they came up on an busy intersection

hed never been in this part of Los Angeles

everything was new

he was like a kid

fascinated

observing

had questions

didnt believe there were stupid questions 

                                             Erringer Avenue  he asked his soninlaw

That’s what the sign says, Dad.

If we went left west or right east where would it take us

I’ve no idea, Dad, though nice you have your bearings.

Rare Ill credit sushi we had for dinner

Fish, brain food?

Protein Yabetcha

Erringer, why do you ask?

Im curious

             Also  yathink anyone would take it if it were named Erring Avenue I wouldnt  I prefer making my own mistakes couldnt imagine taking a road that would take me to an Err

   crickets 

       Nada

Goes without saying, Dad.

Ah there is that

from the backseat his granddaughter asked What’s granpaw talking about?

Nothing, honey, he’s not talking about anything.

He talks a lot about nothing.

It’s his gift, baby.

My gift baby is making wheels turn that wouldnt if I didnt ask or say

Daddy didn’t turn.

No he wouldnt purposefully make an error 

                                             Though theres nothing wrong getting lost  People should get lost more often love

You’re silly granpaw.

Make ya laugh

You do.

Then Im doin my job right Youll remember the crazy fun we had when yare older  

1700,  Saturday,  7  5. 22 

1233,  ReggaeFriday the 13th,  May 2022 

https://www.forbes.com/sites/stevensalzberg/2016/02/08/new-study-shows-that-fish-really-is-brain-food/?sh=2e2dfd895ee9

   the thing Is

to be or not to be 

Is that really a thing babe

he could hear her roll eyes over the telephone her voice however wasnt patronising

                                                                                        Yes Papa, things you think aren’t things often are . . really.

Not yanking my chain

I wouldn’t. 

            she didnt he could take her word to the bankafter after he confirmed it he was a born sceptic felt social media homophily was tearing things apart the love of the same friends share with friends and they take them at their wordBAM gospel  how shit was dispensed thoughtlessly 

                                                             he preferred individuality due diligence  he made sure he could cite sources it was exhausting  but nobody could finger him for passing along something that wasnt true

  

So coloured ribbons hang from the ceiling Cirque du Soleil stuff

Cirque du Soleil, exactly.

For women to workout on  apparatus

Yes, it’s called aerial yoga.

Kinda like poles some strippers use in their performancetruth be known never did see a stripper pole-dance

YeahPapa . truth be known . . I didn’t need to know that.

Ive always told ya all men are pigs To varying degrees   Im no different

Yes you have always said, since I was a little girl.

Its been important to me you know who I am who I am as a man beyond being your father particularly since our relationship will be adult longer than the time you were a child

Yes, as you’ve said since I was a girl.

Nice you listened to me

she laughed gayly 

it was infectious

he laughed too despite not knowing what he was laughing about

  her laughter simmered 

                           Yes, I listen to you . . however, truth be known, whenever we talk I dominate our conversation; least I can do eh?

his turnhis laughter erupted now that he knew what he was laughing at

  subsiding 

             Yeswhell you have the knack for gab

I do.

     I really do.

2102,  Monday,  9  5. 22

1111,  ReggaeFriday – Friday the 13th,  May 2022

Rachelle Ferrell  Individuality  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPtC5u1fpEw

MASTURBATE 

                           Makeya uncomfortable  Shouldnt

You can’t tell people shouldn’t. Moby flushed

Embarrasses you

No. flushes brighter his cheeks like an alcoholics

Your puss sez otherwise shit or get off the pot ya hang your hat on being honest lie to me baldface Whas your hangup

No hang up. 

Hung up

         Definitely  We aint among polite companydon pander to polite

Several people noticed when you said, they looked right at us.

Wouldnt notice

                Aint hungup on wha other people might think  If I wanted to know Id ask them to their face  Interlopers overhearers 

You said it quite loud.

I did yawere drifting on me Better than slap in the kisser Ya know how frequent ya drift

You confuse me.

Ya can interruptask for clarification Aint hard Ill remember where ya stopped me 

                                                                                      I can do that

Like I can’t.

Not without a struggle 

                        Its painful to watch Moby

I wish you wouldn’t call me that

When ya dig out from under Ill stop 

                                      In the meantime it sticks like an unstrung spool of flypaper capeesh

Moby twisted like a fly stuck on flypaper  he was reticent to say

Capeesh

Yeah. I follow.

So be a good boy then an suck it up Ya don follow wha Im sayin say so none of this horseshit deer in the headlights act

I see it Ill call ya out  Imagine if I said CUNT

OhJesu . . 

. . Ya think masturbate unsettles people  cunt makes them loses their minds  polite peoplean suddenly everyones polite are offended  cunt spoils their ears  stabbed with a hot spike

But you understand you’re being impolite?

