28.9.20

 

early Sunday evening baths

he was the eldest

that was his responsibility that his four younger siblings didnt appreciate it

they might have argued they were terrestrial not aquatic but they didnt know the words

he ran the bathtub

the youngest were less filthy
                              he could bathe three of them in the same bathwaterthe first two at once the soap scum on the water for the third was evident had they looked for it but he kept the water agitated and they didnt see because of their teary eyestheir adamant loud protests 
                                             diversion was a wonderful tactic 
                                                                               particularly when they ignorantly provided it

his brother and he bathed separately in fresh water 
                                                       although in shallower tubs

he didnt shower until he went to junior high

he loved it

they had to showernaked showers after gym

Social Studies followed gym

he never made it there on time 
                                he had to serve afterschool detentions 
                                                                          no matter he did homework didnt matter to him if it was at school or at home

funny 
       that theythe school saw it as a punishment 

it became apparent to him their curriculumtheir idea of punishment was faulty 
                                                                                 HA
he thought a faulty faculty but didnt let it break his lips no tellin what they might have tried to appropriate try to come up with to break his spirit

children are meant to be broken not heard

when he had kidsthat was the enforced thinking he never met an unwed adult marriage children  when he had kids hed go to hell before hed shackle them with unmitigated horseshit

they better be smart

he wouldnt tolerate an idiot child

1644,  Sunday,  27  9. 20


No  no no   NO  Yadon live in a cavenot Platos cave How can ya possibly insist what yasee isnt what theyre doing

I listen to what they sa . . 
. . Stop  Stop listenin to their wordswha they say their words dont matter  

Wha matters is wha their doingtheir actions Watch them and actually see wha theyre doing 

Ya have eyes  yarent blind

 

Plato’s cave?

Yes  Platos cave

What does Plato have to do with your argument; your so very emphatic argument?

Platos cave Perceptions In the cave seeing isnt necessarily believingthe shadows are lies One captive escapes and outside truly sees sees the yellow sun an the blue skyhe wouldnt have words for colour  
                                                                                             Ill grant you media can be manipulated context skewed  but when threefour separate sources televise the same thing how can you not believe your eyes

I don’t know that those sources aren’t in cahoots, rolling the same footage, I don’t know that.

You think it’s a conspiracy Yadon recognise subtle differences in camera angles Some arent even subtletheyre shot from the other side of the location

I’m suspicious.

Youre suspicious  You believe your ears not your eyes

I don’t believe Plato’s cave.


Excuse me  Its an exercise  A thought experiment which shouldnt be beyond ya  The fire behind the captives can only throw shadows on the cave wall in front of them  They have no perspective  They cant look either left or right or turn around  They are blinkered  bridled 
                                        Frankly if you cant see the analogy the allegory yare lost hopeless   I cant even summons the emotion to pity you  

I’ve never heard of Plato’s cave. It can’t possibly exist. The fire would either melt it or consume it.

Wha Plato’s cave  Plato   P-l-a-t-o 

 

What’s Plato? 

What are you asking me

You’ve spelled it wrong.

Wrong

Yes.  It’s spelled they cleared their throat to establish their authority ridicule him P-l-a-y hypen D-o-h

 

he had no words
                   this is the mentality hes supposed to communicate debate with

maybe they hadnt had a liberal education  exercised pros and cons  weighed arguments  ate the pabulum fed them 

it would be a simpler life  do and think what youre told Sieg Heil!

1754,  Saturday,  26  9. 20
1410,  Sunday,  27  9. 20

John Fred and his Playboy Band  Judy in Disguise  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Biu95fyvmLI 

27.9.20

 

seven months to the day a day forever etched in his brain and eyes one moment etched  held in suspension that he could pluck out of thin air open it again and againunfold it like a supple origamifolded in flesh able to revisit it asif it was happening 
              how many days twohundedthirteen 
how many tears

how many damning words falling on deaf ears

how many prayers people said they were saying

how many drinks
                 how many people he would rather have died  some who deserved itshould die  other than her

he could hear her 
                 he could hear his wifehis sister his motherhis motherinlaw tell him that he didnt mean thatdidnt mean it truly and honestly  mean that someone else die

NO  SHADDUP 
                 I mean it                                                                                                     

they his loves  were dead

 

 

he truly and honestly meant he would have happily died in her stead

2014,  Saturday,  26  8. 20
1123,  Sunday,  27  9. 20



Whas wid the crazy tattoo man  Thought we had a conversation we werent into tats

embarrassed  We did.

