uncoaxable  it appealed to him

                                 knew what he meant

why she didnt follow he couldnt figure

That’s not a word.

Not in the dictionary but you know wha I mean

                                                 An no matter coined itgot my stamp of approval

I looked.

Looked

On my phone Googled it and it said Yes, it’s a real word. Quora, November 28, 2019 . .

. . Which I do not look at

I do. Followed up by Is uncoachable a word?

Uncoaxable

Beneath was Definitionsdotnet. Did you actually mean unchewable or unshakable?

Woudya stop

Beneath that, OneLook. Definitions of uncoaxable . .

. . Okay I didnt coin it

Don’t interrupt.

                    Adjective. Not coaxable. Opposite: persuadable, amenable, compliant, receptive. Found in concept groups: Impossibility or incapability.

Concept groups  Christ

                          Lemme run with unpersuadable unamenable uncompliant unreceptive U N- I N- D I S-  Insimilar  Dissimilar preferred but insimilar still paints a picture

   Paints a picture.  What’s your point?

You slammed the door at the getgo

                                     Face went slack asif it was unfathomable for you to understand uncoaxable

It’s not a word I recognised or would likely use in my vernacular.

Yet if I were speaking French every word I uttered you woudnt recognise use or be in your vernacular but  are   words

    You’re speaking English.

Anya know the word coax Gentle persistent persuasion

                                                           From obsolete cokes  simpleton unknown origin  Original sense was fondleNow  if yawanna to fondle me Ill consider dropping uncoaxable

Jesus.

Hed be on my side entirely reasonable man had a cock

                                                          Knowing coax you coud easily have cajoled uncoax rather than bitch

What did you say?

Rather than bitch

A bitch bitches.

She do

        Softball delivery Less incendiary

You know I prefer incendiary so if I wasnt youd understand  I cut you some slack

Because I know youre smarter than tha

AM,  Tuesday,  10  8. 02

1651,  Reggaefriday,  14  6. 24

https://www.onelook.com/?loc=dmapirel&w=uncoaxable

Simon and Garfunkel  I Am a Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGRQ3ytd0K8

it bemused him

                  Yasee a theme

   I do.

But youd rather not

his coffee cup shifted uncomfortably in his hands a drool slipped over its lip

                                                                                No.

Why

Why talk about death? Eventually, yes, I get it.

                                                  But why discuss it?

You talk about basketball baseball knowing Im uninterested not disinterested uninterested

                                                                                                 Why

Inevitable

           Then The End the story of us Yet hopefully theyll be passed down related  an in their tellings were alive

We live

I had a friend Al his name was actually Ali but he preferred Al because living in the US Ali stuck out like a sore thumb He was Armenian

One evening we were playing cardsUNO with family an Al begins with these stories of his crazy uncle one after the other hilarious I told him Id love to meet his uncle Al said that was in Armenia Als father visited the US on occasion his uncle his fathers brother No  No Al said

He said his crazy uncle died sometime in Nineteenth Century

We he continued our lives are told and retold in stories passed down Were not dead until our story is no longer told

Our history is an oral history

No photos of his uncle obviously No painting  Yet he described himhis features his gait the sound of his voice  I was dumbfounded Truly  I could see the man Revivified   Vigorous

I thinkno I believe good reason to talk aboutdiscuss death

I’d rather not.

AM,  Tuesday,  10  8. 02

1139,  Reggaefriday,  14  6. 24

Doors  Break On Through (To the Other Side)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFeUko-lQHg

evidently the graphic depiction of Tommy’s murder a Downs Syndrome man in Ken Bruens book Headstone has been following him around somuchso that Death is in his sleephis dreams their head beside his

whispers in his ear

                      What’s with that?

I was recalling a childs prayer

You prayed it when you were little kneeling on the hardwood floor you had remove the throw rug.

Yes

And after you prayed and returned the rug you’d call your parents.

Yes

Tell them you’d prayed and were ready to go to sleep.

Yes

Thinking perhaps . . . no . thinking you may die in your sleep.

Yes

Because you knew what death was, who I am, because your parents decided you needed to know, to know that every human beings dies.

Yes

The wakes and funerals you attended when your aunts and uncles wouldn't bring their children.

Yes

 

The prayer.  How does it go do you remember? You haven’t recited it since you were little.

   Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the lord my soul to keep if I die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take

Yes.

       Do you think if you die in your sleep I don’t startle youwake you . frighten you as if waking from a terrifying nightmare?

Nightmares are dreams an dreams do not wake me  I play with an in my dreams

                                                                                      Lots of luck waking me

Yes.  I am aware.

For the lord I do not believe

Yes.

For my soul I havent one

Yes.

Ill be seeing you

Yes.

      You will see me, eventually.

Yes

AMish,  Reggaefriday,  14  6. 24

Thas choice

               coudnt brook if had he tried

someone else might be embarrassed

never occurred to him

withholding the truth

coudbe cancerous

                    certainly stressful

he coudnt brook that either

Excuse me?

Lawd knows you try

That’s what I said.

Yah

       Redundant

You being coy or cryptic?

Wha woudya like

                      Playfully pretending  Obscure    Enigmatic

Hint

          Yare not a chick

Although given the context  be it negligibleslight  yaoughta be able to follow

When you’re being cryptic you’re extremely hard to follow. It’s almost as if I have to try and read your mind.

Undecipherable

                  An evenif ya coud as the government says May be hazardous to your health  Ive hazarded it all my life an am calloused

Don even try

   There.  I don’t even know what that means.

You do

I don’t.

You do

I said I don’t.

Lawd

Yes.

You said Lawd knows I try

Yes.

Ya believe in the Lawdbelieve in Gawd Amighty

You know I don’t.

I do

     Hence you understand mybe there any doubt  my obscure reference

Whas your relationship with Gawd

I haven’t one . .

. . You do

           Scratch the surface man

The surface?

               No surface.

I dislike with extreme prejudi . .

. . Hate.

shrugged his shouldersrolled his headround loosened his neck which instantly seizedup quivered  rattlesnakes tailshake

                disliked with extreme prejudice people trying to put words in his mouth

I dislike having to explain the obvious Explaining a joke is ruinous

                                                                      Please    Scratch

My relationship with God.

                              Even though I don’t have one.

Eventhough

he twisted in the wind

                         ugly to witness

Hint

Would you?

I woud

           Your sisters

Fuck.

Not your sisters

                 Not that I woud find anything wrong with tha my sisters are better looking in better shape anif they were agreeable consented  off to the races

You’re sick.

No cuts End of the line

                            Your  Fuck

I’m their plus One.

Yah  Just a wedding

                        Your relationship with Gawd to get into Heaven    A question

Question?

             What’s that?

Does tha mean when one of them goes ya gotta go or if you go its a coin toss

Probably the fine print

                          Better make sure ya got tha sorted out

1114,  Thursday,  13  6. 24

Johnny Cash  Life’s Railway to Heaven  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKoIuz71hbg

 

former calls America a Third World country

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IN5A-mjz8p0

when discussing immigration from African – Third World – countries came up former complained “Why are we having these people from shithole countries come here?

https://theintercept.com/2018/06/28/trump-tps-shithole-countries-lawsuit/

by deduction

               America is a shithole country

and the former is running for president to stay out of prison

   an amoral unethical felon cunt

1522,  Thursday,  13  6. 24

PBS  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIug8Ghe9L8

Claire

                  how to describe

fair

plain

nondescript

              leaning towards cipher

she called him by name as he walked reading

lookingup out of the book he did not recognise her

odd he ran into pedestrians

rarelyever on hot days

                         traffic spedby windows up music muted  airconditioning Henry Miller described them long agocant improve upon perfection

Yes

I’m Claire, we met months ago.

I don remember

We were walking as now . . you were reading then too.

Thank you for remembering me

What are you reading?

he turned the cover to her let her read

                                          Physics.

Yes I like to read it evenif I don understand it Figure one day it will dawn on me until then Ill keep plugging away at it

he pointed to her earplugs hopeful Audiobook

Yes. Something I’m sure wouldn’t interest you.

since she was sure he didnt ask

they exchanged pleasantries several more minutes and before he said she said

                                                                                   I really must be going.

very Aliceish or White Rabbitish

Myself as well

                 Thank you for recognisingstopping me

I couldn’t help myself, your walking and reading is very quaint.