Im not talkin to them They eavesdrop at their own peril I don listen to them

It’s human nature . . but you’re not human.

No  not party to their Homo band of brothers an sisters

 

that conversation didnt happened

it might havecould have

it wasnt beyond him

he was provoked by masturbate

                                  writing it in a letter to his father he sat back  noted the -sturb- in the word  his mind loved his mind they were separate entities uttered disturbed 

                                                             made sense some people were disturbed by ma-sturb-ation

0931,  Thursday,  12  5. 22

Beatles  Come Together  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oolpPmuK2I8

   he didntdoodle   doodle

pen in hand pencil any lines he committed to paper became words 

                                                                      not hapless circles squiggles cartoonish creatures scenery seascapes sunsets

he might wonder why he couldnt relax  let go 

                                                but he didnt 

he knew

         he couldnt recreate what he saw in his head so he didnt doodle rather he used words 

                                                                                                     painted with words 

even now aware of doodling he didntcouldnt bring himself to try

WORDS 

         words occurred to him to make up to irritate to describe 

pages filled with print 

                       leave doodling to those artistically inclined

 

Granpaw, did you want to draw with me?

No thank you honey

Do you want to color with me?

No thank you

Why?

Yawanna go outside play catch take a walk

No.

Why

I don’t want to.

So then you see

they built a puzzle

they could do that together

0754,  Saturday,  7  5. 22

1232,  Thursday,  12  5. 22

peaceful coloured chalk protests

protests scribbled in coloured chalk aint vandalism Senator Collins

she knows that

but maybe someone told her it was she believed them then called the cops

he thought she was gullible

if he could hed tell her to her face

breathlessly shed deny it

0949,  Thursday, 12  5. 22

0303preferred,  Thursday

https://www.msn.com/en-us/money/other/protestors-double-down-on-leaving-maine-senator-collins-chalk-drawings/ar-AAXacfJ?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz 

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/07/01/us/politics/susan-collins-supreme-court-nominee-abortion.html 

https://www.latimes.com/politics/la-na-pol-collins-kavanaugh-roe-20180821-story.html

https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2018/07/susan-collinss-quixotic-defense-of-roe/564593/ 

Tommy James and the Shondells  Crystal Blue Persuasion  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQgunytVmIU

redemption

 revenge 

             was there an equation between them  a Venn diagram 

 he puzzled

had to dig in

redeem aint fucking couponsaint talkin capons  castratedneutered cockerels fattenedup for flesh

        regain or gain possession of something in exchange for payment clear a debt debt  sounded in kind like revenge

revenge ravenge rawvenge 

                           inflict hurtharm on someone for an injury or wrong suffered at their hands

clear a debt

             hurtharm someone for an injury a wrong  a debt incurred

not an = proposition 

                      but in the ballpark  an inside the park homerun was rare

Venning it a large crystallinered sphere of revenge

                                                     redemption far smaller less inflamed  a subset floating inside revenge  embryo feeding off its yolk inside an egg 

                                                    a chip off the old block 

glint in the milkmans eye

Milkman. Yawannashaddup?

Shaddup

Yare dating yourself.

Aint dating fucknah  Being honest called masturbating roll the b masturdating   Shesh

1753,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

1944,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  5. 22

When You Were a Smile on Your Mother’s Lips  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHQi1TFRnJU

Did you dream he asked his granddaughter

she was colouring at the breakfast table 

                                           I did.  Did you?

Yes I actually dreamed of your mother it was wonderful I suspect thats because Im here with you and very close to her ashes

she noddeddidnt lookup from her colouring book

What did you dream baby

I dreamed of a very tall man. He bent down. He was ugly.

How ugly was he

Uuughly.

Maybe thats why he was very tall

Oh yes, maybe why Granpaw.

0739,  Saturday,  7  5. 22

1254,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  5. 22

the latest catchphrase in case you havent heard in case you werent privy  the latest racist craze  legacy Americans

Thats right folks you heard right 

                                Isdey white? Right on right on holyrollerevangelicals possibly born-again evangelical Catholics they sport dashboard crucifiedChrists Trump bumperstickers right above the exhaust pipe  donya think  anya can bet yer sweet ass patriots wrappedup in the flag red white an blue like a burrito 

                                                                                       he didnt have to imagine

he could see it

  proud title legacy American 

                                 first deadly sin according to St. Thomas Aquinas pride one for one   greed two for two

lust likely  three for three   envy  definitely four for four   gluttony not a lot of slim waistlines  call it five for five   wrath OhYES  six for six   sloth  couldnt say  six for seven   damn near perfectTHEYRE DAMN NEAR PERFECT   

   though

              he had to muse that somewhere in their bloodlineancestry the real ones had family that owned slaves slept with slaves possibly were biracial ssshh  could be a dirty secret

         he was musing

however

musing is thinking is pondering  is wondering

                                                  an the grease in his oilpan wasnt keen legacy didnt fly  rather he thought relic 

              an he might not have thought relic had he not firstconceived derelicts yasee that  see relic inside the word relic Americans  Americana mythic Americana full-of-shit Americana artifacts of a dead time 

