he mused You’re my lover/I’m my rival. 

                                               That came out of nowhere

Come now actually it didnt 

Mariachi gang members

                       Awright gang it did not Boy Georgehis image  prompted me to think of herDAMMIT IT  Karren Gotta work on that Shes not she  they  non-binary   Think Im sticking with Karren

                                                                                           Or they

They? he interrupted them they forgot he was in the room given over to their distraction  Culture Club lyric What are you talking aboutyou talking to yourself?

I interrupted myself I do that

                                Yes he nodded to him  They  Karren theyre outside gender binary  He she she he him her her him  Ditchin the masculine feminine forms pronouns

he shook his head like a fighter clearing his mind after taking a punch I don’t know what are you talking about?

Ohcomeon Pleading ignorance lets not be square  We offer it as a matter of respect You prefer your nickname to your given name I respect that  Its no different its the same

Makes me uncomfortablesounds hard . . 

. . Hard 

         How hard is it to say they them rather than he she 

Its their pronounced pronoun preference  Alliteration  all – littered – rations  rations liberally littered anYES ass-onance repeated vowel sounds in multiple words lets not brake consonance  repeated consonant sounds in multiple words

he smiled

You’re having too much fun . .

. . Edumacating you

So you think . I’m square?

I prefer you werent

By acceptin . .

. . Yes 

      Accept  Thas why Im labouring it  Non-binary   Non-square cat

1537,  Monday,  11  4. 22

1103,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

Boy George – Culture Club  Karma Chameleon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmcA9LIIXWw

Tricky  Hero  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TcEsGV9_Gqk

dogs didnt unnerve himhe just didnt care for them 

                                                            I think we ought to cross the street 

she was talking either head down or looking at him she wasnt looking up the street as they walked

he was listening occasionally met her eyes they conversed but he kept his head on a swivel and because he was she didnt need to  he watched out as far as he possibly could there was nothing ought to be short term 

                                                                                                          and for that many thought he was a stick in the mudhustled things to probable outcomes if this then that then if this  that  this if that that then this 

               Can’t you just stay in the moment?                 

Which moment is that The present is already gone

he often frustrated herhe frustrated a lot of peopleChrist he frustrated himself  but thats the way he was wired water off a ducks back he could put it away but only after it pricked him

he interrupted herrepeated himself 

                                     I think we ought to cross the street he pointed up the street  Tha dog

she glanced up to see

she saw a man walking a huge dog 

                                       It’s unlike you to give way let alone go across the street. 

Awbabe yare nearsighted   Trust me on this

You really want . . . 

                   but he had taken her by the elbowlooked up and down the streetno trafficlead her into the grassy parkway off the curb onto the street 

                                        I do

she let herself be lead

                              on the other side of the street she didnt remember what she was talking about

The galleon the galleon you saw in the harbor he said reminding her 

                                                                          he was able to hook and hang conversations in his brainsee through sudden distractions  then return to them

Ohyes, of course, the galleon, I’d forgotten . . crazy how you remember.

Nah had I not interrupted you taken you off your game youdve had it  Also I was listening hence obliged 

                                                                                                               Can you see the dog better now

she looked they were closing 

                                 it was a really huge dog  something was queer

he saw the expression turn in her face confusionconfounded 

                                                                  Let me help you with that  Cerberus 

her head snapped backRECOGNITION

                                        Cerberus.  Isn’t that impossible?

A threeheaded dog 

Mans got him in harness

Keepin him on point

You agree it was wise to giving them a wide berth 

I didnt want to say 

                     Ohmy wha a handsome dog coud I pet him   I woudntve known which nose to offer my palm

0850,  Thursday,  7  4. 22

1244,  Twosday,  30 8. 22

https://www.theoi.com/Ther/KuonKerberos.html 

Burial  Rival Dealer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qiYh2teAbr0 

lyrics  https://www.lyricsfreak.com/b/burial/rival+dealer_21326525.html

SOUTH CAROLINA senator Lindsey Graham  503PM 3May 2016

“If we nominate Trump, we will get destroyed . . . . and we will deserve it.” 

