when he learned a new word he used it 

                                            much to the dismay of those he spoke to

histheir Saving Grace

                        he didnt talk to many people 

he read a German term

stood him on his head

he loved how it looked 

                           augenblick

reading furthur he discovered there wasnt a true English translation 

                                                                         there go the Germans again

Germans and Jews crushed it they had words for seemingly everything under the sun

   augenblick  is the feeling of a second as measured with a slow eye blink 

                                                                                reminded him a sustained glance Whawoud that be in German 

                   he worked for a company that operated on the groundsamong the housings of collegeaged kids his signature was needed on corporate paperwork which acknowledged he could be fired for committing a sustained glance 

Whas tha 

You know what it is. getting her panties in a bunch

   Define it 

             Seems overtly subjective  so define it objectively

the exec said I think we . .

. . Excuse me  No  We 

                         Please define it explicitly  because the terminology is too vague for me to understand  to commit my name beneath

he riled her Let me . . . paused he wondered what she was calling him in that secondwha he woud have given to be a mind reader . . put it this way, if you don’t sign it, that’s also grounds to be fired. 

                                                                               pleasedsmug she crossed her arms over her flat chestGotcha! cat that ate the canary

he smiled large in her face in the space where he was to sign he wrote UNDER DURESS  then signed  handed it to her

she looked unamused he was thrilled You can’t write under duress, corporate won’t accept it.

I suppose that might be a conversation for some other time  You have my signature

   had corporate knew German wrote augenblick  he would have been tempted to sign

 

What did you say?

In a heartbeat in an augenblick

Augenblick? 

               You’ve been reading again.

Yes Yawanna know

   No. I’ll take heartbeat, I know that.

Ill not stop  Augenblick

No you wont, but I’ll hear it as heartbeat.  I’m good.

1250,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

1411,  Saturday,  19  11. 22

Soolking & Heuss L’enfoire  Mal a la Tete  (Bad to the Head)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lCOyJPFOb8

uninhibitid parked its asswiggled it deep into the couch of his sleeping brain

You got this? hypnagogia asked

Me? I thought it was yoursyour fingerprints all over it.  hypnopompia replied

Not mine.

I don’t want it. 

                they stuffed their hands into their pocketsHANDS OFF shrugged vapourised effervescently  Fizzies flavouring water 

his Dreamed-self didnt have pocketswas naked  he shrugged   Whell

                                                                          he was asking his Dreaming-self 

Whell wha

              I suppose we run with it

they were left holding the bag

                              three vinyl U-shaped booths on a wall in a breakfast joint  a plainclothes detective on either end  a German Shepherd sat between them in the middle booth  a police officer  Officer brown and a dog  Officer BAD they were distracted  B A D rolling through their collective vision compound bugeyes  B A D occasionally shuddered skipped skip stutteredthrobbed interrupted by B I D body in a duffel  that the cop nearest the door dragged in smearing blood across the checkered linoleum floor and leaned between his booth and theirs 

                                                                                                  Ya know what’s in there? he grumbled

 

Coudguess  they were speaking in one voice

I didn’t ask you to guess. 

                            You know what’s in the bag?

  No  Coud only make a guess

I can tell you.

Cant imagine why you woud 

                               Officer BAD stuck their wet nose in Dreameds ear  Dreaming felt it in his too retreating the Shepherd transformed into a uniformed policewoman

                                                             she smiled lasciviously and said  I can be a real bitch. What’s in the duffel?

I don know

she leaned in againwhispered Let me buy you a drink. Dreaming didnt hear she licked his earlobe leaned back Dreaming felt her tongue on his ear 

                           It’s a body shot in the top of the head, bagged.  B A D  B A D  B A D  B A D  B I D 

B A D  B I D . . . 

                      Dreamed rubbed their bugeyes  Drink? bitch whispered again 

A wellprovisioned spicy Bloody Mary very little ice   Two  Dreaming smacked his lips in anticipation

You.  Not him.

