he smiled  he was pleased 

                            he emailed texted made telephone calls  all he wrote or said was

chump indicted

252preferred PST,  Thursday,  30  3. 23

that hadnt happened in some time 

                                    matterafact  he couldnt remember a time finishing off three pens in any week usually they jumped off one by one

antha despite two being red Cristal BICstheir chambers see-through didnt occur to him to looksee probably akin to his circumstances of the hirsute fat man who lived in an apartment across a courtyard from his who had a disturbing tendency to lumber naked the drapes curtains unclosed 

                                                           more than once he was irkedtempted to put his eyes out with pens when unguarded he happened casual glances outside his window 

   two medium red BICs one Finepoint Pentel RSVP blackink

hed miss them 

               he needed to find a freshpacket of Pentels he had one left 

Cristal BICs hahaha 

                     Not funny Dad. 

It is love 

he told her with an Amazon purchase he bought a box of 50 Cristals with other packets of 10 he had he told her that it was very likely hed never have to buy another BIC

Don’t put that out into the ether.

Its okay babe Ive covered my bets

                                    Ive chummed the ether  Im livin to at least onehunred 

So why do you think you won’t have to buy more BICs?

Because love Im writing more frequently than I ever have directly to WORD on the computer

   Oh . . . that makes sense . . 

. . Yah doesnt it

It does. 

Yah

You still holding onto a few of the emptied tubes, caps intact?

he chuckled 

             Yes

Are you still spitballing people in the library who refuse to be quiet or create incidents with librarians by refusing to take their cellphones outside to talk?

he laughed 

            Yes sweetpea

You still really good at it?

How canya not be good at something youve been at since grade school

Bible verse . . put away childish things?

Corinthians King James Bible Chapter thirteen eleventh line 

                                                                 When I was a child I spoke as a child I understood as a child I thought as a child but when I became a man I put away childish things

Yes, that's it.

Love I don think I was ever a child eldest of ten I had responsibilities

So do you think spitballs may be latent, ongoing celebrations of a childhood you didn't have?

I think thas as good an explanation Ive heard  Thank you I appreciate your wisdom

Apple, nut, don’t fall far from the tree, Dad.

Good thing were on the phone ya mightave bought yourself a sloppywet spitball

I pick an choose my battles . . when to speakgo face-to-face or over the phone.

That wisdom love aint off my tree

Oh hell no, you prefer being in someones faceprefer confrontation.

I do I do

1816,  Monday,  27  3. 23

309preferred,  Thursday,  30  3. 23

Windy

vision of Tomb Raider Angelina Jolie in her heyday 

                                                    lookingup out of his bookglancing at familiar terrain that bordered Main Street  grassy mall left  new storefronts apartments upstairs across the traffic

in the flashing crosswalk a woman 

                                    just as he looks back down into the book she dips her right shoulderbeyond the unzipped gray hoodie a blackcloaked breast juts into viewOH MAN head pops backup finger plants becomes a placeholder locomotion churnsKEEP ON TRUCKIN’ hes on a ride

control room Full Speed Ahead 

shes nearly to the curb

some inner primal scream

                          Turn right turn right turnright if she turns left her back to him he wont have a hope an angle to admire her breasts 

seems

         at the sidewalk  she hesitates 

maybe responding to his mammalian cry cetacean song

   she obliges turns right

Awww 

        its out an loud before he can button it

his churn lessens 

steam escapes

jutting blackcloaked breast

her purse tucked under her arm 

unconsciously the book levitatesNO SHOW HERE the finger comes out  as his eyesdejected fall back into the book he glances forward once more 

                               clear sailing ahead

1230,  Twosday,  28  3. 23

1101,  Thursday,  30  3. 23

Association   Windy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPYT9Vyu62A 

itd been picking on him the last two morningwas waking himnot even waitin on him to peel an eye  wake on his own

   amiss

a plaintive note 

five letters 

           a first appropriately   m     i     s     s  swept across his wide screen 

                                                                                            repeatedly   

maybe a miss 

               a woman 

a mrs

amassing

harems an eunuchs

    a mishmash 

                      he hadnt no intentions of acting a longago rajah

what was amiss

what was the badgeringwhat the frantic obsession 

                                                      Whas goin on he asked his inner workingsmotley crew his Mariachi his shehes heshes 

                    Any ideas

their collective shrug disturbed the atmosphere a silver wave rolling up to blacksands of his dreams imaginings memories  his slate    chalkboard

If any ideas occur to you mongrels toss a dog a bone woudya

their eyes shined

                  then blinking simultaneously the lights wentout momentarily   then were restored  as close to a nod an agreement he could hope for

