11.5.22


Did you dream he asked his granddaughter

she was colouring at the breakfast table 
                                           I did.  Did you?

Yes I actually dreamed of your mother it was wonderful I suspect thats because Im here with you and very close to her ashes

she noddeddidnt lookup from her colouring book


What did you dream baby

I dreamed of a very tall man. He bent down. He was ugly.

How ugly was he

Uuughly.

Maybe thats why he was very tall

Oh yes, maybe why Granpaw.

0739,  Saturday,  7  5. 22
1254,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  5. 22


the latest catchphrase in case you havent heard in case you werent privy  the latest racist craze  legacy Americans
Thats right folks you heard right 
                                Isdey white? Right on right on holyrollerevangelicals possibly born-again evangelical Catholics they sport dashboard crucifiedChrists Trump bumperstickers right above the exhaust pipe  donya think  anya can bet yer sweet ass patriots wrappedup in the flag red white an blue like a burrito 
                                                                                       he didnt have to imagine
he could see it

  proud title legacy American 
                                 first deadly sin according to St. Thomas Aquinas pride one for one   greed two for two
lust likely  three for three   envy  definitely four for four   gluttony not a lot of slim waistlines  call it five for five   wrath OhYES  six for six   sloth  couldnt say  six for seven   damn near perfectTHEYRE DAMN NEAR PERFECT   

   though
              he had to muse that somewhere in their bloodlineancestry the real ones had family that owned slaves slept with slaves possibly were biracial ssshh  could be a dirty secret

         he was musing

however

musing is thinking is pondering  is wondering
                                                  an the grease in his oilpan wasnt keen legacy didnt fly  rather he thought relic 
              an he might not have thought relic had he not firstconceived derelicts yasee that  see relic inside the word relic Americans  Americana mythic Americana full-of-shit Americana artifacts of a dead time 
                                                                                                           relic Americans wasnt so far afield  neither was artifact Americans

evening,  Monday,  9  5. 22
2337,  Twosday,  10  5. 22
The Great Replacement also on Carlson  a racist one-man rodeo show  https://www.adl.org/resources/backgrounders/the-great-replacement-an-explainer 

     as the world suffers the twin cataclysms of greedy twins Trump virus 1,025,104 American dead Putins war tens of thousands of deaths  toss atop the two like gas on a pyre an add’l 100,306 American dead from drug overdoses 

          setting all sorts of horrid records

1059,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  5. 22
Dan Fogelberg & Tim Weisberg  Twin Sons of Different Mothers  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bx5yiX1ZZzk


10.5.22


as he walkedup to wait in line at the bank a gentleman who was seated at a slender table to his right stood apparently he finished putting his paperwork in order

he stepped back to create space Please you were here first help yourself

he noddedobliged Thank you, sir.

Youre welcome


two yakkity elderly gentleman occupied the two available tellers these days customers canewait there were four vacant stations 

the gentlemen reminded him immediately of his brotherinlaw whod talk with anyone willing to engage him anywhere  he often interrupting their conversation to speak with them whomever  friend or stranger
                                                                                               it fell to him to pickupbe the placeholder regarding their conversation because when the spark illuminatedcaptured him for in that light or returned from it he didntwouldnt remember what they had been talking about
Where were we?

Where were we

Do you have to be an echo?       
Cant ya remember

Why should I remember?

he was right he had enabled him so often he was beyond caring or embarrassment he called him Shit-for-brains but he quit taking offense

That make you feel better?

it went without saying he didnt acknowledge his question he backpedaled several exchanges prior to his brotherinlaw gallivanted off to return him to speed 
                                       Oh yeah yeah, I remember I recal . .
. . Yadon I do  Credit where credit is due

 

standing in linenot waiting he always had a book with him startedup with Satori he had several slipped like a lick across her clit occurred to him
                                why then 
                                           had no idea  
                                                          it just presented itself 
he didnt know who her was but had always been intrigued with clits pussy womens nethers
slipped like a lick across her clit

hed have to give it some thought
NEXT, PLEASE.
                     a teller hailed him

hed remember had lotsa practise
                                    however it was a rare moment when a clit would have to wait typically he was Johnny-on-the-G-spothappy to oblige


How may I help you? she asked

Yadon wanna know he said under his breath               

1543,  Twosday,  10  5. 22
1911,  Twosday

discipline

Awhbrother . .
. . What?

  Wha   Ya drive me nuts Im really going to do it . . really

Really do what?

For Christmas

For Christmas?  What?

Ive told you  anif ya don remember thats on you Im not saying again

This some kind of tease?