Then no thank you 

                 B I D  B A D  B A D  B A D  B A D  B I D   B A D  B I D . . .

Thas enough  Dreaming said as he leaned across bitch tapped Dreamed in the chest with the back of his hand  Were out of here snapped his fingers 

                                  B A . . anhe woke                                      

he rubbed his head over where uninhibitid sat where a depression in the couch remained

. D  B A D  B I D skittered in his eyes then shatteredshards flashing in the sunlight vapourised

earlyAM,  Saturday,  19  11. 22

1111,  Saturday

Noire & Blanche  You Never Told You I’ll Miss You That Much  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwVZNFMIHaU

the former was--is a mole salting his pockets 

                                                “I have been going through this for six years – for six years I been going through this, whining and I am not going to go through it anymore. ohyes you are cunt And I hope the Republicans have the courage to fight this. he doesnt want to pay legal fees

                                                           I am not going to partake in it.”

FUCK YOU former

1726,  ReggaeFriday,  18  11. 22 

https://www.npr.org/2022/11/18/1137736663/special-counsel-trump-justice-department-jan-6-mar-a-lago

she smirked it wasnt a good lookhe found that unfortunate  You’re jealous.

his head answeredwagged NO before he could say  so he didnt

Please don’t shake your head at me the ungood look continued  Be honest.

Im brazenly honest You got your head on wrongno jealousy  contempt  stark contempt  Theyve nothing Im jealous of 

Itsa worthless emotionwaste of time

 

   Really? ungoodlook spoiled to haggard

he shook his headbit his tongue so How old are you didnt emerge  I told you  Take me at my word 

her attitude had been declining since she pickedup with a clutch of people he was uninterested making time forpolitely refused their invites refused their taunt You think you’re better than us.   No  blandly I don think of you at all 

his abruptness offended her

                              You ought to be nicer.

You makeup for me

   What do you mean by that wisecrack?

You make up for me 

                        Make of it wha you willI didnt agree to meet you for coffee to talk about this 

We agreed to meet to discuss our relationship . .

. . Our relationship he regretted he raised his voice  

                                                      Our relationship has nothing to do with themtheir your friends

I’d like them to be our friends.

Thas not happening

Despite the threat to our relationship? 

I woud hope youve given this some thought 

                                                      Im not swayed by ultimatums  

I haveI thought we shared something special.

   Special yes  Not common theyre common 

                                                  Enjoy their companytheres no reason why you shoudnt or cant 

So you’re giving me an ultimatum?

No 

    I enjoy being with you   With you 

You’re not jealous?

   No

the look finally fell

2017,  Thursday,  17  11. 22

1303,  ReggaeFriday,  18  11. 22

 

    Nothing 

he didnt answer

he repeated himself 

he peered deep inside his walnut  nothing on the walls on the floor in the cupboardsclosets looked like he moved out moved on 

         hestartled when he responded Nothing nothing   Ive got nothing

I saw

   Saw   Shoudave knocked

I spoke

Nothing

          Askin a question isnt speaking Next time knock

Are you going to be there  By the looks . .

. . Looks arent everything 

                          You know betterhow many looks have you walked away from   Im reevaluatingstripped the place to the bone like it was when I entered

   Entered 

Entered

In the beginning  Before we met

You werent there in the beginning

I was

         I was waiting for you 

I don remember

   Before memory  Before the candle was lit to shed light

Light

Long time ago 

Which you think . .

. . Know  

Think eyed him  gives you the right to peer 

I assumed the right while I waited for you

I didnt have a choice

You did not  Its been the only choice you were denied 

I was stuc . .

