

                            I keep mine with me in case I’m needed.

Good for you

               Somebody needs me they can waittheir text can wait

Improbable.

             Defined as an adjective.

Not likely to be true or to happen.

    An

Unexpected and apparently inauthentic.

                                            From Latin improbabilis . . hard to prove.

Id agree with unexpected Im fond of unexpected

Miraculous

             Phones in your hand

What does it mean to you?

Gimme the dictionarys definition anthen Ill define what I know to be miraculous

You know to be miraculous.

I aint dead

             Definition

Also adjective.

                 The first . occurring through divine or supernatural interventio . .

. . Not Excuse me  Continue

Are you trying to irk me?

No

    Continue

Through divine or supernatural intervention.

                                                Or manifesting such power.

Second

Highly improbablesee . . highly improbable and extraordinary and bringing very welcome consequenc . .

. . Like not being dead

                          Miraculous  Extraordinary

Two occurrences come to mind

When I killed the blueilluminated god the twohunredpound buck

                                                                    You saw the car  Wondered how I wasnt dead

At sea Boat tailended against a net cable it cameup over the side like an iron rubberband heard it grate spun outstretched a tire iron in front of me a nano before the cable slammed into metossed me forty feet across to the starboard gunnel

Was concussed

Badly bruised sternum

Purple bruiseline from the tire iron  my supersternal notch to my pubic symphysis pelvis bone

Pubic symphysis. Why do you know that?

I read I didnt recovercoudnt manage the pain for twothree days A day before my accident on another boat a hand got cut in half

Boat kept his halves in the freezer till port

Miraculous Im alive

                     Got cat lives

1739,  Thursday – Summer solstice,  20  6. 24

1258,  Monday,  24  6. 24

City of Angels – Pear  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHckzPJuPKw

confidential

Thas bullshit

It’s not.

Says someone without any skin in the game

                                               I was working that puzzle you didnt fit two pieces together

It’s a difficult puzzle.

You havent the eyebut thas neither here nor there

                                                      Why

We were gonna have dinner.

Wha time

           After your pool party you barbecue

I did. It was Sevenish.

It was a pleasant evening

It was . . sun low in the westjust over the hills.

Why didnt you eat outside at the picnic table

The girls would have had to bring out the sides.

Copious sides

   What do you mean?

You understand copiousmany many plates ya ate off paper

                                                               Wha sides

Potato salad. Corn on the cob. Tossed salad.

                                                    Condiments.

There were four of you Eight hands

What’s your point?

Plenty of hands for sides Could have eaten outside

We didn’t want to eat outside.

Fair

     So instead on one half of a huge dining table large items on one side  the girls decided to pickup the other half with a sevenhunredfifty piece puzzlea good onehunred pieces fitted together

Because I didnt showup to your soiree because I had a telephone call with my daughter

They picked it up, I didn’t.

They ask you

They didn’t.

Why didnt they Fuckin obvious I was working the puzzle

                                                             Wasnt it   Obvious

They picked it up before I knew they had.

Your house They should have asked

                                          One would think

Water under the bridge.

Yaknow wha one might also think

No.

Fuckin passiveaggressive

    No.

            I don’t think so.

Pickup stacked books some odd mail calendar pen paperwork

                                                                  Or

Pushround scattered pieces various assembled pieces into a triangleshaped box an pickup those tha fell on the floor

When I build it if theres missing pieces

                                           Hell to pay

Passiveaggressive

I don’t know what to say . . I’m sorr . .

. . If you were youd apologise but it isnt your apology to make or your doin

That was flagrantly passive aggressive

                                           Im sure one will hear   If I donsay

What do you mean by that?

