24.5.21

 

he was reading the Federalist Papers for pleasure 
                                                     Federalist 10 to be specific  Madison attacked the view that pursuing one’s own interest violates public spirit  he resisted using virtue

meanwhile as he read he understood that Abigail Adams worried to her friend Mercy Otis Warren of men whose “self Interest is all more powerfull than public virtue.”  Benjamin Franklin likewise wrote “Sordid self-Interest (was) the natural Produce of base Minds.”

he agreed hardily with Franklins assessment
                                                how it was base Minds today littered the media landscape the public sphere conflicted him  he couldnt understand how so many of them were serving elected officials 
                                                                                                       unless baser Minds were at play  or were played


Madison wrote “The causes of faction cannot be removed . . relief is only to be sought in the means of controlling its effects.” 
         the way to provide to harness its energies its effects was by involving “the spirit of party and faction in the necessary and ordinary operation of government.”
                                                     use one mans interest against anothers  the more interests at play in politics the smaller chance one intense passion will prevail

 

Federalist 10 was published 22 November 1787
                                                   he couldnt help but wonder if Madison wasnt Spooky  clairvoyant
he might have been writing of Now

Base minds running amuck in Fear
                                   the uniting drivel of white Base minds     

1407,  Monday,  24  5. 21
The Bas Lexter Ensample  Run Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afIk5NwitqI


You concerned about going to Idaho

A bit, but not too much.
                           A bit.

Ya goin to church

I’ll go, you know, see how the other ninetythree percent live.

Yare not concerned about your daughter-in-law introducing you to churchwomen  Now that your divorcedseems to me she alluded to something of the kind when you last visited

If I’m invited I’ll go.

Why would ya go if yare invited  Ya don believe

Never can tell.

Wha

What do you mean?

Never can tell
               If fewer and fewer people are attending church then those who are are true believers  Youd still entertain meeting a churchwoman

I would; I think I would.   Nothing ventured nothing gained.

Nothing in common

Likely there'd be other things in common.

Yare missing my premise 
                          Ya have nothing in common  How would you engage a woman on her religiosity

I wouldn’t. 
           You’re assuming their religion is their . . 
. . Abiding North Star

You’re assuming there’s nothing more to them.

No  Religion is a dealbreaker

Dealbreaker? You think so?

Yah 
     If theyre in church in sparklingwhite Idaho it is an animating force  They believe  Yadon

I wouldn’t address it.

How could ya not  Itd be a dishonest waste of time

Not really.

Not really  Wha planet ya livin on  Play it out  Avoiding it how would ya know theyre interested 

You know.

I don

Of course you do, the look in their eyes, their body language, how they look at yo . .
. . Your Honor she didnt say . but the look in her eyes . her body language . . how she looked at me said it all  It was consensual  I did not force myself on her sexually                                                                                                                              Weak man 
Christ! How did you get me before a judge?

Because yare lying to yourself  Youd be lying to her

How did I lie?

You don believe in God  
                       A churchwoman in Idaho does 

Idaho don mean  I da ho 

Alright, smart ass, how would you handle it?

I wouldnt go to churchwouldnt look for a woman there

But if you did?

I wouldnt

Play the game. 
                What if you did?

Id be straightforward

Straightforward. 
                  What’s straightforward in your book?

Awrightawright  Takin into account I would not accept an invitation to go  if I met a woman who caught my attention innarested me
                Id say . . gotta pen . ya might wanna write this down

Please. Something tells me I don’t want to write it down, probably much less remember it.

So whos not playin the game now
                                    he pushed a clipboard of paper pen over to his side of the café table on the coffeeshop patio 
      All set  Its memorable
 
Yada yadayada.

Id say 
         If you get on your knees for Jesus  will ya get on yer knees for me

Jesus Christ!

Exactly 
        Immediately knocked off two of the threeonly politics dangling  Although  Idaho  Id say I neatly succinctly qualified all three 


You wouldn’t say that.

