20.12.23


      1623

Fri    8  12. 23

   that was printed in red ink on a diagonal tilting up left to right on the top left corner of the page typewriter paper  the reminder of its face was covered in scribble that hed bet only he could read -- because he wrote it -- an aint a soul who madscribbles like him  sometimes he was unable to read what he wrote hed hold a magnifying glass over it and taking hints from legible script and context  trynsee what he meant

sometimes he ditched short passages
he anguished
              he knew he was tossing away a legit seed that something spectacular or spectacularly offensive would have grown from it

beneath the time day and date he printed on the same angle  ADULT
        
                                                                COLOURING BOOK
they were on the phone

Ohyah I would have forgotten our conversation about that

Stop. You? Your mind's like a steel trap.

Sometimes I need a kick in the head to remind me

That’s understandable, understandable. I don’t think I’d want access to what goes on in your head when you suggested I draw an adult coloring book, because, as you say, I’m the ideer guy . .
. . I am . .
. . You are, you are, and I thought you were full of shit. Then I Googled it and discovered someone beat you to the punch.

They had Yes  Thanks for reminding me
                                             Although   just now had another ideer
Ohbrother.

Hear me out

I’m listening.

Can you trulyI mean truly colour  in an adult colouring book if youre not colouring with circumcised   awwwha the hell for tha matter  uncircumcised crayons   Theyll have to be arched like a cock  

A box of cocks
Jesus.
         I should have seen that coming.

Would make for a nifty Christmas gift
                                         Yashoud have



a quarter way down the page circled  he printed Kayla
                                                            an arrow descended off the circle towards the edge then swept back into the page pointing to
                                Sure as shit I’d

                                forget it again
Kayla

coworker from a liquor store
younger than he
evening lead
              the one on duty standing in the stepup cubicle work surface at her belly able to oversee the bank of four cash registers oversee two aisles all the way to the back of the store the night a gal entered with girlfriends and soon after approached him at Register Four nearest the automatic sliding glass doors 
                                                                                     HI.  It’s my birthday today.
Hello Happy birthday

I’m twentyone. she boasted

Ill have to see I D

shaking her beautiful curly red hair it took on a life of its own But I am twentyone.

Yes But Ill still have to see an I D

her face puzzledwas really thinking about it
                                                     I’m not driving tonight.

Good call she was inebriatedyet slipped her friends

You have to see my I D.

If you buy something Yes baby your I D

   Ah.
           I can show you my titsya wanna to see my tits.

he puts his hands up like it was a holdup

she yankedup her sweaterbounced emswayed em several times before yanking her sweater back down

girl had sensational orbs fantastic aureoles perky nipples was a bit brisk in the airconditioning no sooner had she yanked her sweater down a girlfriend came chargingup the aisle behind her Were you showing him your tit? Were you? Were you? Did she show you her tits, did she? She showed you her tits.

No shame

Tits laughed gayly
                    Oh she’s mad mad because she’s got little titscomere show him your tits.
Dammit.
          she hustled Tits off

Kayla flew out of the cubicle walked angrily up to him
                                                          We just had sexual harassment training . .
. . An I didnt harass herhands were up She didnt harass me
                                                                 Chalk it up to consenting adults An I also saw as she went to lift her sweater you looked away
No harm no foul
                    Kayla
Goddammit



he hadnt seen her in years

turns out she was hired as brewmaster for a local brewery that he passed by on the regular he didnt want to misplace her name among all the other names he knew was like playing Jenga

her last evening at the liquor store

locking the sliding doors

they hugged real hardhed miss her

he walked her up to her truck said goodbye hugged her once again turningwalking away 
                                                                                                  Joe.
he turned around 
Wannasee my tits? yanked her sweater up
                                               Kayla a redhead too
nice tits  tough to compare with birthday girls
                                                 she yelled  CONSENTING ADULTS.
Yah Consenting   Knucklehead
                                     one would think he couldnt forget her name                

2105,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  12. 23


he sanghummed hummedsang the same over and over  incompletely
                                                                           looping in his head
was washing her stationwagon   absent

from far off he heard  . . . song. . what song is that?

he returned Oh hey  Song  Yes

Yes. smiled lazily  What song, Joe?