Itll killya

             This conversation is confidential

1500ish,  Thursday – Summer Solstice,  20  6. 24

1134,  Monday,  24  6. 24

thall learn him

                 he tried to resist flipping through the book Cutting-up in the Kitchen Butcher’s Guide before going to bed

was prettymuch review for him

                                  did two summers in Missoula Montana killing slaughtering butchering beef veal pigs rabbits chickens

he went to bed

they who they were he had no idea

                                       they left him a carcass to butcher left it outdoors on a stout woodblock table cheesecloth laid over it to keep off insects

 

undraping it

               it was an undetermined  thorax

hed never seen anything like it

there were bones

unsymmetric

                if he had to sayguess  what       a boned mollusc   oyster

he could feel them? under the skinnedflesh  purplyred thin yellow brokenskeins

he draped the cheesecloth over it again

                                          because that was the way he found it

despite no insectsflies coming around

went back into the house

the note said theyd return that afternoon for the cuts

                                                        

he figured hed sit tight for them to come and they could tell him what cuts they were expecting from an anatomy he didnt recognise

he wasnt anxious

a little miffed

                it insisted he wasnt a butcher

they could instruct him

                         or they could take a hike with the substantial body

if he hadnt made coffee sat with a cup to read the paper do the crossword play Jumble hed believe he was still asleep dreaming

0650,  Monday,  24  6. 24

1012,  Monday

NBCs Dasha Burns asked

                            “Are you worried about going to jail, Mr. President?”

“I’m not worried at all, you know what? Nothing bothers me, nothing bothers me. We have a corrupt group of people. And you know what? And it’s really working out the other way. We just got the highest poll numbers we ever had. You know what? They cheat so much ten points isn’t enough, because if we don’t win, our country is finished, I’m telling you.”

07:10 minute-mark (highlight address & submit) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbx-8XVeM-E

and this beaut https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJdigIl-g9U about President Biden being “jacked up” for the debate Thursday

           former conveniently forgets that White House physician Ronny Jackson oversaw speed doled out to administration staff and their families https://www.texastribune.org/2024/03/07/ronny-jackson-white-house-navy-demoted/ virtually operated a “grab & go” clinic https://www.cnn.com/2018/04/27/politics/ronny-jackson-medical-unit-ambien/index.html

   but he remembers

                        he remembers Elton Johns “. . . high as a kite by then . . .”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wy709iNG6i8

he also remembers MAD magazine Alfred E. Neumans retort “What, Me Worry?”

good to have a memory

1301,  Sunday,  23  6. 24

0912,  Monday,  24  6. 24

Black Sheep  This or That  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ6wGtqKuIw

Awrightnow   Take a breath Ill continue

he nodded

            this was going to be a leap of faith  he didnt believe

Whastha called

                 so he did what he did at the dentist when procedures ran longer than the painkillers he was administered

               went slackgelatinous laid his hands flat on his thighs dimmed his vision to Zero  deliberated concentrated  on his breath

Maybe this cat wasnt full of shit

despite his inclination otherwise

May I continue

Knock yourself out

I said a dream is not a dream to itself

                                            If I understand correctly you rarelyif ever have recurring dreams

I cant think of one

You dream of strangers

Terribly unusual if I dream of someone I know

Although on occasions youve had people you know appear incognito

Disguised

            Yes

Your dreams tend to be cinematicsaid  In technicolor

Correct

However also in blackanwhite   Also in text and have to read

Yes

       Ive also had subtitled dreams dialogues appear in wordbubbles  as in comicbooks

And youve had completely animated dreams characters acting in scenery

Disneyesque RenanStimpyesque  yah

Dreamt staticstationary imagery  Like snapshots photographs paintings 

Grafitti

Scrolling chyrons

Burma Shaveesque yah  Onea couple words  Blackprint on white or viceversa

I began a dream is not a dream to itself

nods I heard you

Episodes that appearthat are revealed to you have erstwhile precedent  continue after you wake

Or after it ends an another begins  

Awright

           Have you ever consider conceived  that youre a portalthat the reason you havent recurring dreams  everyones a stranger  is because having been dreamed youve freed them

That theyre out in the world

In the world or some other world

    Yah

          I coud get behind tha  An interactive voyeur

   

929PMpreferred,  Saturday,  22  6. 24

0952,  Sunday,  23  6. 24

Ren & Stimpy  Happy Happy Joy Joy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaaz234eRmA

clever coup

Ohbrutha  can see the writing on the walls   an it aint graffiti

                                                                    possible  a clever coup

Project 2025 denies that its effort is for Donald Trump

pullquote

           The TWENTY-FIFTH AMENDMENT was an effort to resolve some of the continuing issues revolving about the office of the President; that is, what happens upon the death, removal, or resignation of the President and what is the course to follow if for some reason the President becomes disabled (insanity) to such a degree that he cannot fulfill his responsibilities.