Ya know I would 
                   But not going to church because I do not believe virtually eliminates any possibility
 
1600,  Saturday,  22  5. 21
1459,  SunnyDay,  23  5. 21

23.5.21

 

Georg lifted his pale blue inside oystershell blueishwhite eyes towards him 
                                                                              he could see their light fade 
I was gonna say.  Georg said

Yah


Yah




You were going to say 
                                      Ya gonna say

Georg pointed an index finger like the barrel of a revolver at his skull 
                                                                        It’s tucked away in there. Safe and sound.

Tucked it into your Rolodex 
                           as he motionedtwisted his wrist made a fluttering sound twisted againfluttered  twisting  fluttering 
        The Rolodex you havent either alphabetised or titled your thoughts 
                                                                             again twisting his wristmaking a fluttering sound 


It’s there. Eventually I’ll find it.

But not in time for this conversation 


Yes. Likely not in time for this conversation.

Or in other words 
                    Lost

Misplaced.

Semanticsshesh

1545,  Saturday,  22  5. 21
1411,  SunnyDay,  23  5. 21

 

he cant keep his name in his headkeeps checking his shoes
smells like he stepped in something 
                                        just another wannabe from a cherryred district in FloridaDaddys got bank
baby boy born with a silver spoon in his mouth that he thinks is a silver tongue slivered tongue 
                                                                                                     a speechifier
another annoying buffoon for the times 


admittedly his dislike was a matter of revulsion

he hopes DOJs case is of merit and they bring it soon 
                                                       wants the lummox out of the limelight
wants his shared roadshow in a deep roadside ditch

broke axle

broken necks

 

he couldnt wait for courtcouldnt wait for Gaetz to kavanaugh 
                                                                butthurt liars unable to brag

1500,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  5. 21
1030,  Sunnyday,  23  5. 21

 

               virtue 
                             virtuous  incestnot insect  incest   incestuous     funny how words make people uncomfortable 
                 he understood virtue before he knew there was a name for the feeling he had 
                                                                                                  anbecause it was between he an himself  it was incestuous
he turned brisklylooked behind him
                                         no  one   followed
making him thus more incestuous


Incestuous, by yourself? Please.

he cited The New American English Oxford  2nd definition 
                                                               excessively close  resistant to outside influence                        
Right on 
         Either yagot it or yadon  Yes yacan  yacan be incestuous alone
although he understood the argument that itd be nicer to be incestuous with someone elseOooh but beggars cant be choosers


John Adams 

fellow incest
               Public Virtue cannot exist in a Nation without private, and the public Virtue is the only Foundation of Republics. There must be a possitive Passion for the public good, the public interest, Honour, Power, and Glory, established in the Minds of the People, or there can be no Republican Government, nor any real Liberty. And this public Passion must be Superiour to all private Passions. 
                                                     writing his friend Mercy Otis Warren 

Really? Isn’t virtue passé?

Passé

Certainly you appreciate my question. 
                                         Isn’t it passé?
If it is then I believe were passé 
                                   Worthless 

Id kill for my mine or die for it

2339,  Saturday,  22  5. 21
Doors  Crawling King Snake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dV0buYqrRo4 

22.5.21

 

their conversation had been going well somewhat lucid   despite they were high

then atasudden his cohort sidekick wingman went off
blazed to the sky
took exception
               
Jesus man nothing to get worked up overpanties in a bunch

So you say! I don’t think so.

Oh  but you areyou definitely are 
                                    he had shared a simple matter frankly certainly not worth the exercisethe animation his cohort suddenly brought to itgot him rattled which made him laughencouraged him that made him anxious to dismiss or dissuade him of his daughters observation she remarkedwhich set them off on a tear of laughter Dad, I figured it wouldn’t bother to you, but I’ve been referring to, relating to family and my friends, that the pair of you are like Statler and Waldorf.
              they howled hed always been able to laugh at himself

Who? Statler and Waldorf? I don’t know who they are.

Ya raised in a barn
                    An imagine  yer bugged by what you donknow 

I’m not following you; it doesn't sound complimentary.

Wanna hit yer brakes Raised in a barn  does it sound complimentaryyare not an idiot Run the possibilities through yer skull  Raised in a barn

I don't like it. It doesn’t sound complimentary.

