truth
I am who I am an wha I am is fortunate to have loved her to have held her
1252, Thursday,
3 11. 22
3.11.22
wink
she was lousy at it
Baby no no thas
not seductive
Dammit . . which eye am I supposed to wink.
he laughed
anwhile laughing he
winked
Oh
shit, that’s hot!
Which eye
Oh she thought
Could you do it
again? I got itbut I missed it.
Again
Yawatchin
she laughed
Okay I swear I swearya flustered
me my brain went out of my head. Okay
he winked
she thrilled
Left eye left eye!
Shoot me one doll she was fucking beautiful
she winked
he startled hercame over the
table scattering the Scrabble game grabbed her by the ears and kissed her
hard then relaxed
after their laughter kissed her again deeply
I love you
buckwheat
I love you too.
2310, Sunday,
30 10. 22
1230, Thursday,
3 11. 22
Thas a great idea! he thought made a mistake though
rather
than immediate penning the seed which had fallen out of Submergence the film he
watched he penned the time and date 2208hrs
Sunday October 30
then going to
write
he stared at the empty page
which grew more empty more desolate
he finally scribbled the fuck – went out of my head
at that particular moment
he was frustratedwasnt thinking and because
he wasnt he didnt recognise the mordantly obvious solution
Stop the film finger the time slide rewind rewatch
the seminal scene find the seed
four days later he discovered the
time and date stamped page the fuck -- went out of my head not frustratedthinking
he reverse-engineered the episode went
to the prior timestamped entry 2126hrs approximately 40 minutes apart he went to Amazon brought the film up Find
the 2126entry yahoo it was approximately five minutes and fiftysevenseconds into the film
I realised I’ve never been lonely before.
it took him fifteen minutes ridiculous he broke an hoursixty minutes into convenient
fifteen minutes or a halfhourproperly chopped in quarters
no probably took him sixteen to nineteen minutes
he downgraded himself
to asshole
the characters James (James McAvoy) shows Danny (Alicia
Vikander) the headlines of a horrific jihadi bombing in Africa he asks her to read the article
Did you read it?
Yes.
And?
I feel . . there’s nothing I can
do about it.
hes abrupt You can read about it, we could get
interested, we could educate ourselves and get involved in a solution.
timidly How is there a solution to a
problem that has roots in ancient conflict where religion . .
.
. What are you saying, you don’t think there’s a solution?
quietly introspectively I don’t
know.
terribly forceful It is the same as your work Danny, trying to
get people interested in potentially life-saving information that lies at the
bottom of the sea in the dark that nobody wants to know about . . it is exactly
the same thing . get them interested, educate them, get them involved in a
solution and that is amazing. This is our world too, isn’t it?
yet more quiet I don’t know that.
Oh.
So you can be stupid as well.
very oftenunfortunately hes flummoxed how people refuse it is easier not to they refuse refuse to pursue
their own information reference
cross-reference ferret it outbe
fucking curious he
really hasnt the imagination to believe that othersa huge swathe of others are
incurious have to beare lead by the hand told what to think and think what they are
told
he has been told he holds his bar too
high
maybe he did
although
he wasnt going to waste his time with those who couldnt get over it
redundant 2208,
Sunday, 30 10. 22
1147, Thursday,
3 11. 22
Mogwai The Precipice
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXOa94FPRTU
2.11.22
he kept stepping on his own toes
he had a backlog that was aching
to be writtenrealised YESyes realeyesed
but his dynamic duohis dreaming-self
and dreamed-self or maybe dreamed-self and dreaming-self had other ideas had a toolbox at their disposal lotsa wrenches wenches wily women the other night Marilyn Monroe somehow he tumbled her out of bed onto the
hardwood floor she jumped rightup it was precious he asked her if pleaseplease he was begging
would she please jumpup and down a few more times It’s
cold. I can see You’re terrible . . okay. she giggledmusically
as she jumped then as he held the blankets aside she jumped into bed Warm me up!
Had tha in mind baby
coud understood
why he stepped on his toes
1253, Day-between-Two-Ts – end of Day of the Dead, 2 11.