We did  Whachanged

Anastasia.

Anastasia
                Not much of an answer

I mentioned was dating her.

You mentioned you seeing someone but you didnt tell me her namenot that you have to say Threefour months backyah

Yes. Just about four months; Anastasia was who I was seeing, am seeing. 

he pondered his response a heartbeat 
                                         Is this tat about her
he cringed

Youre cringing mancringing about a four month relationship thats had you toss something you had maintained wasnt possible  
         Though you didnt say Never

Anastasia . . is . . . compelling.

So compelling you crossed yourself

You wouldn’t understand.

A fuckin assumption  I havent known you to assume anything before


Don’t pick on . .  
. . Dont 
         Fill me in Im callin a spade a spade Weve known each other fourfive yearsneither of us is a pushover  Wha gives

What gives?

he didnt have to spin his Rolodex  
                                    Its evident sorry man  Pussys aplenty  It shes got you hoppingot you jumpin through hoops A tattoo when you havent ever had a good thing to say about one artful or not they turned you off  Now youre wearing a garish floral tattoo  I dont follow

tendrils vines leafy delicate ivy wisteria ran off the tattoo over his heart wound about his chest over his shoulders across his back growing downgrowing up crawling across his throat  

Theme tats cant be cheap 


I did only the one. he put his hand on his heart I did it to make her happy, she asked me to, damn near begged me to, she’s an artist. What’s over my heart is her work. 
                                                    The others, man, the other aspects have grown . . all by themselves.
Thats nuts

I’m telling you. 
                 By themselves.

he was incredulous Over how long

A week, a week, they’re like weeds. 
                                       I wake every morning and they’ve grown more, like a mind of their ow . . 
. . You talk with Anastasiatalk to her

She’s, ah . . she’s . had to go out of town, family, family emergency.

his turn to cringe 
                 Before or after

What do you mean?
Before your tattoos began growing  or after

Jesus. 
       Just before.

Is she talking to you

No.

Wheres she fromgrow up here

No. Russian, Russia.

Rural Russia

What do you mean?

Cosmopolitan  Moscow Saint Petersburg City city or rural

She said a small town.

A small town  Shes not talking to younot communicating

It’s a family emergency.

Exceeding your emergency

My emergen . . 
. . The freak thingthe spiderwebs growing all over your body


he pursed his lipsrubbed the two week stumble on his chin  
                                                                   mumbled Freak thing? 
Tattoos dont grow man

 

he was deadwas consumed three weeks later a profusion of vines and oddflowers laid in his bed in the depressionthe outline of his body like murder victims a chalk outline a vague silhouette
                                                                                 a vegetal caricature
he saw  he wasnt answering his telephone calls 
                                                    he broke into his place
cops tried to hang breaking and entering on him

Yah B & E I called from his place 
                                   Cocksuckers

 

very early morning,  Reggae Friday,  25  9. 20
1709,  Saturday,  26  9. 20

Edison Lighthouse  Love Grows Where My Rosemary Goes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAfc5xnjb5U

26.9.20

 

You’re a different cut.

Cut

Like meat.

Careful girl yare dabblin in my realm 
                                          Talk to me

Alright. absently she wiggled her nose like Samantha from the sitcom Bewitched I can’t figure if you’re offputting. deliberately . . or if you’re just stand-offish.

Yare curious he smiled bemused somewhat wickedly

tilting her head she picked up on the wickedness 
                                                     he watched her eyes brighten  What Big Eyes you have.  The better to see you with   What Big Teeth you have.  The better to eat you with 
                                                                              Curious? How so?

Stand-offish

Stand-offish?

A curious pronouncement Youll recall we first met on the Minnesota River  fishing

a smile like lightning flashedjaggedly across her face  what pretence to innocence slapped silly  sexuality awakened and rising
            I remember. 

Ill never forget 
                eighteen years oldone year a bride  Brian eight years older  Dated him at sixteen

Brian always comes on strong.

he casually rubbed his left eyebrowwhat was left of it  Brian split it  Brian only had a right  but he had a bonehead and absorbed the punishment until he knocked Brian out broke his jaw a few ribs battered his kidneys

he didnt appreciate people who came on strong

people will treat you the way you let them

fuck with a bull you get the horns

somehow it didnt fuck with their friendship

they understood

no unknowns  just known knowns

he didnt even remember what started it just that Brian saw red quicker than him  that was different their fathers must have been cut from the same cloth save his old man must have schooled him betterdeeper in boxing  
                                                                                                          if a fights inevitable get the first punch in  Lotsa one punch fights, boy.

he didnt go down


Brian believes thats his strong suit  being overbearing 

It is his strong suit.