It isnt 

              Ya didnt watch The Muppets when we were kids

The Muppets? Yeah, of course, I remember Jim Henson performing on Ed Sullivan with the frog, Kermit.

Right on Ya watched on the West Coast in colour and I watched in the Midwest black an white Youll remember the Ed Sullivan gigs spun Henson onto television with his own show The Muppets

Yes.

The two old cantankerous farts in the balcony they heckled

Yeah.

Statler and Waldorf

Christ. Your girl thinks of us, talks of us to others as if we’re two old farts.

Actually one  You
                   I see makeup ahead of time before we go out  Gotta play the part yer foil  Im only here to emphasis and enhance your qualities 
                             he couldnt keep a straight facebusted a gut laughing 

Oh, you’re funny, you're so funny.

I am I crack myself up  Christ man gotta learn to laugh at yourselfya know Laugh an the world laughs with ya weep anya weep alone

his cohort started growling about something 
                                             but as he did he turned asidewiping his eyesyet chuckling and when they cleared he saw across the street from him Farmer’s Market in the public park while he entertained their conversation a vending truck pulled in Sugar Lips  Mini Donuts 
                                                    donuts never crossed his mind
What are you smiling about?

When ya smile nobody has a clue whayer thinking 
                                                      Besides cant letya in Its age appropriate an Im not sure yer appropriate enough 
                     donuts never crossed his mind 
reminded him of Elle
white sand beach
Gulf coast of Florida           

1440,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  5. 21
1124,  Saturday,  22  5. 21

 

when something stinks ya call it out
                                     ya call it out immediately so it doesnt build and stink to the high heavens
if it gets that bad 
                  better off to burn it to the ground sterilise cleanse it  for it is beyond correction  beyond fumigation

which is why he attained kneejerk reflexes  3+ on scale  not normal    rather supranormal

it went well with his assertiveness 
                                     he be a walkintalkin fashion statement
if he wasnt walkinreadin

 

it was at a pool party

it was expected to be a hot and blue afternoon

a small gathering

baited
        There’ll be some real lookers . . in bathing suits.

Barbecue

Yes. Got steaks, sausages, chicken, peppers, onion, corn . . and for you, my freakfriend, sweetbreads.

Sounds like a deal

You’ll be there?

You invited me

I did; good.

Good

Yes. Some people were interested if you were going to be there, I can tell them yes.


Who are these people

Aw come on, what’s life without surprises?

I donwanna surprise you 
                            Miserable if your soiree is blownup

You wouldn’t do that to me.

Not unprovoked

What’s to provoke you? It’s going to be wonderful; water, women, win . .
. . I don drink wine

You don’t, I know, I was running at the mouth . words beginning with w.

Wrong 
         Yare the last person Id expect to attempt clever

Ouch. I’m a friend. Thought you might pull your punch.

Nope 




a bright blue and yellow bikini afternoon

the water was refreshing

they didnt share the same opinion of lookers
                                               there was a looker she was intelligent which made her robustly more lookerish

they hit up religion politics sex BAM BAM  BAM Thankya maam
                                                                   she was refreshing


a little later this fellow walked up

he had his back to him

she was looking down into her drinkstirring it with her finger 
                                                                 it was an attractive habit he found it fetching she stirred her drink then put her finger in her mouth it was provocative  when she withdrew her finger her lips remained puckered 
           she pulled it off well

his antenna fixed him as he walked up from behind

he turned quickly
                   Not a good way to approach me  the change in his timbre startled her

I thought Gabby . .
. . Gabrielle

Gabrielle. Yes. I thought she might have said she saw me coming up . .
. . She didnt 
             We were discussing in depth

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to startle you.

You didnt


Nevertheless.

Nevertheless

We haven’t meet. I saw Gabb . Gabrielle earlier . . and wanted to have a word with her, however you’ve been dominating her time.

she had come up alongside him
                                 her arm briefly at his then remaining within his aura
he didnt look at her 
                     Have I been dominating you Gabrielle
No.
    she had quit stirring her drink

I havent been dominating her time Weve been talking Youll have to wait your turn


the fellow was sizing him up

he didnt size him
                   his antenna informed him  he was a divining rodhe picked up on offensive before offensive usually opened its mouth  it had a smell  anhe was quick to itquick to stifle it if he could if it thought to roll
he was alert  aware
                        it bothered him that offensiveness had grown more prevalent

he disliked the misconception of fight or flight

he only had fight


the fellow excused himself Perhaps we can talk later, Gabrielle.