Fine then Thank you 

amiss crawled across his eyes one last time before fade-out according to script 

                                                                                    he wondered if hed be visited tomorrow

  

0910,  Thursday,  30  3. 23

a wild guess   Who  Champagne  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rA6ToyLNfnQ

sick an tired of unprecedented

                              he was sick an tired of listening to Republicans bellyache that to investigate indict the former president hold him accountable for his actions are not acts of our judicial system but rather politically motivated 

unprecedented 

   YES 

           indictments would be unprecedented however no recent president – Nixon having toed the linecome the closest – has acted as shamelessly abysmally despicably as the former

hes acted criminally 

                       although only his foot soldiers insurrectionists seditionists true-believers who attacked the Capitol January6 at his ur-ging have been tried found Guilty and are serving criminal sentences

   unprecedented 

                        unpresidented

he speaks  “I am your retribution.”

                                        speaks of revenge  vindictiveness 

the Constitution the American Rule of Law will prevail will provide the healing salve for law-abiding citizens and democracy

300preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  29  3. 23

2321,  day-between-2-Ts

Who  The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y1c3xllo8c

I'd Love to Change the World

he worked produce at the market

when he applied for the job he told the manager he preferred produce because he was really good working with fruits and vegetables had been all his life

the manager looked down at his resume 

                                            I don’t see you worked at a market before . . I see you were a senior customercare representative.

Yes

    I worked frontline with the public  he smiled quickly    the man had no sense of humour  he wanted to grab him by the collarshake him scream Deduce 

                                    its never any fun explaining a joke 

Yah  Ive worked with the public most of my life

Can you lift fifty pounds?

I can

I like what I see when can you start?

When would you like me to start

Tomorrow. 

          evidently the HELP WANTED sign should have read NEED HELP NOW! 

it wasnt a week before he was brought to the store managers attention by the produce manager

I caught him changing signs in the Organic vegetable shelves and bins. He said he was using initiative. And it was commonsensical.

Did he bring it to your attention first?

He did, but I thought he was joking.

He wasn’t joking.

No. Apparently not.

the store manager fingered the placards his new-hire took the initiative to make  they were well-executed utilised the same font though smaller 

                         mulled over in his mind why the hire saidreferred to them as stimuli  subliminal  would work on the customer at a new different level  would definitely move more Organic products

Thank you. Have him come in.

Would you like me to stay?

No. You’ve told me what I needed to know, thank you.

the produce manager stepped out 

                                    Lance will see you. 

Thank you

he enteredimmediately extended his hand as he walkedup on the desk Lance sat behind 

                                                                                             Don getup  

setting the placards down he took his handshake

Theyre good arent they had a friend accent them a subtle flourish a touch more exotic she followed my suggestion  evince quiet eroticism

                        She crushed it

You understand we can’t use these in the store.

I don Its marketing   Sex sells

Anything posted in the store has to be approved by corporate.

Corporate 

           A panel  An individual  Your boss at corporate

My boss is your boss.

Yare my boss corporate isnt So   Is corporate an individual or a committee Anhas whaever corporate is visited this store

My boss is your boss.

As you said 

                Has it visited the store  Do it do face-to-face with our consumercuz who knows our customers better than us

You’ve been here a week.

Ive lived in the community for   wha since Eightynine  Math  Eleven plus twentythreethirtyfour years 

                                                                                                            Has it been here since youve been here

That’s not the point.

Initiative isnt the point  Do wha yare told is the point 

                                                           Before you say no bump it up to corporate  Let it say no to me preferably to my face if it can get up off its fannyoff its expensive leather chair

I’m not going to do that.

                              Do you want this job or not?

Idiom Your way or the highway

                                  Highway

he picked up the placards off Lances desk and turned to leavechuckled  turned back and handed him one 

                                                                                                                 In case yare ever struck by initiative

 

   it read  Orgasmic

1234,  Twosday,  28  3. 23

1221,  day-between-2-Ts,  29  3. 23

Ten Years After  I’d Love to Change the World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qUGE8Y07-2k

Send in the Clowns

Nono nooo ya didnt just say tha

  his hearing was just fine his mouth said wha he wanted it to say 

                                                                      he didnt care for it when he turned inward and saw the heshes shehes gathered  collectively giving him a dirty look 

                                                                    Wha

Whaya just say

he wished they wouldnt whine together at once their voices sounded like a highoverhead nasally wind

he cleared his throat to address them he was peeved 

                                                           I remember donever worry tha I said to leftie You only want to get up on my lap an play with my thing

Thing 

      Ya don think tha came out wrong

Wanna get your heads out of the gutter this morning

he stood

when he did the weighted laces to his sweatpants fell and swung before his crotch