                                                                                   prophesy

he a seer

over the weekend he chimed “America will riot if the Former is indicted   . . . we will get destroyed.”

seems the little man likes the verb

   but hes evolved 

since the Formers administration a wannabe oligarch  now a criminal confederate

Graham deftly reminds him of American evangelical Christians who coddle Israel their eschatology Biblical literalism inducing their support 

                        The State of Israel is proof of the fulfillment of prophesy regarding the nearing of Jesus’ Second Coming the beginning of the Rapture – the end times 

                                  Jews are Gods chosen people

                                                                                   prophesy

     selfishly not one without the other of violence annihilation

1708,  Twosday,  30  8. 22

0918,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

criminal confederate Congress an elsewhere crawlin with them  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PiiFS6qNCXI  

quisling Graham  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xld3YpyJFwI  

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/politics/wp/2018/05/14/half-of-evangelicals-support-israel-because-they-believe-it-is-important-for-fulfilling-end-times-prophecy/ 

dedicated to Graham  Bobby Vinton  Mr. Lonely  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYvBBl1WAvU

he was running latetold him hed visit today

while calling for visiting hours hed check up on him 

the desk answered

she gave him the hours 

May I speak with Room 313 bed 1

One moment, please. 

313. Bed 1.

Yes maam

I’m . . I'm so so terribly sorry . . your friend expired.

    expired

   expired

he didnt think we had expiration dateswhere would that be

written behind himbehind his back

he only used a mirror to shave

hed have to check that out 

Frankie expired

Yes. I’m afraid so sir, I am terribly sorry. 

You said

            May I ask your name please

I’m a new volunteer, my name is Mary.

   Mary your last name please

Sir, I wouldn’t be comfortable sharing it. Perhaps . . Mary S.

Mary S  Yes  Thank you Mary S 

                                       that was sufficient hed share with her supervisor  expired isnt something one wants to hear over the telephone

You’re welcome, sir. 

she beat him hanging up

either she was enthusiastic tending another call  or coolly efficient

Mary he repeated Mary S  Mary Snake  No rattle

1758,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

1131,  Monday,  29  8. 22

he couldnt get enough JoyceJOY to his right among a stack were Ulysses Finnegans Wake  Ulysses one hunred years old this year he was rereading it to celebrate 

                                             but Finnegans was stealthy vied for his time                                                                                                                            had no choicecouldnt help itself 

for that matter he couldnt help himself 

                                         He addle liddle phific Annie ugged the little craythur wither hayre in honds tuck up your part in her. 

                     one cant lookup from reading annot have stars in their eyes 

he fondseed it

                craythur  tuck up your part in her   sopoetic

Joyce was the reason his mind was unmoored that he didnt struggle with wrioters block

if something hadnt scrabbled his brainpanhe had swabbed up all last nights drippings smeared them on a page then all he need do was open Finnegans wide Up against the wall! shove the suspect against a graffiticoloured wall Spreadem! friskem 

        Bompromifazzio! Shumpum for Pa-li-di and oukosouso for the nipper dandy! Trinkoff this scup and be bladdy orafferateed! To bug at?

snarl at em Tell it to the judge! it was above his pay grade a mans got to know his limitation a simple cop ought to know that 

Penetrator are permitted into the museomound. 

                                                    fuckin’ tickledamused him                      

1234AGAIN,  Twosday,  5  4. 22

1055,  Twosday,  30  8. 22

Dirty Harry  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CG2cux_6Rcw

she was having an offday

apparently it was apparent 

                                 Ya look like the dog ate your biscuit

she fixed him with her eyes hard

You undressing mecuz I can help you with tha

Everything's always a joke with you.

Aneverythins a heartbeat from turning to shit for you I don know how you maintain tha

Thingsfor some reason go south for me. I tread lightly as I possibly can trying not to offend a soul and you walk up to the same character and fly in their face  offend them . .

. . If theyre due Yes  Have to have provocation

Your provocation is pretty thinskinned.

It is In regards to that Im impatient I look for provocation but I have a confrontational personality you do not 

                                                                                                                  Youre like a beautiful piece of porcelain tossed in a sack with hardwood bowls waiting to be brokenwhy thawhy did you take on the persona victimhood people cant waitare eager to beat you with it 

                                                                           Youre very sensitive  Everything hurts

she unfixed him

he was always honest with her 

                                  brutally honest 

                                                   today wasnt an exception 

                                                                                but what she realisedknew was that when she was with him no one would cause affrontNot not while she was with him

she was safe with him

if he were to scald her

she forgave him

she knew she frustrated him

and sometimes that got the better of his humour

                                                      You love me. 

he smiledshook his head 

                            Im hopelessly in love with you 

Youre having an offday

I’m having an offday an offweek . . maybe a fucking offmonth. 

                                                                 tears welled in her eyes

Wellbaby you are consistentrarely surprising

                                                 Youll tell me if theres something I can do to help

I don’t want to take advantage of you . .

