7.6.22


ever pith a frog

to be fair an amphibians facial expressions are pretty unexpressive to begin with  eyes bulge as needle penetrates they really bulged when he wasnt as practised but latter frogs benefitted as he was a terribly quick learner maybe those may have expressed a longdelayed tear but by all facialreading their expressions were utterly flaccid 
                                                                                                              why the intro
because when Moby didnt follow him

his face fell into a flaccidamphibious mask
                                                he looked   vacant      dumb 
his throat swelleddistended

hed croak What do you mean?I’m not following you.

Whas not to follow

Your clarified butter analogy . or metaphor . simile . . whatever.

Whadonya follow
                   People are either nuanced or simple thas your assessmentcorrect  People are the pound of butter   Okay

Okay.

Yasee the pound of butter
                             Or a stick or tenpound cake    See butter

I see the butter.

Fine  An people humanity every human being on the planet is represented by the butterokay

Every human bein . .
. . All of us
             Were that gob or cake or stick

   Okay.

We place it in a receptacle an the receptacle in a hot water bath to melt the butterseparate it separate the butterfat clarified butter from the residual milk solids an water the milkycloudy residue 
                                                                                       Can yasee that

Yes. I’m following you . .
. . Good boy he almost reached out an patted him on the head like a dog 
                                                                               Now  Were still aligned seeing the same thing

Yes.

So the butterthe people have been separated 
                                                Fewer people makeup the clarified butter more people makeup the residue Now heres the leaptake my hand figuratively people who see situations problems solutions as nuanced are the clarified butter those who prefer things simple or simplified unnuanced are not clarified butterare residual milk solids and water 
         But were all butter

Moby sparked  then began looking amphibious again

before he lost himhad to endure explaining again because he would 
                                                                          LISTEN TO ME

If you were to get a blowjob would you prefer a clarified a nuanced blowjob or a tendollar money-up-front NEXT! blowjob


Aaah . . . I gotcha . I follow . .
. . Fantastic
              Its not afterall that hard to follow  was it

No, no notonce you honed it into sexual terms.

See Men do think with their dicks

1430,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22
1638,  Twosday,  7  6. 22


they haggledsplit hairs
                        the steam that powered their locomotive trains of thought  turned their wheels

Com’on, you must agree things are nuanced, not simple, shades of gray, not black and white . .
. . The blackest white whitest blackyes
                                          However one must have the intellecthad the education curiosity which allows them to be nuanced

Of course peo . .
. . Aw hold your horses
                        We mayyou trouble me I know I do  but no matter we had good educations and parents behind us  

Ill say it again fiftyfour percenters  fiftyfour percent of American adults sixteen to seventyfour cant read at a sixth grade level Now whether that statistic is due to socialsocietal circumstances family situationsno one riding them or their disinterest I cant say  Fiftfour percent is dismal Likely they are simple  prefer things black an white have limited choices or are lazy lack the skillsetscomprehension to be nuanced

The whole of people are like a pound of butter heated in water bath clarified butter butterfat separates  is on top nuanced  The remainingthe milk solids an water are simple
                                                                Would you rather be nuanced or simple  
Nuanced.

I agree However you must appreciate that you are I am that we relish this luxury the timeentitlement to debate issues
debase issues
                Many do not An I believe of that many a big portion were denied They didnt have the choices we did Yasee it wasnt their choice who they were born where they were raised
                                                                            They are part an parcel of that economy you return to so often It isnt much of an economy if one is living hand to mouth

1430,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22
120preferred,  Twosday,  7  6. 22

6.6.22

 
 S E C woke him gently
                         floated across the widescreen his dreams buzzedflickered on had he been coming out of sleep
hypnopompic itd have played on the backs of his eyelids
                                                               this wasnt that

he consideredknew his thinking as the letters appeared one at a time
                                                                           S  E  C  O  N  D  S 
the seconds in a minute
minutes in an hour 
hours in a day 
days in a week
weeks in a year 

  the YEARS
             he witnessed     Seeing  Every  Cause
causes and effects that bitched himbroke his heart
                                                    made him muse  smile laugh weep that visitedreplayed  tipped off by his terribly long memory  memorials   anniversaries


he laid still  wideawake 

he heard leftie run up the hall to the bedroom threshold  but stop
                                                                      she was fucking with him
Comhere leftie

she leapt up onto the foot of the bed effortlessly  
                                                 feline agility  forever breathtaking
Hey sweet girl

she rushed him squatted on his chest on all fours their beating hearts inches apart

he nuzzledscratched her earsback of her neck with his thumbs fingers
she purred gloriously