Shes a cat Catsfor whaever reason are attracted to laces loose fibers glittery beadsHell labels the thin leather patch on my 501 jeans flies they chase flashlight beams across carpets up walls 

                                                                              Theyre to rub it in pussy  cats

   Yawanna break it up go back to doin whaever it is youse do when I don attract your attention

a collective shrug 

                   then they began milling aimlessly abouthands stuffed in their pockets like they didnt know what it was they had been doing

0949,  Monday,  27  3. 23

1007,  day-between-2-Ts,  29  3. 23

Judy Collins  Send in the Clowns  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8L6KGuTr9TI

shehe heshe had been watching him 

                                         he seemed pensive   cup of black coffee in one hand book open on the kitchen table before him pen in the other hand making notes  they saw he had “found a word for artists’ energy synergy, a VORTEX” Ezra Pound Wyndham Lewis he was familiar with both men  June 1914 they published the Vorticist magazine BLAST he was not familiar with the movement 

                                                             how was tha possible 

he hadnt scribbled in a while 

Whacha doin

Thinking Got yardwork to get to

Arya don making notes

I am

Your coffees don

Yah  chewing some grounds though 

Got the page bookmarked stopped reading

Yah

Yardwork intimidating

Nah Suns up Rakinup cut grass from yesterday

So wha arya doin

   Im thinking Id rather shit now than go outside anave to shit thenave to come back inside

Care to discuss your consideration

Hmm  Ya can follow me into the bathroom anwhile I shit we can talk

Yare a riot

Just keepin us on our toes

1141,  Monday,  27  3. 23

0958,  Twosday,  28  3. 23

David Crosby  Laughing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFxjLJNmQns

So stupid

convenient

convenience isnt the answer or should be 

                                           how many 30 gallon plastic trash bagsYES they contained recyclable items had he thrown out over the years

thoughtlessly                            

he had a moment a month ago 

                                ansince hes only used one bag gone to the recycle cart and dumped its contents reusing recycling it

today he bought a box of fifteen trash bags  dated it with a Sharpie he anticipates he wont buy another box for more than a year 

              banishing another convenience 

when he looks around for his carbon footprint its like hes walking barefooted on bare rock

   

1447,  Monday,  27  3. 23

0922,  Twosday,  28  3. 23

David Crosby  What Are They Names  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9a0rDLlSGSo

Springs arrived!

inside saw a fly dancing against glass 

                                        Whered ya come from man

outdoors saw a hummingbird flit among blooming treetops

evidence plenty enough for him

   Small sample size. they had a cajolinghabit of being contrary  coercive

Yare a prick small sample size  whadaya need

                                                   A plane flying overhead pulling a banner ASSHOLE, IT’S SPRING! fabricated just for you

I’m just saying I don’t know that. 

While Im not thrilled by idioms they do serve their purpose  Tha excuse of yours has grown whiskers

You don’t know.

I do I call on my combinedcompiled life experiences 

                                                      I can do tha because I rememberhave memories 

For a guy who cant seem to keep up withdelete trash folders in his email or iPhone ya certainly do a bangup job with your memories long an short term

You don’t know that.

Go to hell Its evident 

                       Im calling it From this day forth were rumbling towards Summer

You’ll be wrong.

Id rather be wrong than braindead

1017,  Monday,  27  3. 23

characters move from scene to scene as in plays movies in life from speech to speech  dramatic  comedic       

   soliloquies 

                 sequentially 

rather he preferred mad irreverent episodes that only made sense when revealed from the depthsthe throes of exposition their import  export 

                        Hows your memory

if one isnt paying attentioncant remember then theyd be unable to compilethread the tumbling revelations 

                                                                                                               pull

on the right string  

lost  wrong

   memories are garments hung and dried on a clothesline  the rude heavier clothing gathered first folded manipulated laid in a wicker basket the finer garments laid atop them so theyre not crushed  ironing made easier

from these recollections – collections  a story is implied

he didnt name socks and underwear theyre speeches vague descriptions pastel softlycoloured shading shadows why give somethingsomeone a name if they wished not 

wished anonymity

   he was not a namer  an arbiter 

                                     assuming responsibility  who perhaps later is refused reneged            

make of it what you will

 

he couldnt name the shadows that flew across his eyes and disappeared out of sight

 

2251,  Sunday,  5  3. 23

1029,  Monday,  27  3. 23

Men  Original Sound Track  The Tip of the Blade  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrvnoOU_lo0

he misread the title of the article his brain influences his eyes 

                                                                       formers beer track advantage over Ron DeSantis          

he read beer truck thoughtDamn finally somebody else has got it right 

he was wrong

   apparently he remains to the best of his knowledge the only one to have it right or willing to say it out loud