. . You know Id take advantage of youyah 

                                            he shot her a lascivious wink  he undressed her a bit he could see through her clothing a God granted super power in answer to his prayers  

she laughed in spite of herself

it was music to his ears

                           I also love your laughter  And your nose

2145,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

1419,  Monday,  29  8. 22

Massive Attack  Safe from Harm  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKtTmZnVhhI

Tricky  Hate This Pain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DzSXIhVjfH0

Sit.

Guy thinks Im a dog

I said sit. 

          cop grabbed for a handful of hair at the top his head to force him down he twisted righttossed his head backslipping his hand it ran down his face  cop scratched him with his nails 

Got a story for that cowboy

good thing he was handcuffed 

cop had that going for him

Let up Sparky aint sittin 

                       couldnt help but think that would constituent resisting arrest cops kept pockets full of coercion for those they arrested 

              called it law

get a prosecutor whose authority goes to his headgives him a hard on is trying to make a name theres no telling the phalanx of fantasycharges they might hurl only their imagination limiting the extent 

                                                                                        called it law

this is a nation of laws

if one could afford it

    otherwise

its a police state

freedom can be a very expensive proposition

watch your toesyour Ps an Qs 

he did have one thing going for him

   White

  entitled 

             Nancy ya have to scratch my face JesusChrist 

                                                                if video wasnt recording maybe audio was theyd already taken his mug shots

2142,  Saturday,  27  8. 22

0944,  Monday,  29  8. 22

Burial & Massive Attack (feat. Hope Sandoval)  Four Walls  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuC9oYaiagI

   his joke if you knew him was 

                                     I have all the pussy I can handle thank you

1815,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

1048,  Monday,  29  8. 22

Tom Jones  What’s New Pussycat?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YG1c3Oasifc

he wore it in his face You know what your trouble is, man?

Tell me tell me please   I love it when people tell me wha my trouble is

You need to get out. You need to socialize.

Ive been socialised I was socialised Havent found it to be wha its been cracked up to be 

                                                                                              So you enjoy

Dammit! You have to be so flippant?                                                                                          

Tellin ya  enjoy your time out

                                I think we agreed a while ago tha you do you an Ill do me  Im an introvert I enjoy my time alone  I keep me awfully busy

                                      Fact is you need to socialise  I don  an for some reason that irritates the hell out of you Think you ought to turn the guns on yourself accept that Peter Noone cant shuffle cards so he spreads them out on table tops shoves an stirs them into a lather then forms them fingersem back into a deck again

Goes without saying

Clever.  What goes without saying?

Christ 

       Different strokes for different folks

Oh that, yeah.

But I had to say or that would have flummoxed you

I just don’t understand how you don’t want to mingle, talk, interact. It’s stimulating. It’s good for the soul, metaphorically speaking.

Woudnt have taken it any other way man Yet another earlier agreement 

                                                                             No I don want I cant keep up with the things I want to do let alone introduce someone into the mix who has things they want us to do 

                                                                                            I go when and where I want 

But you don’t go anywhere!

Duh  If I wanted to I woud  If I want to I woud 

So you don’t want to?

       .  .  .     

1449,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

1607,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

Herman’s Hermits  I’m Into Something Good  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDUCOwp1p60

absently throwing a look over his shoulder to the clock asking himself  Wha time is it 

                                                                                              Jeez   Agin

One Two Three Four  12:34 

                             he couldnt begin to count the times he began something morningevening to find that time was one two three four whether revealed digitally – that small world on his cellphoneif he looked -- or by the hands on his many clocks 

                  Daylight Savings Time worked him like a dog when it rolled around he voted for the referendum to end it majority of the state did too yet for some reason the Legislature hasnt brought it to the floor for a vote ought to ought to also dismantle the metastasized Agro-corporations and redistribute farmland to small farmers if they can be found  eliminate megalodon hubs their belligerent inflexible distribution which runs for their benefit arm bars people he was reticent to call them consumers

he sees one two three four mighty frequently he really liked mightee freequaintly tickled him  As easy as do-re-mi shake it shake it baby shake it shake it baby Come on girl! Jackson Fives A B C  an acid flashback 

                                                                                         mightee freequaintly

                 though times easier to see during the daylight than nightlight

Whadaya mean? 

                  the one with the big mouth  always talking loud to stand out 

he tries hard not to be impatient with him theres a lot of competition but only so in the sense that they were so many they dont actually compete  there were just so many  wandering in an out gypsies his border was porous 

I meant nightlight as opposite daylight 

Well thas just darn stupid theres no light at night maybe moonlight ifnit aint overcast  otherwise zip nightlight  exceptexcept  a nightlight lit so ya don trip over a cat in the hallway and break your fool neck or one in a bathroom so ya don have to throw the lightswitch an blast your eyes 

                                                          Better you shoud have said . . .