22
Everly Brothers All I Have to Do Is Dream https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbU3zdAgiX8
rabbithole yawns
Elmer Fudd
archenemy of BugsBunny aka Wabbit
Stewart Rhodes archenemy of democracy
but archenemy binds them
“If you don’t (invoke the
Insurrection Act) then Biden/Kamala will turn that power on you, your family,
and all of us. You and your family will be imprisoned and killed (that’s called
projection). You and your children will die in prison.”
this is the kind of personmaniac
the former Orange DayGlo was and is utterly willing to consort with
Yup feels like rage
1947, Day-between-Two-Ts, 2 11.
22
he wokecats were up to something he could
hear
she wasnt in bedwhy wasnt she on
the cats
he got upwalked into the hall
at its end in the livingroom she
was sitting on the sofa laptop in her lap buds fobs whaever the fuck theyre called
in her ears virtually deaf and blind
her periphery was intact though comingup
the hall he broke itshe startedturned who
else would be coming up from the bedroom atasudden put her
hand to her throat then it fell
You’re naked.
I am
she pointed at the ear thing
he nodded
he approached her she leaned
her head back he kissed her then mouthed Coffee
she nodded immediatelyreturned her attention to the
laptop
turning left into the kitchen two
cats raced around the edge of the refrigerator fleeing
before the sink bomber an orange tabby
continued to play oblivious
with the chopstick he had the other
three were scattered on the linoleum
playing chopsticks sounds better on a piano
his error he should have dried them offput them away after
dinner last night
he glanced at the clock on the wall hands read 7:56
his brain chuckled and
said in his ear Sevensixtyfive
he chuckled Thatd be Eightohfive
I like Sevensixtyfive.
Are you dyslexic
Are you?
funny brain
No But you love to fuck with meyou and
your cohorts
They’re Mariachis.
As youve pronounced them
I have.
Were supposed to be a team albeit disparate
Disparate. Yes. Why you don’t patently listen to me, do as I
say.
I don I don do wha anybody says However I do listen to your counsel to your
henchmen heshes shehes he
smirked
Go ahead . . you know ya want to.
I do Heshes shehes SHESH
Better?
Yah much better thank you
Hey . been nice running around
with you but you better get on the coffee.
Reminding me
I can osmotically, I needn’t say.
Osmotically nice
After all these
years ya still got it
Like you . . like you say, I have
my moments.
you know 0765, Day-between-Two-Ts, 2 11.
22 end of Day of the Dead
1046, Day-between-Two-Ts
his rabbithole
saddledup Alice and ride her down
politickles
kneejerk reaction ignorance peeved him
regarding lies liars he became enraged
Ah dearie his mother would often say Karma.
Cause effect Maw
In a manner of speakingyes.
You’re usually so patient.
Had you named me Karma
he smiledshe made him smile My impatience is showing
That and some . . that smile
looks wicked.
Little Red Riding Hood wolf
wicked
Wha big teeth you have The better to eat you In the original the wolf eats her
You wouldn’t eat them.
Might depend upon how they were
prepared Were you talking figurativelymetaphorically
or literally
she screwed up her face
I get them confusedI can’t tell. Speaking
plainly, are you teasing me?
Lets pretend were in the Andes he teased her time and again The Uruguayan rugby team she
wouldnt he said Then thered be more for
me to eat
You’re teasing me.
Aren’t you?
Are you?
not
that the opportunity would present
1134, Day-between-Two-Ts, 2 11.