 

I remember the river.

the bank was slick  there was an on-again off-again slight rain Susan wore really short-cropped cutoff blue jeans white top her blonde hair tumbled up on top her head and haphazardly clipped tendrils hung on her neckher face  she swept them aside with the heel of her hand  
                                                         if Huck Finn were a beautiful young woman 
                                                                                                         he couldnt take his eyes off her ass  rounded  appleshapped   the cups of her cheeks tantalising

she steppedshe slipped she was in the river it was quick  she wasnt much of a swimmer not with that ass

Brian was upriver

he stabbed the heel of his rod firmly into the moist ground and ran downstream ahead of her

she didnt letloose of her rod 
                               seemed to be the only thing she could think to hold tight

he leapt into the riverstomping his legs as he broke the water and purchased the unmolested mudbottom to midcalf

as she sweptpass him he hooked her around the waist with his right arm 
                                                                              her voyage was over 
Oh OhOooh! I have a fish on!

Stay with it
             he workedchurned his legs freewent downstream  carried her up onto the bank

 

she landed an elevenpound catfish

he watched

little tits

perky nipples

evident through her wetted blouse 
                                     but her ass  hed taken a handful of her shorts for grip and she hadnt time to yanked them down into place 
                                that ass 
                                          he wasnt sure he ever found ass that delectable before
he was a fan of her ass

 

 

he called Brian 
                 Im running behindtough day a sweaty mess Maybe we could make dinner for another day

No, man, I’m running late too. Tell you what, I’ll have Susan lay out a pair of shorts and a t-shirt for you, take a bath at the house; we’ll have dinner tonight. If I run later, an looks like a real possibility, you can make the barbecue, there’s beers.

I dont want to be cumbersome or trouble.

I’ll let Susan know. Give her a call before you head over, you’re tenfifteen minutes off; I’ll have her draw you a bath.

Thats definitely not necessary

Maybe not, but more than likely you’ll be barbecuing tonight. It’d be a nice seque into the evening for you; bathed, clean, refreshed, a beer, relaxed.

Awrightawright

Right! Don’t fucking argue with me. You know I don’t like that.

No  We dont 
                   they laughed loudlysimultaneously

 

Susan  Joe  Headin your way babe

Brian said. I’ll draw your bath.

Susan that’s not necessary  I can shower

We don’t have a shower; I suppose you wouldn’t have known. I’ll begin it in ten minutes, sound right to you, you can hop right in.

Okay  Okay   Brians rubbing off on ya

That’s the nicest thing you could have said, come on strong. Thank you.

Youre welcome knucklehead

 

A bubble bath

Yes. Scented lavender; you said you liked lavender. Real men take bubble baths.

Real men take bubble baths  whaaline  really gonna jam that down my throat

I am. 
      she shook all the chinks out of her armour

I wont resis . . 
. . That’s the smartest thing you’ve likely said today. Don’t resist me

those fuckin cutoff shorts 
                          I swear I wont resist you  Im putty in your hands

Good boy. You do what Mommie says.
                                         suddenly felt like they were crossing some kind of line
he ran with it
               Yes Mommie

That’s a good boy.

 

she went downstairs

the bath was exposed in the master bedroomtheir bedroom

he stripped and slippedgratefully into the soapyfoamy water

he took a breath and slide underwater and stayed until he ran out of breath

surfacing Aaah  Damn

from downstairs he heard called up the narrow staircase Everything alright?

Yes

Good.

he leaned backclosed his eyes let the bubbles workabsorb his long brutal day

he was thinking of a nice cold beer afterwards

Beer?

he opened his eyes

Susan held a bottle of beer out to him

Maybe after my bath

Have it with your bath.

My hands will be too busy

Take it. 
          You said you wouldnt argue with me.

Take it

Yes. Take it please.

he took it


she bathed him

she masturbated him

he stoodstepped out of the bathpicked her up and took her to the bed

he peeled those sweet cutoffs off her bottom as she yanked her top off and went after her ass in ways he hadnt imagined before  


she was tasty inside and out

0139,  Reggae Friday,  25  9. 20
1448,  Saturday,  26  9. 20

 

the windows to his 4Runner were cracked

he heard someone outside

Hey, Joe . . Joe . hey Joe . .

Dont stop now

Huh?

Hey Joe  Hendrix

I dont know what youre talking about.

Kids 
      Wha is it

Let me in.