                                                                   not a pause

she had determined it was  wondered if she rehearsed it

he did not remark

Be well

You too.

they continued in opposite directions

She called you quaint

he smiled  shehes heshes loved to lurk an appropriate his time

                                                                     No

She did

No

    She said my walking an reading was quaint

she could have said unusual

a curious choice of word

not in his vernacular

   quaint

1400,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

1018,  Thursday,  13  6. 24

Everything we see hides another thing. So fucking appropriate

                                                                         Surrealist painter Rene Magritte

the physicist Laura Mersini-Houghton in her book Before the Big Bang employed this statement as a guide to help understand the concept of string theory M-theorys eleven dimensions

Space-Time has four  width length height and time

the difference the seven hidden dimensions are behind them

the last time he contended with something in kindYes

                                                         In  Kind

happened in college

in a fight on a Fort Lauderdale ocean sand strip across the road from a bar where they drank

got their asses handed to them

                                 had thought it was going to be a fair fight

one buddy asked Who are they?

another Where did they come from?

the third Fuuck. We’re going to get our asses kicked.

   words

he launched himself into the fray

it was right thing to do

Police broke it up

one of the few times he liked Police

despite the lumps gooseeggs and bruises

he couldnt say he didnt have fun

1550,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

2320,  day-between-2-Ts

   asked casually    Sowhere yawanna die

it landed like a slap across his face Are you serious? breath fast

Wha  You know me to ask unserious questions toss softballs

                                                                        In bed

Yeah. Yeah.  I think in bed is the perfect place.

   Really

          Im curious  Do tell

What’s to tell? In my bed.

Coudbe in a hospitalcoud have been in it for months sucking recirculated air head strapped in an EHMR elastomeric half mask respiratorlook at me  used an acronym despite my disgust you woudnt have known

I wouldn’t?

No

I said my bed.

Hospital bed coudbe your bed

Bed in my home.

Why exasperated I was clarifying your answer

                                                  Reread your will recently  Youre pretty sloppy inexact regarding your intentions

You a fuckin esquire?

Rhetorical

              So you aspire to expire in your bed

Cute.

        And you don’t?you usually say before we’ve gotten in this deep.

   Usually

              I wasnt prepared for your upset  Kneejerkish

Oh, so like your question wasn’t upsetting?

Were gonna die I didnt think Id upset you

                                               Also

he nodded  Also.  Also what?

I assume in your sleep in your bed

I think dying in bed assumes one’s asleep.

   I don think so

We’ll disagree.

                So if not in your bed if not in your sleep . . . where do you want to die?

Not so much where

                        I want to see it coming

Entered unknowing

I want to see it coming

1204,  Sunday,  9  6. 24

1300,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

always ask the question ask it again and again until it is firmly answered

                                                                               because

often the question that begs to be answered is left begging

reading Stephen Pfohl Parasite Café

                                       Clarity is always ideological and reality adaptive . . . demand for clear communication often proves to be nothing else but an intolerance for any language other than the one approved by the dominant ideology. At times obscured and at other times blatant, this inability and unwillingness to deal with the unfamiliar, or what a language different from one’s own, is, in fact, a trait that intimately belongs to the man of coercive power.

New World Order

staked on exploitive efforts to underdevelop the minds and bodily functions of those made to oppose as the Other

Under the Sign of Saturn Susan Sontag   Fascist Aesthetics

                                                                  . . . characteristic pageantry: the massing of groups of people; the turning of people into things; the replication of things; and grouping of people/things around an all-powerful . . . force.

Walter Benjamin 1936

                         theorized that a conjunction of telecommmunicative technologies and fascist dread was in the process of constructing a New World Order of Capitalist power.

New World Order . . . typified by dense and high speed aestheticization of (almost) everything, everywhere in No Time At All.

the attempts of Reality TV are to make viewers believe the reel world is the real world

                                                                                           an imagery is produced by producers

people are urged to swallow the scripted productions Produce  as if Real

he felt at best they were probably  possible he didnt participate  but Not Real

                                                                                 wouldnt buy-in on the War on Reality

Real is subjective

one defines their Reality after their definition

                                               however

if they coerce another

                      their Reality is not redefined but rather repressed   falsified

visual on-site productions cannot be legitimate for they are blindedwear blinkers they lack peripheral or periferal   they do not turn side-to-side look over their shoulders  they present a staged drama unfolding only BEFORE it

an objective perception point-of-view witness witlessly functioning 

the while encouraging viewers to make up their minds without benefit of the rest of the Whole

