“There are greenshoots here.”

                               not his words wished they were  he immediately understood the concept  he didnt take a plant down until he was sure it was completely dead often he didnt as he preferred their deadconfiguration to their absence

because he might be wrong and greenshoots appeared

the words were Chai Komanduris

                                  his motto “Instead of letting differences separate us, why not use these differences to bring us together.”

he agreed

but who is us

us are literate

              he read an article that reported fiftyfour percent of American adults from sixteen he had an issue qualifying sixteenyear olds as adultsparticularly contemporary sixteenyear olds to seventyfour COULD NOT read at a Sixth grade level

he read at a high school level when he was nine

but he was a reader

his mother fed him booksread to him when he hadnt learned yet

that wasnt cheating

the world unfolded

the world was on pages

he had a dull ache

                   it was fromhe was confident that Americas dismal illiteracy has been a public plan been in-the-works for better than a generation  an intentionaldeliberate act  tossing sand in the gears  for leadingnot really unquestioning idiots is easier than having to answerbe exercised by so-very-inconvenient questions

he hoped there were greenshoot

                                  rather than deadsticks to be burned

after 1800hrs,  Twosday,  15  2. 22

1120,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  2. 22

https://coloradonewsline.com/2021/07/28/literacy-rates-are-falling-and-democrats-could-lose-big/ 

it thought he didnt see it

he could tell by its gait nonchalant no hurry  nothing to see here

                                                                     Whadaya lookin at, buddy?

Im lookin at you

Ya can quit anytime.

Yare like a carwreck I cant

Yare making me selfconscious.

Im enjoying your consciousness Makes me feel like Im getting away with something

OH I’m so pleased.

                      No. Really.  Stop.

Am I truly bothering ya

Yes.

Then my apologies

                    It wasnt my intention to be an interlopervoyeur I thoughtI was grateful that I  I was am probably the sole witness to your adventure  perhaps the onset of your next adventure

My.  I wasn’t thinking, my apologies.

                                          However I really must be off.  Goodbye.

Goodbye

Off it hustled which was inaccurate

                                      it strolled

a brittle fallen live oak leaf strolling down the descending driveway to parts unknown

1420,  ReggaeFriday,  19  11. 21

1217,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  2. 22

Why is it rhetorical everyone believes life is about them they regarded themselves heliocentric

he didnt

         hed admit perhaps everyone was overly broad  however when he considered things he usually sought to view them appeal to them objectively

when he said he didnt

                        he meant he tried hard to negate considerations for himself to amelioratedevise the best solution

if ones concern begins with for themselves  it is errant

 

he has a wonderful friend  Elsie

four years ago she married she and her husband are now raising a daughter who was born in the past year 

he was visiting

he visited them when they lived together

he didnt see visiting now as anything different

it had been his first opportunity to see them and their daughter per Trump virus dictates

Jamie her husband had a previous engagement

he said he expected to return by lunch 

Jamie left shortly after he woke showered and breakfasted with them

Elsie he incessantly teased her about being named for Bordens cow she had great udders she didhe told her so

                                                                                                                anif she hadnt met Jamie when she did  he was dallying with the prospect of dating her they had been friends for a couple of years and he truly didnt want to risk their friendshiprelationship romantically  it was more than apparent she was cool to pairing sexually

                   she chastised him for being loose  Loose  Excuse me all to hell loose  an appellation I believe  reserved for women  Do not attempt to debase or demoralise a zesty candid sexual affair or try to make it more significant than it was Don be a prude  but she was an reason why he dragged his feet despite the attractive attributes which drew him to her in the first place

How long she asked have we been friends?

We met Nine January Twothousandthirteen at Ninethirteen AM  Certainly you remember  perhaps not the time but the date

No . . not the time . definitely the date.   Why do you remember the time?

Because I was gazing at the clock when I heard the door open an you walked in I saw you before you met me

Advantage  Me

Advantage You.

                       So why didn’t you take your advantage?

Thats water under the bridge Elsie We should leave it at that  Notwithstanding I cherish our friendship

Do you know what is said about relationships that endure seven years?