22 end of Day of the Dead
Sam the Sham and the Pharoahs Lil’ Red Riding Hood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNEYfIUDkh8
1.11.22
censorship
https://www.blogger.com/content-policy?hl=en of a post made at 2053 this evening
theres nothing to review
maybe theywhoever THEY are ought to review FOX
919preferred, Twosday,
1 11. 22
FOX hellholes
24:45minute-mark https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8YN6QAmd4M
one by one FOX the Murdochs their employees could come downkneel blow him anhe meant gagging blowjobs
although to his dismay hed have to be able to tap out an have a legion of stand-ins there were many more mouths to stuff than he could possibly provide
anhe didnt want a one to walk away without their gullet filled an iridescent cumbubble dancing on their lips
2028, Twosday, 1 11. 22
Jose Feliciano Guantanamera https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0f0sbCp_VVc
analogies tickled himhe wasnt ticklish
the Titanic – the United States of America
we hit an unnamed iceberg and sink
or we acknowledge the iceberg an dont
democracy survives
0717preferred, Twosday,
1 11. 22
Talking Heads Once In A Lifetime https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IsSpAOD6K8
17:55 minute-mark https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GILZ2S3vXpE
pull-quote
“Studies in the 1940s showed
that 75% of Americans reported ‘rarely’ or ‘never’ seeing any color in their
dreams.”
BULLSHIT his
hypnopompic hypnagogic states were slatheredbathedbuttered in hyper-- quiet colour
or not
some fella Sam Enright runs an on-line publication Fitzwilliam
agreed with him
“There’s no plausible
way that the small proportion of time people spent watching visual media could
radically change dreams about the things we see in colour every day.
Rather, people
don’t know whether they dream in colour. his underline”
. . . we see in colour every day
our everyday
sight is the lush palette we work from which
informs us or ought to inform us Yes OUGHT he wasnt giving any wiggleroom Houdini would have dieddrowned clasped in his OUGHT chains and bracelets
OUGHT to be informed not informedFORMED by monetising pixelated
flat-screen farces who vie to enforce their/ITs
realities upon us
NO not cunt social media
bout1300, Twosday,
1 11. 22
Ohbrutha yet another pull-quote
sometimes when he steps in it he brings it right insmears the
carpet awful footprints cats
look at him like he has two heads Jesus
man, couldn’t have checked your shoes before you came in?COULDN’T smell that?
No
I coudnt smell tha Im up herenose is up here feet are way down there
What a pitiful excuse for a human
being.
since he watered an fed them he
thought theyd be more guardedless likely to mouth off
reading his mind You don’t hold your tongue, why should we?
no argument there
short
thrift was his middle name they had him
dead to rights
the antagonising pull-quote was “We
invent veterinary drugs specifically to kill pets, in some instances, (but) we
don’t design drugs to kill people.”OHYES WE DO
Can you say compounding pharmacies
states
execute condemned inmatesOHYES WE DO
terribly funny we provide our pets mercy we wont allowed ourselves
Turning off the TV IM DONE WATCHING
some argue it is committing
suicide the religious who HAVE to
put their thumbs on every fucking butchers scale
Whose Life is it
sidle up to
the bar
Name your poison, partner.
Funny you should put it that
way barkeep Cyanide Put a head on it
Coming right up . butya gotta pay in advance . . can’t open a tab.
Sharp
cookie
1527,
Twosday, 1 11. 22
was he reaching
it occurred to
him he was
think when you take solace or assurance from a film
she said I realised I’ve never been lonely before.
he said Welcome to the planet.
It’s possible he’s working his way here, right?
Or he just stopped calling. Stopped being interested.
Impossible, he’s just stuck
somewhere without reception . .
.
. For a month?
Yes. Why not?
its not implausible
Art imitates Life
his brother was serving in the
Marines overseas Japan he had a very beautiful girl inside and out
waiting at home waiting on his return they exchanged letters as hot and heavy as post can be
threefour letters a
week for weeks
then he didnt receive anything
for a week
he kept writing
then another week
he kept writing
another onetwo weeks
he lost his shit and wrote her a
scathing letter what
is a Dear John letter called when it is written to a woman
his leave finally came through
she reached outcalled
him left a message with their mother
he called her back
they arranged to meet at the
housetheir parents home she remembered Like I could forget. she said
she told him how excited she was
to read all his letters when she got out of the hospital
she almost died
You wrote me and told me exactly
what you thought of me.
I
didn’t know.
We promised each other.
his brother started to cry
he remembered
seeing them through the front window where it looked onto the front porch
where they sat
where his brother introduced them
he watched
his brother cry
watched her cry
then she heaved herself to her feet crossed to where his brother sat and
stood for a minute with her hand gently on top of his head
then she left
walked down to the street curb
where she parked
she got into the car and drove away
didnt look back
YES. WHY NOT?