Good morning leftie D-Day today  Nineteenfortyfour  
                                                       I lost two uncles uncles Ben an Ray Ive seen photos of them I wasnt born but familys told me all about them   I remember 
                                                                I like that you remember too
their routine

AMish,  Monday,  6  6. 22
1531, Monday
White Stripes  Effect and Cause  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STSkGSTMr9Y
Cant blame the baby for her pregnant Mom


  it one thing  when he caught things out the corners of his eyes 
                                                                    curious distractingintriguing  zip paranoia
but a whole other thing  when the corners of his eyes watched him 
I aint blind 
We aint inspired.

he threw a twist on DeNiros taxi driver Ya lookin at me You ya lookin at me 
                                                                               YA LOOKIN AT ME 
corners arent deaf   they dont say

hes angsty
           slippinggreasily towards blackblinding anger   whos running the show 
                                                                                         competition?
Fraid of a little competition chimes an interior heathen Yasay yare not not when ya can bunch a fist go to the mat  have skin in the game 

Im not afraid 
             Disconcerted you can appreciate that   Queer 

Big Brother tucked inside 
Christyah
          Bad enough walkinground surveilled State Commercial then fodder for every smartphone-toting dog whos got fingers crossed theyll catch something make film next best thing  go viral 
                                                                              Virality  canya imagine Verging on exceeding virility  be they man woman child other 
                                                      New vocabularies burgeoning  new tongues founded

Whacha lookin at

      You.

Why

We figured wed break out, shake the tandem thing we've been taxed since you were born
                                                                                             You have to realise you’re wearing us out. Few others pay attention to the corners of their eyes like you. 
                                                                                   You’re exhausting.

AMish,  Sunday,  5  6. 22
1232,  Monday – D-Day,  6  6. 22

5.6.22


an oddball collectionhed say so if asked
                                           but wisely no one did  gave him a wide berth
those who remained gathered in the livingroom fourteenfifteen  most were couple  he and two gals were stag
everyone was an appreciative guests he crossed his fingers

it was a enormous livingroom
                               a tapestry hung over the fireplace above a massive mantel objet d’art on the handhewn redwood which was retrieved from a river in northern California where it sank over a hunred years ago 
                                                                                                             he stood there most the evening fingering it crazy to feelup history old growth  more than a thousand years old 
                                                                                                        it humbled him
Jim his host  You've been standing here most of the evening.

  Yes   I don like being setup 
                               You know tha

Not my idea, Charlene’s, she thinks it’s an awful shame you’re not datingnot with anyone, she’d fuck you if you came onto her . .
. . ChristJim

Between you me the mantel, old money, family’s oldfashioned obsessions . . 
. . Which you love about her . .
. . Until I don’t.

 Thats frank

You’re frank . . saying how it is.
                                   Sometimes I'm jealous of you.
Don be
         Cost a heartbreak he looked in Jims face under his lacquered jetblack hair  But yare not likely to ever suffer a heartbreak

No I’m not.  It’s an economy you’ll never admit or understand.

Right on brother  right on

 

they were served brandy elegant cut leadcrystal glasses 
                                                            he loved the honeycolour ambersplashes coming out of them from quiveringlights out the fireplacethe huge candledcandelabra overheadthe hurricane vase candles on the massive oval coffee table end tables before and beside upholstered couches chairs
                                                                              the room felt medieval
or maybe it was the percolating esoteric conversation  heady

he kept his lip buttoned except to sip a fourteenyear Oban whisky brandy didnt appeal to him Jim didnt take exception Charlene did it was her party 
                                           whatever she wanted her friends enabled
he wasnt her friend  Jims
 

Awfuck
         if he hadnt pour himself a fresh tumbler he would have left  cant abandon Oban

Charlene prompted a conversation about souls soulmates  she passivelyaggressively stuck it to him for not submitting

they made eyecontact

he saw the points of her canines through her smile

she was carnivorous

hed be lying if he didnt believe she gave great head

he nodded to her smile held up his glass  a silent toast fuck you between them 
                                                                                     who needs words

the lobbed soul soulmates went around the room like a chubby soft balloon an atmospheric jellyfish

Joe said Charlene   Your thoughtsa penny for your thoughts.

Pennys not enough
                     This isnt a game I can playparticipate in

Pray tell.