I do not

If friends for seven years, friends for life.

                                             I am terribly happy you’re in my life.

she began to weep

he embraced her

                   Me too  Me too

not ten minutes later Jamie walked in and saw Elises upset

                                                               What’s wrong, love?

I was talking to Joe about the likelihood that he and I . . and you . will be friends for the rest of our lives.

his face got pinched wasnt that reserved for women 

                                                          Oh I see, you’re so terribly happy Joe is in your lif . .

. . Jamie  he interrupted  Maybe the next words out of your mouth will be Wha am I  chopped liver Christ Elsie is your wife the mother of your child possibly first of many

                                                      Get over yourself Please

Jamie didnt meet his gaze harrumphed then left the room

You’ll have . .

. . NO  Don ya daredon ya dare make excuses for him I wont hear them  Im headin out for provisions for dinner As I told you if you put me up Id thank you with a dinner I expect Jamie will have his head on right by the time I return If he doesnt Im afraid Ill be drinking alone since youre breastfeeding

1444,  Sunday,  6  2. 22

2131,  Twosday,  15  2. 22

he scratched his headlooked perplexed actually a bit stern

                                                             he said I cant say yaoughta pursueYes I understand its your dream but I cant encourage you to become a standup comedian

Ouch.

        I didn’t ask . .

. . No ya didnt but I would be remiss if I didnt at least try to dampen your fervor

It’s my dream.

Dream then ya wakeup

Why would you say that?

Perspective

             Ive gone to comedy showsfollowed various artists all exhibit a certain . panache . . your material lacks that . an punch

You like raw performers.

I do

I don’t do raw.

No you don

            Your jokes tend towards blanched overcooked  flaccid . .

. . Don’t pull no punc . .

. . Ya know I wont

                    My intent isnt to be hurtful . rather honest

Brutally hones . .

. . Brutally  A character trait

Awright. Anything you might suggest?

I have a suggestion ifya truly wanna hear

I asked didn’t I? 

Ah at last some moxie he thought

                                    Yadid I think a good comedian can blow themselves on stage ana really good comedian can make themselves cum women includedthey can give themselves head ifya think blow is too gender specific

JesusChrist.

Ya asked

              An I betcha He can  Hes a scream 

1427,  Sunday,  6  2. 22

1647 or 457pm,  Twosday,  15  2. 22

out the gate they didnt like each other

was no skin off his ass

nor his

he had to admit he liked that about men

they didnt have to like they didnt have to play nice or act that they were

he didnt like him found him to be crass a piece of shit

                                                        anhe knew that at the getgo

the man loved his acronyms  HIS   he made them up

they were bait provocative in the sense it provoked the question What does that mean?

he didnt ask 

let it breeze by

was disinterested

if he was too fucking lazy to say what he meant he wasnt interested in communicating

unfortunately on occasion he had to work with him  they were carpenters building a house

chronic acronyms was up on the scaffolding calling down measurements as they cut siding for around a window  Thirtyseven threeeighths an a B C H.

Thirtyseven threeeighths

An a BCH.

Man woudya just say whaya mean  

A BCH. rolled his eyes maybe an exclamation point

Yah Heard

            Repeating itsaying it louder means squat other than declaring yare ignorantwhich I know an wouldnt refute

What do you mean

Everyone on the crew except you knows a BCH . . whasat say about you?

It says I could give a fuckbout shortcuts or your acronyms Say whaya mean

BCH. A black cunt hair.

Black

You heard me.

Black

     Not blonde brunette not a CCH a Caucasian cunt hair

Man, what’s crawled up your ass?