Yacan ask until yare blue in the faceno hints  Come Christmas youll see

he tried the bite the lower lip bit pouted 
                                          however it looked as obscene on his unshaven face as it looked whollyenticing on a goodlooking womans puss  talkbout two sides of a coin

Go to hell

that rocked him
                 That’s a little abrup . .
. . Thas alot abrupt
                     Christmas buddyboy

Sometimes you can be a son-of-a-bitch.

Scarcely when compared to you

Are you in a bad mood?

  No 
     Not a bad mood  just stymied  youd forget your head somewhere if it werent attached

I’m not . .
. . Yare that bad If your life depended on your memory or recall youd be dead

I’m . .
. . Yare
         I gotta head out  Coffee Friday

What’s today?

Aint saying

 

his buddy wellintended thoughtful  ofttimes beat himself rather than beat the person who deserved itneverever wanted to hurt anyones feelings which was diametrically opposed to him he called it accountability no onenot family friends were pardonedgot off unscathed 
                                 SO for Christmas he was going to buy him a discipline let that swing in the breeze a moment   sounds intriguingright not wha one might think  a discipline is a small scourge more breeze for flagging sails  a scourge is a whip an instrument isnt that niceinstrument an instrument of penance for Christian demoninations not a misspelling slicksleight of letters the spiritual discipline known as mortification of the fleshChrist 
                                                                                                     it was either that a knotted cattail whip or a cilice belt a spiked garter a beltlike device for repentance atonement but he was all-but-assured his buddy couldnt get the nylon seam straightup the back of his legs fuck garter belts 
                                                                                                  NO he was not being ridiculous   everyone ought to have a whip

1806,  Thursday,  5  5. 22
1159,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

1,024,752

time to check in
               grim but he felt he ought to felt it was deadly necessary to keep track to tally the crime 
                                                                                                              if 1,024,752 American dead from Trump virus his insouciance his “It’s going to disappear. One day – it’s like a miracle – it will disappear.” as 1,024,752 human beings have  isnt a crime 
                                                               what is
  
1722,  Monday,  9  5. 22
1022,  Twosday,  10  5. 22

hopefully the former will remain the worst American president ever

9.5.22


  he wokeup with this bangingslogging around inside his head 
                                                                  MAGA   MAGA whawas it maggot   Awwhawas it
AHyes flock fuck of unerring MAGApies magpies chanting the erroneous lies of their Dear mindless Leader it was like Whac-a-Mole them ducking back into slimy wormholes unlike scifi holes having emerged from wells caverns gross subterranean bowels in the earth as found in Lovecrafts writing Cthulhu sister Kassogtha then Ghast Mi-go Shoggoth Dagon Azathoth not to be confused with Azazel the Jewish Scapegoat Night-gaunts Y’Golonac Yog-Sothoth or shapeshifting crawling chaos Nyarlathotep gawdblessya slithery  it was these names  physicalities he imagined that averted him from reading terror and horror 
                                 not his cup of tea 
                                                     anyet his misfortune to be awakened by

he had to admit the crosssection he saw of their shallow underground hemisphere was quite cool very steampunkish hellish  ample turning cogs gears worm gears to toss ironwrenches into to bring their foul machinery to a halt the atmosphere spoiling growing foetid
                                    an him aboveground with a ball peen hammer in either hand to WHAC what came up their mouths wideopen gulping blue air smashing faces shattering teeth

0730ish,  Monday,  9  5. 22
1119,  Monday
Walter Lippmann  The Stakes of Diplomacy  “When all think alike, no one thinks every much.”


poorpoor Supreme Court justices who have decided to overthrow Roe v. Wade

it occurred to him during a White House press briefing the whining of the Press the dire insipid whining of FOX  their the fake moral indignityfew more indignant than Peter Deucey “These activists posted a map and the home addresses of Supreme Court justices, is that the kind of thing the president wants?” 

hmm
      didnt remember outcry outrage grievance when antiabortion activists posted the home addresses of gynecologists lawfully practising abortion their pictures posted  identity of family members license plates vehicles they drove then asked when they were murdered please X-out their picture at the site
                                                                           how convenient not to remember that

405preferred to 1605,  Thursday,  5  5. 22
1625,  Monday,  9  5. 22

 
he liked simple equations 
                             1 + 1 = 2 
if the Court overturns Roe it sanctions rape and incest 
                                                       the Court overturns a womans precious right to control her person body and health 
                seemed simple enough  seemed distilled to its primacy

1933,  Monday,  9  5. 22


Man she frustrates me. 
                         We went back and forthskirted the issue, I certainly didn’t want to come off halfcocked . . I wanted to be reasonable, I didn’t want to text something I couldn’t take back . . . so I wrote herconcluded our conversation: My pleasure.

gobsmacked
            he nearly shook his head like an animal a fighter fighting off the haze of an unchecked shot to the chops he didnt grope for the ropes 
                           then clearing his throatAwh  awh  he croaked Your pleasure  

Yes.