1736,  Sunday,  26  3. 23

0927,  Monday, 27  3. 23

https://www.politico.com/news/2023/03/25/trump-desantis-gop-primary-00088730 

Hank Williams, Jr.  Tear in My Beer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rM8tROzp4Dc

Martyr?   Ooh horseshit Wha

   Awright   Ill tell ya wha

Lets nail him to the cross

If 2000 years from now formers words stand

Ill concedeIll apologise  

1022,  Sunday,  26  3. 23

Jesus Christ Superstar  What’s the Buzz/Tell Me What’s Happening  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbGEuNi2SKs 

braying ass  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPpQ8wWYmsA

Jon Stewart  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXL6YHNC_Gw

looked like he was trying to balance a chip on his shoulder 

                                                                You got people here? 

he lied  said he did but he was convincing 

                                            because truthtelling was paramount he imaginedcobbled his people back East to be somewhere in the widedispersed hamlet  practised   his utterance was believable

the guy who asked said he was a local

he knew from the three weeks he was there that being unattached could threaten his welfare hed lived in other small communities  they favoured their own wouldnt know it as a form of nepotism because they didnt know the word he dumbed down his vocabulary even as his mind screamed otherwise  for his agility tact it gave him a headachewouldnt talk to him  made him sleep on the couch

nevertheless he prevailedhe fit in 

                                   be damned if hed let themas he was outnumbered  overrun him  procure liberate disperse whawas his 

Yah  I got people but you woudnt know them

What’s their name?

You woudnt know them becausesorry to say likely they woudnt know you 

                                                                                  they were one on one 

he woudnt square off with him unless he had others at his back

   he was confident

confidence isnt a ploy  got it or ya don  

demoralised the chip fell

I have somewhere to be in tenDISMISSED 

                                                You have a fine day 

he grumbled something

   chip may have fallen in his mouth

1212,  Monday, 13  2. 23

1630,  Sunday,  26  3. 23

Talking Heads  Once in a Lifetime  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fR0jgT9UX0Q

duhbelevers went to Waco to hear duhwacko fume  lie 

                                                          feigns awareness of cultist Koresh playing Jonestown right down to driving the finalnail in the coffin feigned the Proud Boys “stand back and stand by” feigned Charlottesville “there were very fine people on both sides” feigned KKKs David Duke “Just so you understand, I don’t know anything about David Duke, okay?”

nice thing about wackos Duke remark  hit the nail on the head “. . . I don’t know anything . . .”

   No   he doesnt know anything     

1234,  Sunday,  26  3. 23

https://www.politico.com/story/2017/08/15/full-text-trump-comments-white-supremacists-alt-left-transcript-241662 https://www.cnn.com/2016/02/28/politics/donald-trump-white-supremacists/index.html

Why he coudnt say

Why not he woud ask 

alongside the railroad tracks gravelscatter broken rock iceplants weathered woodposts sixbys strangled by strands of rusty barbedwire cross slats between them either fallennails gave way hanging  others on the fenceline bentbowed by moisture sun  grain and gravity

tinder crossed his mind

                        but also who built it what it must have looked like when it was new the ground or fields surrounding it before their erosion 

                                      a time machine would have been nice 

also crossing his mind 

                        the fence  a long flaming wick or fizzingfuse combusted by a careless match or carefree lightning strike

1138,  Monday,  13  2. 23

1123,  Sunday,  26  3. 23

Beatles  Get Back (to where we once belonged)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKJqecxswCA

No he thought she woudnt have misspelled the wordif it was a word probably wasnt his brain autocorrected it to venom  but thahad nothing to do with money she owed him

he texted her  :  :  I do not know wha venmo is

  :  :  Truly?

 :  :  I woudnt lie to you. which setoff Annie Lennox Eurythmics playing in his head  he tapped his foot to the time

  :  :  It’s a mobile payment service.

  :  :  An app?

  :  :  Yes.

  :  :  No. Nobody enters my account except me.

  :  :  It’s really convenient, I can send you what I owe directly to your bank.

  :  :  No, no stinking apps for me. Mail me a check.

  :  :  Hahaha. Yes, you told me your granddaughter told you she has more apps on her cellphone.

  :  :  A different world, or as she would write diffrent, Ben Franklin would have approved.

  :  :  No, huh? When are you going to come into the 21st Century?

which setoff in his head a clothes-tearing catfight between Timi Yuro and Brenda Lee  Make the World Go Away  his money on Timi

  :  :  I’m only dying in it. 

 

1411,  Monday,  13  2. 23

1012,  Sunday,  26  3. 23

Would I Lie to You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7C3HYOLJSoM 

Make the World Go Away  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVcbfUWbRPA & https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCpW_eqXKI0