Yare the intellect  wha

                        it took several moment to quiet the insanity ranging around inside his head not to use a sledge hammer on the wedges that stabilised the scaffolding  he did not like the man

2233,  Saturday,  5  2. 22

1244,  Twosday,  15  2. 22

he woke

       a rant breaking over the top of his dreamsraging more precise

                                                                           however he was cognizantconscious enough that he did not wake on the wrong foot get out of bed on the wrong side 

his upset was people our inherent state our humanUnkindness

                                                                  were doomed to be idiots like goldfish in a glass bowls who eventually will suffocate and die because theyve fouled their surroundings  their atmosphere 

but goldfish havent the wherewithal to do otherwise 

which make us evermore worse off  evermore ignorant

he also woke thinking of houses of worship tucked amongsharing common walls alleyways with mini mall hardware stores hairdressers barber shops bowling alleys hobby shops pancake houses greasy spoons the occasional pet stores  like mini zoos

               everywhere escaped black shiny crickets seeking salvation which living things will do because they hadnt a choice and were confined to the lowest rungs of the food chain desperately kneeling on pointy knees chirping Hallelujah! peeping Hallelujah! whatever it takes whatever to please a surly God a miscreant Messiah

                                                                                                             theyve escaped and implore holyroller ministers spiritualists self-anointed prophets lesser messiahs to speak on their behalf and pray insist to God that they are worthy they are worthwhile

                                                            they are Children of God too

perhaps more so because they are innocent

Thursday morning,  10  2. 22

1233,  Monday – Valentine’s Day,  14  2. 22

 

Lonely Days in his head woke him    he couldnt go back to sleep

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1nACo34VKEQ

“lonely days

‘lonely nights

Whar am ey

“without my wom(e)n?”

 

visiting

back Valentine’s Day

0809,  ReggaeFRiday,  11  2. 22

they were randyBULLSHIT   they were a raunchy couple

                                                           HOW RAUNCHY WERE THEY?

Glad ya asked Ill tell ya

                          If I hadnt been too stoned to leave their place I never would have heard  I thought theyd remember I passed out and was lying on their bedroom floor at the foot of their bed where I think I remember they dragged me  I remember so no one would step on me kick me in the head trip over me  or possibly molest me while I was unconscious   everyone loves to molest an unconscious personRIIGHT

                                                                                 particularly at a party

                                                                                                        thats why people throw partieswhy people go to them

that said he couldnt say how many times he played Father the priest  absolving women he had been with of their carnal passions

Wha happened last night?

You don remember  he did  he was like a kid on playground equipment on every apparatus then made up a few more rides

No . . no . I don’t remember anything.

Nothing

No. Nothing.  Not a thing.

My child he wanted to say   Nothing happened

Cool. I think I blacked out.

they were very  pliant   relaxed

 

lights were off

a lava lamp belched

he wondered where he was

      Ah   he smelled her Clove cigarettes kreteks  he preferred kreteks like pretzels kinda similar nahnobody agreed with him probably why he preferred getting loaded and rappeling deep into his mind  nobody wanted to keep up with him because nobody could spin spider thread as he did which kept him from falling awaydying  he was always tethered   people werent unable to see or imagine it

                                                                he was a magician a fucking magi

his pants were still buttoned

cool

she coughed 

definitely her rattle 

he knew where he was

he fucked her in their bed

                          clandestinely  she was the type who liked to sweeten the poteverything had to be dramatic his word was draumatic trauma influenced   He finds out he’ll beat the shit out of us.   Ohfuckya Ya sleep around he sleeps around aint a secret If he were to come after me Id damage him now shaddup he flipped her onto her belly and fucked her doggiestyle

Ah  Good  he was grounded

they rustled around above him

they were too fucked up to fuck

Say she said  Can you smell cum on my breath?

sniff sniff

          Can’t say I’m too wasted.  You . . can you smell pussy on my face?

sniff sniff

         Nah . me neither . too high.

the lava lamp belched 

he was in a good place  tentatively

                                              something heavy ran across his mind left footprints  he was going to chase down whoeverwhatever it was

                                Hey asshole  didnt see me

he blacked out

2149,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  9  2. 22

Zappa  Dinah-Moe Humm  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEtyYNFOIew

 

   breastfeast 

               was kinda whimsical  kinda a stumbling in out an aboot a path tack which levied demanded crazy unexpected results Whodve thought  he hadnt

                                                 Maybe like radioactive man like Bikini Enewetak Atolls no more atolls atall

utterly invisible to the naked eye a benign virus spreading ahead around me FUCKme man Im dead center

Im the bullseye

                 It emanates from me

Don’t ya think yaoughta take a bow?         