Why do you want in

I have to know for myself.

Ask Maybe I can facilitate your ques . . 
. . My question doesn’t want to be facilitated. I prefer to know, to learn myself.

Yes you do 
             Good thing your cute

Stop. You’re a sucker for Chapanese 
                                       part of her cuteness she was Chinese Japanese descent that and her perky titslong nipples she could take out an eye 
                                              he happened to walk in on her she hadnt locked the bathroom door

she didnt move

she was toweling her hair

if Aphrodite had armsif she was Asian

Excuse me he didnt avert his eyes youre roommate didnt say you were home I stopped to buy some hash 
                                                                                                              I owe ya a hit

she didnt move

she didnt blush

Maybe two 
               By the way  ya look marvelous   he closed the door behind him

 

Whadaya got a know for yourself

friends had thrown together a weekend at an oceanside campground he had a date late Saturday afternoonpossibly longer Friday night was open so whyknot 
                                             he wasnt going to bust out a tent for overnite
. . know for yourself

Yes.

Whadaya gotta know

What you said.

If I said it its true So you know

 

You owe me.

he knew where this was going he was going to string it out 
                                                                 Owe you

Yes. Don’t tell me you don’t remember.

Remind me

I can’t imagine I need to remind you.

Remind me

Milking this, aren’t you?

Yes 
     Remind me

 

You owe me.

An Im supposed to repay this debt how

By letting me in.

 

You may not be able to afford the price of admission

 

I may kill you, old man.

 

I dig negotiations like this 
                            he stretched out in his sleeping bag and unlocked the door
he slept naked

 


their lesbian friends who threw the ad hoc camp out were making a huge breakfast over the campfire 
                                                                                                           almost a dozen people showed

How can I help Teri

Cut up the melons. They’re in that blue Igloo ice chest. The metal bowl to put them in is in the chest too.

Ai came out of her tent she walked over towards them as they stood by the fire

She’s walking funny. said Teri Like a chaffed Chapenese. she eyeballed him I thought Valarie was loud.

I forgot my gag

Yup. Ai looks like she spent the night whoresback riding.

he blinked once twice Callin me a whore

Joe. If I weren’t queer or if you were a woman I’d fuck you inside out.

An you call me a whore  whore

 

Fuck. I love the life. 

0013 & 0022,  Thursday,  24  9. 20
1354,  Reggae Friday,  25  9. 20  

25.9.20

 

What are you doing?
                       he had walked up behind his brotherinlaw who stood in the middle of a parking lot  he didnt seem to recognise his approach despite his right foot that was badly broken as a boy and didnt heal right  it flopped
Whasit look like Im doin 
                           evidently he was aware

Standing there.  Could get your ass runover.

Id make a bundle

he cringed he knew his brotherinlaw was always willing to take a beating maybe its in their bloodthose born in Chicago  back East  school-of-hard-knocks hardheaded 
                                                            What are you doing?

Im watching the leaves fall Autumns coming  Californias seasons are subtle

Fire season?

Fire aint a season if Maw Nature divines it it should burn southern states floodlashed by hurricanes  tornadoes tearing up the alley

Alley?

Lemme think Texasno loss Oklahoma 1921 no lossKansas South Dakota   aahIowa  Think Nebraskayah  Annnn ann  thats itNo  believe Louisiana also 
                                          Be fun chasing those spinning skirts

Skirts?

Herricanes whorenadoes  Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned Or more succinctly Maw Nature scorned  We deserve every lash she wants to dispense 
                                             Do I hear an Amen
his brotherinlaw wasnt being rhetorical

he didnt say it to humour him
                                AMEN! despite his brotherinlaw being a funny guy told the best stories

THERE

What?

Ya missed it

Missed what?

he cleared the irritation from his throat The falling leaf

he wanted to say Where but that would bend himhed turn and say Ya stupid so he didnt ask Where 
                                                                                                            I missed it.

There havent been many I love they way they turn 
                                                       Kindalike a virgin youve made standing in the lighted doorway of her house at night turning lingering waving to you before she goes in  going in very different than when she came out earlier that evening

 

Wow. I really missed it.

Hmm

Hmm?

Yah Hmm

I never turned a virgin.

Ive turned threethe first was the best 
                                        She turned me too

he thought Fuckin guy. 
                        So. You about ready to leave?

Yes  Leave 

1130,  Reggae Friday,  18  9. 20
1144,  Reggae Friday,  25  9. 20

The Byrds  Turn! Turn! Turn!  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVOJla2vYx8