the machinations incentive to accept the mantle as formers Vice-President after he threatened Vice-President Pence with a noose might be the Twentyfifth Amendment and also not have to spend money or time to run a campaign to win the Presidency

    perhaps a nod to some sharp savvy cookie     

1030,  Sunday,  23  6. 24

https://constitution.congress.gov/browse/essay/amdt25-1/ALDE_00001013/#:~:text=The%20Twenty%2DFifth%20Amendment%20was,a%20degree%20that%20he%20cannot

https://www.msnbc.com/the-weekend/watch/top-project-2025-architect-talks-conservative-blueprint-for-trump-second-term-213497413811?cid=eml_mda_20240623&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

https://static.project2025.org/2025_MandateForLeadership_FULL.pdf 

You wanteddidnt you  to take a real hard  good  look

      he meant

                        A real

                        good

                        hard

                        look

Yah

Then shut your eyes

Quiet them

             Let the noise out 

Purge them of prismspectrum  colour   light

Blind them

Blind them

Harbor in your mind

                     I may never see againEVER

     Believe it

And when you become really frightened

OpenPOP your eyes

See hard

           searing that fright in your brain

Wednesday,  15  9. 04

1031,  Saturday,  22  6. 24

Stones  Paint It Black  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-AK67iz3gI 

assassinhands of the clock

    see the old man

hes been every tick of every clock of every time-enslaver since he was born

a coolie

        a kuli-slave  deaf slave    deaf to the myriad ticks

human beings are dictatedarranged arraigned  deranged by time

untimely  late

                our independence

times escaped criminals

                             for the time being

eventually whirlingprowling secondhands find us have us again by throat

theres one clock we confide in

that is our unique assassin

                              other clocks are accomplices keeping an eye on us for it  surveilling us

and as they watch they reel and grin arms wild hands spasmodic  enthralled

                                                                                   because theyre in on our murder and anticipate it like children waiting for when Christmas comes to unwrap their pretty wrappedanribboned gifts

they expect our compliance

                              murderers must have their murdered

and because the old man knows this he goes out and smashes clocks

he kills the killers

                     then returning home near senseless with joy and optimism he patiently waits to turn his voluptuous hourglass  she has seduced him with her soft movement her subtle goldengrains of sand

he believes because she hasnt hands she wont be partywont be watchingwont  be a voyeur when he dies

she quietly reminds him of the Sandman who hums Smoke Gets in Your Eyes when he tireswhen his head nodswhen he retires to bed

               and as he strips the bed down changes into his nightshirt she mutters Old man, you better dream like a motherfucker because you aren’t coming back from this ride.

shes in on it  shes time

                           . . . cool bluewater . . . hes swimming like when he was a boy . . . he shakes its grasp  like a flyingfish sails over the sundappled sparklingsurf . . . the water grays  darkens . . . tick . tick . tick . tick . tick . cuckoo . Where? he wonders . . . he struggles to breathe . . . hes suffocating . . . he thinks I’m dying . . . You are . . . You filthy pig! . . . Old man . tick . tick . Are you that greedy? . tick . tick . tick . You’ve had a longer life than most . tick . tick . cuckoo . You’ve outlived everyone you knew . tick . tick . tick . tick . the sound of clots of dirt spadefuls replace the black lapping waves . tick . tick . lapping at the edge of his unconsciousness . . . he thinks he can beat it Wakie! Wakie! he tells himself . . . Open your eyes, open your eyes! he urges himself . tick . . . but he cant . tick . tick . he tries to pinch himself . tick . cuckoo . but he cant . tick . he cant move . tick . tick . hes under blackwater . cuckoo . . . I’m not coming back.

pitchblack

    TICK . TICK . TICK . . hears assassinclock as it kills him         

2316,  Tuesday,  14  9. 04

345preferred,  Saturday,  22  6. 24

The Platters  Smoke Gets in Your Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHJRJC_5gzY

Chamber Brothers  Time Has Come Today  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIqwzQ7g-Cc

Which is she?

sensuous v. sensual

                      thadbe a great trial to attend

sensuous refers to physical tactile pleasure or beauty

sensual sexual pleasure

Shes both

            I said she was wired exquisitely   She is exquisite

Exquisite?

            he could see by his expression hed not been with an exquisite woman

of all the women hed been with only she hed call exquisite

                                                                 Yes

How do you mean?