2126, Sunday,
30 10. 22
2053, Monday – Happy Halloween! 31 10.
22
Edison Lighthouse Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TgC_cdvcDAA
31.10.22
WARNING Sexual content
This film contains scenes
unsuitable for children GENERATION
Z Wanna give him a breakthey cut their
teeth on internet porn
Sexual content What is that
hed been sucked into onetoomany films guaranteeing sexual content to see
sexual content that didnt show
he wasnt
titillateddidnt toss humoured looks around the slatebluecoloured theatre for audience
members being uncomfortable unnerved blushing realising they were in public looking at a penis on the big screen
he didnt say a big penis on the big
screen
What is sexual content
it seemed to run in Justice
Potter Stewarts circle his spectacular nondefinition
of obscenity
“I know it when I see it.”
hed like to know who the hell saw sexual content in any of those unsatisfying
films he watched he paid hardearned money to see
LET DOWN like
opening a Chinese fortune cookie and no damn
fortune
finally at long last although
he didnt see it in the theatre Blonde
on Netflix
afterwards saying that he had he had to defend Marilyn MonroeJESUS H
CHRIST he was wellgrounded in her life had
read the nonfiction the fiction he had to
remind the Ignorant who
were not as steeped as he that Blonde was an artistic endeavor not a biography
LAWD Awmighty Sexual content
2120, Sunday,
30 10. 22
1223, Monday -- HAPPY HALLOWEEN! 31 10.
22
ghoulish a bit perhapsbut tis the Season Happy
Halloween
it occurred to him that during this past weekseven days he knew of as many birthdays as deathdays of family and friends
six
birthdays seven deathdays
Why would you know that?
he exhaledtried hard but not too hard Thawas a
stupid question
immediately a burr was under his saddleofcourse it was
he meant
it to be
Well excuse me
all to hell.
he let his child out to playrun
barefoot through the cool grassacross the slick autumn leaves
No Theres no excuse for you
You suddenly an adolescent?
In this momentyah Ya don think thawas a stupid question Take a breath an think then open your mouth
Why woud I know tha
You woud not
Unlike me you do
not affix events to daysya didnt realise it was Halloween
immediatelyhe nodded in
agreement
You’re right . .
.
. I am
So thinking about it Why
woud I know tha
Because you lived through themcelebrated
them . . mourned them
Yes
You have a terribly long memory.
Yes
There is much life in long
memories if we choose to keep them
I do not.
No
You do not Ill remember you
he stammered asif he was shot You’ll remember
me?
I will Ill have to
Because you wont
remember me
That’s a terrible thing to say.
Forgetting Halloween today is
terrible
1254, Monday,
31 10. 22
Michael Jackson Thriller
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOnqjkJTMaA
how did that happenwhered it come
from
hed been wondering for weeks
an explanation didnt reveal itselfdint unfurl
his H had changedhe printed in capitals
roundingright at the bottom of the strike turnedup ranback through it hafway roundedright over top then descended paralleling it
cursive print
his A changed a skosh though
nothing as radical as H
he suspects hell ponder it for weeksmonths
to come
he didnt get return letters they called instead
What’s with
your Hs? they asked You okay?
Im
fine Thank you for asking
They're real strange looking. another said It looks like they're held together by spider silk.
I suppose I have no idea
H was the first letter of his
girlfriends name food for thought
A thought he wasnt thinking
missive to self this
questioning prompted itself when he wrote charred trees
it occurred to him it ought to be
a pensee
title
subject two syllables
charred trees
description
in four syllables
etched in charcoal
action seven
disintegrating
ashes
setting
eight
cant see the forest
for the trees
final
thought six
syllables
charred trees
charred trees charred trees (epizeuxis)
chary charry no
charity
if trees had their choice they would rather
Mankinde burned down
0833, Thursday,
8 9. 22
1252, Sunday,
30 10. 22
Nadja Fruiting Bodies https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWBC2qdJRbI
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