 

    drove him nuts

2ish,  Tuesday,  6  4. 04

Wednesday,  7  4. 04

0959,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

The Who  The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y1c3xllo8c

riding home on a bus

sitting at the back

shes WHITE

                wondering  takes out pen and paper a book to write atop                                                                                                  

writes haltingly

WHITE RITES

WHITE RIoTES

WHITE RIOTS

WHITE RIOTaS

WHITE RATIOS

WHITE IOTAS – WHITE QUOTAS

 

WHY

White  right

     she wondered

1800ish,  Thursday – April Fools,  1  4. 04

1018,  2sday,  11  6. 24

crap

holdin onto his biboverall  aint a damn thing under them

                                                                  It’s crap, it’s all crap.

that was what he was thinking in answer to whatever hed been thinking undecided unaware what percolated the remark prior had read Who Said That?

Anonymous

                  Whellshit that made him laugh out loud

   so many whistlestops

if he hadnt declared them whistlestops

                                          they would otherwise have remained vagrants

unheeded unrecognized vagrants

                                      hoboes tramps and bumsGO CHER

hoboes

hoboys

whoreboes

whore oboes

             riffing

why was

           Who Said That?

so important

accountability

                You utter it, you own it.

utterance

utterrants

mutterrants

mutterance

mutants

           organic growths from somewhere

Who Said That?

Why do you say that?

                         What was the birdseedthe kernelthe coitus of mind that created the revelation?

Revealation?

Exposed the exposition?

                         explosion?

Does mind have a kneejerk reaction?penetrated

Is it a gasp from a fissure?a fission?a fusion?a vent?a lesion?an eruption?a rupture?                                                                                                                                 from wherever

it has basis

             and emittedadmitted base for a fair rational question  Y do U say that?

                                                                       Y dO U say that?

                                                                       Y O U said that

Isnt Who Said That? second to Why do you say that?

one says You can count on me.

                                  they say  I am accountable.  I am a-count-able

grotesque gruesome 

                 disfigure something

                      torture the plasticity of a word  plasticined

                 contra-figurement

                 out-rageous

casting hooked lines treblehooks gaffs spears tridents burredlassoes to capture detain distort with leverage coerce brutestrength yank  till something tears

                                             however if rarified

yanked tortured  shy of tearing

                                   only nominally grotesque grewtesque tortureesqued torturetested  grotesque tortureattested tortureaffirmed torturetagged  picturesque grotesque

you can see why

things may

desire

anonymity

              amoeba anemone

terminology

vagrant

         vacantgrant  cantgrant  cant-chant-vagrant  cantatonicvagrant

                                                                              I . I . I cacacacant

430ish,  Saturday,  8  5. 04

1128,  2sday,  11  6. 24

Cher  Gypsys, Tramps & Thieves  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltUytgMaZYY

 

WHO?  WHO SAID THAT?

2004  April Fools

Me

writing

        sometimes he gets dicked by dictationhe hears  he pens   hes bound and determined to get each word right

catch and record

his handwriting the only evidence of his involvement  his culpability blame   an accomplice

he is nonplussed uninterested in/of his crime should it be  TRUTH FREEDOM  Miller does that to him

he hears  Obscenity  Pornography  cried

                                            cautions Let it go  Its all a continuum a twisted Moebus strip gobbling its tail

No Highs

No Lows

          Lofty or Mean

Fluid

       It bubblespercolates anwha in one moment is bathed in atmosphererarified sucking anaerobicmuck in the next

From either or in-between

It succors nourishment provides learning

                                            whether wise or whorish

a dispassionate latchkey  jailer

The birds scream howl formdeform in murmuration

                                                       they know there is always something to sing of

They are immortal

because

          they are unaware of their mortality

Thats what makes their song true unabashed  natural

They dont beg arent panhandlers robbers if necessary

                                                           “I ain’t asking nor will I ask to take.”  he blames Henry

Lead by action

Talking tempts lies

And lies cant wait to be admittedcant hardly wait for their freedom

And freedwiggles like a freshhooked angleworm

                                                   Or subtly  a festering wound

Lies are the hardest thing to kill

                                  Opening ones mouth tempts another

Lies dont die

They have to be killed

WHO SAID THAT?