Nightlight

his face was very plastic it twisted like a wet washcloth wrung out 

                                                                        Yes   Nightlight

  

humourous 

             hand him a toothpick to work the crow out from between his teeth

1306,  Twosday,  5  4. 22 

1435,  Sunday,  28  8. 22 

Jackson Five  A B C  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0Ph9Tc8tUw

he was struggling  and that was saying something

                                                           Its hard to put into words 

I think that’s fair to say about dreams.

Yes  Though usually I have the words

Given the dreams you’ve shared with me I would agree, but hell, I can’t even remember if I dreamed let alone what I dreamed.

Commitment

You always say . . so commitgive me what you got, maybe, again as you also say, relating what you remember will fire . a neuron. 

            stupid grin crawled across his face 

No thats your terminology I don use it

Well be that as it may, that’s what you need to fire.

Ah sciences high priest pray for me while I dig in This aint got nothing to do with a rain of fire

Awright. I’ll listen.

                   slipping back into the plastic brightyellow Adirondack chair he crossed his arms over his chestcrossed his ankles 

          then suddensittingforward he grabbed his Corona and lime by its skinny neck then sat back 

                                                                                                           To keep my mind lubricated.

Quite the dramatics

Hellyah, once you take the floor I’ll not get a word in edgewise.

No because yare listening

haltingly  he nodded 

                      looked something like a Ken doll trying to blow himself an almost there realised he didnt have a cock dirty Mattel gods  but Barbie didnt have nipples or genitalia either

 

                                                                                That’s right, I’m listening, so let’s get this show on the road. Begin. 

                             the House lights dimmed

I entered a bedroom  It wasnt mine

Three women were in bed   

They were naked postured helter skelter  their limbs overlayingentwined

I admired them 

Then a vibration from all around me I mean all around top of my headbottoms of my feet  the women began to fade to disappear  an disappearing they seemed to become gelatinous amorphic 

Then rather they became distortedhomogeneous a vague silvering  occasional punctuatedsudden white pinpoints

aquiver   

I thought to I tried not to blink prolonged my stare in hopes that perhaps my tears would scrub the distortion help me see   

They slippedslithered around the bed rose midair then ascended like smoke an roiledspread over the ceiling 

Washing down the walls they surrounded me engulfed me like jellyfish he cleared his throat    Medusozoan

I had no defenses

                   An beyond me I realised that men had no defenses  Ive never felt so helpless in my life

So you woke up, because you can, you escaped, by your lucid dreaming.

  No I didnt 

              I believe I was ingested or felt  what must be the sensation of disintegrating  Darkness enveloped me

Fade Out 

          Then I was in another dream but my dreaming-me was fraughtinvested in the earlier one  Whaever presented then was pixelated  asif viewing a painting too close up  a slurry   visual white noise 

                                                                                              We were obsessedpuzzled by the prior dream

Eventually my cat leftie leapt into bed an woke me 

JesusChrist, better pinch me . . feels like I’m dreaming. 

1432,  Thursday,  25  8. 22

1229,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

Burial  Fostercare  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vTs7KXqZRmA

she cut him to the quick

he thought Bitch

she smiled asif she could hear him the points of her canine showed 

                                                                     he was just another malenot even a man in a long long line of males who detested her 

she was a wrestler in high schoolreceived an athletic scholarship for college

two-time state champion

two-time All-American 

freshman year college a girlfriend asked her what was the best thing about wrestling

Watching the boys cry after I beat them. 

when he was introduced to her he liked her right off

she liked Modelo Negra anchovies on her pizza she occasional smoked a cigar with him while they bullshit philosophised and joked  

she was nearly exceptional at everything she tackled

 

he was passing through town and telephoned to see if she might be free for coffee her time was valuablemore valuable than his 

So you cut him to the quick

she nodded I did. His eyeballs bugged.

Whad he say that provoked you

He said, I was wondering.

  No

       Anya said

Don’t. It’s above your pay grade.

1820,  Saturday,  27  8. 22

1043,  Sunday,  28  3. 22

hats off to Killing Eve for the dialogue