Jaclyn if you knew Id shit
                             Andy Williams he hinted

she shook her head no Not the singer the song.

Moon River

The words tune you’ve snatched are nice.

Snatched  I like tha

she smiled amused conspiratorial

Did Williams write it

No  He sang it
                 Johnny Mercer Henry Mancini

Other singers who covered it?

No no  Mercer wrote the lyrics Mancini the music

Collaborated. her eyes brightening saying more

Yes  They did replied with his eyes

smiling pleasingly appealingly Like Lennon and McCartney.

Yes conspirators songwriters  Although Beatles music included George an Ringo  George Martin producer arranger an on Geoff Emerick sound engineer  They were the fifth Beatle or fifth an sixth   Together they crushed prior musical concepts
             he winked Authentic

a long fingered hand to her throat  Thank you.

Thank you


they met at her cousins birthday party on a sunny Saturday afternoon

he wasnt invitedwas walking by

had surprise visited a buddy and his family

they surprised himhad plans

he had time to kill

theyd meet at the house at dinner

the sounds the barbecue emanating from the backyard were too enticing

a handmade Happy Birthday, Stacie! banner laced the shrubs beneath a large livingroom window


she approached him

he had a bottle of Guinness in hand

   Say . . .

Say  wha

Say . . I'm not familiar with you.

Im a friend of a friend of Stacies

he dug the smile bemused   tintwicked that swept her face as she narrowed one beautiful green eye  deftly eyelined into an Egyptian cat eye mascara   end of cosmetics
                                                          Some balls.  Friend.
still covert  Joe  he extended his hand

she accepted it  Jaclyn.

Awfully nice to meet you

she nodded
             Who’s the friend of a friend?
Jaclyn

   Ah. nodded  Stacie’s my cousin.

You don say

I do.

Then Id say given family dynamics these days its awesome when cousins consider themselves more consider themselves friends
                      Hasnt been my experience
Although we shouldnt let ones experiences colour everyone elses  Keep an open mind

I have an open mind.
                        Given our openmindedness, would you like to get out of here.

Ive only just arrived

she took the stout from his hand
                                    I need my car washed.



he was washing her stationwagon

When you finish I’d like to take you somewhere.

Five minutes   Inside ten
                            Ill drain roll up the hose put everything back into the garage
I’ll be inside.
              Before you come for me push the front bench back all the way, I’d like you to drive where we’re going.

Where were going  Sounds mysterious

I am.

Happy to oblige


it was more than ten minutes the front seat stubborn but figured it hadnt been recessed in a long time being her car
the seat protested  Aw woudya shaddup
                                               it finally relented

on the rear concrete stepup stoop he rapped on the screen door he liked that it was relaxed slapped against the doorjamb under his knuckles wasnt a tightfit   an older house
RIGHT THERE.

IM RIGHT HERE

entering the kitchen she came into view
                                          Hiya.
Whoa  Hi you

walking towards him she grabbed the car keys off the cabinet counter shed showered toweled her hair wore an emeraldgreen sundress that made her eyes pop it unbuttoned all the way down the front  three buttons at the top were undonefell aside like languidlapels revealing the swell of her breasts  uncontained
                                                                                        You look fresh
Thank you.

he stepped backwards off the stoop drawing the screen door with him

she locked the house door behind her casually flit past him like a bird

You smell great

Thank you.

he followed her across the grass to the car

she confused himopened the drivers door

she saw his confusion
                         Keepin’ you on your toes?

You are

A woman can open a door for a man can’t she?

She can

Have a seat.

he sat
she leaned forward
he gazed at her exposed breasts
                                    Now.
Yes

she kissed him softly
                         This ride . . .
Yes

You’re taking me on . . . 
                           she kissed him again softlyever softer

Yes

she dropped the keys on the grass
                                     We’re taking . . .   nuzzled his throat his ear

Yes

You’re taking me here.
                      lifting her hem  she was naked   Open your pants.