Why the hell did you do that not pleasure wrong message  Now ya texted something yacant take back  Ya realise that 
      An ya lied

Lied?

Yah   Lied 
             It wasnt not as yave related to me  Now yave called it your pleasure Yacant go back on that  Should have said you were miffed been honest
                                      Yave lied an given her cover 

I . . I don’t see it that way.

No ya don  Ya spared her feelings at the expense of your own 
                                                                   Annow yacant take it back
his surly expression suggested he wanted to argue
                                                     Don go there buddy  Ill rip your tongue out of yer head


it wasnt often their conversations ended with a threat of violence 
                                                                     but he wanted to be honest with him

1543,  Thursday,  5  5. 22
1003,  Monday,  9  5. 22

 
  trepverter
                 standing at the bottom of the stairs when it occurs to someone himNAH  he was in full occupancy of his thought when My pleasure came out of his buddys mouth but in that moment had he said so he would have been cruel

so rather then
             NOW  at the bottom of the stairs  to himself and his gleeful interiorselves interior yes slaves he could say it out of earshot and howl with gay abandon 
                                              I wannabe dissed by you just you and nobody else but you I wanna be dissed by you  alone   Poop poop poopy doo

fuck he cracked himself up

had he said upstairs his buddy would have been butthurt and humourless not a good combination or look


  I wannabe dissed by you
                            Jesus wha a riot

221preferred to1421,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  5. 22
1207,  Monday,  9  5. 22

6.5.22


he was Proud Maryin 
                      rollin down the river   back late Muthas Day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02QUmKVsyFY

hed beg patience 
  couldnt give him that
                                Awwhell fuck ya
 
1018preferred to 2218, personal reasons,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

Happy Mother's Day           Happy muthas day

5.5.22


he wasnt in the right mood   nope notatall something was grating him 

he closed his eyesheld them shut with his fingertips in the dark he imaged his brain candled it like a sharks egg sacmermaids purse watched the embryo shivertwist  better imaging that than pearlymaggots writhing in rotting meatanimals unfortunately crushed under could-care-less-could-give-two-shits drivers wheels
                                                                                                     wasnt in a good mood

he continued watching the palepinked embryo it had grown quiet   maybe it was aware he watched  shy   coy         maybe


he leaned backtook his fingers from his eyes sparklesfragments of the exploded purse purse LIGHT LIGHT  his mood wasnt alleviated the ceiling looked lower walls closer  even the window looked smaller

he stood up and went into the kitchen    no mother no little helper
had to help himself 
                       Ya concur he asked himself he nodded like an obedient dogthrew a stick now hed hurtle after it no throwing  no                                                                                                                              he went into the cabinet where he kept his booze last flight he was oncross countryred eye the flight attendant plied him with miniatures On the house, sweetie. she was based in LA Louise   she liked he called her la Louise he liked that the she embroidered her serving garment with her name cursive right breast the floridfont leaned toward her cleavage it was late her blouse was unbuttoned two buttons further down than usual  inviting
he didnt mind if he did

he stowed away four glass miniatures Stolichnaya la Louise was liberating First Class product They won’t miss it, doll.
Yare sure woudntwanya gettin in trouble  she leaned down he looked in she whispered They won’t.  I like trouble. Have anything in mind?   Yave given me a couple ideas   Excellent. she stood up winked sashayed up the aisle away from him gave him a nice showas much bump an grind as was possible in the narrow darkened aisle

he twisted the metal cap off a bottle tipped itgobbled it whole
la Louise almost killed him
that memory helped
he gobbled a second bottle 
her breasts an ass were even better than he imagined
memory helped
she loved his cock
he loved her pussy
gobbled the third
la Louise lit candles knew Shadowfax had vinyl stacked three LPs played them fucked in the livingroom
mood was lifting

  he sipped the fourth
                             mood definitely was lifting


hadnt thought of Louise in a while 

hed keep that chambered loadedup for the next bout 
                                                              or whenever                                                                                                
2349,  Sunday,  1  5. 22
1134,  Thursday,  5  5. 22
Stones  Mother’s Little Helper  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-ahSGQ0CcA
Shadowfax  Dreams of Children   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSduXmyCLQ0