                                                                                                           relic Americans wasnt so far afield  neither was artifact Americans

evening,  Monday,  9  5. 22

2337,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

https://thehill.com/opinion/civil-rights/580980-legacy-american-is-the-latest-catchphrase-in-the-racist-lexicon/

Tucker Carlson  https://www.thedailybeast.com/tucker-carlson-pushes-racist-great-replacement-theory-yet-again-adl-renews-call-for-fox-to-fire-him 

The Great Replacement also on Carlson  a racist one-man rodeo show  https://www.adl.org/resources/backgrounders/the-great-replacement-an-explainer 

mulatto  https://www.ferris.edu/HTMLS/news/jimcrow/mulatto/homepage.htm

     as the world suffers the twin cataclysms of greedy twins Trump virus 1,025,104 American dead Putins war tens of thousands of deaths  toss atop the two like gas on a pyre an add’l 100,306 American dead from drug overdoses 

          setting all sorts of horrid records

1059,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  5. 22

https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/pressroom/nchs_press_releases/2021/20211117.htm

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/ 

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/trump-officials-and-meat-firms-blocked-life-saving-covid-controls-investigation-finds/ar-AAXcffA?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz

Dan Fogelberg & Tim Weisberg  Twin Sons of Different Mothers  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bx5yiX1ZZzk

as he walkedup to wait in line at the bank a gentleman who was seated at a slender table to his right stood apparently he finished putting his paperwork in order

he stepped back to create space Please you were here first help yourself

he noddedobliged Thank you, sir.

Youre welcome

two yakkity elderly gentleman occupied the two available tellers these days customers canewait there were four vacant stations 

the gentlemen reminded him immediately of his brotherinlaw whod talk with anyone willing to engage him anywhere  he often interrupting their conversation to speak with them whomever  friend or stranger

                                                                                               it fell to him to pickupbe the placeholder regarding their conversation because when the spark illuminatedcaptured him for in that light or returned from it he didntwouldnt remember what they had been talking about

Where were we?

Where were we

Do you have to be an echo?       

Cant ya remember

Why should I remember?

he was right he had enabled him so often he was beyond caring or embarrassment he called him Shit-for-brains but he quit taking offense

That make you feel better?

it went without saying he didnt acknowledge his question he backpedaled several exchanges prior to his brotherinlaw gallivanted off to return him to speed 

                                       Oh yeah yeah, I remember I recal . .

. . Yadon I do  Credit where credit is due

 

standing in linenot waiting he always had a book with him startedup with Satori he had several slipped like a lick across her clit occurred to him

                                why then 

                                           had no idea  

                                                          it just presented itself 

he didnt know who her was but had always been intrigued with clits pussy womens nethers

slipped like a lick across her clit

hed have to give it some thought

NEXT, PLEASE.

                     a teller hailed him

hed remember had lotsa practise

                                    however it was a rare moment when a clit would have to wait typically he was Johnny-on-the-G-spothappy to oblige

How may I help you? she asked

Yadon wanna know he said under his breath               

1543,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

1911,  Twosday

discipline

Awhbrother . .

. . What?

  Wha   Ya drive me nuts Im really going to do it . . really

Really do what?

For Christmas

For Christmas?  What?

Ive told you  anif ya don remember thats on you Im not saying again

This some kind of tease?

Yacan ask until yare blue in the faceno hints  Come Christmas youll see

he tried the bite the lower lip bit pouted 

                                          however it looked as obscene on his unshaven face as it looked whollyenticing on a goodlooking womans puss  talkbout two sides of a coin

Go to hell

that rocked him

                 That’s a little abrup . .

. . Thas alot abrupt

                     Christmas buddyboy

Sometimes you can be a son-of-a-bitch.

Scarcely when compared to you

Are you in a bad mood?

  No 

     Not a bad mood  just stymied  youd forget your head somewhere if it werent attached

I’m not . .

. . Yare that bad If your life depended on your memory or recall youd be dead

I’m . .

. . Yare

         I gotta head out  Coffee Friday

What’s today?