Oh, dream maker, heart breaker, wherever you’re goin’, I’m goin’ your way
                                                                              kissing him warmlygiggling into his mouth she got in

0847,  day-between-2-Ts,  20 12. 23
Andy Williams  Moon River  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QyDhkPDXZ0A 

19.12.23


Shit
    caught him offguard  reallyreally surprised him

he knew these couples
                         or rather
thought he did

maybe onetwo  three  of the gals their roads far tougher than a white mans
                                                                                 however
he didnt foresee guys would
he didnt


when he posited the question the gals puzzled satback three guys immediatelyaggressively leaned forward  axes to grind went off over one another
                                despite   despite them knowing whenever he had a question hed say where he stood
he believed that was important

he let them work it out
wasnt prompting
                   just tendered the inquiry

three of six did

two of six women said

they were peeved volatile  reallyreally surprised him
                                                         harbored
deepseated angstanguish

five of a dozen

a legit sampling


   then finally  like a bomb an accusation Whydya ask? What about you?

he paused took his sweet time   looked each in the eyes
                                                               Yacut me off before I coud say
Yeah well. You tapped a nerve.

Ill apologise Im sorry
                       I didnt see that comin

And so?  What?

No I didnt don   hate anyone

coed five got twitchy

Though I will admit
                     Ill admit tha Ive disliked with extreme prejudice  certain people
But not hate
Hate
      Evil  I let neither rankle my vocabulary

Reggaefriday afternoon after 1415approximately,  15  12. 23
2149,  2sday,  19  12. 23
Alanis Morissette  You Oughta Know  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RitmSQcmUuI

IMY2  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gat8d1ozuZ8


Excuse my Ideation   hes always makin a mess  amass messes
                                                                       See
See how it works

See Dick
I was takin a leak.
                     was arrested for indecency exposure I swear I was takin a leak.   he knew a guy   was the guy lying   who tells the truth any more even when it has nothing to do with or shares the gravity of . . .   Christ it was a misdemeanor. Small town judge. Treated me like a felon was all over me.   . . . shares the courtordered gravity of going door to door in the neighbourhood and having to introduce himself as a sexual offender
                                                                                           Aint like sellin Girl Scout cookies.

There’s no excuse. That’s what bathrooms are for.

An before Judge?  Before?


See, see. See Jane.

Oh, Jane. Look, look, look . . .

Look, Dick. Look, Jane. Look and see.


Ideation
           legalish licorice  phonaesthetic  Hell withya Tolkien
legalish Urban Dictionary means to be written or portrayed in a confusing, inarticulate, or complicated manner.  obfuscate

everybody knows what licorice isHell Kaspar one of the Wise Kings brought baby Jesus a gift of licorice  “Licorice!” cried Kaspar, “Sweet, black licorice!”

Melchior and Balthazar may have preferred red

licorice is black

episode

episodic

epicsodomy    How canya turn yare back on tha he coudnt
                                                    Nope   Not at all coudnt

1700,  Thursday,  14  12. 23
2244,  Thursday
1326,  2sday,  19  12. 23
the reader kills him  unappealing  lackluster  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72qQKI7IYlI

https://www.washingtonpost.com/archive/lifestyle/1978/12/24/amahl-and-the-night-visitors/774f7528-05f6-4c42-a096-227a8a6e984e/


   discover   following it he wrote uncover

he wrote two other things in relationship to them but he couldnt remember them now
that was a good thing

he figured   soon he wouldnt remember them either the four which pricked him nearly three days morning and night gone
         Aaah

I dont believe you

Whaever ya must  Im tellinya the two are gone

I remember them

Keepem to yourself

How canya not remember them

Hold onto your pantyhose Ill tellya
                                        They were bleached from my mind once I wrote take a little trip with me
If you remember wha Ive forgotten youll remember tha

I do

An ifya remember tha Im at a loss why you don remember the bleaching the marvelous daylightsunlight lightinup the bathroom while I took yet another hot bath
                                              The night of writing take a little trip

Im not always present

Thawoud explain it

I need more thantha

Awright sure  I can understand tha
                                           Remember appleseed  Were you around
Mythic appleseed
Not mythic
               My companion

   A daddylonglegs

Yes Correct

Who three times attempted suicide

Attempted

But you intervened 

She didnt attempt again

Of course  Three times an youre out
                                           Which isnt to say ya didnt remain vigilant