performing like a circus seal carnival barker huckster before a congregation held by Advancing American Freedom Mike Pence said piously
                     “As we stand here today we may well be on the verge of an era when the Supreme Court sends Roe v. Wade to the ash heap where it belongs.” 30 November 2021

the speech was interrupted by smatterings of applause it was a small roombut ash heapashheap  that really irritated him
   it was derogatory however whawould he expect from a born-again evangelical Catholic an whadafucks that
correction  a white born-again evangelical Catholic had to get his descriptors right  lilywhite if he wanted hi-octaneNuts almost forgot another descriptor  entitled stuff it in there somewhere                                     

not having any idea what Advancing American Freedom (AAF) was he looked it up turns out to be a non-profit 501(c)(4) founded by Pence delving deeperwho served on its Advisory BoardAwChrist like a hit list of Republican politicians operatives and assorted other bottom feeders AAF believes in God, family and country in that order  that was plenty for him

     ash heap
                    from where the Phoenix rises
    
1908,  Monday,  2  5. 22
0939,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

4.5.22

quivering puckers were noticeable in the seat of pants worn by FOX associates and a myriad of Republican operatives politicians when DHS announced its newly formed Disinformation Governance Board 
                                                                                          he was lead to believe if one happened to be in a room with several at a time it was virtually palpable
                                                                             an ofcourse their kneejerk concern their immediate inflammatory language was to decry it nearly shrieking Orwellian 1984 Ministry of Truth  whelping like whipped pups to first protect and safeguard their quivering puckers  but secondly as another opportunity to misdirect to cover up obfuscate lingering plots to overthrow the legitimacy of the 2020 election to provide hail smokescreen throw shade on their antidemocratic schemes for the January 6 insurrection 
                                                                            I’d like a presidential pardon, please.

Aw boys not really disinformation

1533,  Monday,  2  5. 22 
1051, Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  5. 22 

3.5.22


  maybe
           wha politicians wha Republicans wha Christians have bargained for justices nominated lied about will be the devilmade bargain Putin made to violate Ukraine quick and easy  greaselightning 
                                                                                        then suddenly the West coalesced helped weaponise Ukraine to batter his forces NATO united hunkered down an Finland Sweden are throwing off their historic neutral mantles to submit applications to join NATO

  maybe  
           theyve cut off their nose to spite their face

his fingers are crossed he doesnt have to hurt anyone


  he was terribly grateful to the leaker they stepped up to put America on notice  gave it breathing room an options
perhaps nuclear option   they are heroic like Chelsea Manning Edward Snowden

1018preferred to 2218,  Twosday,  3  5. 22 

https://www.msn.com/en-us/sports/more-sports/edward-snowden-on-roe-v-wade-draft-opinion-most-fundamental-of-our-freedoms-are-inabrogable/ar-AAWTGvA?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz


 




There he goes again railroad logic
                                      It’s called railroad logic, you know what that is?
I do
I’ll tell you.
I know wha it isyave said
A runaway train’s coming down the track, you’re at the switch, you have to decide to throw it or not, which track you’ll send it on . . your father stands on the track, a child on a siding, which track do you send the train down?

Its common sens . .
. . NO, it’s philosophy . a choice . . yours to decide . what would you decide?

Its not a decisionnot a choice Ya run over the old man

Hes getting exasperated flushing 
                                It’s your father.

Ansomehow hes younger than me

Best part he shuts his eyes excruciatingly tight rubs them vigorously with his fingertips

he shook his head closed his eyes rubbed them with his fingertips says 
                                                                              He’s your father.
Sorry Pops common sense prevails its not even a coin toss 
                                                               The hypothetical is dismal  illegitimate

Illegitimate. Why would you say that?

As I said its not a choice 
                          Frankly the nonthinkingthe reflex is an ideal

Ideal? It’s nah . .
. . Saying its not doesnt make it so 
                                     If you believe fervently religiously adverb in something if that thing defines you ya stand up for itya stand behind it anif ya have to ya stand in front of it protect it 
                                                                                    To my way of thinkingmy belief if ya can overthrowbetray something you say ya believe have said is a core belief thereby an ideal  Wha wouldnt ya throw over 
       Ya telling me youd recant

If someone threatened meput a gun in my fac . .
. . As theyre swinging it up ya throw yourself at them 
                                                           Youd overthrow a belief to buy a few more days of wha life  now bitter food foul air  Yave denied yourself 
                                                    Yawillin to defy yourself

1832,  Monday,  2  5. 22
2126,  Twosday,  3  5. 22