Perhaps later. she replied


perhaps they did

 


before he left he got Gabrielles number

You’ll call? she asked

I will We have a lot to talk about

she reached out and taking his hand she squeezed it warmly I’m looking forward to it. Good night.

he squeezed her hand in return Me too 


he located his buddy thanked him for the invite the food and drink for the opportunity to meet Gabrielle wished him good night

Maybe again some other time?

Maybe

 

walking out of the patio up the sideyard he picked up on the fellow somewhere at his back watching him leave 

his antenna never failed
 
1751,  Saturday,  8  5. 21
1152,  Reggae Friday,  21  5. 21
Northbound  Coming or Going  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRjg9a6FEeg

21.5.21


they were in the midst of a bender 
                                   of course they were  and bending  while not responsible for the probability or reality or likelihood of what they spokeengendered begat he liked the notion of begetting he insisted they were nevertheless authentic  they were divining

Divining?

Damnright divining 
                   Gawds aint got nothing on us  matter of fact Im thinking they were probably sitting around stoned too It was cooler back then

Really? said a third of the four

Yah Its simple  the platypus  an Ive seen underwater photographs of some mightytrippy characters too 

 

he hypothesiseddivined an intelligent sperm a gamete hanging to the back of the fray behind waveswave after wave after waves brothers annihilated haplesshopeless haploids handed their asses then he lungeshe charms the pants off The Death Star ovum  because this particular gamete gots game gots a brain equaling ninety percent of its motile body mass

Ninety percent? number four speaks That’s ridiculous.

Your first words are supposed to be Mamma   Whereya been

That’s ridiculous.

Ninety percent hes a fuckin genius The Death Star is elated to absorb him

That’s ridiculous!

                       the other two are off in a stupor somewhere  too high now to form words in their mouths

My hypothesis Average human head weighs eleven poundsbrains three pounds Ya go onesixty just shy two percent of your body weight is your brain

That’s ridiculous! 


he had to be stuck in a loop 
                              Flamingos are pink 
That’s ridiculous!

Yare fucked up man Shuddup


That’s ridiculous!

 

time for radio silence


 

he knew that in ’85 Chinese researchers suggested that there might be an ovulation-inducing factor (thats OIF) in semen

Adams some cat appropriate Wheres Eve a Canadian researcher injected altered seminal fluid into a female llamas hindquarter to see if the molecule would survive and effect ovulation or be destroyed 
                                                                                         the mysterious elixir turned out to be a protein crucial to the development and survival of sensory neurons  a neural growth factor (thats NGF)

Adams wrote that NGF in male sperm not so hapless after all actually travels through the females bloodstream to her brain causing her hypothalamus and pituitary gland to release hormones required for pregnancy 
                                                                                                the precise mechanisms how the OIF-NGF acts on the hypothalamus and pituitary are still begging to be determined 


Its because ninety percent of sperm is brain

Gametes got soul baby

 

 

That’s ridiculous!

Good timing he thought but without merit   he was definitely stuck in a loop a genteel Tourette 


Gametes got soul

approaching 1700-ishness, Saturday,  8  5. 21
1400,  Thursday,  20  5. 21

20.5.21



white turquoise
                 at Native Spirit Lodge it was the descriptionthe association with the white buffalo that sold him

he had a deep abiding affection for buffalo since he was a boy

 

he traveled to Wisconsin Janesville when he read an account of the birth of a white male buffalo threw together some clothing toiletry tent sleeping bag and lit out drove crosscountry

threefifty down the road it occurred to him he might want to call into work regarding his absence

pulling over to refuel he used a pay telephone 
                                                Yahhello Abigail he said to the receptionist  Would you take a message please  Yahright Joe  Im here somethings come up  I suspect Ill be out a week anif Im longer Ill call    Yes  Thank you

he pictured Abigailnot Abby at the telephone she had a habit of trying to hold the receiver between a crept shoulder and her ear the phone always slipped offaway and down  she captured it if thats accurate in her scoopedneck pullover it got hungup in her freakingamazing cleavage

he stuck around to watch her rescue it anevery time he found himself jealous of the inanimate object 

finally on more than two handfuls of occasions he emphatically told her that every time she lost the phone he was tempted to save it 
                  save it from suffocation