I woud be vigilant She was my companion

Fine
         Where this going

Im relating how the two latter words have been erased from my mind
Bleached

   Yes

I interrupt  Continue

Appreciate the permission  Big of you
                                            As I was sayin  the marvelous daylightsunlight lightinup the bathroom as I bathed

Yes
Yah
       The light didnt cross into the hallway  It remained dark
I thought if I were in the hall at that instance opposite the doorway  the lighted bathroom woud have been the reflective silver of a mirror  I would have been able to see my reflection
Thaswha I thought in tha instant
                                       A terrific thought
Terrifying

   No   Remarkable
An in the corner at the ceiling where appleseed kept her web diametrically opposite my head my eyes
                                                                                                               Appleseed
 

Like an angel   A little guardian angel

No
     Like she was for all the hot daytime baths I took to help my body  Rock steady

An thereafter the two words following discover uncover   evaporated from your mind

   Gone  AnIve got a good memory
                                       Been dredging Nada nothing    Im grateful

You straight

As an arrow
                It was wonderful to see her again  Then I blinked   his voice cracked It was dark again
  
2156,  Monday,  18  12. 23
1055,  2sday,  19  12. 23

Peter J Malmsjo  Still  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mVo-4jKJa0

The Whispers  Rock Steady  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2C0oX8ZVSmA


Saturday

New Hampshire

the Tourettes continues

FOE since everyones makingup acronyms he madeup one of his own  fat orange eunuch spoke

“They who let– I think the real number is fifteen, sixteen million people into our country. When they do that, we got a lot of work to do. They’re poisoning the blood of the country,” former said. “That’s what they’ve done. They poison mental institutions and prisons all over the world, not just in South America, not just to three or four counties that we think about, but all over the world. They’re coming into our country from Africa isnt this where former ought to have said shithole countries, from Asia, all over the world.” where people have come since before America was known as America 
                                                                                                              doublingdown on his claim he posted at Truth Social hilariously ridiculous moniker “Illegal immigration is poisoning the blood of our nation.”

Fee Fie Foe Fum he smelled Stephen Millersmacks of a Goebbels wannabe
                                                                                does yahoo GobbleGobble know his History

1 May 1945 Goebbels and his wife Magda poisoned their six children and then killed themselves

  just wrioting the facts

0853,  2sday,  19  12. 23

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/maddow-why-does-trump-keep-talking-like-a-fascist-because-it-works-200511045884?cid=eml_mda_20231219&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

https://www.pbs.org/wgbh/americanexperience/features/goebbels-biography/

18.12.23

product


Fear forms in the flesh

in the brains

of whoever ingests

any portion of billions of animals who actually make it to market

while billions of others die  mistreated


product hasnt feelings

dumb corralled kept animals

but hes sympathetic

hes familiar with similar bipeds

who are somewhat product  themselves

1935, Monday,  18  12. 23


unparalleled   unprecedented
                                   semantics isnt it

Clarence Thomas   the former

resign Thomas
                  judicial determination shouldnt not turn on a buck Clarence

not making enough money

do wha everyone else does if theyre displeased with their compensation
                                                                             GET ANOTHER JOB

1621,  Monday,  18  12. 23



. . . take a little trip  take a little trip  take a little trip with me . . . https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qMkwuz0iXQg *

couple days now theyve been rolling through his head like tumbleweeds
                                                                             and as spiky
been trying day an night to determine where they fit

they appear seem to be related
                                    HOW
discover uncover
exploit explore
HOW
         hes done so many shoulder shrugs theyre achy
hot night baths back to back lavenderscented bathsalts and candle
                                                                       may take another tonight if he cant clear them up

discover

uncover

exploit

explore
         he leans towards uncover explore

seems when things are discovered some entity wants to monetize it
                                                                       monetize before its apprehended appreciated
before due diligence determination
                                     if
proceeding is beneficial or harmful  

given humankinds track record
                                  harmful


maybe his consternation is nothing more than that    maybe

sometime Reggaefriday,  15  12.  23
1126,  Monday,  18  12. 23
* War  Low Rider
Sons of the Pioneers  Tumbling Tumbleweeds  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yjg8LL5iUrc