A bow

        I should I should as a matter matter thas funny  as a matter of fact I will I believe I will he almost hurt his backwent a bit too deep

he was leaving a shopping center toting a canvas bag of groceries over his shoulderhad to shift it a couplethree times so it rode right and was readying to open a book to read as he walked home

I saw.

Thank you for being observant

with book in hand opened he threw his eyes up to take in the lay of the land people if there were any obstacles hed have to sidestep as he read

                              to his right she stepped out of the doorway onto the porch behind her boyfriend  Hermanos Taqueria he only knew that because a friend recommended it The best Barbacoa tacos you'll find in the valley.

stepping out wasnt correct or appropriate

                                             she  floated  out

it was hard not to eyeball her

before he could drop his eye she looked up they made eyes

caught he smilednodded

she blushed noddedsmiled in return 

she was stunninghad to know young twenty cappuccinocoloured skin wearing a light ochre knit sweater split little lower than middlebreast loosely laced with an ochre thong that accentuated scarcelybound flattered her ample breasts

none of this was lost on her boyfriend 

he doubledback took her by the elbow

                                         she seemed startled by the unexpectedness and stepping forward onto the break where a ramp descended to the street she stumbled

                                                     their eyes still engageddistracted perhaps attracted

                                                                                                                     she stumbled towards the streether boyfriend lost his hold but she was able to rear back in time saving her faceturning it left to avoid striking a four by four post that supported a slanted tile roof which provided a porch for outdoor dining

                                                                                                            she did however bump it with her chest her right breast to one side her left to the other which deliciously isolated and verily ascribed their largeness as the lucky post was embracedengulfed between them

this was the third scoop on top the cone that began in Produce a child pulled his mothers blouse open a random wardrobe failure as another woman was unloading her grocery cart she clutched to close her top Ohmy, excuse me, I’m grateful only you saw.   No excuse necessary Im grateful

                                                              she blushed wildly and giggled

afternoon delight,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  2. 22

1212,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  9  2. 22

John Coltrane Quartet  Out of This World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQ9Y0oS0lyo

I got an idea. she said

About time. he said

he said things like that

usually he saved his contempt for when people were around so he could make them laugh uncomfortably  but they laughed nevertheless   most of their friends were his

he thought he was clever

Your thought, what’s your thought? his tone was condescending

Sorry . . . was thinking of something other . .

. . You can hold two thoughts at once, will wonders ever cease?

she sniff  she chuckled

                           I can, an I also believe I can cease . one wonder . . right before your very eyes.

A magician, where’s this talent been all this time?

that smarted

              All this time, all this time? It feels long . doesn’t it?  How long does it feel to you?

  What?

           uncharacteristical  usually his mouth forged links dense long chainsconvoluted gnarly chains of words

often she wondered when he breathed between them

                                                         What? I asked.

Time.

         How long has it felt to you?

What . . what feels long to me?

I said time . let me . . . qualify . .

. . You’re going to qualify . for me.

Apparently I'll have to . . I thought it’d be more . obvious.

Qualify.  I’m confident I can follow.

Good. I depend on your confidence.

his eyes went sideways

she didnt talk to him like that

My idea . . time . time long past due . . . I’m calling us quits; as you’re fond of saying, Fini!

his jaw went hard

                    You . . you can’t call us quits, we’re we and as we, us, we have to . .

. . Concur? now she was being clever

If you would, yes, I would have to concur . .

. . In order for us to call to quits.

In order of us to call it quits. 

one last mocking she told him too many times not to mock her

                                                                  Actually that’s not true. I quit. Time, my answer for time, is long past due I’m . . . long  past  due.  I’m exhausted, take your show out on the road an see how it plays elsewhere.

So . I should leave, I should leave our plac . .