Abigail smiledreplied You’re all talk, Joe.

next time it slipped he dipped into her neckline played a bit with the phone with his fingersbrushed its supple surroundings

she didnt protest 
                 which led to some extraordinary games and playtimes  turns out Abigail was as fond of natural hot springs as he 
              anas fond of unbridledbridled sex as he

unfortunately she was looking for a serious relationship

he was not

 

he fondled the white turquoise pieces they were tumbled smoothed polished

he found one that he turned several times in his hand it reminded him of a buffalo in repose head left rump lifted lying in his palm in that pose it seemed animated it reminded him of when he laid eyes on the white calf 
                                                                                                         he leaned against the stout fence before the pasture where the buffalo had been born  hed been there nearly an hour  the herd he read was nearly twohunred head  feed had been scattered prior to his arrival and they ate an milled about

he stopped a ranch hand and the young man mentionedpointing to the tree line above the pasture  Beyond the trees was where the cow birthed and she often takes the calf up there. If she has, there was no telling when she might return. She been secretive, but that might be expected, this is her first calf.

he thanked him

 

it felt like another hour passed 

Aah nuts 
          hed return tomorrow

he started for the main gate several hunred metres off but after sixtyseventy something gripped himchanged his mind made him doubleback 

he returned to where he had been standing 
                                             anthen remarkably  like a stage curtain parting  the herd before him separated wandered sauntered to opposite side

forty metres off laid a white lamb  a cow buffalo stood just directly behind it

all he could think was how odd it was that a lamb was inside the compound by itself


                                                                                                 how odd was he 
it was the white buffalo

what a fantastic reveal


after a halfhour it stood and nursed then it stood with its mother wandered around her kicked it heels fell stood up kicked its heels again rushed towards the fence where he was pulledup halted  pranced back to his mother 

he watched until nearly nightfall

the same hand approached him and said they were closing since hed been the only one there they let him stay on usually the ranch closed at six so not to disrupt the herd though he said he thought hed never seen them more at ease

he thanked the young man waved to the calf and its mother yelled Thank you his yell didnt disturb the animals

he left 
      possibly the most fulfilled he ever felt except for his wedding and attending the birth of his children

 


the white turquoise had a nice heft to it it felt right in his hand

slips of paper were in the tray with the stones

WHITE TURQUOISE 
                      White buffalo is a remembrance of times past yet still remembered. So also is white turquoise. 
“And now the purple dust of twilight time/Steals across the meadows of my heart/High up in the sky the little stars climb/Always reminding me that we’re apart.”

 

he spent another day at the ranch but only caught glimpses of the white buffalo his mother had taken him up to the tree line and behind the hill

he left the following morning

 

two days after his crosscountry return sitting in his covey his spiteful work station Ya gotta do whaya gotta do he read in the LA paper that the day before the world-famous three-week old white buffalo and his mother were killed struck by lightning during a savage rainstorm

he folded the paper and set it down on his keyboard

he grabbed his coffee cup left his cubicle went through the tall swinging door into the lobby past Abigail up the staircase to the kitchen via a switchback ad hoc balcony above the lobby

he made then poured himself some black coffee and wandered out onto the balcony  

he watched Abigail from above

she looked up waved to him

he waved back 

she pulled her hair back with one hand

he sipped his coffee and spent probably five minutes absentmindedly watching Abigail work answering phone calls transferring them entering notation into her computer  watched her juggle and press her breasts together she was pale was a redhead 
                  he hoped she wouldnt be struck by lightning

1452,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  19  5. 21
1012,  Thursday,  20  5. 21