Aint saying

 

his buddy wellintended thoughtful  ofttimes beat himself rather than beat the person who deserved itneverever wanted to hurt anyones feelings which was diametrically opposed to him he called it accountability no onenot family friends were pardonedgot off unscathed 

                                 SO for Christmas he was going to buy him a discipline let that swing in the breeze a moment   sounds intriguingright not wha one might think  a discipline is a small scourge more breeze for flagging sails  a scourge is a whip an instrument isnt that niceinstrument an instrument of penance for Christian demoninations not a misspelling slicksleight of letters the spiritual discipline known as mortification of the fleshChrist 

                                                                                                     it was either that a knotted cattail whip or a cilice belt a spiked garter a beltlike device for repentance atonement but he was all-but-assured his buddy couldnt get the nylon seam straightup the back of his legs fuck garter belts 

                                                                                                  NO he was not being ridiculous   everyone ought to have a whip

1806,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1159,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

En Vogue  Free Your Mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhaS4jvnUvo

1,024,752

time to check in

               grim but he felt he ought to felt it was deadly necessary to keep track to tally the crime 

                                                                                                              if 1,024,752 American dead from Trump virus his insouciance his “It’s going to disappear. One day – it’s like a miracle – it will disappear.” as 1,024,752 human beings have  isnt a crime 

                                                               what is

  

1722,  Monday,  9  5. 22

1022,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

https://www.cnn.com/interactive/2020/10/politics/covid-disappearing-trump-comment-tracker/

hopefully the former will remain the worst American president ever

  he wokeup with this bangingslogging around inside his head 

                                                                  MAGA   MAGA whawas it maggot   Awwhawas it

AHyes flock fuck of unerring MAGApies magpies chanting the erroneous lies of their Dear mindless Leader it was like Whac-a-Mole them ducking back into slimy wormholes unlike scifi holes having emerged from wells caverns gross subterranean bowels in the earth as found in Lovecrafts writing Cthulhu sister Kassogtha then Ghast Mi-go Shoggoth Dagon Azathoth not to be confused with Azazel the Jewish Scapegoat Night-gaunts Y’Golonac Yog-Sothoth or shapeshifting crawling chaos Nyarlathotep gawdblessya slithery  it was these names  physicalities he imagined that averted him from reading terror and horror 

                                 not his cup of tea 

                                                     anyet his misfortune to be awakened by

he had to admit the crosssection he saw of their shallow underground hemisphere was quite cool very steampunkish hellish  ample turning cogs gears worm gears to toss ironwrenches into to bring their foul machinery to a halt the atmosphere spoiling growing foetid

                                    an him aboveground with a ball peen hammer in either hand to WHAC what came up their mouths wideopen gulping blue air smashing faces shattering teeth

0730ish,  Monday,  9  5. 22

1119,  Monday

https://bookstr.com/list/top-ten-h-p-lovecraft-monsters-who-arent-cthulhu/

Walter Lippmann  The Stakes of Diplomacy  “When all think alike, no one thinks every much.”

poorpoor Supreme Court justices who have decided to overthrow Roe v. Wade

it occurred to him during a White House press briefing the whining of the Press the dire insipid whining of FOX  their the fake moral indignityfew more indignant than Peter Deucey “These activists posted a map and the home addresses of Supreme Court justices, is that the kind of thing the president wants?” 

hmm

      didnt remember outcry outrage grievance when antiabortion activists posted the home addresses of gynecologists lawfully practising abortion their pictures posted  identity of family members license plates vehicles they drove then asked when they were murdered please X-out their picture at the site

                                                                           how convenient not to remember that

405preferred to 1605,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1625,  Monday,  9  5. 22

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2001/mar/30/internetnews.usnews

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bRr7HUtf9cs 

 

he liked simple equations 

                             1 + 1 = 2 

if the Court overturns Roe it sanctions rape and incest 

                                                       the Court overturns a womans precious right to control her person body and health 

                seemed simple enough  seemed distilled to its primacy

1933,  Monday,  9  5. 22

Man she frustrates me. 

                         We went back and forthskirted the issue, I certainly didn’t want to come off halfcocked . . I wanted to be reasonable, I didn’t want to text something I couldn’t take back . . . so I wrote herconcluded our conversation: My pleasure.

gobsmacked

            he nearly shook his head like an animal a fighter fighting off the haze of an unchecked shot to the chops he didnt grope for the ropes 

                           then clearing his throatAwh  awh  he croaked Your pleasure  

Yes.

Why the hell did you do that not pleasure wrong message  Now ya texted something yacant take back  Ya realise that 

      An ya lied

Lied?

Yah   Lied 

             It wasnt not as yave related to me  Now yave called it your pleasure Yacant go back on that  Should have said you were miffed been honest

                                      Yave lied an given her cover 

I . . I don’t see it that way.

No ya don  Ya spared her feelings at the expense of your own 

                                                                   Annow yacant take it back

his surly expression suggested he wanted to argue

                                                     Don go there buddy  Ill rip your tongue out of yer head

it wasnt often their conversations ended with a threat of violence 

                                                                     but he wanted to be honest with him

1543,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1003,  Monday,  9  5. 22