. . Doesn’t matter to me. You. Me.

                                    Fini!

Quit with tha . .

. . Irritating, isn’t it?

You’re being ridiculous.

she held up her hands

                        I surrender. Tell people whatever you like, you’re off the hook. I’m gonna say if asked, I don’t expect I will, but if I’m asked . . I’m saying I took our relationship to the edge of the dump, shot it in the head, rolled it downhill to let it commune, be chummy, with all other things inert.

Mr. Loquacious was tonguetied.

Christ, bout time. she thought

2127,  ReggaeFriday,  4  2. 22

420 preferred,  Twosday,  8  2. 22

it was lateshould have washed the dishes earlier when he finished dinner 

he usually did

              routine as when he woke in the morningmade his bed  which irritated almost every woman he slept with

when he slept at their places he didnt dare make their beds when they left the bedroom to shower no way in hell he was missing showeringpurely mercenary or to make coffee breakfast

                                                                 Did Not Dare

inevitably  back in bed   both trying to catch their breathstheir heads on his shoulder or his head on their thighs theyd say like a page taken from a playbook You see why I don’t make my bed? I don’t want to make it twice.

he made his bed twice

maybe women are smarter than men

well no way in hell he was going to wake up to dishesFUCK

                                                                he washed them

finished he went to step away from the sink to dry his hands and saw a blue dribble and gob of OXY POWER Brillo BASICS dishsoap on the wall of the sink in his haste washing over and over again a stubborn casserole dish he missed the sponge

              Hmm he went to wipe it away but stoppedhe remembered   he was impressed . again 

 

she was in the kitchen

she refused to let him help her with the dishes

I brought the serving dishesthe dishes silverware utensils in . .

. . No.

At least let me dr . .

. . No.

      You worked all day. Sit down, relax, light a candle, play some music, I’ll be out in two shakes of a lamb’s tail.

   a lamb tail

               Oh  it was on her

he did light candles

he did put an album on the phonograph

he played it loud enough so she could hear  Is that good babe   Yes, I can hear it.   Good

he could hear her washing dishes

he came up behind her   What are you doing in here?   Nothing  he nuzzled her neckbegan lifting her skirt   THAT doesn’t feel like nothing.   Nothing  he peeled her panties slowly off her hips to her thighs   Baby, that doesn’t feel like nothing.   he bit her ear Nothing he whispered then squattingrubbing his chest down her backher fanny he slipped her panties to her ankles she lifted one foot then the other   Doesn’t feel like . . nothing . baby.  he stood  wearing athletic shorts he slipped them to one side slipped her skirt up to her waist held it in one hand bunched before her belly with the other he ran the underside of his erection side to side across her fanny  then ran it up and down at the inside of her thighs   I lied its something   Yes. her feet drifted backdrifted sideways she leaned forward on the sink Yes. her breath quickening Something.  

they fucked slowly  gentlygently   then deeper     thrusting   then ruttingbreathless then suddenlyOhno  Out no contraceptive.   Awman  he drew himself out stepped sidewaysjust off her hip she turnedgrasped his cock with a warm soapy hand yanked him wideeyed grinningdimples he grabbed her breast tweaked her nipple she yanked harder he kissed her hard she mashed her lips to his she yanked vigorously he gasped gaspedgasped  grooaned into her mouth

       laughing deliciously she went to her knees took him in her mouth he staggeredturned she had him his hands went to the countertop his knees tried to bucklelegs shook she had him his mind flipped flippedflopped she had him

                 Awawgawd awh aw  she stood quickly kissed him wickedlydeeply when they broke off the kiss she laughed Ya got a little something on your chin.   laughed again  That was some nothing, love.

                                                                                                         turning to the sink she laughed even harder

Wha

she pointed

a dribble and a gob on the pale green linoleum backsplash

 

not Brillo blue

2133,  ReggaeFriday,  4  2. 22

1251,  Twosday,  8  2. 22

McCoy Tyner Trio  Inner Glimpse  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ecla2CpNW1o