. . Stuck Yes    

                 In the beginning were stuck   Carry onexcuse the interruption Ill be around if you need help

he wasnt impolite  Thank you

he wasnt impolite  Yare welcome

0647,  Thursday,  17  11. 22

1035,  ReggaeFriday,  18  11. 22

Dhurata Dora  Criminal  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6QjTY9YzNk

for someone not inclined to sweets  candies cakes chocolates pies ice cream  he was terribly fond of Canadian whisky  four components   rye corn wheat barley 

                                              cheap sweet whisky

Yawanna try again

was he talking to himself again 

                                   waaait  he wasnt 

                                                     he was asleep 

he looked aroundsaw a thug-himdreaming-self leaning again a bar his bootheel on the footrailarms crossed 

                                                                                                                 Again 

dreamed-self  he they were both he but he identified more with him sat at a table across from the bar 

                                                                                                       Again  Wha

Cheap sweet

   Ah I follow   cheep sweet whisky

Yes

Got your eyes out

Yabetcha 

           You got a chance to playwe get a chance to play  were on it 

My apologeezs 

Yes 

      Geezs  Geezs cheep sweeet whisky

Forgive me

Forgiven

Can I go back to my drink dreamed-self held up fourfingers he was sipping from

Room at the table for me

he looked around bar was empty   not even a bartender

Hellyah

dreaming-self stepped across to the tablepulled out a chair sat  fourfingersfilled glass waited at his place 

                                                                                                                 he heldup the glass  Whawe drinking to

To our bond being sympatico

Head on a swivel  Inside an out

they clicked glasses  sipped 

                              an mirrorimaged they leaned backchairs balanced on their heels put their feet on the coarse table

Aah should have expected Id like cheep sweeet whisky too

   Yathink 

                Youah give any thoughts to wha ya might unspoolspring on me when we finish our drinks 

   Something   Guaranteed

No doubt 

           Coud we keep it English

Didnt like Dutch

Didnt mind it except ya must have noticed the chyron was stickingthen whirled to get caught up  then got stuck again 

I confused some extras when I answered questions they asked after I begged offmimed  I was deaf

HA he chuckled 

                  Tryin to keep you clowns on your toes

    

0620,  Thursday,  17  11. 22 

1537,  Thursday 

Gims feat. Dhurata Dora  Only You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xv792jyJNoo

Capital T feat. Dhurata Dora  Bongo  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B1EFJfGWU0U

his flipflop snubbedhe stumbled on the kitchen linoleum 

                                                          Pick up your feet 

Don tell me wha to do

Yare the captain of this vessel an wed prefer not to go down because you stumbled fell an cracked your skull on the kitchen sink  Bleed out

                            Cuzya live alone

Problem living alone

                       Cuz we know Im agile I didnt fall   Ill concede my flipflop caught

   No  not necessarily

Bug up your ass today

heshe shehe shrugged 

                           Coudbe

Im usually the one tha gets the bugup the ass Coudbe untoward if you or yours start  I mean none of ya will be stubbing your flipflops on a kitchen floor willya

   No   No risk of tha

So whasup

Donknow out of sorts

Just you or others too

Ill speak for myself  I believe others woud too

Good  Were in agreement 

                              You were abrupt

Got your attention 

Got an example when either you or another didnt get my attention 

Nadahuh 

           I pay attentionI pay keen attention have alwaysyah

    Yes Fuck  Im out of sortscant put my finger on it

Well when ya do lemme know

Arent I creating a problem

   Listen I maywe may list a bit  but the boat aint going down 

                                                                     Youll sort it out We always do

 

since he was a kid oldenough capableenough he made his bed  before he went out on his paper route 

                                                                                                             routine 

he abided routines 

                     he was fortunate that way

it seemed unnecessary for him to change up procedures processes systems he thoughtlikely because he was comfortable in his own skin

                              antha vantage points tha might be afforded others by travelchange of scenery he had were internalised  birthed the opinionatedthoughtful melee of heshes shehes who inhabited him   a counsel

sometimes

 

he wrote his father a letter asking him

                                         Have you any routines that are yours since you were a kid

on occasion hes posed the same of others 

                                             Why? 