  That either
              I cant play I havent a soul

funny how words can sound loudecho resoundingly

he slapped the mantels end

sounded like a gunshot

the room startled

  fuckin children


     NOPE  GOT NO SOUL 
                            Somebody sporting one ought carry on

he took another sip of Oban
                            Damn
                                       refreshing  like sipping from a baptismal font after an innocent was dipped

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22
1548,  Sunday,  5  6. 22
Jimmy Page Robert Plant  The Rain Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BeDylD8dV7U


he tamped the weedbud  there was a seedmaybe two lockedup  he didnt mind fireworks he firedup the wood pipe  of recentfuck recent  if he thought about it he was a remnant no one else fired up a bowl unless they were hitting a bong  he liked to puffplay with the exhale he liked the straight perfumemusk of smouldering grass

                                                                                                     Aaah  pleasantly higBAM a firework shower of ash tinyembers slivers extinguishing midair before his eyes
pleasantly high
                  he put the pipe down
   

Moby alias Goofy preferred chewing an edible 

he didnt mind nibbling though preferred smoking  nauif he could see himself buying into THClaced Bazooka Joe bubblegum getting stoned blowing enormous bubbles into which hed insert words
                                                                                    like the Funnies have to imprison words  cant have them floatingaround in the atmosphere corrupting corruptible minds 
                                                                                           talking to himself Whas a corruptible mind Is it the mindcorrupted or the mind tha can corrupt huddlingup with his internals heathens Whaya say gang Im the latteryah
               they smirked  The ladder?   he smirked  Staircase   they doubleddown  To Heaven?   Think Ill piss off Zeppelin   Nah. The ladder.   I agree
                                         it was good getting that off his chesttheir collective breasts 
                                                                                                   Now he’s gone an done it. Had to segue to sex.   Is thawha it is   Ya know damn well it’s exactly wha it is.   Awright consider us seguing   Ifya don mind we’ll watch an listen from the wings, want the full effect the wideangle on your conversationinterrogation with Goofy.   Great aliashuh   You think so, you made the assignment, didn’t call counsel.   I don call counsels   No ya don, we bear witness, capitulate.   Stopstop I hear your barks an plenty of times Ive employed them  still not counsel is it   Suppose not.   Know not  know knot  now knot  now not   Having fun?   When do I don

 

Moby Really  NBA players    Hate comin back to it but you truly gauged your agingadulthood by recognising you were older than basketball players Unlike me who realised playmates were younger than me

Yes.  I’ve told you.

Im stillas you can tell still struggling with the concept  Frankly itsa standalone

Stand alone? You think other guys didn’t use the NBA as a metric?
No

No.
     That’s mighty abrupt friend.

Keep it down woudya I prefer no one overhears you calling me friend while tethered to the youth of NBA players

Nothing to be ashamed of . .
. . Yanuts compared to playmates  Yare nuts 
                                                  Thinking it over I also realised why I was shocked looking at Playboy the playmates were older than me forChrist tentwelve years then laterthe next time I looked I was older than them

despite being stoned Moby was hanging with him
                                                     What did you realise? 

I realised the glut I was in the midst of a primal sexual glut A gluts better than being on a roll to drop a bowling term knocking down pins  Glut is up to your eyeballs in it   Immersion Fluid

he saw Moby letting go
                          Ya following me Goofy hissed his heathens in the wings

  I am not.

Pretty fucking apparent man

Apparent?

Yes As beauty is skin deep your comprehension is like an oilsheen either its there or it isnt   I cant see it

No?  I do not understand . . glut.

How to say not that I havent already Listen to mejust  listen to me 
                                                                       From the times between playmates being older than me to me being older than them was an in-between  a glut haze years of continuous sex  I didnt come up to breathe  Then one day I took a breath on the other side an I was older 
                                                                   Follow

  Moby hesitated   I think following the NBA is easier.

Nothing to brag about man  nothing at all

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22
1040,  Sunday,  5  6. 22
Laura Branigan  Gloria (alias)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNEb2k_EmMg


Coarse he barked 
                    he was inside his headpulling through shit while his buddy went inside to snag some more beers
he hadnt seen him return to the yard eyes were closed cant rummage in his head with his eyes widesprung 
                                                                                                                          Coarse?
he peeked 
            Thaswha I said Yare quicker than I thoughthit the head too

I did I did . . we’re stoned, possibly on different time zones.

  I like that thought 
                        Not like you to be novel

Awcomon gimme a break . everyone has a moment . . however my momentsI’d say few  can keep up with yours . not no wayno how.

he laughed 
            Might be onto something there seems my moments are stored on reels

Your monkeys . your obscure little personalities load them?

I coudnt say
              Possible

So coarse . . you yelled . what’s coarse if I understood you correctly?

You did Im coarse . .
. . Usually.

Im coarse in a different way

A different waycan’t argue that.

Thank you  Youd lose

Not so much me losing than you winning . . your outlines are dense, well-formed, before you arguebefore you bring them up . . you can imagine I’m anxious to hear.

 Yah 
       I was rummaging   Fuck buddy  came off his tongue asif it tasted like shit 

Fuck buddy?

Thas coarseyah

nearly incredulous Fuck buddy’s coarse to you?

Is  Compare it to friends with benefits Subtler though still a tad coarse   Whawe call it when we were younger

 What did we call it? 
                         Man . . don’t think it had a name . .
. . Yah  why name it


No . . . I can’t think of anything.

Nah only thing thacomes to mind  Were together

Ah good yes, I think you’re onto something.

 Yah 
         So imagineas teens we were together together with our girlfriends  then the erosion friends with benefits fuck buddies 
          Am I wrong or that erosion  coarse

Times change.

Dat dey do dat dey do
                         Though Id rather be with someone than call them a fuck buddy  Ever have one
A fuck budd . .
. . By todays coarse common nomenclature  terminology

No . . can’t say I did . . . perhaps one, you?

Ohyes yes
            A glut . .
. . Ya kidding me?

No Gluttonous   Ravenous 
                             Chalkup a cardinal sin to my column clutch of concubines confab  fabulous   Those were the days

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22
1415,  Sunday,  5  6. 22
Turtles  Happy Together  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mRCe5L1imxg 
Mary Hopkins  Those Were the Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1SIexPh3ic


   his cellphone rang 
                          Who’s Arroyo Grande?
Arroyo Arapaho  Rap a ho 
                              Don answer it

I know quite a few people in Arroyo Grande. asif mesmerised 
                                                                 goddamn cellphones Pandora boxes flimsy temptations  hot curiosity

Yaknow better If the number aint in your phone ya don know emdon answer it

I’m answering it . .

catnip 
traffic accidents
cant look away
                   could
but would rather not
might miss out 

who doesnt enjoy anothers misfortune their agony thats why we cant help but laugh  laugh because eventually well be at the bottom of the heap 
                            so we laugh while we can our turn soon enough even a piker would bet big on that 
he wasnt he wouldnt

 

I’m answering it . .

Answer it Im not your conscience  Itll be horseshit but thas on you

You miss ever three-point basket you don’t take.

Answering a phone no number Arroyo Grande designation  lousy sports analogy bub 

he answered it

bot blathered called him by his name 
                                            Here Fidohere Fido  here Fido
he hung up

So whos Arroyo Grande

I don’t know.

Yadonsay

They didn’t say.

Yadonsay his eyes flicked Yadonsay he rolled his eyes   Yadonsay he bugged his eyes 
                                                                                                      Who was it  They didnt say
An old bit
              Christ yare such an ass

It might have been important.

Absolutely  It wasnt   Yet ya still coudnt resisthad to answer 
                                                                   Fetch  fetch Fido fetch the ball 
Im rolling it into traffic
Canya resist it now 
Or aintya seen enough smashed squirrels
 

    NOTHING

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22
2102,  Saturday,  4  6. 22

4.6.22


they were hiking 
                  That’s about the size of an American robin . . called a Blackheaded Grosbeak.

Thaswha it was

Yes.

A really handsome bird  again its name

Blackheaded grosbeak. there was excitement in his voice

A blackheaded grosbeak

Yes.

A blackheaded grosbeak
                            Your cock move when yasee it an say its name
You saw it. really excited

I did did indeed a handsome bird  but I aint a boider
                                                           Cantya just admit it  saying Marilyn Monroe Inger Stevens Gina Lollobrigida Sophia Loren Jill Saint John  a silent Bo Derek shut my mouth   Im mooved
Suppose Im a boider in another sense

That’s you . .
. . Your cock moved Tha so hard to admit he winked

I’m not like you.

  No
       Im honest
Honest?

Yaheard me
             Ya cant admit to arousal whaelse wont ya admit to  Fuck aint like were in mixed company Though thasaid Id admit to mooving in mixed company poor bastards just threw in with the wrong company 
                                                                                                Or not  Betcha chicks eyebrows rise anwho knows maybe a kind heartkind soul will help a fella out 
                                                                                   he wiggled his eyebrows 
You’re ridiculous.

If it gets a headnod a dick shaken or stirred  no harmin being ridick culous curled in fingers a nest of phalanges if you will

Jesus man.

No harm no foul he smiled really big   Fowl

fucking guy was humourless when his Johnson was in question

A boid or cock in hand might be worth a cock in a bush 
                                                         Just saying  he would always say

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22
1647,  Saturday,  4  6. 22