You tell me whaya think

Delicate.

No

     Weve been rough

Then I don’t know.

Pretty feeble

You have to insult me?

When the depth of your sounding is so shallow

                                                       Yes I do

Probably feeblesquared

So you tell me . . 

. . Because youre thick

    Her senses are so exquisite  its asif her skin was flayed  nerves  exposed raw   asif rubbing third degree burns

Immense pleasure immense pain

That doesn’t sound good.

    Shes exquisite

                       Her mind likewise

Ill never meet a woman like her again

1739,  Thursday,  20  6. 24

1244,  Saturday,  22  6. 24

James Gang  Ashes the Rain and I  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUr1wVf29b8

    Whadafuck was tha about

they shruggedalmost looked choreographed

No one

            Usually you monkeys are gnawin at the bit

one with their hands stuffed in their pockets stepped forward

Yah

      Wha

We havent a fuckin clue either

                                 they stepped back again into the throng

his Mariachis speechless

will wonders never cease

he thought they were children

they were dressed like children

he pulled reluctantly into a gas station to use the Mens Room

curiously the Mens and Ladies Rooms were separated by the store inside the gasoline station

usually plumbing is kept close

a key wasnt needed for the Mens Room

the door was wideopen

even with it open the foetid bathroom miasma was thick

entering he was greeted by a stained sink coldwater tap only a scratched metal mirror above it  

opposite the sink was a tall urinal with standard gnawed chewing gum cigarette butts at ones toes pieced octagonal tiles were bleached of color by urine

the stall door was loosely held shut by a clotheshanger

as he enterednegotiated what was an asshole of a bathroom a kid ran up behind him Pleaseplease I really have to go lemme go first I really gotta go

he was slightly impacted but could hold it

kid noisily relieved himself

as they jimmied the hanger to get out a second kid rushed in pulled the same bit  PleaseI think Im going to crap in my pants

kid groaned loudlyexploded into the pot 

he discerned an echo

undoing the latch exiting a third raced in bullrushed the stall I REAALY GOTTA GO

caught his eye

kid had stubble

he slammed the door swinging closed with the heel of his hand the guy had undone his belthis pants were coming down he stoopedgrabbed him by the armpits lifted him off his feet turned planted him before the urinal

                                                                                                       After me chum

his guts grumbled

feces at the door

ached

       before squatting he confirmed there was toilet paper

they werent kids

they were midgets

fuckin taken advantage of by midgets

at City Limits was a poster

                             CIRCUS COMING TO TOWN

fuckin clowny midgets

hed been hoodwinked

flipping the latchthinking that was probably THE MOST disgusting toilet he ever relieved himself in midget stood in his way

     I shit in my pants

Listen man thumbing over his shoulder  Might have been far better than shittin in there 

0808,  Saturday,  22  6. 24

1123,  Saturday

Stones  Can’t Always Get What You Want  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3dfYcQ_r_x8

she hesitatedhe didnt

                             she groaned  I didn’t think you’d shoot.

Awkid ya know me better

they had always at oddswere kids together played doctor they were good at that but they saw things differently separate  drastically

didnt gel

grew apart

her violence

             her viciouswords rhetoric how she intoned growled  violated  battered as ferociously as his fists but unlike his her bruises took longer to heal  were deep psychic  blackdoubt infected infested

his compassion was hard won

hers less

birdshot dimpled the rifle stock disabled her hand wrist forearm caught her in the belly in the groin fabric would have to be picked out of her wounds

I didn’t think you’d shoot.

Ive always been quicker than you

                                     You think

I react

What were you thinking

    Wouldn’t you like to know. 

0808,  Saturday,  22  6. 24

Nancy Sinatra  Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OEFa4ztm9P0