Whynot

Don’t think it’s worth my time considering. 

   it goes without saying  

                              but he couldnt resist  Thoughtlessness

1113,  Thursday,  17  11. 22 

Est-ce que tu m’aimes (Do You Love Me?) Maitre Gims (Mary B & Willy Saul cover)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Tx6FJsQ408 

Maitre Gims  Est-ce que m’aimes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TpyRE_juyA

they had too much fun an particularly so when they didnt see it coming

usually he saw it coming far off had a nose for humour albeit it twisted irreverent  particularly offcolour

she commented her face beset by consternation a friend invited her to visit but they wouldnt give her their address

he burst out laughing 

                         Sorryapologise thas rich  Visit me but Im not giving you my address shaking his hands before him like a whitegloved Bozo he trilled FIND ME

she shook her head Yeah right. Sometimes he gets his panties in a knot for no reason.

Well laughing again thas as apt a description or definition of panties in a he tripped over himself caughtcorrected himself before saying aloud knot knot as ever Ive heard   

Hah.  You betcha. 

                   what he caught himself from saying was panties in a lock he laughedbarked to himself visuals imaginings arriving from beyondbeyond of neural firingsgangly ganglions were too much 

                                                                                            he confessed  I almost said panties in a lock 

                she barked caught her unsuspecting

                                                           I think that’s what’s called a chastity belt.

Id hate to see someone get their chastity belt tied in a knot woud kinda defeat the purpose

True! she laughed again  That would be impressive.

Yes it woud though Id pay good money to see it or a picture

1523,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  11. 22

1054,  Thursday,  17  11. 22

theres a method to his madness  but he wont divulge it 

                                                                          he didnt have to share

he identified bodies

who the bodys were

he had the distinctdistinkt pleasure of catching up with unwitting say dimwitted murderers of those peoplesbodys they thought no bodies before the authorities 

                                             SAY You should have stoked the fire hotter or really churned itturned it  You left pieces 

                                              he didnt wait on authorities because he assumed authority on his own

faced with that

                 authorities slapped on legal to proscribedefine them asif tha mattered to suggestonly suggest because he hadnt a badge a patch some id he was somehow illegal   please at best they were late to the party ILL legal illlegal  ill informed

             they had that on him

         

   found   feckless

he was free to feed on their carcasses  HOWEVER 

                                                       not before they knew what they knew and that he knew 

as apt a printed definition of premeditated as he had ever read

 

theres method to his madness   he aint divulging 

                                                     Go ahead say it  shehe heshe said 

sometimes he liked permission 

                              Awright itd be vulgar 

   Better 

Yah

1430,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  11. 22

1540,  Day-between-Two-Ts    

Coil  The Gimp (Sometimes)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dN6U4YzdInU

he came in from his daily walk in the sun

he was warmedwarmed twice a day 

                                        in the sunthe exertion of walking miles     then 

when he went to bed

                       slathered in the elegiacelectric fadedblue polyester blanket which faked sun

Elegiac

Certainly  Think about it 

   Ya got me 

               I understand it to mean wistful  mournful

Or sad 

         I don think it very often but being warmed at night by an electric blanket not a body is sad  Possibly   pitiful

My  Yare being unusually frank

Between you and I nawh 

                           shehes heshes were notoriously tightlipped they got it from him  friends knew they could confide in him  was like tossing a coin into a deep deep wishing well and if thinking to listen were unable to hear it strike bottom 

                Feeling pitiful for some reason this evening

Thas unlike you

It is unlike me

   You thought to call herdidnt you

a sad smile worked into his face 

                                      I did

You tipped the dominoes

I tipped the dominoes 

You have my condolences

 

   Thank you   Too manytoo quick 

                                       Im bent under the weight

If you don mind   Understandably

No I don   I understand a sharp HA hawk broke in his throat 

                                                                      I stand under it 

Yes   Yes you do

1437,  Twosday,  15  11. 22

1317,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  11. 22

Mogwai  Too Raging to Cheers  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPiQUVyfCMY